LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter One ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Prologue ** A man walked into a bar. It sounded like the beginning of a joke, but it wasn’t. Those who knew him well, or thought they did, would have been surprised to see him turn in at the narrow door, sparing a furtive glance in either direction before descending the steps from the street. It wasn’t his kind of place, it wasn’t in his kind of neighbourhood, and he was dressed entirely too well to be there. It was also on the other side of the globe from where at least three witnesses would swear to the death that he’d been all day. None of that mattered. He was here to meet someone. The place was dingy and cobwebbed and poorly lit, illuminated only by some guttering, evil-smelling candles and a single bare lightbulb flickering over the bar. The man nodded to the bartender, a cadaverous skeleton of a man with sunken cheeks listlessly flicking a grimy rag down the bar’s scarred wooden surface, and slid distastefully past the establishment’s only two patrons – hunched figures with averted faces, swilling flecked liquid from dirty glasses. As he approached the deeper shadows at the back of the bar, he could just make out the blurred outline of a third drinker at the far table. The shadowy figure raised his glass in greeting. The man pulled out a chair, studied the seat carefully for possible foreign objects, and – apparently satisfied – sat down gingerly. "The traps are full," he ventured at length – the end of his sentence rising slightly, like a question. The mysterious bar patron took another gulp from his drink. "The exterminator is on his way," he answered, setting down his glass. The words sounded practiced and bored, like an oft-repeated catechism. Formalities out of the way, both men relaxed slightly and leaned closer toward one another. "Have you seen the papers?" A pause. "I have." "Then you’ve read the article." "Probably." Another swig from the glass; a grimace as he held the alcohol on his tongue for a moment, then swallowed. "You’re talking about the Muggle-born. The … scientist." This last word carried a patina of disdain that was as thick as the film on the bar’s only window. The man in the designer coat nodded, his eyes flinty. "She goes too far," he said. "For years, she’s pushed the limits of accepted convention, flown in the face of all the standards our society holds dear. But this …" His face twisted into a contemptuous snarl. "This is something else entirely." "The new project?" "Is almost complete, according to our sources." Visible tightening of expensively-manicured fingers on the grotty surface of the table. "If she’s allowed to go through with it …" "Say no more." The second man finished his drink and signalled for another. "We’ve our own reasons," he said, "for halting her … research." He paused, as the apathetic bartender smacked a second glass indifferently onto the table; when he spoke again, after the bartender had moved away, his voice was even lower than before. "To what lengths?" he murmured, and his well-dressed companion’s lips flattened into a thin, vicious line. "Stop her," he said, the words cold and bitten-off and – maybe – just the smallest bit eager. "I don’t care how. Just stop her." "It’s as good as done." ** "Morning, honey." Hermione Weasley, née Hermione Granger, opened one eye and stretched lazily. "Morning," she said, her voice rough with sleepiness, and frowned slightly at the sight of her husband – already out of bed and belting himself into a robe. His thick red-gold hair was loose and tousled against the white terrycloth collar of his robe, giving him the look of a sleepy archangel. Mmm. "What are you doing up already?" she wanted to know. "It’s Saturday." Suspicion brought her head off the pillow in an abrupt jerk. "They don’t have you working another weekend, do they?" Bill shook his head. "Nope. Free as a bird till Monday morning." "Good." Her head hit the pillow again. "So, then – where are you going?" "Down to the kitchen to make breakfast," he said, tightening the tie on the robe and reaching down to stroke the miaowing caracal at his feet. "Bagels okay with you? I’d try eggs, but the results I got last time weren’t pretty." "Mm. I remember." Do I ever. "Just fruit for me, thanks," Hermione said, and pushed herself up to a sitting position. "And coffee." She glanced at the clock on the nightstand. "Nine-thirty," she said, wonderingly, rubbing the sleep from her eyes. "By our standards, that’s positively decadent. I thought it was earlier." She yawned. "Why am I so tired?" "Beats me." Bill leaned over to plant a kiss on her forehead. "Couldn’t have anything to do with your late-night laboratory hours, could it?" She dropped her eyes. "They haven’t been that late." "Uh-huh." He grinned. "My wife, the World-Famous Scientist. Lucky for me that this house came with a greenhouse. If we hadn’t put in the mini-lab downstairs, I’d never see you ... I’d have to comfort myself with your numerous news clippings." "My heart bleeds," Hermione said dryly, rearranging the pillow behind her back and pretending not to notice that the bodice of her nightgown was gaping open in the meantime – or that his eyes had slid immediately to the shadow of her cleavage. Bill looked hurt, then ruined the effect by flashing her another wicked smile. "You’re a cruel woman." "It’s a caffeine deficiency," she said, shooting him a sly look. "Do something about that, and maybe then you can get yourself a good long … um, look." She wiggled her eyebrows at him. "Seeing as it’s the weekend and all." Bill brightened. "Hope springs eternal," he murmured, his gaze sweeping down her body to where her bare toes peeked out from under the sheet. "I’ll get right on that. Wouldn’t want you to fall asleep in the interim." Hermione laughed. Four years married, and as much a Romeo as ever, she thought. Everyone should be so lucky. "No danger of that, I don’t think." She yawned again, then started to throw one leg over the side of the bed. "Oh – I almost forgot. I left the computer on downstairs last night, to run that last batch of statistics. They’ll have printed out by now; I should go see what they came up with." "Ah-ah-ah. Don’t move," Bill directed, and blocked her exit from the bed hastily with his body. "I’ll get them. You stay right where you are; you can read in bed, if you must, but you’re not setting foot in that laboratory this morning until I’ve had my wicked way with you." Hermione rolled her eyes. "You know me too well." "Damn skippy." He blew her a kiss and sauntered out of the bedroom toward the stairs, whistling, Cleo at his heels. As always, the tune was unrecognisable. "Love you," Hermione said softly to the empty doorway, and – with a contented, Saturday-morning sigh – snagged another pillow from his side of the bed. She’d almost gotten it arranged to her liking when she heard the explosion. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Two ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ There was no funeral, not as such. Hermione wasn't sure what she'd expected. In the fourteen years she d spent in the wizarding world, she d never been close enough to anyone who d died to worry about what happened to the body. It made sense that the Christian tradition - that flower-swagged, oak-casketed sendoff they'd given her grandfather Granger at All Saints, for example: incense in choking clouds, a black-cassocked priest carving a cross in the air and muttering Ashes to ashes, the organist playing Bach s St. Anne organ prelude, at Gram's request, because Grandad had loved it so - wouldn t quite fit. And it was true, too, that she d never heard of a wizarding cemetery - maybe some of the old families had crypts, and maybe they didn t, but on the other hand even Harry, the beloved child of heroic martyrs, had never been shown the Potters graves. So wizards didn t bury their dead, at least not publicly. She could live with that. But she d expected something - a twenty-one-wand salute, maybe, or a blazing funeral pyre. A sober white-draped barge set down the Nile by moonlight. Incantations and eulogies, at the very least. Something. Something more than this. She didn't know what had become of the body. That didn't bother her as much as she would have thought; the charred, blackened collection of carbonized bits and pieces, oh-so-carefully assembled and presented for her identification at the British Consulate medical examiner s office, bore such little resemblance to the laughing man who'd winked over his shoulder at her on his way out of the bedroom earlier that morning, that at first sight of it she'd felt herself go blank and shut down. This isn't my husband. I don't know this man. Denial -- the cushion of ignorance between What Should Be and What Is, the psychic semicolon at the end of the clause. Knowing what she knew now, she wished that she'd been able to hold onto it. But there had been the tattered remains of his robe, carefully peeled from the mutilated body by some faceless EMT -- stained and soot-blackened, yes, but still white terrycloth under all the dirt and blood and viscera. And the other clues -- tiny, heartbreaking bits of incontrovertible evidence that made Hermione's hands shake, made her throat swell: the wreckage of the wristwatch she d given him last Christmas; one lock of silky Irish-setter-russet hair, still bright and mysteriously untouched. His wedding ring. "I'm sorry you have to do this," the young man with the public-school accent and the clipboard had said, apologetic. "There aren't any dental records ..." Of course not, Hermione thought, and had almost laughed with the terrible dark poetry of it all. Who needs orthodontia, after all, when you've got a magic wand? Ironic that she, the child of dentists, should have lived to mourn the pureblood wizard. She fingered her own wand, slim and cylindrical in the deep pocket of her robes, and felt a betraying clutch in her throat. The worst thing about magic was that it couldn't fix everything. Couldn't fix this. Hold on, she told herself fiercely, and gritted her teeth until her jaw ached. Not yet. Don t lose it yet. The techie -- or was he an intern? A rookie cop? Hermione couldn't tell -- shifted uneasily from foot to foot. "I don't mean to hurry you," he said uncertainly. "But if you could just give me a 'yes' or a 'no', so I can get the paperwork started ..." "Oh," Hermione said blankly, and took a last look down at the mutilated corpse on the gurney in front of her. "Yes," she said, turning away tight-voiced, teeth dug so hard into her lower lip that she tasted blood. Yes, it s him ..." and inside her head, felt her subconscious screaming at her: you re wrong, you re wrong, it can t be, you re wrong! Can t be him. Just can t be. It was almost a relief when the two Ministry wizards showed up, and said they needed to talk to her. ** The Muggle policemen had already been and gone by this time, a matched set of world-weary, overworked Interpol gendarmes with French-accented English who had arrived on the scene just after the Cairo police and the medical team, wrapped her shaking body in a woolen police blanket and hurried her away from the troops of news reporters stationed on the front lawn, shouting questions and hoping for scandal - if one of the region's extremist groups claimed the crime, it would probably make CNN, and after all business was business at the end of the day, Hermione thought bitterly; just because she was about to fall apart didn t mean the rest of the world felt her pain. They had shepherded her through the coroner s office and into a quiet room with a rickety table and some unmatched chairs (clearly never meant to see the Public s Eye - but still, quiet), and the younger of the two had brought her unsweetened tea in a chipped mug. What is your husband's work? the older policeman kept asking her. Did you know anyone who held a grudge against him? Who might have wished him harm? and gravely wrote down her answers in a tiny notebook as she shook her head: no, Bill had worked in a bank, as a collections officer. No, he d been well-liked. No - no one, no one who d ever met him (and here, her composure came hard-won), would ever, ever, have wished him any harm. How long have you been together? Six years - two dating, four married. And you have both lived in Cairo all that time? Yes. Ah. I see. "And you, madame," the policeman had continued politely. "What is your work? Does it have political significance?" Hermione shook her head. "No," she said dully. "I'm a medical researcher. I work in an office at the University of Cairo." An office, the older man said, and exchanged a quick speculative glance with the younger. He was already shuffling files. This office, perhaps? Hermione eyed the manila folder he pushed across the table toward her as if it was a striking snake. Why Her voice cracked. She dug her fingernails into her palms under the table. Why would you have a file on my office building? Another quick exchange of glances, hooded cop-eyes whose message Hermione read plain as day: we d rather be out there with the blood and guts, than in here with her. Earlier this morning, the younger of the two said finally, not looking at her. Another accident - very similar - thought there might be some correlation - would be very helpful Hermione wasn t listening. She d already torn open the folder. The other people who work here, she said, wildly. Pictures of ashes, one more terrible and desolate than the next. Pictures of smoke and rubble and broken glass. She thought of her office, her serene quiet office on the top floor with the window seat and the yellow walls and the honey-thick panels of afternoon sunshine, and wanted to scream. Areli Ben-Nadir - she s my boss. And Friedrich - he s been writing around the clock - and the archeaology team always comes in early. Her lips trembled. Was anyone anyone else ? No casualties. The building was empty. The older detective leaned over and shut the folder, tugged it out of Hermione s nerveless hands. Mrs. Weasley, he said. I m very sorry to have to ask you this question but do you know of anyone who might be trying to kill you? Hermione closed her eyes. No, she said. No, I ve no idea. But it was a lie. What she d been suspecting since the moment of the explosion was true. This - all of this - was all her fault. ** She d thought nothing could get worse than that. Then she d seen the body. And then there d been a commotion behind her, a wild rush of red hair and large knitted handbag - my son; let me see my son - and Hermione had turned to see Molly Weasley, white of face and terrible of eye, three paces ahead of Arthur. Hermione, she d said. My God. We thought it was both of you - the Ministry just told us; they got it wrong - oh, thank God - and that desperate embrace had almost been her undoing; she could handle her own grief, but not her mother-in-law s too. Bill, Molly said. Where s Bill? -and Hermione wanted to say, don t look, oh, don t look. But it was too late. Looking at that jumbled, charred heap of blood and bone had been hard enough through her own eyes. Seeing it through Molly s was almost more than she could bear. Hermione s hands had knotted at that first glimpse, had tensed and fisted and flown to her mouth - but Molly s opened like starfish, and went straight to her abdomen. It was an unspoken scream: my baby, my baby, as if the bloodied corpse, the grown man, had never existed as if, more than thirty years after he d walked and talked and taken his first broomstick ride, she still felt his death inside her body, there in the dark secret place where he d first taken root and grown. The worst four words in the English language: my child is dead . Hermione looked away, aching and helpless, and found her eyes caught in Arthur Weasley s. Pale and disheveled, he looked - for such a tall man - oddly stooped and insubstantial, and for the first time Hermione could see what she d failed to notice before: he s getting old. He had your eyes, she said, unable to keep the words from bubbling up and out, and nearly howled with the lance of pain that hit her at her unconscious use of the past tense. He had your eyes. He liked marmalade on his toast. And late mornings in bed. He loved me. I killed him. Her face crumpled, and she let Arthur Weasley hold her. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Three ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ The two Aurors from the African Ministry of Magic didn't look much different from the Interpol detectives; in fact, they were eerily similar, from their carefully nondescript Muggle plainclothes down to their world-weary expressions. Hermione wouldn't have known they were Aurors at all, had it not been for their conspicuous lack of concealed firearms and - subsequently - the wands in their wrist-sheaths, the ends of which were just barely visible to the trained eye, underneath their shirt sleeves. And then, too, there was their manner - overly casual and just a bit too brisk, like a diner confronted by too many forks at a restaurant who is secretly out of his depth, but not about to let anyone else know it. Hermione followed them into the same interview room she'd visited earlier with the Interpol detectives, sparing a last glance for the sad little tableau over her shoulder: a sobbing Molly, her head buried in Arthur's shoulder, allowing herself to be led away like a child. For Hermione, who'd never seen her mother-in-law look less than self-assured - no matter the stimulus or provocation at hand - the sight was profoundly unsettling, a sign that the universe was tilting off its patterned course. She sank into the chair that one of the Aurors held for her, hugged her arms reflexively, and tried to focus on not losing it again. It sort of helped that they weren't too friendly. Faced with one more kindly-meant offer of tea, Hermione might have buckled completely - whereas the vibe of cool suspicion that she was getting right now, from the Ministry team, raised her hackles just enough to distract her. The first bit of the interview followed in the tracks of the last: how long she and Bill had been married, when they'd purchased the villa, the order of the morning's events. What she'd seen from the bedroom window, in those terrible, interminable moments just after she'd heard the explosion. It wasn't as painful to tell the story over, Hermione realised; in fact, there was something almost comforting about repeating the sequence of events. With the repetition came welcome distance, and with distance, the call - more and more persuasive as time passed - to simply duck into it and disappear. She was fighting that urge. But it kept lurking at the edges of her subconscious, nagging gently at her: give up, give in, sleep, forget. Hermione shook her head to clear it and shifted in her chair, vaguely aware on some level of the fine tremors in her hands. "I can't do this right now," she said suddenly, almost without thinking, and the Aurors, one of them in mid-question, blinked at her. "Sorry?" "I can't do this right now," Hermione repeated. The awful, uncontrollable tears had given way to a feeling of disconnect that was almost worse; the synapses were firing, she could sense that, but something wasn't working, wasn't getting through. I need to go home. "My husband is dead," she said, hollowly, and fought her way to her feet. "My familiar is missing. My research - " "Ah, yes, your research." This, from the taller and thinner of the Aurors - ‘Bullwinkle', Hermione had mentally dubbed him earlier. His lip curled contemptuously over the final word. "And what would the nature of that be, pray tell?" She stared at him, taken aback by the tone of his voice - disapproval so immediate and strong that it bordered on hostility. The air in the little room was suddenly charged with tension. "It's no secret," she said uncertainly. "You've probably read about it in the paper, at one time or another. There've been a number of feature articles on my work, both in the wizarding and the Muggle papers." "Your recent work, you mean," Bullwinkle corrected, his voice cool and acerbic. "And quite impressive a catalogue it is, too. Migraine remedies. Topical anesthetics. ‘Organic bone grafts' ... whatever those are." He sniffed. "Not a word about your current project, though. I confess that I'm most curious to know what that entails." Hermione didn't like his tone. "Areli thought it'd be best if I kept that under wraps for now," she said stiffly. "And on the Muggle side of things, Eli Lilly felt the same. It's more purely experimental than the other things I've attempted -- after all, everything else thus far has just required a few modifications of a pre-existing remedy." Bullwinkle frowned. "Explain." She shrugged, and felt her tight shoulder muscles creak in protest. "Even the 'bone grafts,' as Lilly advertised them, are just thin elastic strips of an organic ligament simulator designed to adhere to the surface of the bone, with time-release microcapsules of Skele-Gro in gel form, imbedded in the weave ... it may beat their steel-plate technology, but it's hardly groundbreaking from a magical standpoint. But the new project is - "here, she checked herself - "that is, was - just that ... new. If we'd been allowed to see it to completion, it would have revolutionised certain aspects of Muggle medicine and mediwizardry alike." "The problem with revolutions is that people die in them," Bullwinkle observed sharply, and - to his credit - looked discomfited as Hermione's eyes began to well. "I'm sorry for your loss, Mrs. Weasley," he went on, a bit more gently. "It's just that I don't think you understand exactly how much trouble your work has gotten you into." "Trouble?" Hermione frowned. "But my research isn't anything controversial," she said tiredly. "If I was working on cloning, or genetic alteration, I'd understand ... but what I do doesn't challenge any moral conundrums. It doesn't hurt anyone." "It doesn't matter if it hurts anyone or not," put in the second Auror - this one shorter and squatter, with slightly protruding front teeth. (Try as she might, Hermione couldn't help but picture him in an aviator's helmet.) "Information doesn't have to be harmful to be dangerous; all it has to be is frightening, or unsettling." He rubbed his forehead absently, causing a glimpse of wand to surface as his sleeve rucked up. "Mrs. Weasley," he said. "What do you know about a group called the Knights of the Golden Wand?" ** Oh, this was getting ridiculous. Hermione, who had sunk reluctantly back into her chair during one of Bullwinkle's chillier bits of Bad Cop Commentary, shook her head wearily and stood up again. "The Knights of the Golden Wand," she said, and laughed. It was a cold sound, and an unlovely one, and it made her feel better - more in control of herself, less weepy. "You expect me to believe that they're in on this? That they destroyed my office building, bombed my house, and murdered my husband, all because of bone transplants?" "Mrs. Weasley - " "No." Hermione shook her head again and headed for the door. "No, that's just silly. Nobody would make that big a fuss over a surgical technique, especially one that can be duplicated in the wizarding world for much less bother and cost - Skele-Gro, as I recall, retails for about four Sickles per half-liter. Not worth the cost of the plastic explosive alone, let alone the manpower involved." She glared at them. "And besides, the Knights of the Golden Wand haven't been heard from since Harry Potter defeated Voldemort, twenty-two years ago. Don't you think I read?" Rocky's hand was on her shoulder. She brushed it off. "Now, if you don't mind," she finished, more quietly, "I'm going home to comfort my mother-in-law." A pause, as she fought to control her shaking lips. "And … and to find my c-cat." Bullwinkle's voice halted her with her hand on the doorknob. "The Knights of the Golden Wand," he said, "have already owled the Ministry of Magic to take responsibility for this morning's events. And have provided us with inside information about the crimes that only the perpetrators could have known." Hermione tasted bile in the back of her throat. Slowly, unsteadily, she let go of the door and turned to face him. "Indeed," she said. Deep in the lake of her grief, an ice-blue flower of rage found itself and began to coalesce. She didn't recognise her voice as her own. "And what, pray tell, have they proffered as justification for their actions?" When he didn't answer her right away, she took a threatening step toward him, feeling her heart thunder and rush a millimeter underneath her clammy skin. Odd, to be so hot and so cold at the same time. So angry. So helpless. "Why did they do it?" she demanded, her voice cracking. The room's only windowpane collapsed to the floor in a tinkle of broken glass, as if crushed by a careless hand. "Why?" A tense moment of silence, during which Hermione sagged - frustrated, embarrassed, and utterly spent - against the doorframe. The two Aurors exchanged clandestine glances, then looked away. "They've found out the subject of your research," Bullwinkle said. He sounded tired but resigned, and Hermione realised, in a sudden flash of insight, that she'd been wrong about him; he'd never been angry with her, at all. "And they're prepared to go to any lengths to stop it." He studied her for a long moment, his lantern jaw set and unflinching. "Someone's been telling your secrets," he said, "and it's nearly gotten you killed. Any guesses as to who it might be?" ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Four ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ It didn’t take long for everyone to know. In the wizarding world, word spread fast. And once they knew, the owls came – and kept coming, dozens upon dozens of them, from all over the globe, all with a variation on that age-old message: We’re so sorry. We loved him, too. "Do I need to answer them?" Hermione asked Arthur, and he shook his head. "Not necessary," he said. "They know you’re grieving. They won’t expect anything back." They both looked over at the dining-room table, now piled high with parchment envelopes. A few opened ones lay off to the side of the larger stack – Hermione had started to read them, but hadn’t had the will to continue. Nobody else seemed to want to open them, either; but for the muted swish of owl-wings at regular intervals, the soft click of beaks as the messengers paused for a post-delivery snack from the bowl of salted cashews Hermione had set out for them, the dining room was dark and empty, a shadowy mausoleum to the dead. The rest of the house was another matter. If their friends had sent written condolences – and apparently that was the custom, in the wizarding world – the family had shown up in person en masse: Charlie, still in his work clothes, arms shiny with burn scars; Percy and Penelope with their toddler and new baby; Ron and a very pregnant Madeline-the-Hufflepuff, their wedding rings still new and shiny; graduate-student Ginny with red-rimmed eyes and a short new haircut, gripping Harry’s hand hard. The twins, their perpetual smiles forced, their merry eyes bleak. The sadness was palpable, like another person at the table, a cold damp-eyed ghost sitting in Bill’s empty chair. Even so, the Weasleys hadn’t all been in the same place together since Ron’s wedding – and they’d never been people inclined to silence, Hermione thought. Wasn’t that one of the reasons she’d been so drawn to them? Their noisiness, their volatile emotions, their unbreakable, unshakable bond? Somehow it seemed right that the conversation should turn away from death to life – that Percy and Arthur should trade Ministry gossip, that Charlie and Ron and Harry should wrangle over the upcoming Quidditch season, that Fred and George should be down on their knees on the living-room floor playing noisy games with little Artie, that Penelope and Madeline should trade pregnancy horror stories and coo over baby pictures. Hermione, on her way into the kitchen for a glass of water, saw Molly and Ginny deep in mother-daughter conversation over dinner preparations and backed silently away again – there was that bond again, that easy conversation, the sense of grief made more bearable for being shared. Her own parents had offered to come, on the telephone last night, but Hermione had said ‘no’. "There’s not going to be a funeral, Mum," she said tiredly. "Wizards don’t have funerals. They immolated him this afternoon, just the immediate family, and we all said a few words and put something into the flames. I put something in for you and Dad, too – one of the neckties you gave him last Christmas, the blue one that he liked the best." A pause while her father came to the phone; her mother was weeping too hard to continue. "The ashes? Yes, I’ve got them," Hermione said, and wondered why that sick distant feeling wouldn’t leave her. "The Mediterrenean, I think. He loved the sea." She herself had wanted for a brief fervent moment to step into the flames herself, and might have made a motion to do so if it hadn’t been for Harry’s hand in hers, for Ron’s comforting touch at the small of her back. Just then she’d been in the middle of the Weasleys, at the innermost point of the inner circle, and had felt their love around her like a safe-harbor. To destroy herself would have been to betray that love … and so she had closed her eyes instead, and slid the rings from her cold left hand, and tossed them into the fire. And now, their absence made her feel so naked that she wished she hadn’t done it. ** She escaped up the stairs into the bedroom and closed the door, blocking out the sounds of conversation and argument and Artie’s high childish laughter. Someone – Ginny, probably; it was the sort of small thoughtful thing she’d think of – had gathered up all the visual evidence of Bill – his shoes, his shaving cream, the pile of his clothes in the hamper – and tucked it away somewhere where Hermione wouldn’t have to look at it. She’d changed the sheets, too; they smelled of laundry detergent, still, but not of memories. Cleo was curled up on the bed in a loose, sprawling ball. Hermione still remembered what she’d looked like as a kitten – all dusty-grey fluff and plaintive mew, a rumbling Marlene-Dietrich purr and a predilection for salmon paté. Now she was full-grown, sleek and dun-coloured and roughly the size of a half-grown Labrador retriever; Hermione had seen her leap on more than one occasion from the open second-floor window of the bedroom, eight feet out into thin air, and land safely, smugly in the nearby orange-tree. No doubt it was that same self-preservatory leap that had saved her from sharing the same fate as Bill … by the time Hermione had reached home yesterday, after her interview with the Aurors, Cleo had been waiting for her in the upstairs hall. She kicked off her shoes, grateful for the silence, and folded herself onto the bed, tucking her knees up under her chin and hugging her calves with locked-together hands. Her throat burned with suppressed tears. Up till now there’d been no respite – she’d tossed and turned all night, tortured with visions of fire and char behind her eyelids if she closed her eyes, and finally dragged herself out of bed an hour before sunrise, just for a moment to herself. Quiet house, quiet kitchen – and then, a knock at the door before she’d even put the water on for tea. It was Linchpin, Bill’s boss from Gringotts. Hermione didn’t know the goblin well, but they’d had her to dinner on a few occasions, and she and Bill had worked together for a long time. "Hullo," she said, and stood back to let her visitor come inside. "We regret your loss," Linchpin had said without preface, in that oddly formal tone the goblins took with most humans. "Your husband will be sorely missed at Gringotts." "Thank you," Hermione said weakly. "You’re very kind." An inclination of the severe little chin. "I offer my own personal condolences as well," she continued. "Bill Weasley was – honourable. I will miss him." She reached into the inside lapel pocket of her uniform jacket and drew out a leather folder and a small velvet bag. "His pension," Linchpin said, handing Hermione the passbook, and smiled faintly at Hermione’s surprise. "Whatever is said of goblins in the world of humans," she said, "we do not leave our widows alone and helpless." She held out the velvet bag. "The passbook is official," she continued briskly, "but this is not. The department chipped in." Wonderingly, Hermione drew the bag open and tipped the contents onto her palm: loose cut diamonds, a dozen or more, brilliantly cut and sparkling under the kitchen’s overhead light. Her jaw dropped. "I can’t accept—" she began, but Linchpin cut her off. "We thought of him that way, you see," she said, and to her shock, Hermione saw tears shimmering in the small close-set eyes. "Never a falsehood. Clear as sunlight. We were fortunate to know him." Loss recognises loss, Hermione thought, wet-eyed, regardless of species. And went down on her knees to embrace the weeping goblin. "Thank you," she murmured finally, drawing back, and Linchpin put her small clawed hands firmly on Hermione’s shoulders. "We will avenge him," she said softly. "No matter the time, the place. No matter the person. Find the parties responsible for this, and all of Gringotts – all of the goblin world – will rise up for vengeance. I swear it to you." We will avenge him. They were the most comforting words Hermione had heard yet. ** It was a week and a half before she saw the Aurors again. She’d kept thinking back to their first conversation, back to Bullwinkle’s incisive, devastating question, the one that had stopped her in her tracks: Someone’s been telling your secrets – any guesses who? Or why? A handful of people at the Consortium, another half-dozen at Lilly. Herself, and Bill. Hermione couldn’t speak for the American team, but the thought seemed slim – the Knights of the Golden Wand, even in their heyday, hadn’t had much of a purchase in the United States. Pure blood didn’t count for much in the Colonies, after all, be you wizard or Muggle. And the idea of any of her Consortium colleagues being her betrayer … that thought was too painful to contemplate. She’d shrugged. "Will they try again?" she’d asked. Rocky had cocked his head to the side. "That depends," he said. "If their goal was to halt your research and keep you from completing your project, they’ll probably be satisfied, unless you begin it again. If, on the other hand, what they want is to see you destroyed …" He lifted one shoulder. "Then they’ll try again. Hard to know for sure." Hermione had digested this in silence. "So I may still be in danger," she’d said finally. Bullwinkle nodded. "So it seems." "And that," she continued slowly, "puts everyone who’s close to me at risk, as well." Not exactly what you wanted to think about in the middle of the night, was it? It had been that realisation, carried with her throughout the immolation ceremony, throughout the next few family-crowded days of grieving, that had made her deny her parents’ offer of company, made her send the Weasleys away. Now it was just her in the house, her and Cleo, which was simultaneously worse and better – better, not to see his red hair or hazel eyes on someone else’s face every time she turned around, not to pretend composure to keep them from worrying; worse, to haunt the empty halls, sleep in the least-used guest room, hiding from the ghosts of their shared life, and wake up to the sound of her own screaming. Worse by far than the Priestess, this. At least then waking had been better than sleep. Now, she’d be hard-pressed to make the comparison. Something had to give, and she was afraid it was going to be her. "What do you think I should do?" she asked now, and got silence for an answer, eventually broken by Bullwinkle clearing his throat. "The Ministry," he said quietly, "suggests that you leave the country, at least temporarily, and that you maintain a certain distance from your family – if only for their, and your, protection." He met her eyes for a moment, holding her bleak gaze with his own. "You’ve made powerful friends, Mrs. Weasley. We’ve already heard from Albus Dumbledore. And from His Royal Highness, Farouk al-Hussein of Jordan. I believe you spent some time at his residence in Alexandria a few years ago?" Hermione nodded. "I knew his great-niece in school," she said. "She was one of my bridesmaids." "Ah, yes. The Princess Fatima." Bullwinkle shuffled some papers in the file he was holding. "Funny you should mention her. Have you spoken to her since your wedding?" "On and off," Hermione said, frowning – where was this headed? "I know she finished her degree in Amman and then went to medical school in the States. I don’t know where she’s living at the moment." "Ah." Bullwinkle sucked his teeth. "Al-Hussein," he said, "contacted our offices jointly with Professor Dumbledore a few days ago." He looked rueful. "If the Muggle police think they have trouble keeping secrets from the general populace, it’s a thousand times worse for us. In this case, though, it works to our mutual advantage." "Oh?" "Your school chum, Fatima bint-Hussein, is presently in Paris," Bullwinkle said, "running a free medical clinic for the French-Arabic community there, and living under an assumed name, to avoid notoriety in the press. Both her apartment block and the building which houses her facility are owned by her half-brother Khaled, who is a silent partner in her enterprise, and who has set up a corporation on her behalf. Some time and effort has gone into making sure that the identity of this corporation cannot be traced back to the royal family – being good Muslims, al-Hussein has explained to me, they wish to carry out their charity privately." He took a deep breath. "Because this … blind, of a sort, has already been established, both they and we feel this to be a good opportunity for you – to disappear off the radar of those who wish you harm, and also, if you wish, to continue your research in a place where it won’t be questioned." Hermione considered this for a moment. "Won’t I just be putting her in danger?" she asked finally, and Bullwinkle looked uncomfortable. "Theoretically," he said. "If we took no precautions, you’d be easily Located again, no matter where we moved you. That’s one of the matters that Professor Dumbledore wished to discuss with us. According to him – and I must say that I agree with this – there’s really only one way to make sure you – and your friend – are completely safe." Hermione had the feeling she understood, but she didn’t like it. "You want me to go into deep hiding," she said slowly, and Rocky nodded. "There’s not much left for you to do," he said, and looked so hopeful that she wanted, illogically, to cry. "Dumbledore’s even found you your Secret-Keeper." Dumbledore’s even found you your Secret-Keeper. There’s only one way to make sure you’re completely safe. Hermione closed her eyes. The Fidelius Charm. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Five ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ On a clear day, they could see Canada. Great-Uncle Nestor had chosen his plot of property well, Severus thought; if ever a man had wanted to remove himself from the human race, it had been his great-uncle, and if ever there’d been a place where that was possible, it was this one. A hundred and twenty acres of pristine virgin-forest mountaintop, it was warded all round its perimeter with Weather Charms that had been in place for the better part of the century and stocked with enough carnivorous wildlife to eat Kansas City like a canapé … meaning that no one – and by that, he meant no one – ever tried to breach the interior of his sanctum. Not hunters, not fishers, not even the brash young extreme-sports enthusiasts who haunted nearby Glacier National Park from November till May with their designer backpacks and space-age snow gear. And certainly not the locals. As far as he knew, the residents of the small town at the base of the mountain thought their peak to be uninhabited; after all, there wasn’t so much as an access road, or even a hiking trail, leading up to the top. And it wasn’t like Severus had broadcast his existence, either, in the three-and-a-bit years he and Sal had been living there. It was like Sal pointed out – why shop at the ma-‘n’-pa in poky little Brush Pine, when you had an Apparation license? Not like you’re planning to walk down the mountain, anyway, he’d said. Why settle for green bananas, when you can get them ripe right off the tree? Despite the inherent good sense in this argument, Severus had been cautious at first, only Apparating as far for their fortnightly groceries as the big supermarket in Helena that had the organic-produce section and the two aisles devoted to imported specialty foods. That way, at least – he told Sal – they could keep some decent tea in stock … innovative as the Yanks had proven to be about a hundred other things, he just couldn’t get behind Lipton tea bags. But then, inevitably, came the Frivolous Side Excursions, brought on by a seemingly innocent fireside fantasy one blustery snowbound afternoon in February: wouldn’t it be nice, Severus had said lazily, if he’d thought to pick up a box of cigars, before he left town? Mm, Sal had agreed, opening one eye. What’s stopping you, then? I hear Havana’s wonderful this time of year. That had been the first one – one moment snug in the flickering firelit cabin with its snow-silvered windows, the next gasping in the brutal humidity of a Havana street corner. The cigars were worth it, though, and the experience opened the door to a previously-unconsidered world of delicacy-inspired decadence: California oranges, red wine from French vineyards, Colombian coffee beans, Greek olives cured in oil, vanilla-sweet cannoli – creamy and melting in their crisp sugary tubes of pastry – brought back boxed and still warm from a side-street bakery in Little Italy. Books. From everywhere. It was a sweet life, made sweeter by his ability to – in the midst of chair-napping, or playing chess with Sal, or crunching out to refill the birdfeeders, or unpacking the Chinese takeout they’d called to San Francisco for – stop everything, look at his watch, and say to himself: ah, yes. It’d be the Hufflepuff fourth-years right about now. Yes, life was good – and he’d known it would be, that was the thing. Which was why he’d ignored all hints, gentle and otherwise, to leave a forwarding address when he left Hogwarts … and why he’d gone to such great lengths to renew the Unplottability on Great-Uncle Nestor’s cabin. Still, if Albus Dumbledore wanted to find you, he probably could. Which was why it didn’t come as such a great shock, to look up one afternoon from the delights of an open-air vegetable stand on the Baja Peninsula, and to see him standing there. ** "Hullo, Albus," he said guardedly, and got a mellow smile in return. "Severus. You’re well?" "Quite, thanks." Severus looked down at the tomato he’d just picked up, examined it mechanically for soft spots, and put it into his basket. "And you?" I’m not going back, he wanted to say. I’m not going back to teaching, ever again. And don’t you dare ask me; I’ve paid my dues to you. But he didn’t, and perhaps he hadn’t – can you ever repay someone, after all, for saving your life? Hard to say. "Well enough," Dumbledore said, "well enough." They stood looking at each other in the hot July sunshine, surrounded by the lazy hum of insects and the rich acidic smell of tomato vines. Severus, who had gotten into the habit of wearing Muggle clothes around the cabin, but nevertheless couldn’t wrap his brain around the idea of wearing them out in public (he’d had quite enough of that in Rome, thank you very much), compensated for the heat during his shopping expeditions South by changing into his lightest summer-weight robes – still black, naturally – and adding the precaution of a white clergyman’s collar. In addition to staving off Muggle curiosity about the rest of his clothing, this little dab of white at his throat had the side benefit of assuring him a sumptuous discount at Doña Elena’s produce stand; Severus had been most embarrassed last December, when he’d stopped in on a whim for some green chilies and had gotten home to find she’d slipped two jars of homemade strawberry preserves into his bag, along with a Christmas card addressed to el padre generoso, showing the Holy Family picked out in gilt against a blue flocked-velvet background. Amusing, this … especially in retrospect; Sal had insisted that he save the card, which was still taped to the freezer-compartment door of the cabin’s refrigerator, surrounded in magnetic poetry doodles. Now, however, Severus found his disguise merely awkward – especially since Dumbledore was tricked out for the occasion in beachcomber’s drag: Bermuda shorts and Birkenstocks, covered by a violently flowered Hawaiian shirt that reached nearly to his bony knees and hung open in front to reveal coy glimpses of a lily-white, gently concave chest, behind the snowy curtain of his beard. You look like Jerry Garcia’s grandfather, Severus thought, and heaved a mental sigh: leave it to Dumbledore, and that damned self-confidence of his, to pull off an outfit like that one. Mildly disheartening that it still bothered him, that the old Headmaster could still make him feel stuffy and pedantic by comparison, even when they’d barely said two words apiece. "Is everyone well?" he asked finally, to break the silence. "At Hogwarts?" Dumbledore looked grave. "At Hogwarts, yes," he said, after a bit of a pause. Severus felt one eyebrow shoot up; apparently, he thought with a touch of aspersion, merely seeing Albus in the flesh was enough to bring out his long-dormant Teacher Face. "And elsewhere?" he persisted. Albus shook his head. "I can’t imagine that you’d have heard," he said, idly rubbing a bit of tomato leaf between his thumb and forefinger, "and it’s sad news, no doubt about it. It’s the Weasleys, Severus." Severus frowned. "Arthur and Molly?"—and then, as Dumbledore shook his head, a bright hard stab of comprehension nearly made him drop his basket. "Hermione," he said, and just the sound of that long-silent name on his lips made a cold shiver tap-dance up his spine. "What’s happened? She’s not—" "Severus." Dumbledore passed a weary hand over his eyes, and suddenly the bright loud Muggle clothes looked strange on him, like a red rubber nose on a corpse. "Pay for your tomatoes," he said, "and let’s go. I need to talk to you and Sal together." ** "The Fidelius Charm?" Severus asked, incredulous. "Are you mad ?" They were at the butcher-block table in the cabin’s skylit kitchen, drinking Chianti from a straw bottle and eating chili so heavily spiced with cayenne that even the Perlucioed version of it was turning Sal pink around the edges. Dumbledore spooned a bit of his onto a saltine and chewed ruminatively, his eyes closed, before answering. "That," he said, "would probably be a matter of opinion. But in this instance? No, I don’t think I’m mad." He took a sip of his wine. "We’re not the most innovative group of people in the world, wizards aren’t," he said. "We only really change something when we have to, when it doesn’t work anymore." Another sip, a faraway look. "It’s always been true that the structure surrounding the Fidelius was flawed – ever since its inception, we’ve known it. But it was so difficult to master, and so rarely performed, that the problems weren’t readily apparent … until James and Lily." He sighed. "To the best of my knowledge, no one’s used it since – not for anything important, anyway." "Can you blame them?" Severus asked, and Dumbledore shook his head. "No – it was well and truly bungled, all right." He reached for another stack of saltines. "But apart from that individual situation, the Charm itself was flawed. Too much pressure on one person, mostly. That’s why I’ve changed it." Sal, who’d been staring moodily into his Perlucioed wineglass – he hadn’t said much, ever since they’d heard about the attack on Hermione in Cairo – looked up at that. "Changed it?" he said. "How?" Dumbledore looked a bit more cheerful. "It was Miss Granger’s situation in Alexandria last year that gave me the idea," he said. "I confess I hadn’t given Duathor bint-Hussein much thought in the past – she’s more historically interesting from a Potions standpoint, generally speaking, and that’s never been my subject – but it was deucedly clever, the way she used that Dividing Spell. And I thought, the other day … why not try that on something other than a book?" Severus, in the act of pouring himself some more Chianti, froze with the bottle tipped halfway to the glass. "Like a Charm?" he asked, and Dumbledore nodded happily. "Got it in one." Severus set the bottle down heavily. His mind was racing. "So that’s why you wanted to talk to both of us together," he said. "You want each of us to take on half of the Charm." He frowned. "But –" "Yes?" He shot a quick glance at Sal. "I thought the Fidelius Charm would only work on a Secret-Keeper with a living soul," he said. "Doesn’t that preclude spirits?" Dumbledore smiled. "It has in the past," he said. "But then—"and here, he glanced pointedly at the other side of the table, where Sal was swilling wine from a ghostly glass—"most ghosts don’t sit down to meals, either, and you seem to have gotten around that." "You can’t Perlucio a spell," Severus argued, and got a shrug for an answer. "No. But what that handy little charm demonstrates," Dumbledore said, "is that everything exists on both a corporeal and a spiritual level." He took another bite of chili and closed his eyes again as the bite of the peppers hit his tongue. "And that’s the fault line along which I intend to Divide the charm." "Fine," Severus said sharply, a little nettled by Dumbledore’s offhand manner. "But then, that begs the question – why us? Aren’t there plenty of ghosts at Hogwarts? Plenty of wizards? I’d think Arthur Weasley would be banging down the door to be Hermione’s Secret-Keeper, along with his wife and daughter and every one of his remaining sons. Not to mention every teacher at Hogwarts – we all liked Bill. Aren’t you travelling a bit far afield?" "Bill’s not the issue anymore," Dumbledore said with a warning in his voice, and Severus wondered, not for the first time, how he did it – how all that facile hail-fellow-well-met business could fade in a heartbeat to carefully-banked anger and a rush of power that slapped at you across the table, even as he drew it in again. "Hermione is. And you and she were … close, were you not?" Severus blew out a breath. "We were," he admitted. "Though I don’t see why that –" "Don’t you?" Dumbledore rubbed his eyes wearily. "That’s why the Potters chose Sirius, after all, even though I offered – he and James were so close they practically dreamed the same dreams." He shook his head. "That’s why I never understood why they switched … but never mind that now. The stronger the bond, the stronger the Charm, Severus. Like a million other things. And she loved both of you." "How is she?" Sal asked suddenly. Dumbledore shook his head. "Too quiet," he said. "Too thin. She’s at Hogwarts right now, until we can get the Fidelius in place, and she doesn’t have enough to do there. She’s not learned to grieve yet, and now to lose not only her husband but her freedom – to be denied even the support of her family, for fear of endangering them …" He shrugged. "Even for a quick student, it’s a hard lesson." "Can’t you keep her safe at Hogwarts?" Severus asked. "It worked for Potter, after all." "Harry needed an education," Dumbledore said. "He needed to know who he was. Hermione knows who she is – she doesn’t need shelter right now, so much as she needs a purpose." "A purpose," Severus repeated. "And what’s that, pray?" "In the short term? Altruistic work – she’ll be a doctor in her friend’s clinic – and the continuation of her research. After she’s got that sorted out …" "Yes?" Dumbledore shrugged. "You know her as well as, or better than, I do," he said. "Do you really think for a minute she’s not eventually going to track them down, and make them pay?" "Revenge?" Severus rolled his eyes. "Not a very Gryffindor sentiment, Albus." "We Gryffindors," Dumbledore said, "prefer to call it justice ." He took a pointed swig of his Chianti. "Are you in, then? Sal? Severus?" "I’m in," Sal said, and Severus, meeting the old ghost’s eyes across the table, grimaced and conceded defeat. "I’m in," he said. "But I still don’t like it." ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Six ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Being back at Hogwarts, Hermione found, was easier than staying on in Cairo. She'd had offers from everyone – you can't stay here by yourself, come home with us. For as long as you need to. No, really, we mean it. Her parents, the Weasleys, Farouk, Gram. Areli, even, shattered by the loss of the Consortium but outwardly, determinedly cheerful. Come with us. We mean it, truly we do. And Hermione had turned them all down, every last well-meaning one of them, and had packed a bag for Hogwarts instead. After all, it had been her home for the better part of six years. It was safe, too; it couldn't be blown up or burnt to the ground ... or even, for that matter, found on a map. And her years there with Harry and Ron had given her better knowledge than most of its secret cubbyholes, its hideaways and safe-havens. It didn't hurt, either, that in all the time she'd been a student there, Bill Weasley had been only a handsome stranger to her ... that it hadn't been their space in common. Oh, she could find him if she looked hard enough – an engraved name on the Head Boy plaque, some highly flattering graffiti etched surreptitiously into the wall of the Gryffindor girls' lavatory. But it wasn't like the house in Cairo, where every knickknack, every moment, every centimetre of space and millisecond of memory seemed devoted to and filled up with him, to the point that the place felt haunted. Better the ghosts you can see, Hermione had decided, than the ones you can't. It was the third week in July, and Hogwarts was virtually deserted. Even the professors had scattered to wherever it was they spent their summers, leaving behind of their number only two of the junior staffers Hermione didn't know. The first of these was a middle-aged witch with an unpronounceably Slavic surname and a brusque manner, who carried her Crystal Orb round with her wherever she went in what looked suspiciously like an pink vinyl bowling bag. Between her natural reticence, her thick accent, and Hermione's lessened-but-continued distaste for Divination – it may have come in handy once or twice, that she'd admit, but there was no need to get carried away, after all – she hadn't had the chance to speak at length with Madame Grnoblislavskaya, during the fortnight she’d been there. The second witch, Snape's Potions replacement, was more personable, perhaps, but no less formidable. Scarcely older than Hermione herself, she was tall and statuesque – stacked like a brick shithouse, Ron would have said – with flawless skin the colour of a good French roast and a musical hint of Creole in her speech. Hermione had first glimpsed her out on the lawns, striding barefoot back from the greenhouses with an armful of herbs, her coronet of dreadlocks bristling like a dangerous tiara and a naked blade with a wicked curve dangling from the waistband of her robes … and hadn't been able to suppress a low whistle. Nobody skips her class, I'll wager. Her name was Joséphine Dessources, her younger sister was a Muggle nurse in their native Haiti, and once she'd found out who Hermione was, she was more than eager to talk shop. "Euralie's clinic had a shipment of your bone-graft treatments sent over as a donation," she said now, sending a flat rock skimming out over the lake. The Great Hall was undergoing its yearly summer scrub, and as even Dumbledore seemed to be making himself scarce at the moment, they were having their luncheon outside, à deux. "She was raving about them at my last visit; it's not so often that she gets to play with the new toys, so she was excited about it. Someone came in with a compound fracture and part of their wrist sticking through their skin, and two weeks later it was as if it had never happened." She took a long pull from her glass of lemonade. "She was pretty smug about it, too -- 'see, who needs magic, when medical advancement brings us things like this?'" She smirked. "Hah. Little does she know." Hermione chuckled appreciatively and picked up her sandwich. It was her favourite from her days at Hogwarts -- sweet pickles and tuna, on pumpernickel, and the familiar schoolday taste of it made her feel younger, not as weary. "Glad they were helpful," she said. "Could she use some more of them? It'd be fairly easy to arrange." Joséphine snorted. "They can use whatever they can get," she said, her dark eyes resting ruefully for a moment on the sumptuous, half-finished wreckage of their picnic. "Haiti doesn't have much of anything going for it right now. The whole country's been somebody-or-another's petty-cash fund since my great-great-grandfather cut his first tooth. Before that, too, probably. About the only thing we're good at nowadays is protesting ... though I suppose even that's a step in the right direction; at least we know that something's wrong." Off Hermione's look, she flushed. "Sorry. Suppose that's the last thing you want to think about right now." "No, it's okay," Hermione said, and busied herself tearing off a crust of her sandwich for the ducks so she wouldn't have to look Joséphine in the eyes. "Comforting, really, though I guess that's an awful way to look at it. Means it's not just me ... and that's the way it feels, most days." She tossed the morsel of bread out into the water, feeling – as was usually the case, these days – on the verge of tears. "Do you know that feeling? Like the rest of the world is so ... so happy. Like it keeps moving on, as if it’s a bus I've missed." She swiped the back of her hand across her eyes. "I feel like I ought to be running after it trying to catch up, but I can't be arsed. Stupid, really. I feel so out of touch." She shrugged, suddenly ill at ease, and focussed on rolling a stray bit of pumpernickel into a ball between her thumb and forefinger. "Sorry to unload on you. Don't know where that came from." "Not a problem," Joséphine said, then grinned unexpectedly, after a moment’s awkward silence, and shot Hermione a mischievous look. "I don't need to remind you what my conversational alternative is ... I could be inside that stuffy castle right now, eating with a fork and listening to Madam Jambalaya-Whatsit natter on about her sodding tea leaves." She rolled her magnificent eyes. "Honestly." Hermione managed a watery smile. English might have been Joséphine’s second language – or third, or eighth, who knew? – but she’d certainly picked up the vernacular quickly. "Not a big fan of Divination, then? Professor McGonagall should approve of that." At McGonagall’s name, Joséphine shuddered and made a complicated hand gesture Hermione hadn’t seen before. Nevertheless, her meaning came through crystal-clear; she was warding off a curse, and only half-jokingly at that. "Her," she said, pretty face screwed up with distaste. "That'd be the only thing she approved of, then. A bloody Mistress of Postulants, that one." "Oh, she's not so bad," Hermione said. Joséphine gave her a dark look. "Oh, no?" She tossed her head, then pursed her generous mouth into such a dead-on imitation of McGonagall's thin lips that Hermione nearly got lemonade up her nose. "'Miss Dessources,'" she mimicked in a petulant, disapproving old-lady quaver, "’I do not know what you have been accustomed to ... previously, but here at Hogwarts we do not attend breakfast in our dressing-gowns!’ ‘Miss Dessources, are you aware that you are not wearing shoes?’ ‘Miss Dessources, please refer to the Hogwarts faculty manual for basic grounding in the proper way to wipe your arse.’" She rolled her eyes. "As if I’m three, and not toilet-trained yet. And not a day goes by that she doesn’t genuflect before the altar of the Almighty Snape, my Peerless Predecessor. The man must have been some sort of bloody god." She studied Hermione mournfully from behind her half-emptied lemonade. "Tell me the truth – I can handle it. She was Snape’s lab partner back at Stonehenge Poly-Tech, he fathered her love child in the Sixties, she’s still nursing a grand passion for him, and nothing I do is ever going to be good enough for her." She wrinkled her nose expressively. "I’m right, aren’t I?" Hermione choked on a crisp. "Hardly," she said, snorting, when she’d regained enough equanimity to speak. "They barely tolerated each other. The week before their houses played each other in Quidditch, they didn’t even speak. Professor Sprout used to have to sit between them at the Head Table so that the stewed tomatoes would make it from one end of the table to the other." "Heh." Joséphine’s lips quirked up appreciatively at this, then settled back into a becoming sneer. "Well, there must have been a certain level of professional respect there, at least. You’d think that he’d put the moon in a bottle on a nightly basis, the way she talks." Hermione, thinking of Professor Lupin’s Wolfsbane Potion, shrugged. "In a way, I suppose he did," she said absently. Joséphine frowned at her. "Did you know him well?" she inquired. "You’ve got a funny look on your face." Hermione shook her head. "Nobody knew him very well," she said. "Toward the end, I don’t think anybody ever really tried." You did. And look where it got you. Yes, well. I won’t make that mistake again. Brow furrowed thoughtfully over her forgotten crisps, she stared out over the lake … completely missing Joséphine’s speculative look and raised eyebrows. "The Squid’s going to sunburn if it stays out much longer," she said. "We should go tell it to submerge." "Bet he was good in bed." Still squinting out at the lake, Hermione hummed an absent assent. "Hm? Oh. Yes, actually." A moment too late, she shook herself and aimed an accusing look at her companion. "What did you say?" "Uh-uh. Too late to take it back now," Joséphine said, and rolled over to lie on her stomach. "I knew it! ’Nobody knew him very well,’ eh? Looks like someone put in some extra-credit." Half-amused, half-exasperated, Hermione closed her eyes. "It was a long time ago," she muttered. "A lot’s happened since then. I can’t think about that right now." "Nobody’s telling you you have to," the new Potions Mistress said. "Least of all me." Her crown of braids swung sideways. "Would you look at that," she said, pointing. "You had to say her name, didn’t you? You’ve summoned her. And Albus is back, too." Hermione glanced halfheartedly toward the castle’s front doors. "Well, they had to come back sometime," she pointed out. Joséphine narrowed her eyes. "And that’s not all," she said. "There’s a ghost – I think it’s a ghost, anyway; he’s all shiny. Hard to tell from here. And some tall drink of water in a black robe. We’ve got company, cherie. Any guesses as to who it is?" Even before she looked, Hermione knew. "Speak of the devil," she said, and mashed a hapless crisp to bits, viciously, with her thumb. "That’s the old Potions Master, and his attendant spirit. Snape and Slytherin … you never see one without the other, these days. I’m surprised to see them off their mountaintop." "That’s Snape?" Joséphine hiked herself up on her elbows to get a better look. "He looks repressed," she said, her dark eyes sly. "No wonder McGonagall liked him better than me. Wonder why he’s here?" Damn you, Albus, Hermione thought, and destroyed another crisp. Unless I’m dead wrong, Dumbledore’s just persuaded him to be my Secret-Keeper. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Seven ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Magic at Hogwarts, Hermione had found over the years, tended to be a casual thing. Oh, some spells were more complex than others – there was no denying that. But what she'd noticed most, as a first-year student of magic alighting for the first time from the enchanted rowboats, was a lack of formality in the art of spellcasting. From the reading she'd done beforehand – as much as possible from Diagon Alley, her textbooks and as much more supplemental reading as she could carry away, but also plenty from the Muggle bookstore down the street from her parents' office – she’d expected a more rarefied atmosphere, more sigils and runes and pentagrams, more chanting and candlelight and mystery. What a frightened little girl she'd been, that first day on the train ... nattering on about the ‘simple spells’ she'd tried at home, when in reality her wand had never been out of the box. She'd been more surprised than either Harry or Ron had been when that Oculus Reparo had really worked – was that really all there was to it? shouldn’t it have been harder than that? – and it had taken her almost the whole term before she got used to the everyday banality of most of it. Magic was supposed to be noble, after all, exalted ... not this casual, taken-for-granted mishmash of Dungbombs and Leg-Lockers and Fizzing Whizzbees. And even then, long after she'd finally figured it out – that in a place like this, even the extraordinary became, eventually, the mundane – she’d kept hoping in her most secret soul of souls, at the start of each successive term, that there really was more to it than this – that this would be the year when they'd finally stop beating round the bush and start the real magic. The ceremonial circles, the chalices, the libations and incantations and bacchanalia. Dark rooms and golden vessels. Altered planes of existence. It had never happened. She'd stopped expecting it to, eventually ... real life, after all, hadn't left much room for adolescent dreams of High Drama. Ironic, that: now that she’d given it up as a lost cause, she was finally getting the grand ritual she’d longed for. And she couldn’t have cared less. She would have gone back to Oculus Reparo in a heartbeat, if it would have meant a reversal of the past six weeks. Give me back my husband, she'd silently petitioned the ceiling, night after night in her darkened room, and I'll never pick up a wand again. I swear it. But Death didn't bargain with mortals, and so Bill was gone, truly and irrevocably, as if he’d plucked the wrong card off a Monopoly board – go to jail, go directly to jail, do not pass Go, do not collect $200. No higher court. No appeal – and how Hermione had looked for one, a loophole, a snag in the cosmos that could have sent him back to her … pacing the halls of the house they’d remodelled together, hands clutching and reclutching the lapels of his most-beloved chambray shirt, the one she’d found draped over the side of the hamper and couldn’t bear to launder because it still smelled like him. Halfway through the week that followed the immolation ceremony, just before the Weasleys’ departure from Cairo, she had even approached her father-in-law and asked, in a trembling voice pitched too low for Molly to overhear, about the possibility of borrowing a Time-Turner from the Ministry ... only to be completely undone by the mingled grief and understanding in his kind hazel eyes. "Oh, Hermione," he'd said. "If we could, don't you think we already would have? It's against every law we have, to use magic to meddle with the dead." His lips had trembled, but his gaze stayed steady. "And for the best, too. Some things are meant to be beyond us." He'd looked so beaten at this last that Hermione hadn't had the heart to argue with him ... she'd simply nodded and turned away, the better to ponder the mysteries of life in the wizarding world – and to wonder, not without a touch of bitterness, exactly what other Cardinal Rules Dumbledore had encouraged them to break as schoolchildren, in the interests of winning the war against Voldemort. Voldemort. Now there was a name no one had heard in awhile. In a way, Hermione wished she was still dealing with him; Dark Lord or no, he would still have been easier to fight -- easier to hate -- than this shadowy faceless conglomerate she didn't know, that could by virtue of its anonymity conceal itself anywhere, in anyone. Frightening to think that they had come so close, that they'd been in her office amid her things, that strange careless hands had swept Bill's framed picture off her desk, to make room for the plastic explosive ... and that try as she might, she still couldn't think of anyone she knew who would bear her so great a grudge. Maybe that was the point -- after all, it wouldn't be the first time, or the last, that ignorance and reluctance to change teamed up to coin another sad photo caption, to sell another paper. But that didn't make Hermione feel any better. She sighed now and turned back from her guest-room tower window to the bed, where the house-elf on laundry detail had laid out her robes for the ceremony. Even by wizarding standards, they were strange clothes ... a thin white chemise, adorned at the bodice with a double row of ornamental buttons and fastening up the front with a series of small cotton-cord loops, and a navy-blue open-in-front outer robe that fit her passably in every respect except one – the long loose sleeves which hung a half-metre past her fingertips and had, so far at least, resisted every Hemming Charm she'd thrown at them. Evidently they had some significance within the ritual, she decided finally, and let them be. Pulling the clothes over her head, she studied herself critically in the mirror and sighed. The unbuttoned, dishevelled I'm-wearing-his-clothes-today look was all very well for a quiet Saturday morning in the lab, but it wasn't exactly how she wanted to face Severus Snape for the first time in six years. In the ill-fitting robe, her complexion washed out by the dark blue colour and her arms all but swimming in excess fabric, she felt about as capable and self-possessed as a six-year-old clumping around in her mother's shoes … whereas he, she had no doubt, would be as cool and ascetic a presence as ever. He had been at Hogwarts for nearly a week, and Hermione had managed, for the most part, to avoid him. As large as the castle was, this had still taken some doing – more than once, she’d eaten in the kitchens, rather than risk sharing his table – and on one occasion, she’d seen him walk into the library in just barely enough time to slide her book off the table and slip behind some convenient shelves. "Why don’t you want to talk to him?" Sal had asked over the chessboard two nights ago, and Hermione had only shrugged. "I don’t really know," she said. "It’s not just him, if that’s any consolation. I’ve been avoiding most everybody I know. It helps me keep my head clear." She shrugged. "If you hadn’t come floating through my bedroom wall, I’d probably be avoiding you, too." An understanding nod, then a few moments’ silence while Sal studied the board. "Bishop to row five," he said finally, and then leaned back in his chair. "You sure your head needs to be clear just now?" Just the tone of his voice – gentle, absent of judgment – had tears starting to Hermione’s eyes. "Don’t start, Sal," she said wearily, and swiped at her eyes. "No, I’m not sure. Of anything. But seeing anyone who knew me then … knew him … makes me think about it. And it’s so much easier right now when I don’t have to." She stared at the chessboard, struggling to make out the pieces with blurred vision. "Pawn to bishop five," she said, and Sal’s bishop glared at her. "You know he’s letting you win, right?" it croaked, then submitted with elaborate patience as Hermione’s pawn took off its head. Hermione’s lip trembled again. "See?" she said. "Everyone’s so … nice. Unnaturally so. Do you know, even Peeves brought me flowers from the greenhouse the other day? Peeves!" Wordlessly, Sal dug in his pocket for a handkerchief and held it out, looking a little nonplussed when Hermione’s fingers slid right through it. "Sorry," he said. "It gets harder and harder for me to remember I’m a ghost." He pointed his wand at her dressing-table and floated a box of tissues over to her. "If it helps," he said, gaze tactfully averted as she blew her nose, "I don’t think Severus has ever sent a woman flowers in his life. And he’s probably not likely to start now." "No," she admitted. "But seeing him’s worse than seeing anyone else, regardless." "Why?" Hermione hesitated. "Because the thought of even talking to him feels … disloyal," she said finally. "That’s why." Sal raised an eyebrow. "You’ve had an owl from Draco," he pointed out mildly. "Did you feel the same way about that?" Hermione shook her head. "No. But that’s different." "How so?" Hermione knew exactly where the difference lay – in the pea-sized diamond solitaire on Gabrielle Delacour’s small capable hand. Hard to feel guilty about an owl from Draco when she and Bill had had dinner with them, just a year ago – Draco, the new CEO of St. Mungo’s, deep in talk of renovations and reform, and Gabrielle, her spot at Oxford assured, her cottage by the sea a fantasy no longer. Just about the only bone of contention between them had been the lack of a wedding date – she wants her picture on the cover of Forbes first, Draco had said dryly – and as long as that dinner had lasted, reminiscence and laughter long after the cognac was gone, after the dessert plates were empty, there hadn’t been so much as a buzz of leftover chemistry. As it should be, she’d thought at the time. Hard to explain that to Sal, though – that Draco was safe because she knew she didn’t want him, and that Snape was dangerous because she was afraid she still might … but more than that, even, because she would have chosen him first, all those years ago, if he’d given her the choice. Awful feeling, that, a sizzling acid burn of guilt over the evisceration of her grief, like being eaten from the inside. Helpless, a breath away from sobbing, she dug her teeth savagely into her lower lip and tipped over her king. "I’m sorry, Sal," she said tightly. "You’re being very kind, but I just can’t talk to you right now." After that encounter – a painful reminder of just exactly how close she was to the edge – she hadn’t left Gryffindor Tower. Now, she ran a brush mechanically through her hair, raised her wand to administer an Anti-Red charm to her eyes, and let it drop again … at this point, cosmetics were superfluous, and her hand was shaking too hard to continue anyway. She slid her feet into a pair of ballet flats and set her jaw. By this time tomorrow, she’d probably still want to avoid Severus Snape. And he’d be the only living wizard on the planet who’d know how to find her. Head high, teeth gritted, she headed for the door. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Eight ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ There was at least one reason why the use of the Fidelius hadn't been more widespread, during Voldemort's reign of terror, and it was this: to all but the spectacularly-powerful few, performing the charm successfully was as near to impossible as made no difference. The Potters had been very lucky, Severus thought, to have Albus Dumbledore so firmly in their corner. At the time it had been performed for them, the Fidelius had been so obscure and off-the-beaten-path that Voldemort might never have even considered it as an option, without Pettigrew's assistance. Leave it to Potter and Black, those perennial chuckleheads, to screw up such a sure thing ... and, in the process, to besmirch the reputation of a perfectly good incantation with their own stupidity. Shaking his head, Severus turned left into the library and proceeded straight back past the periodicals until he reached a series of three slightly smoke-blackened landscapes in chipped gilt frames. Their humble appearance didn't fool him like much of Hogwarts' artwork, they concealed a door, and this secret entrance in particular was topped off with an extra level of precaution: if he hadn't been already cleared for entrance, the paintings wouldn't have even been visible to him. The middle of the triptych depicted a gently rippling pond surrounded by trees; on the right, a brace of ducks flushed themselves wearily out of the painted bushes on his approach. The hunter in the painting on the left didn't even muster that much effort; he was eating a sandwich, his bow and arrows discarded in the grass behind him. His Weimeraner was asleep on its back at his feet, its smoky grey paws paddling absently in the air. Severus leaned a little closer and thought he heard it snore. "Tally-ho," he said, and got a reproachful look from the hunter in reply. "Can it wait?" he wanted to know. "I'm on my luncheon break, see." Severus made an impatient sound in his throat. "I'm rather in a hurry," he said. "Official business for the Headmaster." The hunter didn't move. "Only it's meatball today," he said, a note of obstinacy creeping into his tone as he proffered the half-eaten sandwich for Snape's inspection. "Usually it's ham and cheese, so it doesn't matter I can set it aside, see, and come back to it with naught amiss. But the Warming Charm only lasts so long ... and besides, the minute my back was turned, old Hastings here" here, he jerked his head toward the dozing Weimeraner "would be off with what's left, and no mistake. It's that fond he is of meatball." He took another defiant bite. "Look," Severus said exasperated, but determined to be reasonable. "You've been sitting around all morning with nothing to do you've got the easiest job in the castle. Probably no one asks to get into this room for a good six months at a stretch. Your whole day is a luncheon break." "'Tisn't either," the hunter retorted, stung. "The Portraiture Union says that luncheon starts at twelve-thirty and lasts forty-five minutes. I'm not obligated to resume my duties until one-fifteen, and that's not for another ten minutes." He glared at Severus. "I rather fancied a stroll up to the West Tower today," he said sulkily. "Pug Nelson and I often share a fag or two of a fine afternoon, before we go back to our shift." A self-righteous sniff. "It's our right, see." Severus, who hadn't been in what could truthfully be termed a good mood to begin with, had heard just about enough. "Bugger your rights," he snapped. "And the Portraiture Union. And while you're at it, bugger your meatball sandwich, too. I care bugger-all for your sodding precious luncheon break; I've already given you the password, which is the only part of this bloody insanity that is either my responsibility or, indeed, my problem." He bared his teeth at the startled hunter. "And if this door doesn't open within the next six seconds, I will make it my personal life's goal that your tranquil little duck pond here is taken down and put into storage" he paused for effect "and replaced with that Acromantula family portrait Hagrid commissioned for Aragog last Boxing Day." A tense silence followed. Then: "Well, if you're going to be nasty about it," the hunter said, sounding aggrieved. "Don't know why you feel you need to go around threatening people. Not like I ever did anything to you." Muttering under his breath, he carefully wrapped the remains of his sandwich in a napkin and stowed it in a metal lunch pail, then pulled himself creakily to his feet and reached behind him for his bow. Notching an arrow to the string, he pulled it taut and let it sail; obediently, the ducks fluttered out from behind the bushes, the arrow caught one of them in mid-flight, and the entire triptych of paintings slid up toward the ceiling, revealing an open doorway. The dog growled at Severus as he went through. He ignored it. ** Behind the door was one of Hogwarts' so-called spellcasting chambers, indistinguishable from an ordinary classroom only by the heightened level of security at its entrances and its lack of furniture or windows. Severus happened to know that the self-renewing wards that protected the castle and grounds were cast from this chamber, and that the Order of the Phoenix had held its wartime meetings here. And that back in the darkest days before Voldemort's fall, a certain few of the Aurors in Dumbledore's inner circle had held special Apparating privileges that allowed them to bring the wounded or hunted straight into this chamber, and then through the back passageway into the school infirmary. Like most of the other rooms in the castle, the floor and walls were stone. The walls were free of adornment there'd be no prying portrait-eyes to carry tales of what happened here to the rest of the school and to the naked eye, there was no hearth. This was in fact a fallacy; even as Severus swept the hem of his robes through the closing library door, Albus emerged from what appeared to be a solid wall and began to shake the soot from his beard. "Ah, Severus," he said cheerfully. "Early as usual. I didn't see you at breakfast." "I had a tray sent up," Severus said shortly, and sucked his teeth with temper. "I don't suppose," he went on, "that you had anything to do with the artwork in the castle becoming unionised?" "Ah, so you've met the Woodsman," Dumbledore said brightly. "Charming fellow, isn't he?" Oh, it was no use. "Charming," Severus agreed through his teeth. "Simply charming." The wall belched again, and two house-elves emerged into the room at opposite ends of a small wooden folding table. A moment later, a third elf followed them with an armful of glassware and parchment, and began to arrange the items he carried on the table. Severus glanced expectantly at the wall behind him. "Where are the others?" "Mr. Slytherin was just behind me," Dumbledore said. "He should be along at any moment. Hermione I haven't seen today; she wasn't at breakfast, either. I'm afraid she hasn't shown much of an appetite, as of late." She hasn't shown much of anything, as of late, Severus thought, least of all her face. Once just once he'd caught a glimpse of her, crossing the Entrance Hall a few mornings ago as he came up from his old suite of dungeon rooms ... but he hadn't even gotten the chance to greet her. Merely the sound of his feet on the steps and she'd jumped, skittish as a slapped kitten, and abruptly ducked around a corner. He hadn't even seen her face, and wouldn't have known it was her if it hadn't been for those unmistakable toffee-coloured curls. Given all that had transpired between them, he couldn't say he blamed her. Still, it was a shock to see her come through the library entrance now and hesitate on the threshold hollow-eyed, thinner than he'd remembered her, and hugging her torso with her arms inside the flowing sleeves of the ritual robes. Her wary stance struck him like a physical blow; the Hermione he'd remembered hadn't been particularly cautious of anything, least of all him, and now she looked hunched, diminished, and just a bit lost. "Hermione, my dear. There you are." That was Dumbledore his voice low and warm, his body language reassuring. "Come in, come in." Dutifully, she took a few steps toward the centre of the room. "Good morning, Professor." Her eyes flicked sideways to Snape's. "Severus." "Good morning," he returned, deliberately biting back the title that was second nature to him Miss Granger wasn't quite accurate, at this point, and Mrs. Weasley seemed unnecessarily cruel and had to drop his gaze before her terrible bleak stare. Any pleasantry he might, against his own nature, have felt inclined to proffer How have you been? Did you sleep well? Ready to disappear from the face of the earth? faded, unsaid, in the face of what he saw in those eyes. He'd expected the grief, he'd expected the wariness, and he could certainly understand the lack of resignation this wasn't a loss, after all, that she should be expected to immediately accept. But burning below all that was a conflagration of rage so hot, so thinly contained, that to look at it full-on was to feel a crushing hand at his throat. He knew that feeling well had wrestled with it in the middle of the night for more years than he cared to contemplate. But he'd never expected to see it in Hermione Granger ... in truth, had never thought her capable of it. Had never seen her confronted by anything that her prodigious intellect hadn't been able to wrap around, or explain away. She was coming apart at the seams. And he was about to help send her away from everything she loved, everyone who might be able to help her. Bloody hell, Albus. I hope you know what you're doing. He opened his mouth to say something what, he wasn't quite sure yet but she beat him to it. "Here's Sal," she said, her voice flat and emotionless, her head turned to watch the old ghost approach through the solid wall. "That's all of us. Let's get this over with." Wordless, grim, unsmiling, they took their places in front of the table. ** The Division of the spell was, as it turned out, the easier part of the charm. Arms tucked inside the sleeves of her robes, Hermione watched Dumbledore load his quill with the prepared Encryptoink, watched the by-now-familiar address appear on the blank parchment in his elaborate, curlicued handwriting: 48 Rue des Arènes. For the sake of Itmana's safety, she'd requested to live in a separate building, in a different arrondissement, and Dumbledore had obliged: Itmana's apartment and the clinic, according to what he'd told her, were situated on the northernmost edge of Paris, in the crumbling lower-class neighbourhood of Goutte d'Or where a majority of the city's Northern African immigrants lived and worked. Hermione suspected that he'd taken some time and trouble in securing her own digs a tony Left Bank address snuggled on a quiet side street in the Latin Quartier, in between a photography museum and one of the city's two surviving Roman ruins, a 15,000-seat amphitheatre-turned-public-park called the Arθnes de Lutθce. Paris' only major mosque was a mere block away, as were the Institut de Monde Arabe and the Jardins des Plantes ... he'd gone to some effort so that she'd feel at home there, she knew, and knew also that she ought to feel grateful. She didn't. Not grateful in the slightest, just disillusioned and bereft and angry ... angry enough that she wanted to jostle his elbow as he peeled the words from the page into a petri dish, angry enough to knock the table over and stamp on the glassware until it splintered under her feet. Angry enough to pummel the tall dark wizard next to her with both fists and hurl hot bitter words in his carefully-blank face: this is all your fault. It's your fault I married him. Your fault he's dead. Your fault I didn't love him enough. She closed her eyes, bit down hard on her tongue. Irrational much? Don't blame Snape; he's only doing you a favour. Christ. She was going mad. "Divisio appari spiritum," Dumbledore was murmuring, and Hermione watched a tangle of ghostly letters and numbers separate themselves from their heavier, sludgier cousins in the dish and hover at eye-height in the still close air. This was Sal's cue, apparently he drifted forward and spoke a few words in a language Hermione couldn't place, his wand held aloft. The ghostly words aligned for a moment 48 Rue des Arθnes, again, shimmering in midair then crumpled and blurred, until they could no longer be read. Sal reached out with his wand to gather them together, and they adhered to his wand like filings to a magnet. A moment later, they'd vanished. "Reuni totalis," Dumbledore muttered, blue eyes gimlet, wand pointed at the inky muddle in the petri dish. The distorted letters stirred and twitched, but didn't realign. He nodded, apparently satisfied, and extended one long crook of a forefinger toward Hermione. Surprised, she stumbled forward. "Cloak off," he said quietly, and she obeyed numbly, fumbling with the hook at the neck and letting the navy-blue robe pool at her feet. The air in the chamber was stifling and too heavily perfumed with the incense sticks he'd lit beforehand, some giddy choking scent that made her head spin, made it a relief to be free of the heavy robe. Something magical in that stuff, all right, no bones about it but then, "Your arm," he was saying, his wand sprouting a fine sable brush-tip even as he grasped her wrist, and before she could realise what was happening, he'd dipped the brush into the sludgy ink in the dish and was painting on her bare forearm. It wasn't just the address he was painting no, it was more complicated than that, great loops and whorls of writing in a language she couldn't understand, something ancient and almost pictographic. His hands were liver-spotted with age but rock-steady, and as he went on, her brain began to flashbulb with glimpses of information colours and numbers and scenes, scraps of dialogue and baby pictures and little movie clips in which familiar faces ebbed and flowed: her parents, the Weasleys, Harry and Ron, Gram. Draco, Snape, Sal. Bill. Friends, family, lovers. He's painting me my life. The other arm now, and now she began to understand it wasn't just her location he was encrypting, but her history, too. Her connections, her beloveds, everything she held dear ... every joke she'd laughed at, every secret she'd ever wanted to keep. A half-page of parchment was in front of her face, unexpectedly "Read this," Snape said tersely, "out loud"—and Hermione, half-fainting by this time, began obediently to sound out the unfamiliar words. "Again," he whispered in her ear as she finished. "Over and over. Keep going." His arm was around her bare shoulders, he was holding her up, and she was too dizzy to hold onto her anger, at least for the moment. She started the series of words over again did they mean anything? And if so, what? and felt a frisson of something electric rush up from her fingertips. The runes on her arms seemed to buzz, and the sensation grew more intense as she read, great flashes and jolts of power clamping the painted-on ink to her skin, engraving it into her until her very blood and marrow seemed to run with it: this is me, this is who I am. And then they took the parchment away, and held up the blue robe for her so she could slip her arms back inside, and once it was on the heat seemed as if it would drain her away, so heavy was the fabric, so weak her spine. She was sweating hard, damp and sticky with it, the chemise a second skin by now but the ink wasn't running, curiously enough. She ran curious fingers over the skin of her arms, up inside the loose sleeves, and brought them away wet but unmarked. I've been branded. "Hold on to me now." Snape again, so close that his lips brushed her ear, voice so gentle she almost forgot to be sad. "Hold on," he said again, "and don't let go." His hands slid inside her sleeves, up up up over her sticky forearms to her elbows, his flesh damp and fused instantly to hers. She felt his hands grip her triceps, and swayed. "Tight," he reminded her. "Don't let go until I tell you." And then Dumbledore took a deep breath, and began to chant. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Nine ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ It was like nothing else on earth, Severus reflected. But if he'd had to make a comparison, the first thing that would have popped into his head would have been the Dark ritual in which he'd taken Voldemort's Mark. Of course, there were differences, both in circumstance and in content. That spell had been steeped in age-old evil, and this one wasn't ... Severus would have hesitated to call the Fidelius, or any other charm for that matter, a 'good' spell, but at the very least it was ambivalent - raw amoral magic depending, as most magic did, on the will of the spellcaster to grant it its purpose. No, it wasn't for that reason that he drew the parallel, but rather the similar sense of bond, of shared history transferred. Thirty-odd years ago they'd blindfolded him and tied him down so he couldn't struggle and held a hot wand to his arm - he could still hear his own scream, smell the stench of burning flesh as they traced the shape of the Mark into his forearm. And when they'd drawn it away, loosed his bonds, it was only to shove him to his knees in front of the Dark Lord, and bid him offer up his charred skin, his fresh mutilation, in homage. Voldemort had smiled - Christ, Severus could see that smile yet, a hungry livid thing with a terrible life of its own - and had drawn nearer. Chalk-white skin he'd had, even then, and he'd pushed up his own sleeve to reveal the parent Mark, clean and black where Snape's was red and angry. At the sight of it, a gasp went up from the encircled Death Eaters, a half-ecstatic, half-frightened sigh of excitement. "Nearer," Voldemort had hissed. "Nearer yet, my frightened little novice." That hungry flickering smile again. "It's well that you're afraid; anyone who tells you there's nothing to fear is lying to you. But in a moment, that too will pass. This -" he held Severus' wounded arm aloft like a trophy - "transforms you from one who fears, into one who is feared. Behold." And then he'd reached out and closed his open palm over the fresh wound, had thrown back his head and shrieked a series of unintelligible syllables into the night air ... and Severus had felt himself, for lack of a better word, invaded. This was like that. But where Voldemort's intrusion had been frightening and abrupt (to say the least; he'd retched for a quarter of an hour afterwards, right there in the middle of the circle, and hadn't even had the presence of mind to care that they were all laughing at him), this one seeped into him slowly, pausing politely to knock first. Dumbledore's voice was slow and sure, and Severus felt the skin of his palms buzz as the words of the incantation rose and fell, as the runes of the Fidelius began to work their way from Hermione's skin to his. It was an awakening, as if he'd stepped into her very soul and was having a rummage-about. There was the address, of course, perched in the forefront of his conscious thought like a bird on the nest, but also other things - seemingly extraneous things, pictures and names and moments frozen in time - and underlying even the most lighthearted of her memories, a hot red river of grief and weariness and frustrated, baffled anger. People who wish they could read minds, Severus thought, shaken by the instantaneous jolt of empathy that rushed through him, haven't really thought about what that would mean. And then: How Pettigrew could do this and then go through with the Potters' betrayal is utterly beyond me. It felt almost dishonest, stealing her history like this when he wasn't quite sure that she was getting reciprocal knowledge of him back in return. If anything, she seemed utterly unaware of the transfer taking place - steadied by the curl of his hands at the backs of her upper arms, she lolled in his grip, her eyes closed, looking for all the world like a prototypical swooning maiden. Severus knew better; he'd seen the hard-headed Granger resiliency at work too many times to underestimate her now, no matter how thin she'd grown, how deep the hollows of her lovely eyes. If anyone could pull this off, it was her. All the same, that awful sadness of hers tugged at the tattered remains of what he would have said were his nonexistent sympathies. He'd been that raw and broken, once, had felt that angry and afraid ... and had been given Hogwarts as an unassailable refuge, Albus Dumbledore as his unimpeachable ally. And look how he'd turned out. What's going to happen to her, if she has to do this alone? The incantation was finished. Dumbledore, swaying out of the half-trance he'd been in, shook himself and slid into a chair, looking slightly bewildered; apparently the Fidelius was hard-coded with a mild Memory Charm directed at whoever performed it - just one more reminder that it held at least one life in its thrall, and couldn't afford to leave loose ends. Hermione was beginning to stir, her heavy eyelids trying to flutter open, her breath coming faster and shallower. Severus didn't immediately relax his grip, however. Take care of yourself, Hermione, he thought grimly, and hoped she could hear him. I'm afraid I know how this is going to end, and I don't make much of a Sir Galahad. It's up to you to prove me wrong. She pulled away from him, and he let her go. ** She moved to Paris on a Wednesday morning. Sal and Snape had already left for their mountain hideaway, and Hermione was glad. The way Snape had looked at her after the Charm was cast - as if he knew all her secrets and wished he didn't - pretty much summed up the way she felt about the whole thing, too. Much as she hated the pitying glances from all the others, somehow it was worse coming from him ... probably because he was the one person who really knew how she was feeling. Insufferable, that. And insufferable that those hard strong hands had felt so good, as she hung boneless in their grip in the aftermath of the Fidelius. Come to think of it, the whole process had been less than unpleasant; if it had felt invasive, it was in the most apologetic of possible ways. I'm leaving you your life, it seemed to say. I'm just making you a backup copy. Don't worry. And that was the thing - she wasn't worried, not about that anyway. The thought that Snape might betray her had never occurred to her. He was trustworthy - no doubt about it. But that didn't mean she wanted him around. She'd intended to avoid his leave-taking of Hogwarts, but he came to find her in the empty classroom where she'd squirreled herself away. Just one of the fringe benefits of the Charm, she supposed, that he could find her if he wanted to, and that she'd know he was coming even before he came through the door. It should have annoyed her, but instead it made her feel secure - about to throw herself headlong into the unfamiliar, it was nice to know that some things, at least, she could predict. "Hullo," she said, and looked pointedly at the tiny suitcase he was turning over and over between his fingers, as if it was a worry stone. "Are you off, then?" He nodded. "Just after luncheon. I'm sorry to interrupt your work-" this was an uncharacteristically gracious, face-saving formality, as it was painfully apparent that she'd been sitting for the better part of the morning with her head in her hands-"but I rather suspected you'd be eating in your room today, and I wanted to give you this before I went." It was a silver cuff-style wristwatch, perfectly plain except for the face - a thumbnail-sized piece of tigereye, polished to a mirror shine. Hermione regarded it warily. "It's lovely," she said, but made no move to take it from him. Snape sighed. "The timepiece function is secondary," he said, as if that ought to explain everything, and looked annoyed when she continued to stare at him blankly. "It's a Portkey, keyed to my Montana cabin. The mountain's Unplottable - you'd never find the place otherwise. It's in case you need anything." He flipped the face of the watch open to reveal a case free of traditional clockworks and a plain metal button where they ought to be. It was strangely grooved. Curious despite herself, Hermione leaned over to look. "Odd," she said. "That almost looks like the impression of a-" "-thumbprint?" Snape nodded. "It is. It's yours. No one else can use it." Hermione goggled at him, torn between outrage and admiration. "And exactly how did you manage that?" "Winky," Snape said succinctly. "She took a wax impression while you were sleeping last night. Headmaster's request," he added as she opened her mouth in protest. "The last time he performed the Fidelius, people ended up dead. So he's being especially careful of you." Hermione sighed, resigned but unsurprised, and took the watch, careful not to touch the hidden Portkey as she clicked the case closed. "This is very kind of you," she said stiffly. "I hope I haven't made you feel beholden. You've done quite enough as it is." He shrugged, already halfway across the room and heading for the door. "It's no trouble. Keep yourself alive, and we'll call it even." A shrewd look back over his shoulder. "Oh, and Hermione?" "Yes?" "When you've found out who did it," he said softly, "don't go after them by yourself. Call us first." Stricken, throat blocked, she could only nod. And by that time, he'd already gone. ** Paris in July was hot and dusty and humid, which - considering that she'd spent the last seven years living in Cairo - made Hermione feel rather at home. It was also half-empty. That didn't surprise her either; the one other time she'd visited the city, during one of those Hogwarts summers with her parents, they'd come as part of a surprisingly cheap tourist package and quickly discovered why: during the hot summer months, all of Paris that was able packed up and went to the Riviera. Restaurants kept abbreviated hours, the smaller of the shops closed up outright, and the Champs-Elysées, during the rest of the year one of the world's most fashionable promenades, was all but deserted, abandoned to the straggling groups of disconsolate tourists, mainly American and Japanese, who'd just found out to their dismay that Coca-Cola went for four euros a bottle in every café in Paris and that it was never, never served with ice. Given the present circumstances, Hermione didn't mind. Suitcases Reduced and stowed in her only Paris-presentable handbag, a mid-sized Coach clutch she'd gotten for her birthday nearly ten years earlier, she kept walking north from the secluded little alcove in the Jardin des Plantes that she'd Apparated into, found the street sign for the Rue des Arènes, and resolutely turned left, dragging the yowling Cleo after her on a leash. "I know, I know," she muttered. "It's undignified. Only another minute, all right?" The building probably held about six flats. Hermione's was a garden apartment, spare and white and simply furnished, with a view of the street through the kitchen windows and a glorious panorama of green lawn opposite; the public park that housed the Arènes de Lutèce was literally a stone's throw from her back door. She dropped her handbag on the nightstand in the bedroom, knelt to free the hissing Cleo from her hated collar, and straightened up slowly. Such an unfamiliar place, so bare and quiet - Dumbledore had probably arranged to rent it furnished, to save her the trouble of Transfiguring everything. To Hermione, it looked like a room one might see in the better sort of residential hospital soothing, inobtrusive, vanilla and while its quietude spoke to her bruised soul on a certain level, at the same time she couldn't help but think longingly of the house in Cairo: cheerful, cluttered, bright. The bed, at least, was satisfactory - firm, without feeling like a hotel mattress. Hermione gave it an experimental bounce, then drew her feet up underneath her and hooked her arms around her knees. In this position, her forehead could just rest comfortably against her kneecaps; rolling up like this made her feel less vulnerable, better armored. Of course, this had its downside she'd found herself losing time this way, rocking away an hour or more, finally detangling to find that the afternoon had gone without her. Still, it seemed a safer alternative than facing the outside world again or, for that matter, the jumble of personal items in her suitcases. She tightened her grip on her knees - and would have fallen into that uneasy oblivion again, if it hadn't been for the muted sound of piano chords. Hermione's head came up, and she frowned - she knew that progression, didn't she? - and then, as a bass began to slap and a drumset to rattle with the delicate sound of brushes on a hi-hat - her feet hit the floor with an asymetrical rhythm that felt almost predestined. Yes. She'd know that sound anywhere. But that begged the question - where was ? Her answer came a moment later, rich and full-throated and mellow, and in surprisingly good French: "Quand il me prend dans ses bras, il me parle tout bas, je vois la vie en rose " There were tears in her eyes, but Hermione was smiling as she rounded the corner into the flat's parlor, the only room she hadn't yet seen, and saw that indeed she hadn't been hearing things - that amid all these pale eggshell walls there was at least one bright, unmistakable, larger-than-life mural. Thank you, Albus. "Maxie," she said, wiping her eyes. "Guys. What are you doing here?" ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Ten ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ "Hey, sugar," Maxie said. "Long time no see." She was as commanding and vibrant a presence as ever, her hair marcelled into a chic new Josephine Baker bob, her dress spangled with a swingy layer of fringe. Hermione sank weakly into one of the parlor chairs, noting as she did so that Ol’ No-Name’s string bass had seen some polish, and that Lester was sporting a new beret. "I can't believe it," she said. "I haven't seen you since ... since the wedding reception. How on earth did Dumbledore talk you into moving to Paris?" Maxie tossed her sleek head. "Wouldn't say he talked us into it, exactly," she said. "Can't anybody talk you into something you're determined to do in the first place. We came to keep you company, sugar." "Oh." Hermione frowned. "I'm glad," she said finally. "Really glad. But ... don't you think you'll get a bit bored here? That's why you didn't come along with us when we bought the house, if I remember correctly." "We didn't come with you then," Maxie corrected, "because you newlyweds needed your space. Had nothing to do with us being bored." She raised one eyebrow in an expressive, wry salute. "And there was no way in hell we were going to let you trundle off to Paris on your own, not after we got the news. Bad enough the poor girl's lost her man, I said to Dave, and they expect her to go traipsing off to the City of Lights with no more to keep her company than that ill-tempered wildebeest of a cat? Unbelievable." She shrugged. "Besides, I've always liked the accordion. And I needed some new shoes." Dave, the pianist, looked up from his newspaper. "We were sure sorry to hear about Bill," he said to Hermione, and directed a repressive glare at his lead singer. "And just as glad to find out you were all right. Don't mind Maxie – she talks too much." It was the longest speech she’d ever heard him make. "No, she doesn't," Hermione said, her eyes wet. "Not at all; you’ve no idea what a relief it is. No one's just come out and said it like that, almost since it happened." She managed a watery smile. "I'm so glad to see you. All of you." "Well, it's mutual, sugar," Maxie said, and reached out to clasp Hermione's cold hands briskly with both of hers. The contact was reassuring and motherly – Maxie didn't look that much older than she did, Hermione thought, but she certainly had the big-sister shtick down pat. "Now, you run out and get yourself something to eat – something fattening," she appended now, looking Hermione critically up and down. "You look like you could stand a crêpe or two ... or ten, if it came to it. And the boys and I have some rehearsing to do. It's going to take that mountain lion of yours an hour or so to stop being offended and come out from under the bed, anyway, so you'd might as well get out and have yourself a little stroll." Hermione felt like protesting – glad to see her or not, Maxie could be distressingly peremptory – but she knew when she'd been had. "Yes, ma'am," she said meekly, and headed for the door, not pausing even when Maxie shouted after her. "And put some lipstick on! You're in Paris!" ** And just like that, Hermione found herself out the door, at the corner of the Arènes de Lutèce and the Rue de St.-Hilaire, and staring blankly at the intersection in front of her, as if the decision to turn right or left was the hardest choice she'd ever make. To turn right would take her back the way she'd come, to the great botanical park of the Jardin des Plantes, whereas left would lead her onto the Rue St.-Germain, into the heart of the busy lively Latin Quartier itself, and eventually to the Seine. Not a particularly dangerous decision. But it seemed, at the moment anyway, impossible. She thought back to her summer in Rome – how she'd spurred Giulia’s little Vespa into one ill-considered turn after another just for the sheer joy of the ride, caring little for her eventual destination – and sighed. It shouldn't have been possible for a split-second's-worth of tragedy to turn that fearless adventurer she’d been as a girl into a woman trembling over the choice between right and left. But apparently that was Fate's joke of the month. It was the sight of a tiny bookstore on the corner that made her mind up for her. Lunch from a crêpe-stand, then, and a sunny afternoon with a book, back in that little tucked-away corner of the park that had so thoughtfully concealed her Apparation. And if she was retracing her steps, rather than going forward ... well, then, what of it? The St.-Germain could just wait. ** The bookstore was small and jumbled with books in no particular order and sandwiched in between a tiny brasserie on one side and a fruit-and-vegetable stand on the other. After some consideration, Hermione bought a softcover espionage novel – she’d read it already, in English, but reading it in French would be good for her language skills – and a small bag of clementines, stopped in at the café for a stuffed baguette and a bottle of Perrier, and headed for the parc, mildly amazed at her own accomplishment. It surprised her even more to reach the park entrance, at the corner of Cuvier and St.-Hilaire, and realise she didn't want to stop walking – despite the sticky warmth of the afternoon, the meandering tree-shaded path leading into the heart of the jardin was cooler than the street and fanned by a light breeze. Nice that this was so close to the apartment. Hermione awarded Dumbledore a couple of mental brownie points for Perspicacity in Real Estate, switched the shopping bag containing her picnic to the opposite hand, and kept going – past her little alcove, past a knot of pre-teenaged rollerbladers, past a couple of senior citizens sunning themselves serenely on a bench and throwing baguette crumbs to the birds, despite a posted notice asking them not to. Straight ahead of her was a scrubbed-stone building – seemingly too shiny and new, despite its nineteenth-century architecture, to belong with its surroundings – proclaiming itself to be the Grande Galerie de l'Evolution. Thanks, but no thanks, Hermione thought, with a glance at the queue of tourists by the main entrance, and kept walking – there were some older, dustier buildings a little further on, surrounded by magnificent flowerbeds, that didn't look nearly so crowded. "Museum Nationale d'Histoire Naturelle,"she read from a placard as she got a little closer, and saw from the fine print that she had her choice of four different disciplines – paleontology, mineralogy, entomology or paleobotany – each housed in its own building. Small wonder that the tourists were passing this one by; all the same, it was bound to be more interesting than puzzling through the French translation of a spy novel she'd already read in English – and besides, those hothouses behind the Botany building looked like a Potions-researcher's wet dream. Hadn't this whole park been originally devoted to the cultivation of medicinal herbs, back in the day? She was sure she'd read that somewhere. Well, lunch first, anyway. She found a likely patch of shade-dappled grass underneath an ancient chestnut tree and unwrapped her baguette jambon with a little sigh of pleasurable anticipation – the casual eat-it-standing-or-take-it-with-you Paris café food was one of the things she remembered most vividly from her first schoolgirl visit all those years ago. Hard to believe that just cold ham and buttered bread could taste so good. I should have gotten wine instead of fizzy water, she thought, biting off a crusty, chewy mouthful and closing her eyes in pleasure as the flavours married on her tongue. And then, the inevitable one-two sucker-punch – grief and guilt – that seemed to follow her every genuinely happy thought these days: Oh, Bill. I wish you were here. Lost in sudden melancholia, she didn't see the young man approaching her tree until he was right next to her. "Excusez-moi, madame," he said politely, and Hermione jumped. "What is it?" she snapped, startled and annoyed, speaking in English out of habit before she'd had a chance even to think of the French words – and was surprised to see his face clear. "You're English," he said with apparent pleasure. "I thought I knew you! I just can't think of why." His tone was mild, almost diffident, his face open and slightly bewildered. "I'm sorry if I'm wrong, miss," he said. "But haven't I met you somewhere before?" He was wearing gardening gloves, Hermione noticed, and khaki trousers with slightly sprung knees, as if he'd been kneeling in the dirt. And something about him did look familiar, though she couldn't quite put her finger on what exactly it was. As she didn't answer, but continued merely to stare at him, he flushed and gave her a funny one-shouldered shrug – a gesture she'd seen so many times during her school days that it had passed out of mere character recognition and into the realm of parody. Only one person she knew had that particular nervous tic; now that she’d tagged him, she thought, it was amazing that she hadn't seen him, right away, for who he was. Stammering, he got up to go, and she grabbed his hand. "Neville," she said, and grinned when his eyes shot back to hers. "Neville Longbottom. My goodness, you've changed ... no one's heard from you in years. You look terrific." He blushed again. "Thanks," he said. "And you're right, of course – I'm Neville, true enough." He frowned. "We must have met at school. Sorry – I'm hopeless with names, always was. I don't remember yours at all, much as I keep thinking I should." It must be the Fidelius, Hermione thought, and smiled at him again. "Don't beat yourself up," she said. "It's not you, it's me. You can trust me on this one." ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Eleven ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Harry Potter and he had at least one thing in common, Neville had noticed. While all the other boys in the second-year Gryffindor dormitory read comic books for fun, the two of them read photo albums instead. Maybe no one else noticed; Neville, maybe to make up for his general ineptitude elsewhere, often saw things other people overlooked. In any case, the battered little leather-bound book in Harry's nightstand drawer marked him as a kindred spirit – which was why when other people murmured about him behind his back for one reason or another, Neville generally kept his mouth shut. There were some things that even being a Quidditch star couldn't buy you back. Neville's album wasn't really his, it was Gran's. But she'd given it to him when he left for Hogwarts ... after all, he'd been through the whole thing, beginning to end, every night since he was two. He didn't remember his parents, not really. Not as they'd been ... before, anyway. How could he? He'd only been a baby. And though he'd dutifully made his regular visits to the stuffy little room in St. Mungo's – first with Gran and then, after she passed on, by himself – he secretly didn't think of the slack-jawed man and muttering woman in the hospital beds as his parents at all. His real parents were in the book: feeding each other wedding cake, sprawled contentedly on the sofa with their faces close together and their fingers entwined, tickling him – Infant-Neville, Longbottom Crown Prince – to make him laugh. He was their only child, so there were lots of baby pictures – not just special-occasion portraits, but ream upon ream of everyday snapshots. He liked to watch his mother doing mum-things: feeding him, changing his diaper, giving him a bath. Liked to watch her hands ... slender and graceful and soft-looking, with the big family heirloom diamond half-covered in pablum or suds. Sometimes, if he looked hard enough and long enough at those hands, he could almost remember how they'd felt. Almost. "What's wrong with them?" he'd asked Gran once – a long time ago, when he was still too small to know better, and had been frightened by the look that came over her. "What happened?" "Voldemort," she'd said grimly, her dark eyes flashing, her voice cracking but defiant over the forbidden name. "That's what happened. And don't you forget it, either. Don't you go falling in with the wrong sort, once you get to Hogwarts. You do your parents proud." Neville had nodded, timidly; he knew from experience that this tended to be the safest response to outbursts of this nature. "Will they ever get better?" he ventured presently, and Gran had laughed, a bitter thin sound that didn't suit her. "Not likely," she said. "Much as we can do these days, nobody's figured out how to regrow brain cells yet." She seemed to be talking to herself, more than to him. "Once the connection's cut, it's gone forever. And he knew it, too—" there was that bitter, scathing tone again—"he knew it'd be far worse to send them back useless, than to send them back dead. Bastard." Neville, by this time recognising all the warning signs of a full-on diatribe when he saw one, kept his mouth shut. But he didn't forget a single word she’d said. It was ironic that he'd been so hopeless at Potions, when it was the subject he'd been most excited about at the outset. That was his aunt's doing – pretty Aunt Lila, his mum's younger sister. He'd spent a summer with her, the year he was ten, in her tidy country-lane cottage with the big garden around back, and she'd taken him round and showed him her cuttings. "What's this one?" he'd asked, pointing to a scrawny little tree in an earthenware pot, and she'd obligingly come over to bend down beside him. "That's a ginkgo sapling," she said. "You can make a potion from this that will help improve your memory." "Really?" Neville, wondering, had traced one shiny leaf with his forefinger. "Would it help Mum and Dad, then?" Instantly, he knew he'd said something wrong. "Oh, sweetie." Sudden tears in the big grey eyes that were so like his mother's. "It’s so good of you to think of them. But I'm afraid they're a bit ... just a bit beyond that now." "Oh." Neville looked around him at the riot of colour, keeping his gaze down so he wouldn't have to see her fumble with a tissue. "Can anything help them? Ever?" "Not that we know of." Aunt Lila took a long time clearing her throat; when she went on, her voice was steadier. "But they discover new things every day," she said, her voice determinedly cheerful. "Keep your Herbology and Potions marks up at school next year, Neville, and you just might be the one who figures it out. If anybody can do it, you can." It was nice of her to say that. And he’d learned enough from the plants in her garden that he was ahead of everyone else in Herbology his first year – Herbology, his favourite class, that warm and alive-smelling hour in the steamy sunny greenhouses, potting soil and fine-ground bone meal familiar friends under his steady hands. No pressure to perform, out here; no schedule, no hurry. It paid to take your time, to be gentle and thorough. It feels like I’m a doctor, he’d said once to Professor Sprout, as they disentangled bound roots together after class, and her round wizened face had lit up in understanding; they were in accord, there. If only, Neville had thought despairingly, night after night – if only Professor Sprout taught Potions, too! But instead, there was Snape – Snape the sarcastic, the scathing, Snape the cruel. Snape, the boggart in the closet – the monster under the bed, the inevitable embodiment of Neville’s worst nightmares. And there was no use going over all that old history again, not when Neville’s chronic misadventures in the dungeons had ceased to be even a running joke and had passed into the dubious realm of Hogwarts folklore. Even with the best of intentions – the positive thinking, the meticulous preparation, the hours of nightly studying and extra practice with … with the smart girl, Harry’s friend, what was her name again? – even then, every passing hour of that class had been worse than the one before it, and Neville had slowly, surely come to this hopeless conclusion: he was never, never going to be able to cure his parents. I’m sorry, he’d whispered that night to the photo album, in the privacy of the hanging curtains. I’m sorry, Dad. Mum. So sorry. I just can’t do it. And they’d smiled back at him from the book as they always did, blind and unknowing … younger and prettier than the blank-eyed residents of Room 35’s twin hospital beds, maybe, but no more real, no more whole. After that, he stopped trying, mostly. It had come as a pleasant surprise to find that life wasn’t like school – that you could pick the one thing you liked to do and were good at, and form your whole life around it. His high score on the Herbology NEWT and a glowing recommendation from Professor Sprout had gotten him into a apprenticeship in the Florida Everglades. From there, he’d landed a spot in a prestigious journeyman’s programme in Fiji, working with underwater plants and helping to restore a pollution-damaged coral reef. He'd been recruited straight out of that programme to Paris, to head up the new Division of Tropical and Marine Plants in this, one of the finest botanical gardens in the world. And somewhere along the way, he had looked down at himself with a sort of vague surprise to find that months of daily snorkeling and tramping through thigh-deep swampland had trimmed his waistline and given him muscles where he hadn’t used to have any – oh, not big bodybuilder muscles like he saw on the lifeguards at the beach, but a kind of lean toughness that, combined with his gardener's tan and the thinned-down-but-still-angelic English-choirboy face he hadn’t yet managed to lose, added up to a total package he’d never thought to aspire to. He still felt like the old Neville underneath. Even now, with his bachelor flat in Montmartre and his dream job, even under the appreciative sidelong looks from the passing demoiselles who sauntered in giggling flirtatious packs through his gardens, part of him still expected Crabbe and Goyle to materialise out of nowhere and shake him down for pocket money, still expected Ginny Weasley to pretend not to see him coming across the dance floor toward her. Still heard Snape’s spittle-flecked whisper, harsh in his ear: idiotic – moronic – useless – a failure. It had taken almost all his courage to approach the girl under the chestnut tree. He probably wouldn’t have done it, familiar as she seemed, if it hadn’t been for the book; she had a novel propped open on her knees, expertly holding it steady and turning pages with one hand while the other fumbled with the cap of her water bottle, and something about her profile as she looked down at it made light bulbs go off in his brain: I know her – I know I do. I've seen her do that a million times if I've seen it once . She just stared at him for a minute or so after he spoke, though, and his resolve began to falter –close up like this, she looked less familiar. Less like a schoolgirl, more grown-up. He coloured under her steady look, shrugged and mumbled something suitably apologetic ... and then, to his surprise, saw her face light up with recognition and a very real pleasure as she said his name. Funny. The way she grabbed his hand, the things she said – we haven't heard from you in years; you look terrific – made it seem like they'd been not merely acquainted, but good friends. Why, then, couldn't he think of her name? He was embarrassed, but she shrugged it off and said something else that struck him funny – it's not you, it's me. Odd ... why would she think that? And then she told him who she was, and before he could grasp the knowledge it slid out of his memory again, like wet garden hose through slippery hands, and he found himself, to his own bewilderment, saying, "I'm sorry. I don't know anyone by that name." She looked baffled for a minute, and then somehow deflated, as if she'd just gotten bad news she'd been expecting for awhile. So that's how it works, then, she mused to herself, and turned back to him, her eyes just a little bit too bright. "It doesn't matter," she said, though it was clear that it did; he just didn’t know why. "We were friends, that's the important thing. You do remember that, right?" He nodded, mostly because she looked so desperate to have him agree with her, and she smiled, visibly relieved. "You can call me Kate," she said. "It's after my mother, you know." "Kate," he repeated, and frowned – that wasn't the name he wanted to put with this face, for some reason. But he let it go – she was so pretty, this mysterious Hogwarts girl, so fine-boned and melancholy and at the same time eager; glad to see him in a way that wasn’t like the giggling French girls’ frank sexual appraisal, as much as it was like a drowning man eyeing a life preserver. A connection, that’s what she wanted. Well, Neville could understand that – after all, he’d been an Englishman in Paris for the last year and a half, hadn’t he? She was still hanging on to his hand. He gave it a friendly squeeze before dropping it and smiled reassuringly. "So, Kate," he said. "Are you new to town, then? Or are you just visiting?" ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twelve ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ They had a lot to catch up on. He took her through the botany building and back to those hothouses she'd been so interested in earlier – and with good reason, she could see now; from her first sweeping glance, this collection looked as definitive as any she'd ever seen. "This is brilliant," she said in a low voice, as he led her into yet another greenhouse of rare ferns. "And you say it's wizard-run?" Neville nodded. "Well," he said, shrugging, "you didn't think they kept the place open on the 30-franc admission fee, did you? This garden is one of the major suppliers of arcane botanicals to the world wizarding market. Supports itself three times over." "Huh." Hermione scanned the sunny, humid room with interest. "Fascinating. Most of this stuff I've never seen before, unless it's dried and in a jar." Neville laughed. "Most people haven't." He shot her a curious look. "What did you say your work was, again? I know you told me, but I can't remember." Hermione's smile faded. Apparently, it wasn't just her name and address that was protected, but her profession as well. "I'm a ... a mediwitch," she said, figuring that was as close as she was going to get to the truth without activating the Charm. Neville looked pleased. "Oh," he said, beaming. "Oh, then you must see this ... we've just got in some new varieties of kelp." He was already moving back toward the main building, talking as he went. "Fascinating plant, kelp. They say the potential medical uses are endless." He ducked his head self-deprecatingly. "Though you probably know more about that than I do. I just grow the plants, I don’t stew them." A wry glance over his shoulder. "Potions, as you probably remember, was never my subject." "You weren't that bad," Hermione lied, and laughed when he snorted. "Yes, I was. You're too kind." He shrugged. "It'd be different if I had it to do over again. After spending three years sidestepping alligators and another eighteen months fending off sharks, the thought of Snape doesn't hold as many terrors as it used to." He slid his palm lightly under her elbow to guide her along, and Hermione let him. Clearly, she thought, this was a man who'd found his calling – he was in his element, more confident than she'd ever thought to picture him. She was happy for him – how could she not be? this was Neville as she'd never imagined him, Neville at Maximum Potential – and yet, as he showed her through a door with an electronic security lock and down a clean-swept corridor into a series of spotless white-tiled laboratories, she had to fight a wave of jealousy so strong it nearly buckled her knees. Just a few short weeks ago, she'd been this happy, this optimistic, this fulfilled. And now all that happiness was in ashes at her feet. Watch out, she wanted to warn him – wanted to take him by the shoulders and shake him until that excited naïve look disappeared from his face, until he couldn't help but listen to her. You think it's forever. You don't know how quickly it can disappear. Life changes fast. You play the cards you're dealt. "Kate? Are you all right?" He touched her shoulder tentatively. "Kate?" Belatedly, she shook herself back into the present. "Hm?" He was frowning down at her, concern in his eyes. "You looked a bit fierce for a moment there," he said, and shot her a self-deprecating smile that belonged more on the Old Neville than on the New. "You're sure I'm not boring you, then?" "Boring me?" Hermione shook her head. "Not in the least. I'm just a bit lagged, I'm afraid. I just got into town today – I haven't even unpacked yet." "Oh." Neville nodded understandingly. "I shouldn't keep you, then," he said. "Though I was hoping –" his eyes slid to the floor – "I was hoping that you’d let me take you to dinner sometime, to welcome you properly. I don’t know if you like Vietnamese, but there’s a great little—" Oh, Christ, Hermione thought, panicked, and held up one hand to cut him off. "Neville," she said, and then paused – what to say? "Um, Neville, I …" He didn’t seem to hear her. "Or maybe just a drink …" "I can’t –" "Or some coffee or something—" "Neville. Neville, don’t. Stop." It came out too loudly. He looked at her, startled, then flushed. "Oh, God, I’m sorry," he said, that telltale shoulder of his creeping up apologetically. "That came out completely wrong; you probably think I’m trying to hit on you, and that’s not –" He trailed off miserably. "I mean, not that I don’t think you’re … I mean … Oh, hell." "Neville," Hermione said, and put her hand on his arm. There weren’t any words, really, except for the truth – whether or not he’d absorb it, or remember it, it was all she could think of to say. "I was married," she said baldly, and watched his head snap up at the terrible, wavering urgency in her voice. "Up until a month ago. And then he—" she gulped—"well, you see, he – he’s …" "Yes?" he said, looking confused. Hermione felt herself starting to unravel. Bad idea. It wasn’t any use – she could stand on her toes and shout it into his ear, and he’d still have that same perplexed, baffled look on his face a moment later, as every bit of real or pertinent information she’d given him about herself hit the Teflon shield of the Fidelius Charm and splashed harmlessly away without penetrating. And if he wasn’t going to remember, she wasn’t going to say it. "I just can’t, that’s all," she said tiredly, changing tacks, and saw the seeming rejection register in his wide grey eyes, where her earlier words hadn’t. Shit. "I’m awfully sorry, Neville," she soldiered on miserably. "I’ll come see you again sometime soon, I promise. But I … I have to go now." "Oh," he said. "Okay." Nothing but concern on his face. "I’ve upset you. I’m really sorry. If you’ll wait a minute, Kate, I’ll walk you—" She was already halfway to the laboratory door. "No, that’s okay—" "—home." By the time she reached the front gate of the museum, she was running. ** The Montana evening was clear and cloudless and just beginning to show stars. Outside, the first strain of the nightly coyotes’ antiphon echoed distantly from farther down the mountain; inside, the gentle whuffling sound of ghostly snoring drifted out from where Sal was dozing over his book. Severus, at the moment, was feeling more attuned to the wildlife. She was crying in her sleep again. It hadn’t registered the first night after the Charm had been performed – she’d still been groggy, he guessed, riding on the wave of whatever magic had fondled its way into her brain and not yet found its way out. The night after that, though, he’d heard her all the way from his mountain refuge – and the night after that, and the night after that; heartbroken whimpering that grated in his head like ground glass. He didn’t notice the connection so much when she was awake – which made sense. From what he’d seen, she was keeping her subconscious under lock and key, during those hours of the day that she had control over it. In the night, though, her grief was a wandering ghost. And it was keeping him awake. Severus made an irritated sound in his sinuses, unfolded himself from his chilly seat on the porch swing, and went in to make himself some tea. Bad enough to share Hermione Granger’s subconscious when they were both asleep – then, at least, he only ended up with nightmares. And he’d been living with nightmares for most of his adult life. But when he happened to be awake for it – that was a problem of a different magnitude. He glanced at the clock on the kitchen wall – seven-thirty here, which meant it was past three in the morning in Paris. He’d been hearing the crying in his head for about an hour and a half; apparently, Hermione hadn’t been in too much of a hurry to get to sleep. Small wonder. He closed his eyes, sighed deeply, and tipped his head sharply to the side – right, then left – grunting in satisfaction as the tight muscles of his neck groaned, then relaxed slightly. In the depths of his brain, a girl moaned. He cursed. No way he was going to get to sleep without outside help, not with this racket going on. He turned off the kettle just before it could whistle – no use waking Sal up – scooped loose tea into a strainer, and set it to steep. The cabinet above his head held the bottle he was looking for – small, unmarked, made of old-fashioned brown glass, it looked like it should have contained vanilla extract. It was Dreamless Sleep. He uncorked it, gave it a sniff to make sure it hadn’t gone off, and was about to tip a measure into his tea when Hermione moaned again. He froze. Wait a minute. Why should I take the potion, when she’s the one who needs it? He hesitated, his hand still holding the bottle half-tipped over his mug, then resolutely turned it the right way up again and recorked it. Sal was still snoring. This’ll be a quick trip. And then maybe we’ll both be able to get some sleep. Jaw set resolutely, he Apparated. ** The first thing he noticed was that she hadn’t unpacked – the bedroom was as tidy and sterile as a nun’s cell. Even in the meager light from his wand, everything glimmered white – the walls, the painted wooden furniture, the bed linens. Severus looked around, but didn’t see so much as an opened suitcase. A quick glance inside the open clutch purse on her night-table explained the mystery of her missing personal items – the bag held a hairbrush, a toothbrush, and two toy-sized trunks. Interesting. She cried out again, knuckled savagely at her eyes in her sleep, and reluctantly he turned his gaze on her. The bed was sized for two, and from the state of the linens, it looked as if she’d started out in the middle, then rolled to one side, leaving just enough room for one tall slender man to slip in next to her. As Severus watched, she flung out an arm across the empty expanse of mattress, her face contorting. He swallowed hard, but couldn’t get rid of the lump in his throat. Just wake her up. Wake her up, give her the damn potion, and get the hell back to Montana, where you belong. Don’t stand here staring. It’s like a rape. Tentatively, he reached across the empty side of the bed, planting one knee on the edge of the mattress to steady himself, and grasped her outflung hand. "Hermione," he said softly. "Hermione, wake up." She didn’t wake up, but her fingers tightened on his hand. Severus, alarmed, tried to tug away. Her grip didn’t loosen. "Hermione," he murmured again, unable to keep the urgency from his tone. "Wake up. I can hear you screaming a continent away. Your grief’s deafening me." It was as if he hadn’t spoken. She rolled in her sleep, back over to the side where she’d been settled before, and took his hand with her. "There you are," she murmured, her voice sleep-fogged, as she tucked his arm around her waist and held it firmly in place with your own. "Jesus, you’ve got cold hands. Where’ve you been all this time, anyway?" "Uh –" "Missed you. Dreamed you weren’t here." "Hermione …" "Shhh. Tired now. Go to sleep." In her too-large flannel pajamas, with her hair tousled over the upturned collar, she looked too fragile to be believed – but her grip was iron. Severus lay rigid on the bed beside her, trying to maintain a decorous inch of space between their bodies, and was utterly thwarted as she snuggled happily back against him. His mind was racing. She thinks I’m her dead husband. She thinks I’m Bill. Merlin’s balls. This is sick. But she wasn’t crying anymore, either. Severus wedged his free hand between their bodies and down to his side, until his fingers brushed the end of his wand. She looks so happy. So peaceful. She feels so good. It’s been a week since I had a decent night’s sleep. He closed his eyes. Just another minute. Just another minute and I’ll go. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirteen ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ It was raining when she woke up. The air had been humid and close when she'd gone to bed, even as late as it had been, even with the bedroom window open. Hermione had considered a Cooling Charm, but decided against it, mostly because she'd left her wand in the other room on the sideboard next to her key, and couldn't be bothered to go and get it. But sometime during the early morning hours, the wind must have shifted; it was still damp, but cooler now and smelling of the Seine, that loamy, vaguely-fishy river smell of earth and sluggishly flowing water. And it was raining – not hard, but steadily. A spatter of water glittered on the floor under the open window. Hermione sighed and swung her feet out of bed. It wasn't a bad bed, she supposed, skirting the puddle on the floor cautiously and reaching up to pull the sash closed. She'd certainly slept more soundly last night than she had at any point during her recent stay at Hogwarts; smoggy and polluted as it was, maybe there really was something to be said for Parisian air. She'd had the dream again, of course. Fidelius Charm or no Fidelius Charm, this particular phantasm had trailed her faithfully from Cairo to Gryffindor Tower, like some malodorous stray, and seemed determined to take up residence in the City of Lights as well. By this time, Hermione had despaired of ever getting rid of it; a month of bad dreams, psychically speaking, is worth about a year of anything else, and in those wide-eyed metallic-tasting moments just following, when her heart still pounded Cask-of-Amontillado-like at the prison of her chest and the shadows of her surroundings flapped menacingly at her subconscious, it seemed as if she'd never slept the whole night through in her life. The dream never varied, nor did its accoutrements. There was always a long hallway – rather like a hotel corridor – studded with doors. An unsettling shuffle of footsteps trailing her passage, but with nothing to show for them when she turned to look back. And her own scared barefoot self, naturally – panicky and nauseous – clutching her borrowed dressing-gown closed and racing frantically from door to door, wrenching each open in turn and calling, Bill, Bill!, in tones of rapidly rising hysteria ... until there was only one door left, at the very end of the hall. She always knew she shouldn't open it, and she always did anyway. Behind it was his face at last, beloved and sorrowful and accusing: You're too late; why did it take you so long? Why didn't you warn me? And then the explosion – hot, vengeful, devouring – that rocked her into sweaty, sobbing wakefulness. Awful. And inevitable. Except that it had changed halfway through, this time – in the middle of her desperate race from one door to the next, there'd been a most unexpected hand sliding into hers, and she'd caught and tugged it and it hadn't let go. Jarringly familiar, that hand. And a whisper to go with it, gently reproving: I can hear you screaming a continent away.Your grief is deafening me. Sorry, she'd wanted to say, immediately contrite – wasn’t it bad enough that he was dead, after all, without her tears tugging at him from beyond the grave? But she hadn't said sorry, she hadn't, because even if he shouldn't be there, he was ... and it was too good, too tempting and weak and bittersweet to fall back into the old routine: one arm wrapped around her waist, warm breath ruffling the fine hairs at the back of her neck, complaints about his cold hands that really weren't complaints at all, given the number of times those cool knowing fingers had gone sliding down her body over the years to spin her into half-drowsy, half-dizzy delight. For a second or two she'd wanted that, had ached for his touch like a raw nerve. It had been so long ... But he didn't stir, and she didn't press the issue – after all, this cuddling was nice; she'd missed this, too, nearly as much or maybe more. And then, too, he'd held her so sweetly, so safely, so like Bill and yet so not that even in sleep, even in the absence of the nightmare, she was still grieving for him. Hermione wasn't sure which was worse: to wake up screaming with good reason, or to wake up happy... and then remember. Luckily, it was now a moot point for the next sixteen hours. She stepped back from the window, leaned over to retrieve her toothbrush from the satchel on the nightstand, then bit down hard on her lower lip as her gaze came to rest on the rumpled sheets of the unmade bed she'd just left. That’s funny. It was the far side of the bed that had caught her eye – the unslept-in side, that should have looked untouched. But the sheets were disordered there, too, and the pillow still held a clear, unmistakable dent. That she could explain away, odd as it was; after all, she had been a restless sleeper as of late. It wasn't so impossible to believe that she'd rolled from one side of the bed to the other, during the course of the night. What was less explicable was the presence of the quilted red comforter, now lying like an untidy bloodstain against the white sheets. Hermione rubbed her eyes and sank slowly to a sitting position on the edge of the bed, trying to corral her racing thoughts. It had been far too hot last night for blankets; she'd gone to sleep covered in nothing but a sheet, at which point that particular comforter hadn't even been on the bed, but folded neatly on top of the window seat on the other side of the room. And while she was prepared to believe a bit of tossing about, the thought that she might have made an unconscious trip across an unfamiliar room and back for a blanket without waking up in the process was a bit more of a stretch. At the very least, she'd have trod through the water on the floor. She laid a shaking hand on the far pillow. It was still warm. The immediate supposition to be drawn from the circumstantial evidence -- he was here; he came back to me -- swept over her like vertigo. She fought the dizziness grimly back and scrubbed at her eyes with both hands. Impossible. No ghost could have moved that blanket. You got cold in the night and went sleepwalking, that's all. But the pillow is warm— Because you've been lying on it, stupid. Don't get hysterical. But he was here! I heard him. I – I felt him. Wishful thinking. That's all. She curled her hands into fists and glared speculatively at Cleo, who was lying on the window seat right where the folded comforter had been, one paw over her eyes in blissful feline slumber. "Did you see anything?" she demanded, and got only a slow, contemptuous blink in answer; even if she could speak, Cleo seemed to say, wild horses couldn’t make her. Cats. It figured. Make the damn bed, Hermione, she told herself. And get out of this room before you drive yourself insane. You've got work to do today. Slowly, uncertainly, but with immense determination, she began to refold the comforter. ** The Latin Quartier in the rain was wet and grey and shrouded in mist, like a Brassaï photograph. Hermione ducked into a café for a cup of tea and – after a moment of guilty indecision – a croissant, then consulted her shiny laminated map of the subway and walked the few blocks over to the Luxembourg station to catch the train to Gare du Nord. The Métro was surprisingly uncrowded, probably due to the season. Hermione took a seat in front of some tousle-haired college students with backpacks and listened to them chatter in casual, companionable Finnish until they exited at Les Halles. From there, the train went express to Gare du Nord. Hermione gathered her bag a little more closely to her side – she’d heard more than one warning about the proliferation of pickpockets in this part of town – and dug in the pocket for the written directions to Itmana's clinic as she trudged up the steps into the open air of the Arabic Quarter. Here, she noticed as she turned to walk west toward the Boulevard des Barbés, there was less of that sense of a city on vacation – probably because the residents of this neighbourhood couldn't afford eight weeks in Provence or Nice or at the Riviera. Despite the rain, the tiny shops lining the street were all open and bustling, and the quarter’s population seemed to be out in full force. Hermione dodged a runaway ball kicked by one of a group of ragged-looking children in the middle of a game of street soccer, edged her way around some indolent-looking young men lounging in the awning-covered doorway of a tenement building, and nodded a greeting to the two women dressed as domestics, their black hair uncovered but severely tied back, who were about to cross the street to the Métro station. "Excuse me," she said in Arabic, and bit back a smile at their twin expressions of shock that this milk-pale Englishwoman should speak the language of the neighbourhood. "I'm looking for Yasmine Fayed's clinic. Can you direct me?" At the sound of the name, their faces cleared. "Doctor Fayed?" one of them said. "Straight ahead, two blocks down on the left." Closer than she'd thought. Hermione nodded her thanks and paused in a doorway out of the rain to fumble in her bag for the letter Dumbledore had given her. It was in this letter of recommendation from Farouk that she'd first become Dr. Kate Billings, and ceased to be Hermione Granger Weasley. Knowing that Itmana wouldn't recognise her dulled most of the prospective excitement she might have felt regarding their reunion; nevertheless, Dumbledore assured her, Farouk had laid enough groundwork with his great-niece to assure Kate Billings not only a job at the clinic, but also sufficient credentials to land her a research facility at the nearby British Hospital. Of course, that was assuming she even wanted to try to recreate the ruined research project. Ironic, Hermione thought, that a process intended to extend and improve life had become so closely tied in her own mind to destruction and death. But that was terrorism for you. She found the letter, took just one more second to breathe in the familiar Cairene aromas of mint tea and roasting lamb that carried over from the little restaurant across the street, and strode resolutely on toward the clinic. Even if you've lost your direction, she reasoned, you can still keep going forward. At least it gives your feet something to do. As philosophies went, it was a pretty shallow one -- she'd be the first to admit it. On the other hand, it was all she had left. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Fourteen ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Hermione hadn't been sure of what to expect from Itmana's clinic. The slightly seedy locale didn't seem a likely match either for Itmana herself or for Khaled's share of the al-Hussein millions, and it begged the question: just how undercover had her old friend decided to go, in her new venture? The answer, as it turned out, was 'just enough'. The clinic was a simple storefront marked with a modest sign, but the waiting room Hermione found when she stepped through the door was comfortable and scrupulously clean, presided over by a gimlet-eyed, dour-lipped gargoyle of a receptionist from a desk that faced the windows. The corner opposite the door, as if to cancel out the Gargoyle’s grim expression, was stocked with brightly painted wooden toys and a low bookcase full of children's books; some coffee-skinned toddlers were happily stacking blocks while their parents chatted and kept an eye on them from the nearby phalanx of chairs. Despite the relative earliness of the hour, the room was nearly full. Hermione, flushing a little under the weight of so many curious eyes, gripped her letter more tightly and approached the receptionist's desk. "Bonjour, madame," she said, feeling rather as if she were about to ask Madam Pince for extra borrowing privileges. "Je m'appelle Kate Billings. Je voudrais parler á Docteur Fayed, s'il-vous-plaít." The Gargoyle didn't look up from her filing. "Doctor Fayed is busy," she said in flat, unaccented English which made it painfully clear that Hermione hadn't been fooling anyone with her careful schoolgirl French. "If you want to see her, you'll have to wait your turn." "Oh. But I'm not here for treatment," Hermione persisted, taken a bit aback by her dismissive tone. "I'm the new doctor. I have a note of introduction from her uncle. I'm supposed to start work today." The Gargoyle looked unimpressed. "Mademoiselle," she said coldly, "I don't care if you’re the Duchess of Windsor, you have a note from Jacques Chirac himself, and you're here to paper the walls in gold leaf. Doctor Fayed will see you when she's finished with her patients, and not a minute before." Face fixed in a permanent bureaucrat's scowl, she yanked open a file drawer and grudgingly produced a photocopied form. "Here. You can fill this out while you're waiting." The old Hermione would have protested. The new Hermione, recognising a lost cause when she encountered one and lacking the psychic energy for the battle of wits that dealing with it would have required, merely shrugged and took the paper. "Thank you," she said inanely, and was about to claim a seat when the door next to the desk opened and a man walked in. He was tall and dark and more good-looking in his Western-style casual clothes than Hermione had remembered him. Granted, her view might have been coloured by the circumstances under which they'd met – the first time she'd seen him, he'd sworn at her and knocked her down, and during the subsequent glimpses she’d caught over the next few days, he'd been stricken and white-lipped, twisting his hands together like a reprimanded child under the subtle torment of the Contrition Curse. Now, however, he looked cheerful and full of purpose, and he smiled when he caught Hermione's eye. "Bonjour, mademoiselle," he said, after a quick assessing glance at her bare ring hand, and raised one enquiring, elegant brow. "Forgive the intrusion, but you look very familiar to me. Have we met?" So charming! Who’s he, and what did he do with that racist, elitist pig who bloodied my lip? Caught off guard, Hermione hesitated, then noticed the fulminating look the Gargoyle was sending her way and thought – why not? "Actually," she said, "we have. I'm rather well-acquainted with your uncle. He was a mentor of mine while I was studying medicine in Alexandria." Technically, this was a lie. So – naturally – he believed it immediately. "Ah, of course," he said, and brightened even further. "You'd be Dr. Billings, then. My uncle's written to say you'd be coming." He bent charmingly over the hand she’d offered him to shake and brushed it with his lips. "He mentioned that we'd met as well, come to think of it. I should be shot at sunrise for forgetting a face like yours." "Don't take it personally," Hermione said, feeling a hot blush beginning to ride her cheeks, and made a mental note to practice her Paeniteo at the next available opportunity; if these were the results one got from it, it was well worth the price of the bandwidth. "I'm used to it by now. It happens a lot." He swept her with an admiring glance. "Impossible," he said gallantly; "I'll never believe it." He turned to the Gargoyle. "Sylvie, this is Dr. Billings. She's here as Dr. Fayed's new associate. Dr. Billings, the incomparable Sylvie. We'd be lost without her." "A pleasure," Hermione said weakly, and extended her hand across the desk. The Gargoyle regarded it sourly but made no move to touch it. "Likewise." "Sylvie will see to your paperwork," Khaled said – plucking the form blithely from Hermione's other hand and returning it to the desk, oblivious of the Gargoyle’s deepening scowl. "Let me show you around. Yasmine's swamped this morning; one of the nurse-practitioners is out with the 'flu, and we've been overwhelmed all week. She'll probably want to put you to work immediately." At last, a purpose in life. "That's fine," Hermione said, hoping she didn't appear too eager, and preceded Khaled through the door he held open for her. Beyond it was a short grey-carpeted corridor lined with lilac-painted doors. One of these was ajar; Khaled knocked softly, then pushed it farther open. "Doctor Fayed?" he said. "Do you have a moment?" A brief exchange in rapid Arabic, a moment's pause, and Itmana emerged into the corridor, trim and brisk-looking in a white lab coat over blue jeans, her thick black hair cut close to her head in a sleek, chic cap. "What is it?" she said, sounding impatient, then frowned as she noticed Hermione. "Are you the med student they promised me last week from the British Hospital? Because you were supposed to be here three days ago." "Um. Actually," Hermione began, then closed her mouth again as Khaled interrupted smoothly. "This is Kate Billings, Itmana," he said in a low voice. "We both met her at the fundraiser in Alexandria last summer, remember? Uncle Farouk wrote a letter telling us she was coming." Itmana's creamy forehead creased, then resmoothed itself. "Oh, thank goodness," she said, and turned back to Hermione with an outstretched hand and an apologetic smile. "Sorry to be abrupt. We've been unbearably short-staffed; you couldn't have picked a better time to show up. It's lovely to meet you again." She scanned Hermione's business suit anxiously. "Oh, crap. Are you just here for an interview today? Or can I put you to work?" "I'd love to get started," Hermione said truthfully. Itmana beamed. "Oh, good. Call me Yasmine; my uncle explained all that, right? We're keeping a very low profile. Security reasons." She jerked her head over her shoulder. "My patient's waiting on me. Khal—that is, Zarif—will show you around and get you settled into an examining room. I'll fill you in on everything else after we break for dinner. Welcome aboard." Hermione grinned as Itmana disappeared into the examining room. Khaled raised one eyebrow. "She's amusing, sah? And a little scattered. But a very good doctor, I assure you." "It's not that," Hermione murmured, but kept the rest of her thought to herself: She hasn't changed one bit. For some reason, this made her feel better. ** She'd given a bit of thought over the last few days as to how she was going to pull off posing as a Muggle doctor. Between the efforts of Madam Pomfrey and Snape, she'd picked up a fair bit of practical training in medipotions, and she knew her healing spells just as well as anyone else who'd been through six years of Charms with Filius Flitwick. But beyond her biological and chemical pre-med lab work, what she knew about non-magical healing wouldn't get her through a weekend of CPR training, let alone a charade of this magnitude and scope. Worrisome, this. But hardly insurmountable. She followed Khaled around the tiny space, nodding and smiling at what seemed to be the right moments and filing away as much information as possible in the meantime: patient files, supplies, small locked-room pharmacy in what had probably been a broom closet before the clinic moved in. "Are you ready?" he asked finally, after installing her in the little examining room next to Itmana’s. She gulped. "Sure." Five minutes later, her first patient came into the room. He was wiry and small-boned, probably fifteen or sixteen years old. His left arm was held against his skinny torso by a makeshift sling, his thin face creased in pain and apprehension. He didn’t have a file, and declined to start one; Hermione figured he just didn’t want to give her his name. "Cassé?" she inquired, gesturing toward the injured arm. He nodded. "Oui, madame." That was about as far as they were going to get in French, Hermione decided, and switched over to Arabic. "How did it happen?" she asked, and he shook his head shyly; either he couldn't say, or he simply didn't want to. Par for the course, she thought, and gestured for him to come nearer. "Let’s see your arm," she directed, carefully sliding the knotted end of the sling off his skinny shoulder to reveal the rest of a faded, none-too-clean tee shirt, and gently ran her hands down the length of his bare, discoloured forearm, feeling instinctively for the break. In the few moments she’d had in between Khaled’s departure from the room and the patient’s arrival, she'd implemented Secret Weapon Number One: a Replica of her wand she’d Charmed into the shape of a latex glove. Presently, she was wearing it on her right hand. As it neared the fracture, it sent a faint buzz singing up her arm. OK. Here goes nothing. She clasped the injured area gently, eyeballing the angle of his arm to make sure it was properly aligned, and muttered the appropriate Healing Charm in an undertone, hoping he'd take the unfamiliar word for something she was saying to herself in English. The glove vibrated again, but the boy didn't flinch. Under her hand, the bone reknit with a barely audible click. Yes, Hermione thought, triumphant – now how easy was that? – and took a step back. "Is it broken?" the boy asked again, his eyes apprehensive. Hermione shook her head. "No. Just sprained," she told him, and could have groaned when his eyebrows shot up in disbelief. "Sprained? That’s all?" "Mm." Half-panicked, she cast about for something suitably technical to say and came up blank. "Go easy on it for a few days," she finished lamely. "Keep it elevated. Ice wouldn’t hurt." Her patient looked unconvinced. Cautiously, he clenched and unclenched his fist, then looked at her wide-eyed. "You fixed it." Hermione, rattled, bit her lip. "That’s what doctors do," she said, and pasted on a brilliant toothpaste smile. "You should be all set. Come back in a few days if it’s still uncomfortable. You’re fine." Clearly, he didn't believe her, but the borrowed white lab coat she wore carried enough built-in authority that he simply nodded. "Merci, madame," he said, and sidled out, looking more nervous, if possible, than he had on his way in. Once he was gone, Hermione swallowed hard. Oops. You were a better liar when you were eleven. Good thing there were no windows in this room. The reception desk was probably being dive-bombed this very instant by indignant owls from the French Ministry of Magic ... and if there was such a thing as poetic justice in the world, one of them would see fit to take a dump in the Gargoyle's bouffant. Heh. Unaccountably, maliciously cheered by the mental image this summoned, Hermione readjusted her gloves and poked her head resolutely into the corridor. "Next," she called to Khaled, and set her jaw at a more stubborn angle. She'd get the hang of this yet. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Fifteen ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ "So," Itmana said, and sliced a lamb croquette in half. "Any questions?" Hermione, unsure of how to respond, tore off a piece of bread and took her time selecting a dipping sauce from the assortment on the table. She had about a million questions, truth be told, but they weren't things she could easily inquire about without looking like she didn't know what she was doing. Not that she hadn't managed fairly well, given the circumstances. She'd had two more broken bones, and had improved upon her initial technique by healing the break but then also splinting the bone; superfluous, of course, but it seemed to reassure the patients. Then, too, she supposed it probably did stretch the bounds of belief to come in with a shattered kneecap and walk out with not so much as a cast to show for it. Let it not be said I couldn't learn from my mistakes. The half-dozen sets of inoculations she'd given were more straightforward; Itmana's supplies were well-labelled, and while finding a vein wasn't always the easiest thing in the world, her patients had submitted with good grace to her fumbling attempts. Luckily, she didn't have to deal with the impossible task of writing prescriptions; this clinic, Khaled had told her that morning, dispensed most of its drugs in-house, and employed local muscle - two gigantic Bluto-lookalikes named Ahmo and Maxim - to make sure that the neighbourhood's local suppliers didn't get any bright ideas. So far, Hermione had made good use of surreptitious Summoning Charms, added to knowledge gleaned from her patients' files, to find what she needed to in the little closet-sized pharmacy. This wouldn't always be her responsibility; once the clinic's in-house pharmacist got back from his vacation, Khaled had assured her that he'd take over that aspect of things. Personally, Hermione thought it less nerve-wracking to puzzle it out and go find it for herself, than to be under the pressure of having to come up with a written name on the spot. But she'd deal with that when the time came. Less complicated but more frustrating had been the minor complaints: bronchitis, ear infections, and a half-dozen children with headlice - luckily, no venereal diseases or abortion-seekers today, as Hermione hadn't a clue how to handle that, magic glove or no magic glove. The lice had responded admirably to a Banishing Charm - she'd dispensed the shampoo and fine-tooth comb anyway as a followup, since the patients' mothers, clearly familiar with both diagnosis and treatment, seemed to expect it - but she'd had to fall back on Muggle remedies for the sinus-related issues, as she didn't have her own medipotions with her. Aha. Now there was a good question. "How do you feel about homeopathic treatment?" she queried from around her mouthful of bread. Itmana looked surprised, then shrugged. "My training didn't cover it in depth," she admitted. "Why? Are you a specialist?" "After a fashion," Hermione said, thinking guiltily that if Poppy Pomfrey were listening in on this conversation, her eyebrows would have all but disappeared under her overstarched wimple. "Do you think that's likely to be a problem?" "Frankly," Itmana said, spearing another croquette, "you could practice voodoo and I wouldn't bat an eyelash, so long as it works and your patients get better." She gestured expansively with her fork, an old habit of hers Hermione remembered fondly from Cairo, and grimaced. "Nobody's exactly beating down the doors to offer us any competition, in case you hadn't noticed. We're the only Arabic-speaking clinic in town, unless you count the ritzy little private hospital over next to the Institut de Monde Arabe that caters to the diplomats and the literati. Which I don't. And while socialized medicine is wonderful if you're a citizen of the European Union, you'd be surprised at the shoddy way the big hospitals treat immigrants - particularly if they're Arabs, and particularly if they're poor." She leaned across the table, lowering her voice meaningfully. "We exist to level the playing field a bit, and obviously we've got the money to do it; still, it's been very difficult to find qualified nurses who speak the language and who are willing to come all the way up here to work in this neighbourhood, instead of staying at one of the big hospitals nearer the center of town. And until Uncle Farouk found you, I'd just about despaired of finding another doctor to take on some of my workload. Under those circumstances, I'd say that homeopathy is the least of my concerns . . . and even if I did have an informed opinion about it, which I don't, I trust my uncle not to send me a nutcase. If he says you're a good doctor, I'm not going to argue with him." She popped the remainder of the croquette into her mouth, washed it down with a swallow of fruit juice, and spread her hands questioningly in Hermione's direction. "Does that answer your question?" "Perfectly," Hermione said, cheering inwardly, and sat back to enjoy the rest of her dinner. Tomorrow was going to be a whole lot easier than today had been. But before she went home tonight, she needed to stop and make things right with Neville. ** "A wizarding marketplace in Paris?" Neville said. "Of course there's one. I'm surprised no one told you before you came." Hermione had spent most of the subway ride back to the Latin Quarter trying to think of a plausible excuse for her behaviour the previous afternoon, and hadn't had much luck. Fortunately, Neville hadn't demanded an explanation from her, but had merely accepted her fumbling apology and offer of a conciliatory drink with quiet equanimity, and then gone to change out of his gardening clothes and lock his office. "Everyone gets a bit rattled now and then," he'd said. "You don't owe me any explanations, Kate." That had been earlier - much, much earlier. Now, it was ten o' clock, and they were sitting at a scarred wooden bar, peering at each other through a choking cloud of smoke and drinking beer of dubious lineage that Neville assured her was superior to any wine on the list - or rather, Neville was drinking it. Hermione had taken one tentative sip of hers, pushed her mug emphatically in his direction, and started ordering Cosmopolitans. The name of the bar, amazingly enough for a pub in the heart of Paris, was 'Connelly's Corner'. There was a game of darts going on in one corner and a game of dice in another. The place was packed with college students - French and Not French in equal parts. And the bartender spoke both French and English with a decided brogue. Next stop, Brigadoon, Hermione thought, and stared muzzily into the depths of her third martini. "There are a lot of things no one bothered to tell me," she said meaningfully. "I mean, you'd be shocked." She took a none-too-ladylike gulp of her drink. "And besides, you never know, do you? I mean, take Cairo for instance. You'd have thought that out of all the other cities in Egypt, it would have had wizarding shops, and instead everything was in poky little Alexandria. For all I know, the Frogs might have decided to put their Diagon Alley in the middle of the royal sheep-paddock at Versailles. Underneath a fountain or something. You know." Neville laughed. The beer didn't seem to be affecting him much; obviously, Hermione thought, he'd learned more than mulching techniques during his internships. "Oh, it's much more poetic than that," he said. "It's at Les Halles." "Les Halles?" Hermione frowned at him. "But they moved the market at Les Halles to the suburbs," she said. "Didn't they? I read about it in the guidebook. Some urban-planning nightmare or other. Mum and I got off the Métro by mistake and got lost there, when we vacationed here a few years back, and there's nothing in that part of town except for this awful glass-and-steel shopping mall and some ugly overpriced apartments from the 1980s -" Neville was grinning. "They moved the Muggle market, sure," he said. "The magical Les Halles is still alive and well, believe me. You just have to know how to get in." He checked his watch. "All closed for the day by now, of course. We stock an herb-shop there with cuttings from the Museum greenhouses, and that's open from six to two - my friend Jean-Jacques takes over a shipment of plants before the sun comes up, just large enough to fill the day's needs, and most everything sells out by ten a.m. You can still find what you need after that, but things tend to be picked over." He sipped his beer. "Some of the other shops stay open until seven or eight, though. Depending." "Makes sense," Hermione said, and mentally resigned herself to another day spent dispensing amoxicillin for colds until she could get her hands on some Pepper-Up. A bit depressed by this, intending just to finish her drink and go, she was distracted from the dregs of her Cosmopolitan - and from Neville's continuing commentary on Parisian tastes in magical greenery - by a bright curl of flirtatious laughter coming from the direction of the door. Curious, she looked round to see what had caused it, and saw a young couple at a table by the pub's open front windows. Tourists, most definitely. Probably American, from the accent, and their backpacks and casual clothes pegged them as students. Hermione figured they were probably staying in one of the two nearby youth hostels - lovers without a private room to go back to, stealing kisses in a café over a shared bottle of cheap wine - and sighed with a touch of wistfulness, and more than a little envy. She remembered that look of shared confidences, of jokes held in common. She'd once leaned across a restaurant table just that very way, thrown back her head in laughter and curled one hand affectionately over her lover's. Her husband's. She'd looked that young. She'd felt that happy. Her grip tightened on the stem of the martini glass. Neville was still talking, but she'd stopped listening. I wish . . . oh, I wish . . . That was Angst Girl, whimpering her familiar refrain. And chiming in with her weary rebuttal was the Voice of Caution, who these days had taken to calling herself the Voice of Reason: Stop that. Where's a wish going to get you? You'd be just about as likely to dream him back into existence. And we all know how likely that is. You'd be just about as likely to dream him back. At that, an image from last night's dream, unremembered until now, rose up from Hermione's subconscious, vivid as a clip of film: You're snoring in my ear, she'd murmured, and had jostled his arm lightly to wake him. Not the most romantic vignette in the world, granted. But it had been familiar and reassuring nonetheless, at the time - Bill had always wrapped his arm around her waist like that, had always started snorting in her ear at the height of her beneficial REM cycle, and had always woken just enough, when she shook him, to yawn, grunt an apology, and turn over to spend the rest of the night on his other side. Funny that she didn't remember getting that reaction from him in her dream. As a matter of fact, if she recalled it correctly, last night's phantom-Bill had said 'Ouch!' - in response to that gentlest of love-taps! - and had grumbled something about how she'd wanted his arm there in the first place, on her own head be it, and who was she to talk about making noise in her sleep, anyway? But he hadn't turned away from her. It was odd, Hermione thought, but at that instant, as seen through the admittedly fuzzy lens of lapsed time and partial inebriation, her dream lover hadn't sounded very much like Bill at all. Ridiculous, said the Voice of Reason - and for once, her voice sounded less tight, more sympathetic. He sounded exactly the same. You're just starting to forget, that's all. Forget? Hermione bridled. How could I ever forget? How could I possibly? People do, you know. Not me. I remember everything. Everything! Liar, said the Voice calmly. Even as you sit here, you're losing information. How could you not? Who can keep six years inside their head inviolate? Memories get fuzzy; that's why we love them so much. And the longer you go on, the more they blur. That's life. No. No, you're wrong! Hermione shuddered, and felt the stem of her glass crack under the desperate crush of her fingers. Whether she was cut or not, she couldn't say; her whole body felt numb. I won't forget. Never, never, never. "Kate, are you all right?" Neville, looking worried. Hermione swallowed hard and forced her head to move in the semblance of a nod. "Fine," she lied. "Just tired, that's all. I'm going to call it a night." "Sounds like a good idea," he agreed. "Want me to walk you home?" Hermione shook her head. "I'll Apparate. Thanks anyway." "Oh - okay." Neville shrugged. "Well, then, I'll see you around. Sweet dreams." "See you," Hermione echoed, and carefully set down her broken glass on the bar, avoiding the bartender's reproachful look and biting back bitter-tasting laughter as she rose to go. Sweet dreams? Fat chance. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Sixteen ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ The Parisian wizarding market at Les Halles turned out to have, in addition to the fresh herb-stall Neville had mentioned, an extremely well-stocked shop specialising in ready-made potions, and a bookstore with an impressive section on mediwizardry. Hermione took immediate advantage of both, and began to feel better about her job as the long hot days of August slid by. Still, the vast quantity of things she didn't know that she should have known was daunting, to say the least. Her research work at the Consortium had been one thing there, if she'd found her knowledge or skills lacking in some way, there had been ample time to remedy the lack at her leisure. Here, learning on the job was like jogging with a gun held to your head exhilarating, perhaps, in a purely adrenal sense, but scary as hell and hardly to be recommended. She bought a manual on magical diagnosis and committed it to memory. She Replicated a few boxes'-worth of latex wand-gloves, and got better and better at recognising the anxious telltale tingle in her fingertips that meant something was amiss. She requested from Khaled the kinds of cases with which she was comfortable, and took advantage of slow days to observe Itmana at work. On the occasions fewer and fewer now, thank goodness when she had no idea how to proceed with a patient, she called Itmana in from the next room for a second opinion, and grimly stored away what she learned for future reference. At least once a day, usually more often than that, she was lonely and frustrated enough to curse Farouk, Dumbledore, and the Fidelius Charm itself for contributing to what seemed at those moments to be an impossibly overwhelming situation. Mostly, though, it felt good to be preoccupied, and even better to be busy with something this productive. She spent her evenings, those first few weeks, feverishly absorbing medical texts both magical and Muggle and listening to Maxie and the band rehearse. Gradually, however, Paris began to exert its siren-call on her; her inner Daredevil had been much-subdued by the events of the past few months, but wasn't, after all, quite dead yet. Eschewing the city's major tourist attractions for now plenty of time for that later she limited the majority of her ventures to the immediate neighbourhood: Tuesday and Thursday afternoon coffee with Neville, near-daily shopping expeditions to the local bakery and produce stand (as much for the nod and smile from flirtatious Émile or crusty old Madame Mugler as for the bread and fruit), study sessions in the nearby ruins of the ancient Roman amphitheatre, her readings about gastrointestinal disorders and compound fractures punctuated by the conversation of picnickers and delighted shrieks of rollerblading youngsters. Though her family had never been devoutly religious, and Hermione herself hadn't been to church in years, she hesitated one Sunday morning on her way to the local patisserie at the doors of the gargoyle-guarded, delightfully Gothic Cathedrale de St.-Severin, and then ducked inside. She'd been back for Mass twice since then, feeling at once out of place and oddly comforted by the cadenced flow of liturgical French, the standing and sitting and confidently-murmured responses, wine and bread and I believe, endless litanies of redemption and immortality and faith. She took Cleo walking in the Jardin des Plantes. Caught a Saturday-morning puppet-show at the Luxembourg Gardens. Helped deliver her first baby. On the nights when loneliness threatened to overwhelm her, she took refuge in Dreamless Sleep; most of the time, however, cautious of addiction, she slid between the sheets without benefit of its guaranteed chemical slumber. Sometimes she slept through the night. More often she was plagued by the customary nightmares of doors and halls and ticking clocks, and on those occasions her dream-lover came to her, muttering half-resentful lullabies in her ears even as he rocked her back to oblivion. The more often she dreamed about him, the less he resembled Bill: he didn't smell like Bill, he didn't say the same things, he didn't lie in the same position, he didn't touch her the same way or indeed touch her at all, unless she demanded it of him. His hands felt smooth and well-kept when she managed to entwine them with hers, without the archaeologist's calluses that had roughened Bill's fingers. And they never, never strayed, not even when her dream-self sighed and murmured and tried to tug them southward to those bits of her that hadn't been touched in far too long. Sorry, my darling, he'd murmured, his whisper hot in her ear even as he hastily disentangled himself. But I've lost enough of my soul to you already. I'm not prepared to commit the unpardonable for a moment of sweetness. Bill would never have said something like that not even in a dream, not even dead. No, her night visitor had a touch of the ascetic about him, Hermione decided soft hands and self-denial and began to refer to him in her own head as Monsieur le curé, a name which stuck for good when twelve-year-old Patrice Brodin, recently returned from vacation with his family to the flat next door, happened to mention that the former occupant of Hermione's apartment had been a priest. "Really," Hermione said, intrigued. "And where is he now?" "Il est mort, madame." "Dead?" Hermione demanded. "Are you sure? How?" Her only answer was a supremely-French, characteristically-adolescent shrug; Patrice's friend Henri had just arrived by skateboard, bearing a dripping cardboard dish of glace au chocolat in each hand, and her informant, though undoubtedly schooled by his mother to unfailing politesse, was clearly eager to be elsewhere. Reluctant but resigned, she waved him off and retreated to her cool white bedroom to process this fresh bit of news. This explained a lot. On the other hand, one had to wonder how ghostly hands could feel so warm or how a ghostly head could leave such a plainly corporeal dent in the pillow next to hers. Don't examine it too closely, the Daredevil whispered. Your husband's dead, your own mother doesn't remember that you exist, and you don't have a single three-dimensional friend who still calls you by your own name. You don't want him to leave, too, do you? No, Hermione thought, half-anxious at the very idea. She didn't want that. ** September slid away bit by bit, like water through carefully cupped hands. The tourists departed, footsore and laden with packages and film cartridges; the Parisians returned, sun-bronzed and rested. School began, and the cafés of the Latin Quartier overflowed far into the night with fast-talking, intense-faced students, punctuating their arguments with short terse gestures that made the smoke from their unfiltered Gauloises swirl in irritated arabesques around their heads. Hermione, on a whim, purchased and inscribed a small tower of postcards and sent them off signed from 'Kate', not really expecting replies but flushed with the idea of at least making contact, and was delighted to hear back a few days later from the irrepressible Joséphine Dessources: I can't for the life of me think who you are, she wrote, but the way my brain works, that's hardly surprising. You've got gorgeous handwriting and you're in Paris, you lucky thing; I hate you already. Shtup a starving artist for me, will you? And have some peach crêpes while you're at it. Hermione complied on the crêpe issue but declined the art student. She did, however, write back. His name was Marcel. He left charcoal stains on my sheets, for which I'm holding you personally responsible, as, judging from his canvases, I don't think he'll ever be famous enough for me to market them profitably. And I prefer strawberry to peach. How are things at Hogwarts? The reply arrived by owl the next evening, just as Hermione was unlocking the door of her flat: You just had to rub it in, didn't you? Old McGonagall took one look at me, the year I started working here, and tried to make me sign a morality clause. Nothing doing, naturally, but even so, nobody's getting any action in this place except for the eternally-libidinous students. The esteemed Herbology and Charms professors did invite me to join them for revelry of an unspecified nature in the south greenhouse last Midsummer's Eve, but I declined that particular opportunity for debauchery I didn't like the look in Sprout's eye. For a short fluffy chick, she's sort of scary. Hermione, startled into a giggle, kept reading. My esteemed predecessor stopped by a week or so ago to see Albus. Now there's an interesting prospect in the Shag-A-Dessources Sexual Sweepstakes if he were bound and gagged, that is. He may have pretty eyes, but those dark broody guys give me a wiggins. I can't get into men whose mood swings are worse than mine, and I'd say that His Eminence definitely qualifies on that count. Hermione torn between amusement, suspicion (what the hell was Snape doing at Hogwarts?), and a brief surprising jab of what felt like but couldn't possibly be jealousy shook her head and scanned the last paragraph. So tell me are we good enough friends for you to invite me for the holidays? I'm damned if I'll look at McGonagall's sour old mug over my Christmas pudding this year. And I've no desire ever to meet Albus under the mistletoe again, thank you very much. He may be the greatest living wizard in the Western world, but he sure can't handle his eggnog, and if he lays hands on my tush one more time, he's going to be missing some fingers when he takes them away again. Suffice it to say that I need a change of pace, posthaste; if you're in the mood for company, I'd most definitely be up for some girlish hijinks and Joyeux Noël, Paris-style. Let me know. "Hang on a minute," Hermione instructed the nervous-looking post owl (Cleo had just padded into the room, and was taking rather more of an interest in the proceedings than the bird found strictly comfortable), and rummaged for pen and paper. Why wait for Christmas? she scribbled, almost giddy with her own reckless impulse. Come for the weekend, why don't you? Any weekend. I'm so lonely here that I can't live with myself. She peeled the owl a tangerine, sent it off with a stroke of its fluffy feathered head, and wandered back to the music room, still holding the letter and frowning to herself. The band, huddled around a rickety wooden table that had recently appeared next to the piano in the mural's background, didn't look up from their card game. Maxie recapped her bottle of nail polish and smiled in Hermione's direction. "Afternoon, sugar. How was business today?" The question was by now a time-honoured ritual. Hermione folded herself into the room's most comfortable chair and cracked her knuckles leisurely. "Let's see. Pretty slow, actually. A sprained wrist, a couple of pre-natal exams, two cases of ringworm, an appendicitis, some work physicals, a broken nose ..." She thought hard. "Ah. A three-year-old who'd stepped on broken glass. Responded beautifully to that new Suturing Charm; I doubt that there'll even be a scar. And three cases of hepatitis A. Itmana had a couple, too. We suspect bad shellfish from the nearby market; Khaled went over after lunch to ask Mehmet where he's been buying his mussels." She switched on the torchière lamp next to the chair. "Did you lot get any practicing in?" Maxie rolled her eyes. "Are you kidding? They've been playing Hearts since yesterday after breakfast. You couldn't shift them from that table if Count Basie himself showed up and tried to give them a downbeat." Hermione laughed, then thought about the letter in her hands and grew sober again. "I got a letter today from my friend Joséphine," she said. "She says that Snape was at Hogwarts recently." "Oh?" Maxie studied her nails. "Is that news?" "Sort of." Hermione shrugged, unsure of how to put her uneasiness into words. "He and Sal keep themselves pretty secluded these days; it's really unlike him to go visiting without a good reason. Before he agreed to be my Secret-Keeper, he hadn't been back to Hogwarts in three years. And now I guess I'm starting to wonder if he and Dumbledore don't know more about Bill's ... well, about the murder, than they're telling me." "It's possible," Maxie said, toying thoughtfully with the cap of her nail-polish bottle. "Though on a certain level, it ought to be reassuring that your Secret-Keeper's keeping secrets even if they're from you. Means he's well-suited to the job, n'est-ce-pas?" Hermione nodded reluctantly. "I suppose," she said. "Just makes me edgy, that's all. I haven't been sleeping so well. Bad dreams." She frowned. "Maxie?" "Mm-hmm." "You haven't happened to see a ghost in the apartment, have you?" Maxie's eyes went sharp. "A ghost?" "It's probably nothing," Hermione said, embarrassed. "But in these dreams ... well, I've been having a visitor. I thought he was Bill at first, but he's not lately, I've been wondering if he's even a dream. He feels more real than that, somehow. And just the other day Patrice told me this story about a dead priest who used to live here. I was just wondering if you'd seen anything, that's all." "Dead priest?" Maxie shook her head. "I haven't seen any ghosts around the place at all, sugar. But now that I know you're looking, I'll have the boys keep an eye out." She lifted one thin-plucked eyebrow. "And as I recall, there's a portrait of St. Bernadette living in the flat above us. I'll find out if she knows anything about resident clergy in the building." Hermione, relieved, scooped her study text off the coffee table and flipped it open. "Thanks, Maxie. That's nice of you." "Any time, sugar." But that tight, assessing look was back in Maxie s expressive dark eyes. "Yeah," she muttered to herself, long after Hermione was absorbed in her studies. "I'll ask around." It sounded like a threat. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Seventeen ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ "You know," Itmana had said over lunch a week or so ago, "this holistic-health thing of yours is really going over well." The clinic had just closed for the evening, and they were sprawled, exhausted, on chairs in the waiting room, devouring the brown-bag lunches they hadn't had time to properly address earlier. Cautiously pleased at this news, despite sniffs of contempt from the Gargoyle (now managing to look deeply disapproving while simultaneously organising her desk, watering the spindly ficus next to the filing cabinet, and putting on her jacket), Hermione had sipped her orangeade to hide a sigh of relief. "Oh?" "Mm. That stuff you've been giving out for colds, for instance - I think you told Julien it was an infusion of majorica? The peppery stuff, smells like cloves?" Julien was the clinic's pharmacist-on-staff, recently returned from his vacation in Nice. Hermione nodded. "Well, he's had six patients asking for it in the last four days. He wants to know if it can be dispensed without a prescription, so he can keep some in stock in the pharmacy." "Sure," Hermione said without thinking. "Just give me a chance to brew some more." "Brew?" Itmana laughed. "In a cauldron, I presume?" Hermione smiled uneasily to hide her slip and decided to try for levity. "But of course,"she said lightly. "The open flame's crucial to the process - no electric range will do. And if you try to make it in a saucepan, it'll make the macaroni taste funny for months." "Touché." Itmana grinned and leaned forward over the table. "So," she continued. "Where are you getting your herbs, anyway? Do you have to import them?" Hermione, back on more familiar footing with this question, shook her head. "I've got an old school chum at the paleobotany museum in the Jardin des Plantes," she said. "He keeps me fairly well supplied. There's not much he doesn't know about medicinal plants." "Really." Itmana looked intrigued. "I'd like to meet him," she said. "I bet there are lots of people in this neighbourhood who would come to a lecture on homeopathy, if we sponsored one through the clinic … just about every self-respecting housewife in the Goutte d'Or has a vegetable plot on the roof or at least a windowsill garden. Herbal remedies are right up their alley." She took a bite of her curried-eggplant sandwich and regarded Hermione expectantly as she chewed. "Think he'd be interested?" "I don't know," Hermione said doubtfully, thinking of quiet, self-effacing Neville volunteering to give a lecture and mentally predicting his likely response: not a snowball's chance in hell. At Itmana's disappointed look, however, she shrugged and pasted on a more hopeful expression. "Guess it never hurts to ask, does it?" ** Neville, by his own admittance, was a reluctant public speaker. Ever accommodating, however, he had agreed to discuss the possibility over Saturday-night dinner, and now the four of them - he, Hermione, Itmana, and Khaled - were slurping oysters at an outside table of an Art-Deco brasserie in the Opera Quartier (called, rather optimistically in Hermione's opinion, Les Grands Capucines, after the bustling boulevard facing its stained-glass windows) - or rather, Hermione and Khaled were slurping oysters á deux, relatively unimpeded by the need to speak. They wouldn't, Hermione thought ruefully, have gotten a word in edgewise if they'd tried. Itmana and Neville had spent the first five post-introduction minutes of their dinner staring dumbstruck at each other across the table, another five racing through the obligatory business that was the initial object of the meeting, and were now - having successfully navigated the treacherous Tell-Me-About-Yourself Conversational Rapids - happily ensconced at the far end of the table, trading horrendous-spring-break-in-Miami stories (probably, ironically enough, the one experience they held completely in common). Apparently, Hermione mused, Itmana was still a sucker for Sensitive Guys - a weakness she'd readily admitted to back in the steamy no-secrets schoolgirl haven of the hammam - and there was no question that Neville pretty much had the market cornered on that particular brand of masculinity. He was giving back as good as he got, too - the lure of those dark dancing-girl eyes was considerable, after all. And while the conversation had remained relatively casual so far, at least in terms of its topic, their body language had violins and palm-trees stamped all over it. Well, I didn't see this one coming. The upside to this unexpected love connection, of course, was that neither of the smitten parties seemed much interested in the hors d'ouevres. Hermione tossed back another oyster, washed it down with a swallow of table wine, and caught Khaled's eye over the top of the bread basket. He tipped his head slightly sideways in his half-sister's direction, pulled a comical face, and raised his shoulders in a wry shrug. "It's her mating call," he murmured, leaning toward her across the table. "The minute she says, ‘I know exactly how you feel' … that means coffee and liqueurs right there. Should she follow it up at any point with ‘That's remarkably sensitive of you', it's an automatic invitation back to the flat to see her etchings. After that, the only way the poor guy can possibly screw it up is by arguing politics with her." Hermione laughed, but felt a wriggle of protective concern for Neville send up a tiny flare from the general direction of her conscience. "And how often does this happen?" she inquired casually, tearing apart a piece of baguette. Khaled considered this. "It's only happened twice, as far as I know. Before now, I mean." The flare fizzled and died. "Oh. I see." They shot a covert glance at the other side of the table, which went unintercepted; Neville might as well have thrown up a Barrier Charm right through the middle of the flickering candle centerpiece. Itmana was flushed and bright-eyed and swilling wine as casually as if it were root beer; "that's a fascinating point," she said now to Neville, her voice low and earnest, and Hermione and Khaled snickered uncharitably. "Tell me now," Khaled said, "for the sake of my brotherly concern. This Longbottom fellow - he's an honourable person?" "Completely," Hermione averred, shooting an anxious glance at the starry-eyed party in question. "Not a hint of the drageur about him, if that's what you're asking. I've never seen him look like this." "Excellent." Khaled leaned back, withdrew a stylish flat wallet from his inside jacket pocket, and nonchalantly flipped a stack of hundred-franc notes onto the table. "Then let's leave them to it and seek our fortunes elsewhere tonight. Do you gamble at all?" "Gamble?" Hermione's eyes went wide; of all the questions he could have asked, this was hardly what she'd expected. "Um. Not really. I mean, we used to play Expl—I mean, Snap—for a penny a point, back at school. But that's about it." "Ah. Well, that's a start." Khaled grinned. "This isn't my favorite part of town," he mused. "Too touristy, and I'm not particularly a fan of the theatre. But since we're here …" He jerked his head in the general direction of the multiplex cinema a block or so away. "There's a private casino in that block of buildings, and their restaurant serves a better dinner than anything you'll find on the street. And I'll teach you how to play baccarat afterwards, if you like." "Um." Hermione bit her lip. "Sounds lovely, Khaled. Really. But—" "You look very British when you're worried," he teased. "Don't get nervous. It's a bit glittery, I grant you that, but it's not the den of vice you'd expect it to be. Come on - it'll be fun." It's not the casino that's got me nervous, Hermione thought. It's the fact that this started out as dinner-with-friends and is turning into a date. She swallowed hard, about to object, then took another look at him and relaxed a little. The light of love was noticeably absent from his eyes; particularly when contrasted with the earnest, soft-spoken Neville, he looked exactly like what he was - a charming, bored princeling anxious for diversion. And baccarat did sound exciting. And very … well, French. "Okay," she said. "Lead the way." ** They turned right, toward the Seine, and strolled down the boulevard, companionably arm-in-arm to avoid being separated by the heavy foot traffic. This part of Paris juxtaposed the banal with the sublime, the glaringly modern with the ancient - the Opera-Comique and Church of the Madeleine snuggled up on the same block with Burger King and Copy Cop. The multiplex cinema was crowded with lines of moviegoers; Hermione glanced at the marquee and was surprised to see it advertising mostly Hollywood films. They crossed the street at the next light - "it's right here," Khaled said, pointing to a limestone building in front of them. Hermione blinked - the only eateries she could see on this block were McDonalds and Pizza Hut - but trotted along next to him anyway, mystified but willing to go along for the ride. He walked past the fast-food joints and turned the corner to the building's side-entrance - ah, this was better, a modest sign advertising a Chinese restaurant - but they went past that too, through a single unmarked door in the side of the building … and then Hermione understood, and caught her breath. She'd read about this, about the hidden courtyards of Paris - now that she was inside, what had seemed like an impenetrable block of stone was revealed as its true self: a fortress surrounding a garden. More carved wooden doors, these flanked by close-faced men in dark suits. When they saw Khaled, they nodded. "Bonsoir, Monsieur. Madame." "Bonsoir, messieurs." One of them opened the door, and they walked through. Beyond it was a curving staircase, lushly carpeted in crimson; as they emerged onto the first landing, Hermione caught a glimpse of the casino - shimmering, rococo, chandeliered, more like the Dauphin's drawing-room than the gambling den of her prurient fantasies - and had to hold back a gasp. "Beautiful, isn't it?" Khaled didn't pause. "One more flight," he said; "we'll see all this again after dinner. I refuse to gamble on an empty stomach." The restaurant was on the top floor, as bejeweled and resplendent as anything below it and yet somehow cheerful, brighter and more bustling than Hermione would have expected. They were shown to a corner table by a smiling maitre-d', after which food and wine appeared almost instantly, without benefit of wine list or menu. Hermione ate what was put before her - what seemed like dozens of tiny elegantly-sauced portions, a biteful of this delicacy, a thimbleful of that, her fork hardly touching her plate before it was whisked away and replaced with something else. "Is this the tasting menu?" she wanted to know, and Khaled - placidly forking in his uncomplicated plat of steak-frites - laughed. "No," he said. "It's two things, really. First of all, I never bring women here, so they're out to impress you. And secondly, you're an anglaise. They're trying to show you how it's done." "You know these people pretty well, don't you?" It was more a statement than a question; they'd had three waiters hovering round their table since they sat down, and more than one of them had lingered for conversation. Khaled nodded. "I come here a lot," he said. "Up in the Goutte d'Or, Itmana and I don't use our real names, or flaunt our real cash, or pretend to know anything about our real bloodlines … in fact, we're not even brother and sister, but just Yasmine and Zarif, doctor and administrator. Which is freeing in one sense, I suppose - I can do a lot of things as Zarif that I'd never have contemplated as Khaled - but on the other hand, it can be wearing, too. I used to visit this place back in the days when I didn't have a secret identity, so there was never any question of trying to preserve anonymity here. It's still just about the only place in the city where I can use my real name." Oh, God, Hermione thought, startled. I know just how he feels. I'll be inviting him to view my etchings next. ** She didn't, though. They'd finished dinner, played a few rounds of baccarat in the gilded little casino, and that had been that. Much to her surprise, he hadn't even tried anything, had merely kissed her cheek and put her in a cab. "Bonsoir, Doctor," he'd said. "See you at the office on Monday." The perfect gentleman. And now she was curled up in bed, staring into the dark and hating herself because for just a minute there, she hadn't wanted him to be. It had nothing to do with Khaled himself. It wasn't as if she wanted to date him, after all. But for just a moment, as he'd leaned down for that friendly farewell cheek-press that was as natural on the streets of Paris as breathing, she'd felt her whole body tighten and thrill with his nearness. It's been so long. So goddamn long. And after the longing came that ultimate of mood-killers, guilt: at least you're still alive. Yes. Alive. And drying up from the inside out. Damn it, Bill, I miss you. Her right hand slid up her knee in a parody of a lover's gesture, hesitated at the apex of her thighs. More heat - yes, yes, yes, insisted her expectant body, while her brain balked: you know this makes you twice as lonely afterwards, right? And you'll have that dream again, too. I know. But it's either this or Dreamless Sleep. And at least this isn't addictive. More than one kind of addiction, chérie. Don't kid yourself. You think this is what I want? You think I'd choose this? I'm just saying, that's all. In the end, she did it anyway - mostly because her hand was right there, and the bottle of Dreamless Sleep was on the bathroom counter, well out of arm's-reach. It was pretty much like she'd predicted: a few moments of pleasure, more grim than guilty, the welcome novocaine jolt of orgasm, and then pain, so crippling and intense that she shook with it - because no matter what the scientists claimed, sex was about more than just chemicals and proximity … and because she was reduced to foraging for scraps, when once she'd been a queen. The scariest thing of all, she thought, head buried in her knees, is that two hours ago, I thought I was happy. How can I fight this thing off, when I can't even see it coming? It was her last thought before she slept. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Eighteen ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ "You're going to Paris again tonight, aren't you?" It was a pleasant, breezy evening, illuminated by the beginnings of a glorious sunset and underscored with a tranquil soundtrack of calling loons from the nearby lake. Severus had moved a card table out onto the porch; ostensibly, they were supposed to be playing chess, but the game wasn't really going anywhere. The dreamy lassitude of the Montana evening had infected even Sal's normally-competitive chessmen; on the sidelines of the board, a black pawn who'd finished reassembling her splintered torso was now allowing her hair to be brushed and rebraided by her white counterpart. They'd had a late lunch and weren't particularly concerned with eating another meal, though the tin of chocolate-coated caramel popcorn Severus had bought on impulse last week at a specialty confectioner s in Chicago had accompanied them to the porch, and was now - inexplicably - several inches emptier. There was a curious, not unpleasant residue of sugar on his tongue. His hands were sticky. "Maybe," he said. "It depends." "On what, exactly?" Sal's tone was mild and noncommittal, but Severus had to fight the urge to squirm, nevertheless. He didn t know how the old ghost had found him out, but his nocturnal visits had been common knowledge for more than a week now, and it was making him feel unaccountably guilty. "On whether she starts crying again," he said shortly. "What else?" "My mistake," Sal said pleasantly. "And here I was thinking you only went when you couldn t stay away. Severus glared at him for a moment, gripping his queen so hard that she squeaked in protest, then set her down again and dropped his eyes. That too, he admitted. But mostly it s the other. If you could hear her He made a face. I think you got the better end of the bargain, when Albus divided up that charm. Why couldn t I be the one sleeping soundly through the night? It s more in your line of work anyway, haunting is. He knew he sounded petulant, but he didn t care. And if she caught you at it, she d be more inclined to be forgiving. If my Apparation skills ever fail me, I ll carry the scars to my grave. And it might be a short trip. Sal rolled his eyes, exasperated. It s not as if you don t have a valid pretext for dropping in during broad daylight, he pointed out. I don t know why you re bothering with all this cloak-and-dagger nonsense in the first place. You are her Secret-Keeper, after all, or one of them, at any rate. And you can offer her a brand of comfort that I can t; you re the only living person on the planet who remembers the poor girl s name. He studied the chessboard for a moment, then looked up without making his move. I imagine that she d be rather glad to see you, Severus, if you stopped by for tea. She must be terrifically lonely. I shouldn t be so sure of that. Severus stared out across the scrubby little postage-stamp front lawn of the cottage toward the encircling phalanx of trees. It was that most magical of hours, when even the dubious charms of the crab grass were gilded like a Fabergé egg by the setting sun, and for some reason it made him think of Hogwarts and that long rolling expanse of manicured hill that stretched from the front doors all the way down to the lake. Nostalgic, Severus? Get a grip on yourself. She s fashioned a whole new identity for herself, he said slowly. Even her flat doesn t look like a place she d live in - there s nothing of her former self in it; you ve never seen such a drearily vanilla collection of rooms. He linked his arms moodily around his knees. And from the bits I catch of her comings and goings - I don t hear much, but I can usually pick up on her state of mind, anyway - she seems content enough. He selected a kernel of popcorn and ate it slowly, his brow furrowed. She doesn t seem to have any trouble at all being Kate Billings, he said finally. It s only when she remembers who she is, in fact, that she really seems sad. Frankly, I m not sure that helping her remember her old life is really such a kindness. Nor is it a kindness, Sal pointed out acerbically, to feed her delusions by letting her think that her dead husband visits her in her dreams. Get your head out of your arse. He scowled. Merlin knows that the two of you have enough communication problems between you to Obfuscate an army of star-crossed lovers; I ll be the first to testify to that. But this is not the time, Severus! His wise old face was strained with worry and as serious as Severus had ever seen it. That child is about to lose herself. The whole universe is trying to convince her that she doesn t exist. He looked grave. And you re the only one, I m afraid, who can persuade her otherwise. They sat in silence following this low-voiced outburst, both more upset than they would have cared to admit, and watched the flame of the sunset curl into cinders and slowly wink out. Severus was the first to break the uneasy silence. Blame Albus, he said, his voice edged with something that might have been bitterness, might have been simply resignation. His one great weakness is his faith in mankind; he s forever looking at me and seeing what I could have been, and not what I truly am. I m the last one he should have entrusted her to, even if he ll never admit it. Perhaps, Sal said. Perhaps not. His earlier censure had mellowed now into a kind of speculation that Severus found even more unsettling. You could do worse, he pointed out, than to try to live up to Albus s expectations of you. Haven t you ever wondered exactly what it is that he finds so eminently worthy of redemption? Good question. Severus had, in fact, spent hours contemplating that very mystery. But that had been a long time ago, and his speculations had grown weary and stale with repetition without ever arriving at a plausible conclusion. Now, the question just irritated him. If I spent all day trying to suss out what was on Albus Dumbledore s mind, he muttered, I d be as daft as he is. Forget Albus, then, Sal said, catching his eyes with a pale-grey gaze that was - coming from a man you could read the newspaper through, anyway - surprisingly steely. Are you going? Severus sighed and tipped over his protesting king. I m going, he said through gritted teeth. Just let me find my wand. ** He took the Apparation in several steps; it was a long way from Montana to Paris, and trans-Atlantic jumps were difficult enough without being two thousand miles away from the near coast when you made the leap. Beside that, the stops gave him a chance to focus his mind and wind down from what had been, for the two contented bachelors that he and Sal usually were, a most-heated discussion. That child is about to lose herself. Get your head out of your arse. Was he really overestimating her? As he winked into existence on an Atlantic City boardwalk and looked around for a salt-water taffy stand, Severus thought back to the last time he d caught a mental glimpse of her during the day. Usually he didn t hear dialogue, unless she herself absorbed and repeated it mentally; in this instance, he d caught both the conversation and the glimpse of a face, thin and wiry and as streetwise as a sewer rat s. Doc! the teenager had yelled, and detached himself from the group he was loitering in to dash across the busy street to where Hermione was standing. Hey, Doc. Take a look at my arm. Hermione, surprised, had hesitated, then shifted her bag to her other shoulder and palpated his skinny, rather grimy forearm gently in one hand. Good as new, she d said. How does it feel? Like it never happened. The kid shot her a sly look. I ll tell you my name, he d said in conspirator s tones, if you ll tell me how you did it. She had stiffened. I don t know what you re talking about. Like hell. You put your hands on me and the bone went back together. That s some mad mojo you got, Doc. He leaned in a little closer. I owe you one. You don t owe me anything, Hermione said crisply. Just stay out of fights, okay? Especially if the other guy s got a big stick. The street kid, already poised to sprint back toward his compadres, grinned over his shoulder. You re okay, Doc. Peace out. Severus had felt her reaction to the exchange across three thousand miles and a six-hour time change: glowing with achievement, lit up like a scoreboard. Peace out, she d repeated to herself, and laughed to herself as she reshouldered her bag and continued on toward the clinic. Easy to see that she loved her job. Harder, he admitted, to reconcile that happy, cautiously confident woman with the girl who wept almost nightly in his arms. Which one was real? And did it matter? He didn t know. But one thing, at least, seemed obvious: this charade couldn t go any farther. This was the night that he had to wake her up. He wasn t looking forward to it. ** The soft sound of her weeping drifted in from the bedroom as he Apparated into the parlor, laden with bags, and laid down his parcels. Severus winced; this was always the most unpleasant bit, to hear the proof of her unhappiness both outside his head and in. He tossed his outer cloak over a chair, shook back his disheveled hair, and headed for the doorway. Not so fast, bucko. Hold it right there. The voice, a rich creamy contralto, startled him so that he spun round and knocked his elbow rather nastily on the door frame as he went for his wand. Gripping the injured joint, he glared into the darkness. Who s there? I ll ask the questions around here, if you don t mind. A pinpoint of light flared as a match was struck; a moment later, the room was suffused in candlelight. In the mural on the parlor s long wall, a tall cappuccino-skinned woman with a rather impressive bosom replaced the lighted candle in a candelabrum on the piano, then crossed her painted arms and fixed him with a challenging stare. Maxine Winter, she said by way of introduction. My friends call me Maxie. Play your cards right and you might work your way up to it. She reseated herself on the stool by the piano. Severus Snape, I presume? Severus nodded. The same, he said crisply, brain racing as he tried to think of where he d seen her before. You were in Cairo, he said at last. The night we defeated Hatshepsut. Singing Duke Ellington. He studied the mural - rickety card table, deserted piano and trap set, string bass on its side in the background like a reclining woman. Where s your band? Elsewhere, Maxie said shortly. And now that I ve satisfied your curiosity, why don t you satisfy mine? What the hell are you doing here? Even on the best of occasions, Severus balked at trading verbal badinage with the artwork. With Hermione s weeping echoing in his ears like angry surf, he simply didn t have the energy to be duplicitous. She keeps crying, he said, his voice low and almost accusatory. Can t you hear it? I can - from the next continent over. And I can t bear it. That s why. She doesn t know it s you. Merlin in a catsuit, how many times was he going to have to repeat this conversation today? I know, he snapped. She thinks I m Bill Weasley. Well, I m not, and I can t be, and believe you me, I d bring him back in a heartbeat if I could, if it meant I d be able to get a decent night s sleep. But that s never going to happen. I don t like this any more than you do. She doesn t think you re Bill. He frowned, the wind taken out of his sails. She doesn t? But that first night - she said - she called me - Give her some credit, Maxie said without heat. She slept with the man every night for six years, didn t she? She ought to know when it s him and when it s not. Then she- Severus felt fear and relief spiral through him in equally dizzying parts. Then she knows it s- No. Maxie looked at him hard. Though possibly that should be remedied before the sun comes up. She readjusted her snug red skirt about her bare knees. She thinks you re a priest, she said, and smiled grimly as Severus gaped at her. She thinks I m what? The last occupant of this flat was a priest, and he died while living here. Maxie rolled her eyes. She found out from the kid next door, and it s got her thrown off track. She thinks she s being cuddled by the ghost of m sieur le curé, and she s having a hell of a time rationalising the fact that her phantom lover leaves a warm dent in the pillow to mark his passing. She lowered her voice to a meaningful whisper. I don t know what your intentions are, she said. Though if Albus Dumbledore chose you to be her Secret-Keeper, I m willing to believe you don t mean her harm. But this has to stop. She s half-mad with grief already, and this bedroom charade isn t exactly conducive to sanity. You want to come cuddle her out of her nightmares, fine. Be my guest. But for God s sake, tell her who you really are. This is getting ridiculous. Severus had had enough. Don t you think I would if I could? he hissed. Believe me, Apparating into other people s beds under false pretenses isn t on my Top Ten list for this evening s preferred activities. If I thought for one moment that she d accept comfort from me, I would certainly offer it to her. But I m the last person Hermione Granger wants to see in Paris. The minute she finds out who her ghost really is, all hell is going to break loose. Damn right it is. The voice came from behind him. He and Maxie exchanged panicked glances, then spun as one to face the doorway. They d been so intent on their argument, Severus realised, that they hadn t noticed when Hermione s crying had stopped. It was hard telling how much she d heard from the door; from the white, strained look on her face, she d heard enough. Miss Granger, he said weakly, and saw her jaw clench. Professor Snape. She wrapped her arms around her thin torso, trembling against the door frame in an attempt to keep her voice even. It shook anyway. What a pleasure. Ruthlessly, he swallowed the apologies that tripped to his tongue; it wasn t going to help either of them for him to fall apart too, no matter how defensive he felt. You d better sit down, he said, wincing at the cold edge in his voice. I m afraid I owe you an explanation. That you do, she said, her voice as icy as his. But I m afraid I don t want to hear it. Get out. This, Severus hadn t expected. What? They re small words, Professor. Not much chance you can misunderstand them, even as thickheaded and disregarding of my feelings as you obviously are. Get. Out. He took a step toward her. Hermione- No! She was shaking with anger, her eyes blazing. You - degenerate. You - pervert. You - you sneak. You betrayed me. You lied to me. Hermione, listen. I never meant Go away. Her voice was harsh, the end of each word on the point of breaking. He d never seen her eyes so cold, so dead. I never want to see you again. Just go away. She had slid down the doorframe to sit on the floor, and was huddled into a trembling pajama-clad ball, head buried in her knees. Severus took a step toward her, and was halted by a warning shake of Maxie s head. Not now, she mouthed, her dark eyes almost sympathetic as she took in the look on his face. Not yet. Just go. She ll come round. Severus wasn t so sure of that. But he left anyway. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Nineteen ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ For the first half hour after he left, Hermione didn't move. After that, she started breaking dishes. And finally, when muffled thumping from the ceiling indicated that her plate-throwing party had woken the upstairs neighbours, she curled up in the parlor chair, heedless of the shard-littered floor or the ugly, seeping gash in her left palm, and cried herself hoarse into a needlepoint pillow. Cleo had been solicitous for the first act of this impromptu mad scene, but had retreated to the relative safety of the bedroom when crockery started to fly. Maxie, on the other hand, watched the whole embarrassing débacle calmly from her stool by the piano, not offering either encouragement or censure. It wasn't until Hermione's sobs died down to intermittent, exhausted hiccups that she finally spoke. "Looks like that's been brewing for a while. Feel any better? " "Not really." More ashamed of her tantrum than she cared to think about right now, Hermione wiped her eyes on the hapless pillow and fumbled for her wand. "Reparo," she said dully, and watched the fragments of stoneware around her scurry to click themselves together so that she wouldn't have to meet Maxie's eyes. "Just foolish. And sick - I always give myself a tension headache when I cry." Maxie studied her manicure. When she spoke, her tone was deceptively casual. "Ever get this mad at Bill, sugar?" "No," Hermione said immediately, then reconsidered. "Well, once. Maybe. Mostly we didn't fight." Maxie hummed in agreement. "Not much of a fighter, was he?" "Not at all." Hermione tucked her feet under her and leaned her head back against the chair. "He couldn't stand it," she said softly. "Neither of us could ... it just felt so awful." A faint, unwilling smile of reminiscence curved her lips. "Plus, Molly made us promise each other, the day before we got married, that we'd always make up our fights before we went to sleep. She was pretty stern about it, too." "His mama, she's a good person," Maxie said. Hermione nodded fervently. "I miss her." Just saying it made her want to cry again. Three little words, encompassing a truth so great and terrible that she hadn't even realised it until she'd said them, and by then it was too late, it had already been unleashed - and it felt awful, like a glacier was breaking loose inside her body, big chunks of ice tearing away from each other under a hot river of pent-up tears. "I miss her so much. And Arthur, and Ron and the twins, and Harry and Ginny ..." She swiped at her streaming eyes. "And oh, Maxie, I m-miss my mum." Four months of loss and grief and desolation were bubbling out of her, and she was powerless to stem the flow. "She - she wanted to c-come to the funeral. She and Dad. And we'd already had it, and so I told her -" she gulped - "I told her not to come, and she cried. She loved him so much. And now ..." She swiped gracelessly at her streaming eyes. "And now she doesn't even remember me. No one does; it's as if they're all dead, too. And I never said g-goodbye. To anyone. No one told me it would be like this. I didn't know, Maxie." "What didn't you know, honey?" "That it would feel so horrible," Hermione whispered miserably. "That I'd miss them like I do. That they mattered so much. That I'd want so badly to take it back." A pause, as she grappled for a tissue from the box on the side table; two honks, as she blew her nose, sniffed, then blew it again. Maxie, in the meantime, was looking thoughtful. "You could," she said. "Take it back, I mean. It's not irreversible, you know." "I know." Hermione was silent for a moment. "But what then?" she asked - quietly, as much to herself as to Maxie. "Does that make it all better? No. It just means that I become a liability to everyone I love, yet again." Her voice, already rough from crying, cracked under the weight of her bitterness. "Don't stand too close, don't say too much, don't stay the night ... because if you do, you just might walk through the wrong door at the wrong time and take a little piece of Death that's meant for me. I can't go back to that. Can't stand to have any more blood on my hands." Her palm, in fact, was still bleeding, but she didn't notice. "Can't go back," she repeated. "And can't go on, either - can't seem to bury Hermione Granger, whoever the hell she still is, and get on with being Kate Billings. So where does that leave me, Maxie? Who does that leave me? Paintings and ghosts and Severus-goddamn-Snape, that's who." She shook her head wearily. "No offense." "None taken." Maxie shrugged. "I know where you're coming from, sugar. I'm a good listener, maybe, but I can't do much for you in the three-dimensional hug department." She tilted her handsome head to one side. "But that does beg the question - why run off your Secret-Keeper, when he was offering you exactly what you've just told me that you want? You don't really think he's a pervert, do you?" "No," Hermione admitted. "It isn't that." "What, then?" "It's hard to explain." Her cut had begun to clot; nervously, she scraped at the edges of the new scab. "But mostly I think it's a case of too little, too late." "Sorry?" Hermione pulled a face. "There was a time," she elaborated, "and not so long ago, either, when I would have given anything to have that from him - and not like this, not out of neediness or loneliness. I would have chosen him. Over anyone else. Over the world. And he didn't want me." She set her jaw hard against tears; it was one thing to cry because she didn't have a mother anymore, but she'd wept enough over Severus Snape, and that ship had long since sailed. "Or rather, he did. But not enough to change anything, or give up anything, or make a declaration, or admit that he had feelings for me. He might as well have picked me up and dumped me into Bill Weasley's bed kicking and screaming. That's how much I wanted to stay, and how much he wanted me to go." The cut was bleeding again, which seemed an oddly fitting accompaniment to her monologue. Hermione imagined these memories to be just like that - a long-infected sore, oozing out poison now that she'd finally ripped off its crust. "So I went," she said defiantly. "I went running to Bill, and I never looked back. And I loved him - I did, more than anything, more than I thought I could. But I didn't love him f-first—" here, her voice faltered -"and now he's gone, and I keep thinking: what if I hadn't chosen him? What if I hadn't let Snape run me off? Because if I hadn't married Bill, he'd still be—" "—Gonna give yourself an aneurysm if you don't stop 'what-if'-ing," Maxie said sharply. "It's not your fault Bill's dead. Don't throw acid on the memory of your marriage like that - you loved each other and it didn't last forever, that's all. You think he would blame you? He was happy every minute he had you." At Hermione's stricken look, her voice gentled. "Not your fault," she said again. "And not Snape's either, though I can see why you'd be tempted to lay at least some of the blame at his door. You're both innocents in this." "Innocent," Hermione repeated, and laughed - a bitter, hard little sound like china shattering on stone. "Somehow, I don't think that word applies. To either of us." "That," Maxie said, "is where you're wrong." They fell to silence, and waited for the sun to rise. ** Given Hermione's current mood, Joséphine Dessources' arrival in Paris on the following Friday afternoon was a welcome pick-me-up. I'm getting a hotel, she'd written, so I don't wear out my welcome. And so I can accommodate my queue of inevitable shagging partners without being a pest. It's been entirely too long since I got laid - so polish up your dancing shoes and make us some reservations. I'm warning you now that I've been under Minerva-Rule far too long for my own sanity; don't be surprised if I eat my salad with my fingers and pass wind in public until my internal equilibrium reasserts itself. Heh, Hermione thought, cheered by the letter's saucy good humour, and went to look through her closet. There wasn't much there; she'd left all of her dressy Muggle clothes in Cairo, along with the contents of the house. The house itself was already sold - Hermione had put it on the market at the same time she went in to see Linchpin and change over the name on her accounts - and she honestly didn't have any idea where their personal items were … everything had been packed up while she was at Hogwarts, courtesy of the Malfoy house-elves, and put into storage. And while she wore Muggle clothes every day in Paris, she'd more or less adopted Itmana's uniform of lab-coat-over-blue-jeans. Well, she hadn't gotten top Transfiguration marks for nothing, she decided, and took out her wand. The result was a knee-length linen sheath in basic black, dressed down by way of a white cashmere sweater tied round her shoulders. She added shoes and a bag, poked in pearl studs, and admired her reflection - not bad, not bad at all. That sense of self-satisfaction lasted until she saw Joséphine, sitting at the bar of La Bilboquet with a parasol-topped daiquiri in hand. Hogwarts' Potions Mistress was wearing a cherry-red leather minidress and a generous coating of body glitter and very little else, unless you counted the spike-heeled sandals and the lip gloss. Her headdress of braids was twisted up atop her head and secured with a studded red leather dog collar; a handful of hopeful admirers were eyeing her over their drinks, gathering courage for an approach. I look like the Queen Mum, Hermione thought, wide-eyed, then squared her shoulders. Oh, well - too late for reinvention now. "Hey," she said, touching Joséphine's shoulder and sliding onto the free bar stool next to her. "How are you? Sorry, I didn't get the dominatrix memo." "Kate. Sweetie." With a naughty wink, her friend drew her into an embrace. "Just feeding the fantasy vibe. Don't panic," she murmured as she pressed first one cheek, then the other to Hermione's, then gave her - to Hermione's intense surprise - a not-so-brief kiss on the lips before drawing back. "There's a table of Japanese businessmen over there with a serious case of lesbian fetish." She looked Hermione up and down. "Just come from the cotillion, did we?" Hermione, blushing pink to her hairline, rolled her eyes. "Well, you know me," she said lamely. "Always the conservative one." Not true, whispered her subconscious. You flashed a bit of thigh, too, back in the day. Way back in the day, you mean. Twenty-five-year-old widows shouldn't try to squeeze into the same skirts they wore when they were seventeen. "Conservative?" Joséphine laughed. "I seem to remember that you had your moments. Come on, drink up. I'm buying." "Un kir, s'il-vous-pläit," Hermione said to the curious bartender, and wriggled her way more firmly onto the barstool. "So - how's Hogwarts?" "The students are fine." Joséphine drained her daiquiri, tapped her glass to signal for a refill, and crossed one bare shapely thigh over the other, causing two students in black turtlenecks on the other side of the room to slump back in their chairs and raise her a toast. "The job is fine. Madame Haggis, on the other hand, is unbearable." "You don't mean McGonagall." "Who else would fit that awful name? Ah, merci beaucoup." She sucked pensively at the toothpick-tip of her new daiquiri's paper umbrella. "Not a day goes by," she said, "that I'm not taken to task by that woman. And over silly things." Hermione sipped at her kir. "Such as?" "Oh, you name it, I've been dressed down for it. Sunbathing on the lawn. Wearing shorts under my robes. Braiding ribbons into Albus's beard - when he's the one who wanted me to do it in the first place!" She shrugged and took a gulp of her drink. "None of which," she said, "compares to what happened in Hogsmeade a couple of months ago." "Really." Hermione snickered at the dark look on her friend's face. "Do tell." "Well." Joséphine twirled the little umbrella absently in her fingers. "I don't know if they were around when you were there. But there's a shop in Hogsmeade, called ‘Weasley's Wizard Wheezes'. Sells joke wands, trick candy, that sort of thing. You know it?" Hermione felt a clutch in her chest. "I know it," she said. "Fred and George Weasley were two years ahead of me in school." "Ah. Well, then, you'll understand." Another shrug. "Admittedly, they're a bit younger than I am. But they were never my students, now, were they? And they're most definitely of age." Hermione choked on her kir. "Are you meaning to tell me," she spluttered when she finally could speak again, "that you slept with the Weasley twins? Both of them?" "Well - given the chance, wouldn't you?" Joséphine lifted her eyebrows in the parody of a reasonable expression. "It's not every day that a girl gets to double her pleasure … now, is it?" She sipped at her drink. "It's not as if we didn't know each other - I've been working there for three years now. Was a consultant, in fact, on a couple of their newest projects. And then, they've both been so down lately." There was that clutch again. Hermione leaned forward, trying not to seem too eager at the promise of news. "Down?" "Oh, didn't you hear? Very sad, actually. Their older brother died in a freak accident earlier this summer. He lived in Cairo, I think." Hermione swallowed hard. "Freak accident?" "They're saying it was Muggle terrorists," Joséphine said. "That he was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. Too bad, really." "Did he leave anyone behind?" Hermione knew it was a bad idea to ask, but she couldn't seem to stop herself. "Any … family? " Joséphine looked puzzled. "Well, his parents and his brothers and sister," she said. "Big family, the Weasleys - you probably remember. But I don't think he was seeing anyone at the time, no. Word is that he was a cursebreaker. Longtime bachelor." She leaned one elbow on the bar. "Anyway, I thought they could do with some cheering up - and Merlin knows how the Great Haggis found out, but she did. It's a wonder I wasn't booted out on ethics charges." "A wonder," Hermione repeated numbly. Joséphine gave her a sharp look. "You okay, sweetie? You're looking a little pale." "Hm? No. Fine. I'm fine." "Looks like you could use some fresh air." Joséphine slid off the stool and stretched theatrically, which had the dual effect of sending her already-brief hemline sliding north and causing the nearby table of Japanese executives to spill their drinks. "Come on," she said. "Aren't we going discothéquing? " "You tell me," Hermione said, fighting for composure. "Are we?" "You bet your derrière, sweetheart. I haven't seen a real city in months - it's a real soul-sucker, that job." Joséphine plucked a wad of euros from her glitter-slathered cleavage, peeled off a couple, and tossed them on the bar. "Come on," she said again. "Let's find the loo before we go, so I can fix you up a bit. We're never going to get past the bouncers at Les Bains with you looking like that." Managing a wan smile, Hermione clutched her bag more firmly and followed her. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ It wasn t as much fun as she d thought it would be. Hermione, feeling itchy and exposed in the black Lycra minidress Joséphine had charmed her into, pulled irritably at one of its cutout shoulders and scanned her surroundings dubiously from her corner by the bar. Les Bains - once a bathhouse in the grandest of nineteenth-century traditions, now one of Paris trendiest and most outré of nightclubs - was packed to the gills with people and rocking on its foundations with the force of the world-pop technobeat reverberating from the clusters of strategically placed speakers. Now that she thought about it, it looked and sounded a bit like the clubs she d frequented in Rome, first with Giulia and then, later, with Draco. And - as she recalled - she d enjoyed that experience thoroughly. So why wasn t she having a good time now? Because it s no fun getting hit on if you re not interested, the Voice of Reason informed her frostily. Because you don t really belong here anymore. Because there isn t any bloody point to it. Bonsoir, cherie, someone murmured at her left shoulder - the third time so far she d been thus accosted. Ça va? She flicked him a quick glance - a man she didn t know, wearing tight PVC pants and too much black eyeliner - then looked away, embarrassed. Her two previous admirers had taken her lack of reply as a hint and faded into the jostling, gyrating throng; this time, however, she wasn t so fortunate. V lez vous danser? he persisted - then, with a leer: Baiser? Hermione shook her head, embarrassment flaring into annoyance as he muscled in a little closer and continued to stare at her. Va te faire foutre, she said, summoning up the most insulting French she knew and delivering it with a sneer worthy of a street punk from the Goutte d Or. Her would-be Romeo flushed. Je t emmerde, he spat, already half-turned to go. Quelle allemeuse! Well, that summed it up nicely. Hermione took another sip of her seltzer - now gone warm and flat from the suffocating heat in the room - and sighed. If I really was Kate Billings, I d have said yes. Or I d be over there shaking it right next to Joséphine, and would have avoided the whole thing. But I m not her. And I don t want this - at least, I don t think I do. As if summoned by the thought of her name, Joséphine appeared from the centre of the crowd, her glittering skin damp with perspiration. One hand held a plastic cup of what looked like rum and Coke; the other was towing in its wake one of the darkly beautiful, indolent-looking young men who seemed to populate every street corner in Paris. He was wearing Joséphine s dog-collar around his neck. Hi, Joséphine said breathlessly, tipping her head toward the dance floor. This is crazy, isn t it? How are you doing? Fine, Hermione said, leaning in closer to make herself heard over the din. Just had a visitation from a truly scary incarnation of Captain Latex. Told him to fuck off and got called a cock-teaser for my trouble. She cast a glance at Joséphine s companion. Looks like you ve had better luck. His name s Marc, Joséphine informed her, draining the remains of her cocktail. Dishy, isn t he? Great dancer, too. Come on - come join us. Hermione hesitated, then shook her head. No thanks, she said. I d rather watch. Kinky. Ha, ha, ha. Not that kind of watching. Hermione, sensing the opportunity for a graceful early exit, rolled her eyes good-naturedly. Go ahead - you know, do your thing, don t worry about me. I ve had a long week; I m going to call it a night. I ll meet you for lunch at your hotel tomorrow, okay? You sure? Absolutely. You re a sweetheart. Joséphine leaned forward and gave her a friendly buss on the cheek. One o clock, okay? No earlier. Have fun. She watched Joséphine tow her pretty boy back to the dance floor with a touch of wistfulness, then set her half-empty seltzer back on the bar and surreptitiously hauled her Spandex in the direction of her knees. Had enough. Time to go. Part of her, the deep-down still-young part of her that had boogied till dawn at a Roman discothèque and loved every minute of it was disappointed. The rest of her was guardedly sympathetic, even as it shoved itself resolutely through the crush of bodies. Sure, this wasn t her scene - and any move that took her away from Captain Latex, in her opinion, was bound to be a good one. Even Pretty-Boy Marc wasn t really her style. But how nice it would be, she thought, to have him as an escape - to be Joséphine or someone like her - to have problems you could get away from, problems that didn t keep following you around no matter where you went, like angry strays demanding to be fed. How nice to lose yourself in someone else s arms, someone else s lips. How depressing that she d stood there for an hour and a half and turned down all her takers without a second thought. The truth was (she realised as she wound her way through the dancers, past the plunging pool in which a small crowd of lunatics were ruining their haute couture, and out into the cool quiet night), that though the desire for sexual release became a more acute physical craving with every night she spent alone, the thought of sleeping with a stranger was even more repugnant than that of celibacy. She still held the memory of her last night with Bill, gripped like a jewel in her closed hand - how, then, could she settle for drunken groping with the first Philippe or Henri who propositioned her? He d thrown back the sheets that night and spread her out on them, then closed her eyelids with his fingers and gone out onto the balcony, bringing back bright handfuls of hibiscus blossoms straight from the tree to strew over her naked body. Here, he d whispered, sprinkling petals from her neck to her knees. This is what you feel like - this is how soft you are. Moonlight, warm breeze, bruised flowers - could there be anything more romantic? She d fairly held her breath as he slid over her, crushing the petals between them and releasing the scent into the humid air. And then, just as his lips dipped the final inch of empty space to touch hers, they d discovered the biting ants. Half an hour later, after they d stripped the bed, fumigated the bedroom with a Cleansing Charm, and showered, they d gotten back to their unfinished business - giggling, playful, pinching each other in ticklish places and no longer much inclined toward the pretty words they d started out with. No doubt if they d known it was the last time, Hermione thought, it would have been different; as it was, it had been sharp and quick and breathless - horseplay as foreplay - and as she recalled, neither of them had said very much at all. Except for their goodnight ritual, of course: love you, love you too, sleepy mumbled words to drift off by. She d thought nothing of them at the time. Now, they were still haunting her. She ducked into a darkened doorway and pulled out her wand. Finite Incantatem, she said - the spike heels Joséphine had charmed her into were a bit much, for a walk this long - and sighed with relief as her cramped toes relaxed into the roomier confines of her comfortable old loafers. Freed of her cotillion pearls, her crevice-breaching Spandex, she slid her hands into the pockets of her blue jeans and headed for home. She wished she could slip back into her old life half so easily. Love you. Love you too. That was what had held her back tonight, she decided. Not the noise, not the crowd, not the slick Eurotrashy boys, not even the Voice of Reason shrieking maidenly warnings in her ears. A few simple words, rather, that she d heard every night for six years, and that she feared she d never hear again. It d be easier, you know, mused the Daredevil, not to be you any more. What s stopping you from being Kate, instead? Dangerous argument, that, and one that had cropped up in her thoughts a hundred times since last week s Snape-induced breakdown. I thought, the Voice of Reason said firmly, that we d agreed not to talk about this. You may have agreed. I didn t. The Daredevil paused meaningfully. Well? No dead husband, no dark past, a job you like, people who like you. What do you say? Somehow, she d reached the bridge. She gripped the railing and looked down at the Seine, reflecting back the lights of the city like a shifting black mirror. Her thoughts were as dark as the inky water, and moving twice as fast. Think about it. No one would miss you. No one would even know you d gone. And it s such an easy charm, Obliviate is. Definitely easier, Hermione thought, than either of her alternatives. Reversing the Fidelius put everyone she cared about in the at-risk category - something she, having now experienced one loss, wasn t emotionally prepared to do. And going on as she was was beginning to feel like tempting madness. But Obliviate Sensing her wavering, the Daredevil pressed its advantage. You could walk away from all of it. You could fall in love. You could be happy again. One word, and you d have a whole fresh start. Aren t you even tempted? Hermione clung to the railing of the bridge, her head whirling. Tempted? Hell yes, she was tempted. No more pain, no more tears, no more breaking dishes and crying to portraits and walking home alone in the dark? Sounded like a good deal to her. And all she d have to give in exchange was a name no one else remembered. Bill, the Voice of Reason reminded her, alarmed. Obliviate yourself now, and his killers walk free. Bill s dead. You re alive. Why torture yourself? What can you change? She was crying by now, but didn t notice. I don t know. I don t know. You hate Memory Charms. You promised you d never perform another one - remember? That was a long time ago. A promise is a promise. Fuck promises - decide! Is your life worth keeping, or isn t it? That was the million-euro question - the one that had been lurking in her subconscious ever since she got to Paris, the one she hadn t been able to ask until now. And now that it had finally dug its way up to the surface, she felt paralysed by it, choked by it, able only to clutch at the bridge rail and cry into the Seine - salt water falling into fresh, whether for Bill or for herself she didn t quite know. Maxie would know what to say, but Maxie was a ten-minutes walk away - too far, when she d sunk to her knees, when Apparation meant a near-certain splinch and even pulling herself back up to her feet seemed an insurmountable task. Somewhere in the back of her head, she heard people passing, was distantly aware of their curious glances. No one stopped. She shifted and heard the whisper of latex in the inside pocket of her lab coat, a glove-wand left over from the day s work. Too easy to pull it out, too easy to snap it on and feel the tingle of it worm up to her elbow. One word only and so much easier to say it than to drag herself to her feet, to carry herself through another lonely night of grief. Her gloved fingers slid up to her face, fluttered at her temples. Easy. So easy. And if she hated herself for giving up, it was - after all - only for a moment. Goodbye, Bill, she murmured - then, almost as an afterthought: Goodbye, Hermione. A second later, her world turned to peace in a crackle of gold light. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty-One ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ He knew what she was going to do the split second before she did it – and though he took the Apparation in one jump (rashly, like a much younger man, cursing himself for a million kinds of inobservant idiot), he got there a heartbeat too late to stop her. She was lolled against the railing of the bridge, head at an unnatural angle, eyes closed. Unconscious, not dead, though he'd had to look twice to be sure. Insensible. And smiling. The Portkey he'd given her glittered around her wrist; apparently, she hadn't even thought to use it – either that, or she'd thought about it and decided not to. Severus felt his heart sink. Oh, Circe. Hermione, you stiff-necked little idiot, that Gryffindor pride of yours is going to kill us both. A pair of camera-carrying tourists were huddled around her, murmuring fearfully to each other. When he appeared at their shoulders, they moved aside for him gratefully. "A priest! Doug, ask him if he speaks English," the woman prompted her husband in a tense whisper. Snape smiled grimly. "All my life, madam," he snapped, and saw the beleaguered-looking Doug put away his phrasebook with a relieved slump of his brawny shoulders. "How much did you see? " "We were just taking pictures," the woman said uncertainly, put on the defensive by his sharp tone. "Of the Eiffel Tower. From the other side of the bridge." She jiggled the expensive Nikon dangling from her scrawny neck on its custom-made strap as if it could vouch for her innocent intentions. "Weren't we, Doug?" "There was some funny light," Doug offered. "Like static electricity, kind of. Creepy. And then she just ... fell over." He looked worried. "D'you think we'll have to contact the U.S. consulate? There's not going to be an investigation, is there? We're only here for two more days." Tourists. "Leave her to me," Severus assured him brusquely, striding forward to gather the unconscious Hermione in his arms. She was lighter than he remembered her, and distressingly cold to the touch. "I'll take her home – I know her family. Nothing to worry about." But he was worried – so much so that the moment he was out of sight, he Apparated the rest of the way to her flat. As he deposited her limp form onto the parlor davenport, Maxie – dozing on her stool – sat up with a gasp. "What is it? What's happened?" "Botched Memory Charm," Severus said succinctly. Maxie closed her eyes. "She didn't." "She did." Shocked silence, then: "Oh, the poor lamb. Where did it happen? When?" "Ten minutes ago. Pont de Sully. Tourists found her." He'd already stripped off the lab jacket to check her pulse. Steady and strong, thank Merlin, and no knot on her head to indicate that she'd bumped it when she fell. But her eyelids weren't so much as fluttering. "She seemed so happy earlier," Maxie said blankly. "Dressed up and smiling for the first time in ages. She was going out to dinner with that friend of hers." "The doctor?" "No, the other one. Her friend from school – I don't remember her name. She was just here for the weekend." Severus didn't know who Maxie was referring to – what she was saying didn't make any sense, really, as no one from Hogwarts had any idea that Hermione Granger existed. Frankly, he had more pressing worries at the moment. "Happy?" he repeated, incredulous. "She hasn't been happy since the day it happened. She's just gotten better at hiding it, that's all." He leaned closer, slapped her cheek gently. "Hermione? Hermione!" Nothing. Behind him, Maxie twisted her hands together anxiously. "Is she going to be all right?" "Who knows?" Severus, furious with himself all over again, pushed himself to his feet and began to pace. "There's no way to tell until she wakes up. One thing's for certain, though – a regular-strength Memory Charm wouldn't have knocked her out like this. I imagine she's Obliviated a bit more than she meant to." "It’s not like Hermione to fumble a spell," Maxie said, doubtful. Snape shot her a dark look. "No," he said. "It’s not. But then, that's just the problem, isn't it? We're all so accustomed to her strength that we've overestimated it – myself most of all. I should never have left her alone." "You were here," Maxie pointed out. "She sent you away." "Yes, well, I shouldn't have let her, should I?" Dropping to his knees again, he took the white-faced girl on the sofa by her limp shoulders and gave her a shake. "Come on, Hermione," he muttered. "Wake up, will you?" "Why not let her sleep?" "Because we won't know what she remembers until she does – if she remembers anything at all, that is." Snape sank back on his heels and swiped a weary hand across his eyes. "Taking her recent state of mind into consideration, it's entirely possible that she miscalculated – or simply lost control of her own power – and wiped out her memory completely. And reversing a self-Obliviation is a hundred times harder than undoing the same charm performed by any other wand. Short of Avada Kedavra, it’s hard to think of a more drastic means of self-mutilation." Maxie digested this, nodded, and sank weakly onto the piano bench. "Can it be reversed at all?" Severus shrugged. "If she's still got part of her memory, we might convince her to reverse it herself," he said. "That's the safest way to do it. If, on the other hand, she doesn't even remember she's a witch – and that’s a distinct possibility – well, then, we have a problem." "What about Albus?" "Under ordinary circumstances, he'd be my first pick." He squeezed the cold hand dangling off the edge of the davenport, willing it to squeeze back. It didn't. "The Fidelius Charm complicates things, though. In order for him to perform the Reverso successfully, Sal and I would most likely have to break the Fidelius first. And you'll pardon me if I'm reluctant to do that – the moment we lower that barrier, she'll be in danger once again from those who tried to kill her before, and in no condition to defend herself, should we be unable to restore her memory." Maxie shuddered. "That’s the worst case scenario, right?" "More or less." He rolled his eyes. "Give me time, and I could probably come up with something more spectacularly horrific." "Don’t. That’s quite bad enough." She frowned. "So what do we do?" Severus studied the unconscious girl on the davenport for another moment, then sighed and blew out his breath. No easy answers. The Story Of His Life. "For the night, at least, I'll take her home with me," he said. "What happens after that depends on her state of mind when she wakes up." Maxie looked troubled, but nodded. "Keep me posted." Already stooping to settle the unconscious Hermione against his chest, he turned and gave the worried mural a brief, bleak smile. "Of course." A moment later, they were gone. ** She rose from dreamlessnesss into the sensation of flying, or at least of being elsewhere – warm air changing over to cool, a rangy shoulder beneath her cheek, the detergent smell of clean linen. Somewhere in the periphery of her vision, a lamp flicked on, staining the insides of her eyelids scarlet and gold. She turned her head away with a frown, and a moment later the light dimmed to a fainter, less intrusive glow. "Hermione? Are you awake?" Hermione? Who’s that? Uncertain, she didn't answer, and after a moment of expectant silence, the two voices that had been murmuring together started up again. One was cool and kind and worried; the other carried a lick of impatience at its edges. She was pretty sure that it belonged to the man who'd been carrying her. "I don't know what to do," he was muttering. "Do we tell Albus, do we take her to Hogwarts, do we break the Fidelius? She should be awake by now; a Memory Charm isn't supposed to put you in a coma, for Merlin's sake. Perhaps Poppy should look at her. I'm not much of a mediwizard." "Wait. Let her sleep if she wants to. She'll wake up soon enough." "I blame myself." "Don't." Her throat was dry. Why was her throat so dry? What was the Fidelius? Who was the impatient-voiced man, and what did he blame himself for? For a moment, she tried to remember – then gave up with a grimace; outside that lovely soap-bubble of blank white calm she was floating in was something dark and ugly that she instinctively shrank from. If the man who blamed himself was part of that, she didn't want to know. "I think she's waking up. Get her some water." Water! Yes, please. She opened her eyes, blinking in the dim light from the shaded lamp. A bearded man with grey eyes smiled at her. "Ah, there you are." When he moved, she could see the pattern of the wallpaper through his forehead. "How are you feeling?" She blinked again, to make sure her eyes weren't playing tricks on her. They weren't. "I can see right through you," she announced, and saw his smile grow fixed. "Indeed. Well, goes with the territory, you know. That's what happens when you're a ghost." "A ghost," she repeated, and studied him more carefully, a bit incredulous at her own detachment. "How interesting. You must be dead, then. How did you die?" "That's not important right now." The ghost regarded her gravely. "Do you know who I am?" he inquired. She frowned. "Your name, you mean? No." "Ah." He looked away, but not before she saw disappointment cross his face. "I see. And you? Can you tell me your name?" There were no names at all in the soap-bubble, least of all hers. Ordinarily, she imagined that this would bother her, but right now it didn't seem all that important. "I don't have one," she informed him cheerfully. "Shall we make one up for me?" "No." This, from the doorway – the impatient man had returned with her water. Hermione took it from him and sipped it, studying him over its rim. She couldn’t see through him; where his companion was transparent, he was impenetrable – black clothes, lank black hair, unreadable shadowed eyes. He looked tired and irritable and – from where she was lying – impossibly tall. "I know you, though," she said, and grinned at him when his head swivelled sharply toward her. "You hum under your breath when you walk. And your shoulder smells of sandalwood." She meant it as a compliment, but he didn't look pleased. "Indeed," he said sharply. "And my name?" She could sense that the answer was important to him. She hated to disappoint, but try as she might to find it, there was no file folder in her head with his face on it. Come to think of it, there weren’t any file folders at all. The first niggles of worry began to knock on the windows of her subconscious. She swallowed hard. "I don't know," she said softly. He stared at her for a moment, his narrow, intelligent face tense with frustration, then turned abruptly and disappeared without another word into the next room. She bit her lip, hurt tears prickling behind her eyes. "He's Severus," said the ghost quietly into the tense, weepy silence that followed the dark man's departure. "And I'm Sal." "Severus. Sal." More dark fingers of memory, pushing at the edges of her bubble. She ignored them. "And who am I, then? Or don’t you know?" He was quiet for a long minute before answering. When he looked up, his lined old face was pinched and sad. "That's up to you," he said. "Who do you want to be?" Yet another question she couldn't answer. Unable to look him in the eyes any longer, she placed her half-empty water glass carefully on the nightstand by the bed. "I have a headache," she said, feeling that baffled prickly feeling intensify, and turned her face away. "I can't talk any more." He didn’t argue with her. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty-Two ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ When she woke for the second time, the sun was shining. And the dark-eyed man named Severus was sitting in the armchair next to her bed. He was reading – something thick and dusty and bound in ancient, scarred green leather – and didn’t notice at first that her eyes were open. She took advantage of his preoccupation to study him covertly: did she know him, or didn’t she? Hard to say. He wasn’t handsome by any means – the nose was too beaky, the mouth too stern, the eyes so heavily shuttered that if she hadn’t seen that flash of furious disappointment in them last night, she’d have thought them to be verging on blank. Still, she found herself studying the lean angle of his jaw with hungry, inexplicable fascination. Wonder who he is. Wonder how he knows me. She did remember this: it had been dark and cold. She’d fallen, and her cheek had felt the cool abrasion of stone, and somewhere above her a voice had been twittering, harsh and nasal, with vowels so lateral they’d might as well have been striped red, white and blue: Don’t get too close, Doug. She might … have something. She would have taken offense at this, if she hadn’t been so utterly bewildered – where was she, exactly, and how had she gotten there? More pressingly, where was she supposed to go now? She’d been falling deeper and deeper into the empty pit of her memory, trying to uncover her address, when he had come for her and carried her away. There’d been some more low-voiced, tense conversation after that, as well as a fair bit of jostling about against his shoulder – but none of that mattered, because wherever she was right now, whosever bed she was lying in, he’d brought her here, and she hadn’t had to decide. She thought she might be half in love with him, for that reason alone. The notion made her snicker, very softly, to herself, and he roused from his reverie at the sound, carefully marking his place in his book with a velvet ribbon and laying it aside on the nightstand. "Good morning," he said, turning toward her. "Did you sleep well?" She nodded – actually, she had – and that strange panicky feeling she’d had of being chased by shadows last night had faded with the sunrise. "Very well. And you?" He shrugged, as if sleep was the least of his worries, and looked her over with a speculative little crease between his eyebrows. "And you’re feeling all right?" "Good as new," she assured him cheerfully, then bit her lip – perhaps that hadn’t been the best choice of words, under the circumstances. "A bit hungry, maybe." "That, at least, I can fix," he murmured, that troubled look clearing a little but not disappearing entirely. "What do you take for breakfast?" A flutter of anxiety, as she searched her mental database for food preferences and found it empty. "Oh, I’ll eat anything," she assured him breezily. He scowled at her as he rose from his chair. "Indeed." It sounded like a threat. ** She took advantage of his absence to explore her surroundings. The room in which she’d slept was large and sunlit and panelled in some unvarnished pale wood – pine, probably – the colour of wheat fields. The chair he’d been sitting in, on the other hand, was so dark a hue that it looked almost black, polished to a high shine, and upholstered in cordovan leather; it looked as if it had been dragged into the room kicking and screaming from some other century altogether. Its matching ottoman was on the other side of the room, by the door, and held a neatly folded pile of clothing she recognised as her own. Flipping back the duvet, she saw that she’d been favoured with the loan of pajamas – not hers, as the sleeves hung well past her fingertips. Who exactly had wrangled her into them, she wasn’t sure, but it was a fair guess that she hadn’t stepped into them under her own steam last night. And the ghost couldn’t have done it – could he? That left Severus the Dark. A feathery little shiver unfurled in her stomach at the thought of those long slender fingers deftly doing up her buttons. She ignored it as she slid out of bed and went looking for the bath. By the time she’d finished her shower and put her own clothes back on, he had returned with her invalid’s breakfast on a tray: mucilaginous oatmeal and weak herbal tea, enlivened marginally by a meticulously peeled and quartered navel orange and a lone multivitamin. As she had caught the distinct aromas of spiced toast and frying bacon from the next room, she privately thought herself rather hard done by; nevertheless, she ate what he’d brought her dutifully, pretending not to notice that he was watching her over the top of his coffee mug. This silent scrutiny continued even after she’d gulped the bitter dregs of her tea and pushed away the tray. She squirmed uncomfortably, casting about for conversation. "The other man," she said finally. "The ghost. Sal, I think it was. He told me that your name is Severus." He nodded, but didn’t elaborate. She frowned – she’d have to be a bit bolder, apparently, if she wanted to pry information out of him. "Last night, you called me Hermione. Is that my real name?" At this, he drew a quick breath, then closed his eyes as if something pained him. "So you really don’t remember," he murmured to himself, then opened his eyes to meet hers. "It’s yours," he said, "if you still want it." "If I still want it?" She frowned. "What do you mean by that?" A flash of pique crossed his face, more quickly hidden but no less disconcerting than the anger she’d seen from him last night. "I mean," he said, the words clipped, "that you seemed to find yourself well rid of it last night. I’d think carefully before claiming it again." She didn’t know why he was angry, but she wasn’t going to ask, either – her curiosity didn’t extend that far. "It’s sort of … old-fashioned, isn’t it?" she mused, in an attempt to lighten the mood, and was gratified when he let out a startled, rusty laugh. "Oh, I don’t know. To some, I suppose." He sent her another searching look, his momentary mirth faded now to what looked curiously like regret. "Speaking for myself, I always thought it was rather lovely." Oh, Hermione thought, surprised, and then: Exactly how well do we know each other, anyway? She might have gained the courage to ask that question aloud, given another minute to regroup; as it was, he’d already turned away, seemingly regretting his admission. "While you were asleep," he said, twisting back toward her with a slim leather-bound book in his hands, "Sal and I took the liberty of obtaining a series of photographs designed to stimulate your memory. You may or may not recognise any of the people and places in these pictures, but it may be worthwhile to go through them, regardless." He passed her the book. "Do you feel up to the task?" She nodded, and he reached over to turn back the front cover. "This one," he said. "Do you know these people?" It was a picture of three children, two boys and a girl, about twelve or thirteen years old by her guess. "This is me, isn’t it?" she asked, stabbing her forefinger toward the short pale girl with the overabundance of bushy brown hair. He nodded. "It is. How did you know?" She almost lied, just to please him, but couldn’t bring herself to do it. "Bathroom mirror," she confessed. "I’m about twice this old again, and my hair’s different, but my face is the same." "Ah." If he was disappointed, his carefully modulated tone didn’t betray it. "And the others?" She studied the two boys in the photo – one tall and thin, with bushy red hair and freckles, the other small and slight, his forehead marked under his mop of black hair by a curious jagged cut. She’d already figured out that it was more or less hopeless to search for names in her empty-echoing head, but she tried anyway before giving up with a shrug. "No. Sorry." "Does it pain you to look at them?" he inquired. She shook her head. "No. Nothing hurts. It’s just very … blank and white, on the inside." She tried for a smile. "Feels like an empty flat, like a room without any furniture." He didn’t smile back. "Try the next one." She already knew that it was no use. But it seemed so important to him that she turned the page anyway. ** He couldn’t watch this anymore. Severus schooled his features savagely into blankness and forced himself to focus on the wall behind her head. Beside him, Hermione turned to a photograph of Hogwarts under heavy snowfall and let out a quiet sigh of surprised pleasure. He wanted to snatch the album from her hands and burn it to ashes. He and Sal had been up all night, and the photo album was the best plan they’d been able to come up with, short of trying a Reverse-Obliviate that might do more harm than good. It had been a faint hope, but it had been hope, and now it was dashed. She’d looked right at Potter and Weasley, her childhood confidantes, and hadn’t known them; she’d turned blithely past a photograph of the man who’d been her husband without so much as a hum of appreciation. Her memory was gone – and along with it, all remaining vestiges of the strong, confident young woman who Severus had loved. The girl she’d left in her place – smiling, tremulous, eager to please – was a poor substitute indeed; he wanted to take her by her pretty shoulders and shake her until that damp mink aureole of Corinthian curls fell out of her vacuous little head. Don’t you know what you’ve done? he wanted to demand. You were supposed to be invincible, unshakable, the light that wouldn’t die. You’re a Gryffindor, for Merlin’s sake. Guilt kept him silent – guilt stronger than his anger, guilt heavy on his tongue like a mouthful of blood. If she’d failed, he had just as surely failed her. I was to have been the keeper of her flame, he’d told Sal last night, too tightly-wound and miserable to sleep. And I let it go out. I might as well have put a knife through her heart. "I don’t know any of these people," she said now, laying the book aside and looking up at him uncertainly. Severus swallowed hard. "The castle," he said carefully. "Does it seem familiar to you? Like a place you might have visited?" She shook her head. "None of this looks familiar at all," she said. "There are lots of pictures of those two boys, though. They must have been friends of mine." "Friends? You were inseparable for six years," he said – sharply, without thinking. She paled. "Will they be worried about me?" He shook his head. "You needn’t worry on their account," he said, searching for a suitable explanation when she shot him a questioning look. "You were … estranged." "Oh." She was quiet for a moment. "What about the – the others? In the other photos?" "The same," he said coldly, and dropped his eyes to the duvet so he wouldn’t see her lips tremble. "Everyone?" She sounded so lost that he thought his chest would explode. "Everyone except for me." "Oh." From the corner of his eye, he saw her reach for the album again, then let her hand drop just shy of its mark. "I suppose," she said slowly, "that it’s lucky for me that you found me, then." He couldn’t take it anymore. "Oh, yes, you’re ever so fortunate," he snarled, hating himself even before her eyes widened and brimmed. "They’re envying you to the ends of the earth, lucky girl that you are to be saddled with a Galahad like me. Ever so chivalrous of me not to have left you lying mindless in the streets of Paris. They’ll be shipping me my medal any minute now." He ended his outburst to find her staring at him speculatively. "What?" he snapped, and she shrugged. "I thought at first that you were angry with me," she said. "But it’s yourself you’re angry with. Why?" "Because I didn’t see it coming until it was too late." He glared at her. "And don’t let yourself off the hook so quickly. Just because I despise myself right now doesn’t mean I don’t despise you, too." She blinked. "Despise me?" Her tone was more curious than hurt. "Why? What did I do?" Severus took a deep breath, his anger suddenly eclipsed by a sick sort of weariness. "You haven’t asked, he said, "how you came to lose your memory." "Oh. I didn’t imagine that you knew." She frowned. "Do you?" "Yes. But it’s difficult to explain." At a loss, he spied her wand lying on the nightstand and held it out to her. "Do you know what this is?" She ran one hand through her curls, bewildered. "It’s a stick." Severus closed his eyes and prayed for strength. "It’s a wand ," he corrected. "A magic wand. To be specific, it’s your magic wand." She blinked again. "That would make me …" "A witch. Too true." He returned the wand to the nightstand. "Ring any bells, does it?" She shook her head. "Not so far. But I don’t see what my being a witch has to do with my memory loss." He stared at her for a moment, more heartened than frustrated – that cool, equivocal little voice had reminded him just now very much of the Original Hermione. "You did it to yourself," he said softly. "You’re under a Memory Charm that you yourself performed. That’s why you can’t remember who you are." Her eyebrows shot up; he’d managed to shock her. "Why would I do that?" "That’s a longer story still." Her chin came up sharply. "I have the time." Good point, Severus thought, cheered slightly by her steady voice, her determined logic in the face of the unexplainable. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe there’s more of you left in there than I’d thought. He pulled his chair a little closer to the bed, took a deep breath, and began. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty-Three ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Why she believed him, she didn’t know, because the story seemed outlandish, unspeakable, cobbled together from the disjunct remainders of a thousand sensationalist genres. But believe him she did – that flat, almost irritated delivery wasn’t the discourse of a man desperate to convince, which made it all the more convincing. And then, she just couldn’t imagine him telling lies. Still, bits of his monologue sent her eyebrows skyrocketing. She’d been a witch? Enough for pause even there. But then – she’d been to witch school, what passed for witch university, she’d gone up against some kind of Evil Witch Überführer and won, she’d become so well-known for her controversial medical inventions that she’d had to go into metaphysical hiding from a cadre of magical assassins? Unbelievable. And sort of cool, too, if she thought about it from the right angle. For every question she had – and they were legion – he, and the voluble ghost Sal, had an army of backup details … so many, in fact, that Hermione felt overwhelmed by information. Photos from the album littered the surface of the duvet: here were her best friends zooming around on broomsticks after a strange, sunken-looking ball; here was an assortment of redheads in front of a pyramid, one of whom she’d allegedly married; here was an enormous shaggy brown bear of a man, hugging her younger self and wiping an errant tear from one of his kindly beetle-black eyes. She shuffled through the loose photos again until she came to the one of Bill Weasley with his Head Boy badge. "This is the one?" she queried, and Severus nodded. She stared at the picture again, frowning. "How long were we married?" He sighed impatiently – she’d asked this question before. "Four years." "And he died. He was murdered." "Yes." The boy in the photo shot her a warm, flirtatious smile, and winked. Hermione studied him for another minute, then set the photo aside with a shake of her head. "I can’t remember." Severus the Dark made an unpleasant sound in his sinuses. "Not surprising," he said sharply, "considering the lengths to which you went to rid yourself of the memory." Hermione frowned at him. "Look," she said. "I understand that this Memory Charm thing wasn’t exactly a stroke of genius on my part. But if I was as torn up by the whole thing as you say I was, you’re being considerably less than sympathetic." "It wasn’t worthy of you," he said, a bit sulkily. She frowned again. "Funny you should say that. It implies that you thought highly of me, and so far you’ll pardon me if I don’t see too much evidence of that." He blinked, and she got the distinct impression that she’d surprised him. "Then you don’t remember much about me, either," he said finally. Hermione rolled her eyes. "That rather goes without saying, don’t you think? Get over yourself. And while we’re on the topic, here’s one more question: why you?" Sal, whose pale grey eyes had been flicking back and forth during this verbal volley as if he was watching table tennis, cleared his throat meaningfully—"I’ll just be getting the luncheon ready, then, shall I?—" and floated hastily toward the hall. Neither Hermione or Severus paid his exit the least attention. "What do you mean, why me?" "This protection thing," she said impatiently. "Me going into hiding. The Fidelius Whatchamacally. Why you?" He swallowed. "Why not?" Hermione gestured toward the stacks of photographs at her knees. "Why not the black-haired boy with the scar, if he’s so powerful as you say? He was supposed to be my best friend, right? Why not the Headmaster?" She met his eyes and held them challengingly. "I mean, I know you tutored me in Potions, but what makes you so special? There’s not a single picture of you in this book, nor does anything you or Sal have told me indicate that we were especially close. So how did you get picked to be my Secret-Keeper?" He looked reluctant. "I haven’t told you everything—" "—A-ha!—" A repressive glare. "—but I suppose there’s no avoiding it, now you’ve asked." He looked angry and embarrassed in equal parts. "You’re quite right – there were literally dozens of people to whom you were closer than you were to me, in many respects. Potter and the Headmaster among them." He dropped his gaze. "But you and I were—are—linked. In ways you and they aren’t." Her eyes widened as she pondered the implications of this. "Linked," she repeated. "Yes." "Lovers, you mean." The muscle underneath his right eye twitched violently. "Briefly. Intermittently." He sighed. "Yes." Hermione studied him with renewed interest. "You don’t seem very happy about it." "Nor would you, if you knew the details." When she didn’t react to this, but continued to gaze at him expectantly, he cursed under his breath and dug in his pocket. "I was going to save this for later, but we’d might as well get it over with now. Do you recognise this substance?" She studied the little phial of pearl-coloured liquid curiously. "No. What is it?" "It’s Illuminata," he said. "It’s a potion from the Middle Italian Baroque, lost for many years under obscurity and heavy encryption. You cracked the code near the beginning of your sixth year at Hogwarts; if you were doubting your magical or intellectual capacities before, this should reassure you. It was a remarkable accomplishment." Why did she get the distinct impression that he’d not told her that before? "Thanks," she said. "What does it do?" "It shows whatever it touches in its best light," he said. "It has healing properties, too, though we’re not yet sure what its limits are. Here." He inverted the tiny phial over his forefinger, then reached out and dabbed the drop of luminous fluid over the abrasion on her right cheekbone. Hermione felt the sting of the scrape ease, and put her hand up curiously to feel the cut. It was gone. Wow. She took the phial back from him and held it up to the light. "What else does it do?" "It’s what you’d call a multipurpose," he said. He wasn’t looking at her. Her eyebrows shot up in sudden realisation. "It’s an aphrodisiac?" "No." There were bright spots of flush in his cheeks. "Yes. I mean, sometimes." "Sometimes?" He looked as if he’d rather be anywhere else on the planet, which was probably indeed the case. "In its brewing stage only," he said tightly. "I was your … advisor … on the project. We were unaware of its … incendiary properties." "Huh." Her lips curved up, ever so slightly, at the corners; she had the feeling that he was hardly ever flustered, but it looked rather good on him. "Cradle-robber." At that, his head came up sharply. "I hardly think – I assure you – I mean, that was hardly the intent—" "Oh, relax." Hermione’s impression of her own life thus far was climbing steadily – a bit bizarre, maybe, and of course very sad about the handsome redhead in the Head Boy picture, but on the other hand, it beat out stenography and a flatful of cats by a long shot. "So," she said. "What ended it?" He rubbed one hand over his eyes. "There wasn’t much to end," he said, his voice tired. "A handful of encounters, no matter how explosive, doesn’t make a relationship. And you and I, even setting the age difference aside, were hardly compatible at that point. You were well rid of me." "I dumped you?" Somehow she couldn’t imagine that. He shook his head. "I ended it. Because you should have, and you wouldn’t." "Oh." Curiouser and curiouser. Hermione hadn’t satisfied her prying instincts on this topic, not by a long shot, but something about the set of his mouth told her she shouldn’t press him further, at least not now. Probably it was easier to get the scoop from the ghost anyway – he seemed to like to talk. She glanced back at the thimbleful of glass-encased Illuminata in her hand. "So," she said brightly. "Does this miracle potion bring back memory?" He scowled. "It’s possible. There’s no definitive research on the subject. Though under the circumstances, I wonder if you really want your memory restored." "What’s that supposed to mean?" "Think about it," he snapped. "You’ve been crying yourself to sleep for the last four and a half months. Twenty-four hours ago, you were bordering on suicidal – in fact, let’s take out the ‘bordering’, considering how wrong Memory Charms can go if you’re not in a proper state to perform them, and believe me, you weren’t and you knew it, too." He scowled at her. "You didn’t seem to think then that your skills and knowledge outweighed the demands of your personal misery, which on a certain level is understandable but on another makes me want to wring your neck. I never suspected that the Hermione Granger I knew would take the easy way out; you’re a disappointment to your own brain." He pushed himself off the foot of the bed, where he’d been sitting, and began to pace. "I suppose it never occurred to you," he said, "that you were the only living person who still remembered exactly what it was that had pissed them off in the first place?" "Who?" "The Knights of the Golden Wand," he spat. "The group that ordered your execution in the first place. Some research project of yours set them off – they wanted it stopped so badly that they’d kill you to make it go away. Four months, and you never started it up again? Four months, and you never thought of revenge? Four months, and you killed your only chance at real retribution with a single ill-considered charm? " He stopped suddenly and turned toward her, his face so austerely, bitterly sad that it caught her breath. "I expected anger from you," he said softly. "I never expected you to keep your pain to yourself. How very Slytherin of me – and how very Gryffindor of you." She wasn’t sure what he was talking about, but the look in his eyes went straight to her heart. "I mustn’t have been so much of a researcher," she said shakily, "if I never wrote it down." His breath caught at that. "What?" "Well, you know," she said, toying nervously with the edge of the duvet. "If it was so important, wouldn’t I have kept paperwork on it somewhere? Somewhere else, I mean? Rather careless of me, don’t you think?" He had gone very still and very white. "Rather," he said slowly. "And rather uncharacteristic, at that. I hadn’t thought of that." The tense silence that followed was broken by cheery whistling from the hall, followed by a levitating platter of sandwiches and accompanying pitcher of lemonade. "Lunch!" Sal announced from the doorway, settling their intended repast on the bedside table and tucking away his shadowy wand in a pocket of his robes. "How do you feel about BLTs, young lady? English bacon. And beefsteak tomatoes all the way from the Garden State. Severus stepped out especially this morning." "Sounds lovely," Hermione said. Severus, breaking out of his reverie, turned around to blink at her. "Mm," he agreed absently – then, apparently making up his mind about something: "How do you feel?" She exchanged a wary glance with Sal. "All right. Why?" "Hurry up and eat, then," he said, and poured her a glass of lemonade. "We’ve got work to do this afternoon." ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty-Four ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Neville Longbottom was worried. It wasn t just that he hadn t seen Kate for three days, though that was unusual enough. It was that no one had seen her - or heard from her, for that matter. And though he d never known her well at Hogwarts, they were good enough friends now for him to know that she had a relatively concrete schedule, and that she stuck to it like white on rice. It just wasn t like her to disappear without letting someone know - if anything, she cultivated her friendships with the conscientious, half-worried affection of an orchid grower - and yet it appeared that she d done just that. Come to think of it, she d been acting funny all week. First, she d stood him up for their customary Thursday afternoon coffee, leaving a terse message on his voice mail that she was working late; then, she d failed to stop by the Museum s herb-stall at Les Halles on Saturday morning to buy her next week s potion ingredients. To Neville, who knew quite well that she only bought enough for a week at a time, this was by far the more troubling of the two incidents. And now it was Sunday afternoon, the time she usually stopped by the clinic to set up for Monday morning s appointments, and Itmana had just called him at the Museum office on his mobile phone to ask if he d seen her. Considering that she d been carefully avoiding him, and he her, since their affair had ended in the middle of September, this spoke volumes about the level of her concern. It s not like she s scheduled to work today or anything, she d said, her no-nonsense words just failing to mask the note of worry in her tone. But it s odd. You haven t seen her, either? I haven t, Neville said, and heard Itmana sigh. You know, this is going to sound strange, she said. But do you know, I can t even find her address? Or her telephone number at home. She s got one of the clinic s beepers, of course, but I ve rung it about a gajillion times and she hasn t rung me back. And I ve just gone through Sylvie s files, looking for her home number, and do you know, it s all smeared? The oddest thing - the rest of the information is clear as church bells, but it s as if someone spilled coffee on part of the page. I can t make anything out. And she s not in the city directory, either. She paused. You don t happen to have her address, do you? Neville felt a cold finger of prescience slide down his spine. I can narrow it down, at least, he said, trying to sound more confident than he felt. Don t worry - I ll go try and find her right now. Another sigh, this one relieved. Thanks, Nev. Call me when you ve found something? “I’ll call you even if I don’t,” he promised, and rang off.That icy feeling of dread was still fingering the back of his neck; he sat motionless at his desk for a moment, then slowly pulled out his wallet. He’d asked her for her number, that was the thing. Ages ago. And she’d given it to him without a second thought, neatly jotted in pencil with her name at the top. When he’d taken it out of his wallet a few days later to call her, however, he hadn’t been able to read it - oh, the name Kate was clear enough, but the numbers had shifted into obscurity. He’d kept it anyway - Merlin knew why. Now, he extracted it from his wallet and laid it carefully on the desk, face-up. It looked just as Itmana had described Kate’s employee-information form - coffee-stained beyond identification. But how, he wondered grimly, had it become stained, when it’d been safely tucked away in his hip pocket this whole time? Magic, that was how. Stupid of him not to think of it before. He drew his wand and tapped the little card thoughtfully. “Purgare,” he murmured, then frowned - the word ‘Kate’ had grown clearer, and the card itself whiter, but the stain hadn’t budged. Clearly, a Cleansing Charm wasn’t the ticket. Hm. Clarification, maybe? “Chiarisca,” he tried, with no more result. “Riveli? Traduca?” Ah. That last had done something, at least. He plucked a magnifying glass from the center drawer of his desk and peered closely at the card. The coffee-stain illusion had lifted, all right, but the numbers were no more readable; they were shifting on the page so quickly that Neville registered their movement mostly as a blur. Holy crap, he thought, and swallowed hard. He wasn’t sure how she’d done it, or why for that matter, but the girl he knew as Kate Billings was hiding behind a clever, complex layer of magical wards. And that made her disappearance all the more worrisome. Tucking the card back in his wallet, he stood up and fumbled for his jacket. He didn’t know who was looking for her, but he was going to try and get there first. ** His Location Charm turned up blank, just as he d half-suspected it would - either the wards she d erected around herself had blocked it, or her location was Unplottable, he wasn t sure which. Magical options exhausted, that left common sense. He turned right out of the Jardin des Plantes onto the Rue St.-Hilaire and headed toward the Latin Quartier, lower lip caught between his teeth. He knew she lived around here - was fairly sure she d even told him the name of her street, once upon a time. Hard to say whether it was the magic or his own less-than-photographic memory that kept him from recalling it now. But there d been something else something else she d said. If only he could remember - ah. Ah, yes. Not the address, just a throwaway bit of conversation. They d been talking about travel, as he recalled, and she d said something about Rome: That city changed my life. Someday, I ll go back. And then: The view from my terrace reminds me of the Colosseum. Makes me a little nostalgic sometimes. For an old Roman garrison, Paris didn t have too many telltale ruins left. Some statuary, yes, a couple of roomsful of artifacts in the Louvre, the crumbling remains of the Gallo-Roman baths in the Musée de Cluny. But the only place in Paris that Neville could possibly imagine as reminiscent of the Colosseum was the Arènes de Lutece, a scant couple of blocks away. Bingo. The Rue des Arènes was only a hundred metres or so up on his left. He broke into a jog. ** It was a tiny street, shaped like a boomerang and taken up mostly along one whole side by the entrance to the park. What had been a crisp, cool day was now sliding into clear chilly evening, and the picnickers had mostly given up; the park was deserted except for a group of youngsters with skateboards - probably local - making the most of the last few moments of daylight and empty space before their mamans called them inside for the night. Neville stood at the top of the block of steps that led down to the ancient arena itself and cast a searching glance around. There couldn t be that many apartments facing the park; probably the easiest way to narrow down his options was to take a stroll round the top perimeter and see how many terrace doors lay within his line of sight. Still, he hesitated - peering into windows wasn t likely to ingratiate him with the local residents. And then he saw her. She was definitely a witch, and he d have known that even if she hadn t simply appeared from nowhere on the other side of the steps; energy and power rolled off her in waves he could feel even from this great distance. At first, he saw her only as a silhouette against the dying light - then, as she ran lightly down the steps, the details of her appearance came into greater focus: Egyptian-princess profile, waist-length fall of tiny braids, brief orange slip-dress barely encasing a body that made his mouth go dry. To the openly gaping teenage boys on the arena s ground level, she must have looked like an Olympian goddess descending from the ether. Bonsoir, she said, and they blinked at her as if star-struck. One of them, taller than the others, with a dark narrow face, took a bold step forward. Bonsoir. Je recherche mon amie Kate Billings, the goddess continued. La connaissez-vous? Neville, suddenly more suspicious than entranced, felt his hands fist inside his pockets. The tall boy thought for a moment, shrugged, then let his eyes drift down her body. Je ne la connais pas. Est-elle aussi jolie que vous êtes? His friends snickered. The goddess rolled her eyes. Vous ne pourriez pas me manipuler, mon fils, she drawled, and Neville felt a smile tug the corners of his mouth despite himself at the teenager s crestfallen expression. The group of boys, enjoying their ringleader s humiliation in true Lord-of-the-Flies teenage fashion, laughed again. One of them - younger, smaller, blonder - shrugged and stepped forward hesitantly. I know a Kate, he offered in slightly accented English. She lives somewhere near me. I can't remember where. Maman might. A mischievous look at his sulking friend. And she is pretty. He jerked his head in the direction of the street. I have to go in for dinner soon anyway. I ll ask. "Merci." She shot him a dazzling smile. "I'll be around." The park was almost completely dark by now; with a last wistful look back, the boys began to drift off. Neville waited until the last one had disappeared, then strode purposefully toward her. "It won't do you any good, you know," he said. "He won't remember; he isn't allowed to. And why are you looking for Kate, anyway? What do you want with her?" She shifted, the fingers of one long elegant hand toying with her brief hemline. Ten to one she had a wand holster strapped to her thigh under that handkerchief of a dress, Neville thought, and tried desperately not to think about how heart-stoppingly sexy that was. Her eyes on him were cool and suspicious and just a teensy, flattering little bit appraising. "Who are you?" she wanted to know. "And what do you mean, he's not allowed to remember?" "Just that." Neville fought back the urge to flex his hard-won biceps. "And I might ask you the same question; I'm a close friend of Kate's, and I don't recall seeing you around anywhere." "We're friends from school." "Hogwarts?" A flicker of surprise crossed her face. "Maybe. What's it to you?" His wand was out and pressed to her throat before he knew he'd done it. "Liar." Her fingers came up to pry at his. Those Nefertiti eyes were flashing like black fury; he'd managed to really piss her off. "Watch who you're calling a liar, Slick." She smelt like his favourite, most exotic greenhouse -- an earthy, green, medicinal smell that had nothing to do with perfume. Neville wanted to fall to his knees and beg; instead, he sneered at her. "What other word do you have for it?" he demanded. "I was in the same year as Kate at Hogwarts, and you weren't one of my classmates -- you weren't even there at the same time. Believe me, I'd have remembered." That got a low, husky laugh out of her. "Come to think of it, Slick," she said, "I'd have remembered you, too. But you misunderstand me. I never studied at Hogwarts. I teach there. I'm the new Potions Mistress. Kate and I met at university." Neville stared at her, dumbstruck, then dropped his wand hand to his side. "Figures," he muttered, embarrassed. "If I'd known that you would come along after Snape left, I'd have Anti-Aged myself years ago. Of all the rotten luck ..." "Not a fan, eh?" The goddess was looking distinctly more friendly now. "Well, you're one of the few. Wish you'd have a word with the Great Sour One on my behalf." She flopped down on the nearest step and crossed her legs at the ankle. "Joséphine Dessources, at your service. And you must be her friend from the Botanical Gardens, the plant expert. Longbottom, right?" "Call me Neville." Cautiously relieved, he joined her on the step. "So -- you haven't seen Kate either, right?" Joséphine made a dark sound of assent. "I'm just in town for the weekend," she said. "Last I saw of her, she was leaving Les Bains last night. Said she was tired, and that she'd see me at one o' clock at my hotel." She glanced at her watch. "That was six hours ago. Thought I'd better look her up. Got this far on the say-so of this postcard." She held it out, and Neville took it curiously. It was a picture of the park on a sunny day; on the blank side, Kate had written, "My backyard. Don't hate me for my real estate." "Let me guess," Neville said. "She wrote her number down for you, and you can't read it. Right?" "Must've spilled something on it," Joséphine admitted. "How'd you know?" "You didn't spill anything," Neville said, and dug out the card in his wallet. "Look at this. I thought it was a coffee stain, too, until I ran a Translating Charm on it." Joséphine studied the rapidly shifting numbers on the card for a moment, then let out a low whistle. "Impressive," she said at last. "Looks like our friend Kate doesn't want to be found, doesn't it?" She passed the card back to him. "Odd, though. She wrote to me first. You think she acts like a girl who wants to hide?" Neville considered this. "No," he said finally. "No, she doesn't. Not at all." He frowned, struck by a sudden new thought. "Think Kate is her real name?" "The truth? Now that I think about it, no. I don't." Joséphine frowned. "And I bet she hates that. If she's hiding, I'll bet my last jar of Skrewtskin that she doesn't want to be." They sat in contemplative silence in the falling dusk. Joséphine was the first to speak. "Well," she said, "that blond kid must be a closer neighbour than he thinks, to remember her at all. I say we stake out his apartment building for suspicious-looking magical types. What do you think?" Neville was peering up at the top of the arena. "I think," he said, "that we've just been saved the trouble. Look at that, would you?" Joséphine followed his gaze to the row of young fruit trees that marked the rim of the half-buried amphitheatre. There was just enough light still on the horizon to make out a shadowy dark figure emerging from their cover and slipping stealthily in the direction of the street. "Snape," she said, sounding as bewildered as Neville felt. "What the hell is he doing here?" "Not sure," Neville said grimly. Blood was roaring in his ears. "But one thing I do know: I've been wanting to jam a wand into that bastard's balls for more than half my life. The fact that this situation gives me reasonable leave to do just that is getting me a little bit hot." He glanced inquiringly over his shoulder. "Are you with me?" Joséphine looked mildly surprised at his vehemence, then laughed. "Am I ever," she said. "Lead the way, Slick." Wands out, mouths set in determined lines, they started to climb. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty-Five ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Severus was in a hurry. The whole situation made him itch. But on the other hand, even Self-Obliviation hadn’t done much to interfere with that admirably galling sense of Granger logic. She was right – being Hermione, she most likely would have kept extensive written notes of her research, and being Hermione, she probably would have saved them, too, even in the aftermath of a mind-numbing, breakdown-inducing personal tragedy. The question was – where? Either in Paris or in Cairo. And for his money, he was leaning toward Cairo – after all, Bill Weasley had been a Gringotts employee, and there really was no safer place in the world, unless you counted Albus Dumbledore’s sock drawer. Hermione was bound to have an account there, either under her own name or under her pseudonym, and what made it especially handy was that she didn’t need proof of identification to access the vault, only her key. Of course, there was the matter of finding and retrieving said key – which had warranted a change in their after-lunch plans; she was still back in Montana, while he’d taken over Niffler duty in Paris. Since she hadn’t had the key on her person, reason followed that it had to be somewhere in her flat. And then – as Sal had pointed out – there was that great buggery cat of hers to contend with; either he’d have to contrive somehow to bring it back to the cabin with him, or someone would have to stop in on a daily basis to feed it. When asked, Hermione had said that she’d rather have it with her. All that might change when she saw how bloody huge it was, but in the meantime he’d have to deal with it. And then, he didn’t exactly relish the idea of telling that lip-trilling, chain-smoking bodyguard of a painting – two-dimensional, maybe, but no less formidable for that – the bad news; left unprompted in an empty room with her own wand, her brilliant young charge would be more likely to scratch her back with it than attempt a conjuration. Just more proof that Hermione Granger was capital-T trouble, regardless of whose identity she was assuming at the time, and that he’d have saved himself a triple-Motrin headache by not inviting Albus back to the house for chili and strange propositions, that afternoon among the Baja tomato vines. All that was moot now, though. She needed him, and she had nowhere else to turn, so – Merlin help him – he was bound to do what he could to help her. At least she seemed as quick a study as ever; in the quarter-hour between the end of dessert and his departure for Paris, Sal had taken her out into the back yard and started to coach her on basic wand technique. Just before Severus had Apparated, he’d seen a stick of firewood rise shakily to the level of the cabin’s windows and hover, and had heard a ghostly but exultant whoop. All distasteful aspects of his current duties aside, part of him just wanted to get back home, as quickly as possible, and see how far she’d gotten in his absence. Sooner begun, soonest done. He muttered a perfunctory Alohomora at her terrace door and ducked inside, inwardly cheering when he saw the sign propped on the rickety painted table next to the upright piano: Severus – out on a gig. Leave a note if it’s important. –Maxie . Better and better. The caracal flattened its ears and hissed at him from the doorway, which made him feel much less guilty for what he was about to do to it. "Petrificus Totalis," he said, then stepped over its prone, splay-legged body into the hall. Hermione hadn’t added much in the way of a personal touch to the flat in the months she’d lived here, he noticed; some people did more nesting than this in their weeklong holiday rentals. No matter. He was here on a mission, not to redecorate. He transferred the neatly stacked contents of her bureau into a trunk he found in the closet, Reduced the loaded trunk, and pocketed it. There – now maybe he could reclaim his own pyjamas. Just one more thing now, as a precaution: "Accio research!" he murmured, and waited. Nothing happened. Must still be in Cairo. I assumed as much. "Accio vault key," he revised, and allowed himself a slight, satisfied smirk as one of her nightstand drawers rattled, then shot open. The key chunked into his hand like a softball thrown underhand. He put it in his pocket next to the trunk. "Now for the cat," he muttered, "and it’ll be done with." "Not so fast, if you please." Startled, he spun around to face the doorway – stupid, stupid, stupid, why had he ever turned his back to an open door? He was getting soft in his old age – his eyes narrowing as he recognised the speaker. "You," he said. "I remember you; you’re that cheeky little witch who’s managed to make an absolute muck of my storeroom in less than half the time it took me to get it properly organised. What are you doing here?" "We might ask you the same thing, Professor." Another miscalculation on his part; there was a wand pressed to the back of his neck. How had that happened? "Drop your wand," the voice behind him directed, and Severus let it clatter to the floor. There was something familiar about this second voice – shaky, charged, oddly determined – but he couldn’t quite place it. "What business do you have in Paris?" the wizard behind him demanded. "And what have you done with Kate?" Severus relaxed slightly at this: Ah. Not enemies, outraged friends. "I assure you," he said stiffly, "that Miss Gr—ah, Billings, is far safer in her present location than she would be here. For what it’s worth to you." If he’d meant this to be consoling, he’d missed the mark. Joséphine Dessources’s eyes narrowed suspiciously, and in response, the wand-tip dug more insistently into his nape. "What do you mean, far safer?" his assailant demanded. "What danger was she in before? And what do you know about it, anyway?" One of the dubious benefits of having lived through his particular chequered past, Severus reflected, was that he’d gotten the recognition of danger down to a science. Forget that simple-minded fable about the Lady and the Tiger – put him into a room lined with doors, ten of which opened to certain death and one of which was the exit, and he’d choose the safe door every time. Danger vibrated at a high, immediately distinguishable frequency to those who knew to listen for it, as did madness and rage – and try as he might, he wasn’t picking up those signals from the man holding the wand. If anything, he’d say that his unseen adversary was afraid of him. Rather reassuring, really. Ten to one, he was a former student; after all, he had called him ‘Professor’, a title Severus was no longer entitled to. Severus took a deep, low breath and shifted into Teacher Face. It felt a little stiff, but it would do. "Enough questions," he snapped, and brought his hand up behind him without turning, to seize the wand. As he’d expected, the grip on the other end of it trembled reflexively at his tone, then slackened. "Who wants to know?" And then, twisting around to look: "Oh. Longbottom. I should have known that this day could only get worse." ** "So," Hermione said. "How well do we know each other, anyway? Well enough that you’ll tell me secrets?" They were taking a break. For not having been at it very long – the three hours in between one o’ clock and four had flown, just like that – they’d gotten a lot done; according to Sal, they’d touched on most of the Charms she would have learned in her first year at Hogwarts, and a fair amount of the Transfiguration as well. "You’re a quick study," he’d said at one point, watching the beetle she’d just conjured from a button scuttle down the cabin’s back steps toward the safe obscurity of the yard. "But then, it’s not like you need teaching, as much as just reminding. Behind the Memory Charm, all this is second nature to you." "Think it’ll help me remember?" Hermione queried, and watched his ghostly shoulders rise and fall in a shrug. "Could be. Not sure." He pulled a face. "You did a real number on yourself, girlie, that’s for sure. But keep going like you are, and you’ll be as skilled a witch as ever in no time." "You’re a good teacher." "I am, rather, aren’t I?" He’d had such a self-satisfied look on his old face that she’d laughed. "Was always handy with Transfiguration and Charms. Hexes, too, though I’ll let Severus take over there; studying the Dark Arts is always more satisfying if you’ve got a body to study them on." He squinted slyly at her. "Imagine you won’t need much reminding in that department, either. History being what it is." Hermione decided to play dumb. "The Dark Arts, you mean?" He laughed at the hot flush riding her cheeks. "No." Which had gotten her to thinking. The problem with thinking was that it raised a bunch of questions she should have been able to answer but couldn’t – luckily, Sal didn’t seem to need much prodding to make him talk. "Well?" she prompted again, and he cut his eyes sideways toward her. They were gleaming with humour. "Depends on the secret." She took a deep breath. "I already know that we were lovers," she said. "He and I, I mean. But he seemed pretty anxious to change the subject. I didn’t get many of the details." Sal laughed. "Bold as ever," he said approvingly. "Well, what is it you want to know?" "Everything," Hermione said, and meant it. "I mean, I look at him and he’s so – I don’t know. Closed off, I suppose that’s the word for it. Suspicious. Was he always like that? And if he was, how did I ever get past it?" She looked away. "It’s just strange. He doesn’t seem the sort. He doesn’t seem my sort. But when we look at each other –" "Yes?" "This is going to sound strange." Sal just raised one eyebrow. Hermione fidgeted, embarrassed. "Well, I wonder," she said. "Was it just the potion? Or was there more to it than that?" Her cheeks were hot, and she couldn’t look at him – though out of the corner of her eye, she could see that he was studying her, his pale grey eyes intent and shuttered. "Not just the potion," he said finally. Hermione frowned. "You’ve got the same look on your face as he did," she said. "Like you’re wondering how much you should say, but you don’t really want to say anything at all. And here I thought I could count on you for the real scoop." Sal hesitated. "It’s not a matter of the real scoop," he said. "There’s more to it than that." "What do you mean?" "Basically," he said, "that it’s not what you should be thinking about right now. You’ve got more on your plate than the renewal of old acquaintances. You’re looking on the romance shelf, when you ought to be over in the mysteries." "I don’t follow." Sal closed his eyes, pursing his thin colorless lips. "You loved your husband, Hermione," he said tiredly. "You don’t remember him now, of course, because there’s no one here now to remind you of your life together. But whoever killed him threw a rock into your pond that’s still making ripples; you were a witch who prided herself on her knowledge and her skill, and you sacrificed both of those on the altar of your grief." He wiped one hand across his lined brow. "If you want your identity back," he said, "you’re going to have to take the grief back, too, and deal with it the way you should have in the first place. Jump-starting an old love affair is just going to confuse an already cloudy issue – and if I may be so bold, that’s the last thing either of you needs." Hermione, stung and shamed by his words, drew her knees up to her chin on the wooden deck chair and wrapped her arms around them. "You’re right," she muttered. "I didn’t think of it that way. I didn’t think at all." "He loves you," Sal said quietly, and met her look of surprise with his own steady pale gaze. "He hasn’t ever stopped. But the two of you have never had a moment together that wasn’t stolen from someone else. Before you go to him, first lay your ghosts to rest." She dropped her eyes. "Okay." "And while you’re at it," Sal said, "you might give a bit of attention to this." He waved his wand, and a thin, battered book skidded across the porch railing toward her. Hermione picked it up curiously and squinted to make out the title. "Reclaiming the Magic: My Life in My Own Words," she read, then looked up at him questioningly. "What’s this?" "It’s a memoir," Sal said shortly. "Wizard named Phineas Sturbridge. Cocky little bastard. Died about two hundred years ago." "Phineas Sturbridge?" Hermione frowned. "Should I know that name?" "No reason why you should," Sal said. "This book was self-published and only disseminated within a small circle of Sturbridge’s followers. The fact that we found one at all was a happy accident; they’re not to be found at any reputable bookseller’s." He paused. "Severus told you about the Knights of the Golden Wand, right? Well, this is as close as they have to an unofficial handbook. Sturbridge was the leader of their movement for nearly fifty years. The movement was never the same after he died – not even under Voldemort." "Oh," Hermione said, and stared at the book as if it might bite. "Oh." Sal, who had started for the back door with their empty iced-tea tumblers floating along ahead of him, paused in the doorway and looked back. "The old adage is a lie, you know," he said. "Revenge is very seldom sweet. But sometimes it’s necessary. I’ll leave you to it." The door closed behind him. Somewhere in the depths of her subconscious, a dark finger of anger uncurled and beckoned. Barely hesitating, Hermione opened the book and began to read. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty-Six ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ They d both told her now, independently of one another, that she was clever. And though Hermione might have expected the kindly old ghost to pad the facts a bit in deference to her self-esteem, she didn t imagine that Severus Snape had ever flattered anyone in his life. Still, she was half taken aback by the surge of relief that hit her when she started to read, and realised how easy it was. Spells were one thing old information half-remembered, her wrist veering into the sharp slippery curve of the swish-flick before her brain could think of the proper words to accompany it. Rather, she thought, like finding yourself on stage at a piano recital, playing a piece you d memorised years ago and hadn t touched since: accurate, maybe, or at least accurate enough to bear out their story she was a witch, right enough but nevertheless uncomfortable in that accuracy, as if her skill could at any moment turn on her. Reading, thank goodness, wasn t like that at all, but pure second nature. Hermione could picture herself as that buck-toothed little girl from the photo album, curled oblivious in an armchair with Great Expectations open on her lap while the dark-haired man Severus had identified as her father beamed proudly down at her: reads like a fish swims, that one. Chip off the old tooth. That mental image was so clear, so photographic, that it brought her up short. Was it speculation, or genuine memory? She couldn t decide. She paused, waiting for another scrap of recollection to escape the locked box of her brain and float to the surface, but her inner airwaves stayed stubbornly silent. Sighing, she turned back to Reclaiming the Magic. It wasn t very well-written. Phineas Sturbridge might have been a charismatic leader, but his memoirs consisted mostly of personal vignettes, seen through the rose-coloured spectacles of hindsight; Hermione thought that if she read I realised, even then, that I was destined for greatness one more time, she d abandon her endeavor and put the bloody book through a window. The interminable, self-congratulatory rambling was laced throughout with what she imagined Sturbridge had thought of as his political message: Muggles, he maintained were not only inequal to wizards, they were something less than human. A witch or wizard who intermarried with the nonmagical, he declared, was to be held in contempt rather as if he or she had set up housekeeping with the family cat and as for Muggle-born wizards and the offspring of mixed couples, Sturbridge claimed them the most insidious and dangerous of all, recommending that they be oh, lovely drowned at birth. Hardly an original thinker, is he? Hermione thought, and then immediately thereafter I wonder how I know that. Frowning over the conundrum of her damaged memory, she didn t notice Sal approaching until his clammy, arctic shoulder accidentally passed through hers. "You re looking fierce," he said, hastily removing his chilly self to a greater distance. "What do you think of it?" Hermione rubbed her arm absently to bring warmth back into it. "What do I think of it?" she repeated. "I ll tell you what I think it doesn t make any sense. That s what." He studied her with unabashed interest. "It s a harsh message, I ll grant you that. He wasn t a pleasant man." "True," Hermione said. "But it s not that." She was pleasantly surprised to feel a resonant click inside her head, rather as if her Inner Logician had finally yawned, stretched, and downed her first cup of coffee. "It s him. He doesn t seem smart enough to come in out of the rain on his own, never mind inspire some secret cabal of assassins to annihilistic abandon. Half this book is his own rubbish, and the other half is rubbish he s borrowed; I know I ve read some of it before, I just can t think of where." "That bit," Sal said, "was old news a thousand years ago. It s been borrowed and re-borrowed since the dawn of time who knows where these things start?" He paused for a moment, apparently deep in thought, then shrugged to himself and turned to her, pale eyes alight with speculation. "And you re absolutely right, by the way. Sturbridge wasn t one of the century s great minds by any stretch of the imagination, merely a passably eloquent hack whose brand of vitriol happened to appeal." "Mmph." Hermione, dissatisfied with this whether or not it was true, it certainly wasn t encouraging flipped through the remaining chapters of the book, rifling the edges of the pages with a careless thumb. "Doesn t seem fair, does it?" And then: "Hold up a minute, Sal. What s this?" "What s what?" She was staring at the inside back cover of the book. "There s something inside the binding. Look." He floated over to peer over her shoulder. "I think it s just badly glued, Hermione. Hardly a masterpiece of bookmaking, this." "No." She was industriously picking at the corner of the flyleaf with her thumbnail. "I don t think so. See, if you look really closely, you can see there s something written here. It s been glued over." Sal frowned. "Could be," he said. "More likely, they recycled part of an older book to make this one. Wouldn t be the first time, you re talking about an amateur press after all. No standards, really." "Sal." Hermione huffed with exasperation. "Look at this." The glue, stiff and brittle with age, gave way. Hermione lifted back the false flyleaf to reveal the page underneath it. "No writing," she said, disappointed. "Just some sort of strange little symbol. Looks like a publisher s mark. Never mind." "Symbol?" Sal frowned. "What s it look like? Let me see." Hermione held up the book so he could examine the flyleaf more closely: [mark] "It s like a little doodle," she said. "Not hand-drawn, though; it s definitely a printer s mark. Suppose it means anything?" "I ll say," Sal said, and sat down in the deck chair next to hers, as heavily as could be expected of a man without a corporeal body. He looked shaken. "This is odd," he said. " Really odd. You do manage to find the mysteries, don t you?" Hermione shrugged. "I suppose. What is it?" "If you remembered anything from your Arithmancy classes, you d know," Sal said. "This symbol is the physical representation of ever number set presently known to mankind: rational, irrational, and transcendental. It s said to depict a basic understanding of the construction of the universe. See, here? You ve got the side, the diagonal, and the circumference, all in one neat little package. It s a sort of geometrical primer." Deep in the fuzzy parts of her brain, something stirred and unwound. "Go on," Hermione said slowly. "I ve heard this before, I think. Just remind me a little." "Irrational numbers have been around since Pythagoras," Sal said. "And while the modern Muggle considers the concept of pi to be relatively new, the fact is that transcendental mathematics was discovered and used by the ancients. They d never have gotten the Pyramids standing without it." He paused. "It s only the covert removal of the Alexandrian collection, under the guise of a fire, that cut off this knowledge temporarily from the Muggle world and of course they discovered it again, eventually, though I must say it took them long enough. This symbol s as old as the ancient Sumerians. Older, probably." Hermione studied the blurry outline of the figure with renewed interest. "Is it magical?" "Depends on who you ask. And when you ask it." She frowned. "Explain." Sal leaned back, warming to his tale. "Mathematics was heavy stuff in the medieval world," he said. "Galileo himself not a wizard, mind, just an extraordinarily perceptive Muggle was excommunicated for his scientific discoveries, merely because they contradicted the body of belief that had grown up around Biblical canon. Considering how powerful a hold the Catholic Church held over life and death at that point and time, it s no wonder that knowledge of this sort was suppressed and kept secret for as long as it was." "Even among magical folk?" Sal snorted. "You re a child of the modern age," he said. "People of learning don t find it fashionable any longer to believe in anything they can t see; even when we in the wizarding world slip up and let our powers manifest in public, we aren t taken seriously by the greater culture around us. They re not looking for us, and they don t want to believe what s right in front of them. But the Muggle world and the magical weren t always so far separated. Back then, everyone believed in witches, in demons, in the unseen struggle between Good and Evil. That s what made it so dangerous to be magical." He shrugged. "The notion that one could build a cathedral, based on the geometric principles contained in that simple collection of shapes to the uninitiated, uneducated observer, that came as close to magic as it did to heresy. What you knew could get you killed at least if other people knew that you knew it." Hermione shook her head. "I follow you so far," she said. "But having read this book, I find it hard to believe that Phineas Sturbridge could make change for a Sickle, let alone understand transcendental numbers. What s a complicated mathematical symbol doing in his memoir, of all places? And why did someone go to the trouble to put it in, then paste it over?" "Good question," Sal said, scowling pensively in the direction of the woodpile. "I think you re right it s a publisher s mark. Though why it s been concealed all these years is a mystery to me, as well." He thought for a moment. "Seems to me," he said finally, "that whoever financed the printing of the book must have used this symbol to represent their organisation. But like I said before, it s an ancient and relatively universal pictogram if civilisation has one common language, it s the language of Number. Narrowing it down s going to be a piece of work." I thought the Knights of the Golden Wand had their own money, Hermione thought, and had just opened her mouth to say as much when a light flicked on inside the cabin, distracting her. "Looks like Severus is home," she said, catching a glimpse of a dark figure as it swept past the window. "That took a while didn t it? Thought he said it d be a short trip." "I seem to remember that, too." Sal grinned as the cabin s door opened and Severus came toward them, scowling. "How was Paris?" Snape s lip curled. "Complicated." One long-fingered hand swirled behind him in an eloquently irritated arabesque. Hermione wondered why, then found her own question answered in short order when two more figures one tall and feminine, in a short orange dress; the other sandy-haired and grimacing blinked abruptly into existence on the cabin s steps. "Oh," she said aloud, and smiled tentatively at the newcomers. "Hi." "Kate," the young man said, and hurried over to her. "Are you okay? Are you sure you want to be here?" He slanted a dark look at Severus, then leaned a little closer to her and lowered his voice. "He s not beating you or anything, is he? " Severus stifled a gargle of outrage. Hermione blinked. "I m fine," she said blankly. Above her, the pretty woman in the miniskirt sighed. "Of course he s not beating her, Neville. He may be in dire need of a personality transplant no one s denying that but he s not a complete slimeball." She planted her hands on her hips and stared down at Hermione. "You haven t the first clue who we are, have you, honey?" "Sorry," Hermione said, and decided to venture a guess. "Friends of mine?" "Glad to know someone realises that." The woman rolled her eyes and turned to face Snape, who was looking aggravated and smug in equal parts. "All right, fine," she said, shaking back her mane of braids. "So you were telling the truth or at least some of it. But you re not going to get rid of us that easily." She grinned and shot Hermione a conspiratorial wink. "I, for one, smell a mystery and until it s solved, I m staying. Plus, it s gorgeous here." She turned her back on the sputtering Severus and extended her hand to Hermione. "Joséphine Dessources. We re old school friends, in case you re fuzzy on the details of our acquaintance. Can t wait to catch you up. Is there a Floo somewhere handy? I need to call Albus and tell him I ll be delayed a few days." "Straight inside, first door on the left," Sal said. He was suppressing a smile. "And you, Mr. Longbottom? Shall we have room service make you up a bed?" Neville didn t look happy. "I d rather eat slugs than stay a night in his house," he said, glowering at Snape. "But until I m satisfied that Kate s really all right, I m not going anywhere." "Oh, good," Sal said, hoisting himself off the deck chair. "It s a house party! I ll just go set out the canapés, then." Through all this, Severus hadn t spoken. Judging from the look on his face, Hermione wasn t sure she wanted him to. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty-Seven ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ The cabin was finally quiet. Its original inhabitant hadn’t been much of a Company Man; the little building would have strained to hold three, if one of them hadn’t been a ghost who – still mindful of the mild arthritis he’d had in his corporeal joints, once upon a time – preferred to do his sleeping in a reclining armchair. Accommodating two more guests of the three-dimensional sort was even more of a stretch. Hermione wasn’t sure, but she thought Snape had taken himself off to the hammock in the back yard, leaving Neville to arrange himself as best he could on the living room’s diminutive loveseat. His own bed he’d left to her, under the proviso that she share it with Joséphine; it was definitely large enough to sleep two comfortably, but now Hermione was having trouble nodding off. She plucked her watch off the beside table and glanced at it blearily. Twelve-fifteen. On the other side of the bed, Joséphine let out a sigh and snuggled her pillow closer. Even with her braids tied up in a kerchief and her face scrubbed bare, she was the most elegant woman Hermione had ever seen. Which was just the tiniest bit depressing. Judging from the way she and Neville had been eyeing each other over Sal’s pot roast tonight, Snape had gotten the sleeping arrangements wrong. Of course, that would have left Hermione stuck with the loveseat – and charity only extended so far. Not that box springs and feather down did you any good when you couldn’t sleep anyway. Yawning, she threw her legs over the side of the bed, dodged the recumbent Cleo, and headed for the kitchen, being careful to step over the squeaky board in the hallway as she edged past the parlor door. As sleep aids went, she would have settled for a glass of water and twenty minutes of Communion With Nature from the front porch steps. Instead, she got Severus Snape, sitting at the table in full Bat-regalia as if he’d never intended to sleep at all, and brooding into a juice tumbler half-full of some dangerous-looking dark amber liquid. He looked up as she came in. "You’re still wearing my pajamas." As opening lines went, this one was fairly random. Nettled by his accusatory tone, she struck a deliberately defiant pose and fluttered her eyelashes at him. "Want me to take them off?" His eyes flickered for a second at that, but he didn’t rise to her bait. "I did bring you your own things, you know." Hermione immediately felt foolish. "Sorry," she said, chastened. He shrugged. "Don’t be sorry. Just wear your own clothes from now on." There was a high spot of colour on each sharp cheekbone, as if he thought he’d betrayed something by his reaction. He turned away abruptly, swirled the syrupy-looking liquid in the glass, and took a gulp. "Can’t you sleep?" "Not so much." Hermione gestured toward his heavy black robes. "Looks like you didn’t even try." Instead of answering her, he took another drink. "I was about to leave, actually." "Leave?" Hermione raised one eyebrow. "For good?" He sucked his teeth and shot her a narrow look. "No." "Can I come along?" Silence, as he drained the glass and set it down with a heavy-sounding chunk. "It’s on your behalf," he said finally, standing to rinse the tumbler and put it on the drying rack by the sink. He didn’t look at her. "I don’t see how I can stop you." She decided to take that as a ‘yes.’ ** Their destination was Cairo, a city she allegedly knew – or at least had known – by heart. She didn’t recognise anything straightaway, but it did feel more comfortable than she would have supposed to edge her way down its crowded mid-morning sidewalks after him. "Where are we going?" she asked, and Severus paused mid-stride to look back at her. "Gringotts. Wizarding bank." "Oh." That made sense. "We’re looking for my research, then?" Another half-exasperated glance. "We’re looking, at this point, for anything we can find." Hermione shut up. They plowed through the heaving morass of closely-pressed bodies around them and ducked into a blessedly cool little storefront with drawn Venetian blinds over its dusty windows. Inside the small space was a single battered desk, manned by a man in a red turban and a melancholy monkey holding a tin cup. The man nodded to Severus, who gave him a nod in reply and then dug in his pocket for his wand. A murmured word, a flash of light, and the monkey was transformed, before Hermione’s astonished eyes, into a free-standing door frame with a shiny tin knob. Another nod to the red-turbaned guard, already pulling out his own wand to effect the reverse transfiguration, and they walked through the door frame and straight into Gringotts Cairo. Seeing ghosts didn’t really prepare one, Hermione thought, for processing the idea of goblins. Oddly enough, she wasn’t alarmed by the guards at the bank’s entrance; their diminutive height, paired with their crisply pressed bush khakis and their severe expressions, gave them a bizarre sort of dignity. The goblins in the teller’s cages wore blue uniforms and were even more severe yet. It was to one of these that Severus presented a small silver key. It became apparent, as soon as the teller checked the number engraved on the key, that this was not to be a routine visit. A slight widening of the eyes, a pursing of the thin lips, and the goblin backed wordlessly away from the window and back behind an opaque glass screen. Severus and Hermione exchanged perplexed glances, but didn’t have time to do much more than shrug at each other before the goblin was back again, this time accompanied by what was plainly its superior. This newest goblin was dressed in a severely tailored Muggle pinstriped suit and smart black leather pumps. Tasteful silver hoops bracketed the tip of each pointy ear. Her voice was low and gravelly. "Follow me, please." They trailed her across the grand Art Deco lobby and through a plain frosted-glass door marked STAFF ONLY in English, Arabic, and what Hermione could only assume were goblin-runes. Through the door was a narrow corridor lined with offices. The goblin shepherded them into one of these, gestured for them to sit, and took the chair opposite them, behind a meticulously polished teak desk. She regarded them for a long moment before speaking, during which Hermione fought the urge to fidget under her searching, beady-eyed stare. Finally, the goblin sighed, rose from the chair, and held out her hand across the desk. "Mrs. Weasley," she said. "My name is Linchpin, though I don’t imagine, given recent events, that you’ll remember me. You late husband worked in my department." Beside her, Severus tensed. He looked, Hermione thought with a quick sideways glance, as surprised as she herself felt. Linchpin, on the other hand, seemed completely unruffled by their confusion and dismay. "Never fear," she said drily, dropping the hand Hermione had been too shocked to take and reseating herself primly behind the big desk. "Your protection charm hasn’t failed you – yet, anyway. And your secret is safe with me." Hermione swallowed hard. "Then … how …?" A faint, rather superior smile quirked the corner of the goblin’s thin mouth. "Your diamonds," she said. "You didn’t think we would send Bill Weasley’s widow out into the hands of would-be murderers unaided, did you? We’ve been watching you. And the day the Fidelius Charm, even Albus Dumbledore’s Fidelius, stands against a goblin-made tracking spell, is the day I hand over my keys and go back to the mailroom. We’d hardly be successful bankers if we couldn’t find people when we needed to – now, would we?" Her eyes dropped pointedly to the bare vee of skin at Hermione’s throat. "We’d have been able to keep even closer track of you, had you decided to actually wear one of them; that was the point, you know. Even so, their presence in your jewelry box in Paris gave our Department of Employee Records enough to go on so that we could locate you. We’ve been wanting to contact you – and I daresay we would have too, in relatively short order, if your Secret-Keeper hadn’t whisked you away in such a precipitous fashion." At this, Hermione glanced quickly at Severus, who was looking carefully blank. Clearly, his body language suggested, this was her conversation, not his. "You needed to contact me," she repeated slowly. "Why? Is there some problem with my account?" Linchpin shook her head. "Not your account," she said, as though it were obvious. "Your instincts." "Sorry?" "Your instincts," Linchpin repeated patiently. "Specifically, your survival instincts." She swiveled to face Severus and tipped her horn-rimmed spectacles to a sharper angle. "You have told her, I presume," she continued, "that that Memory Charm was just about the most ill-advised stunt she could have pulled?" Severus didn’t react. Hermione, however, scowled. "Why do you care what I do, anyway?" she demanded, and Linchpin turned to face her, her small black eyes blazing with sudden ire. "Because," she said icily, "I remember your husband. Even if you don’t. He was mine to command, and therefore mine to protect – a task at which I failed." She studied her bony hands somberly. "Now, he is mine to avenge – an undertaking I accept out of remembered friendship at least as much as duty, if not more. I told you once before that we take care of our own. And you, as his widow, are under the Gringotts umbrella as well, like it or not." Her eyes narrowed. "I must say that from what I knew of you, Hermione Granger Weasley, I expected you to prove more help than hindrance in the matter. You gave up your greatest advantage over your attackers – fifteen years of magical memory and skill – in one foolish moment of self-pity. I had thought better of you." Hermione bristled, then wilted under the goblin’s penetrating black stare. "It was weak of me," she admitted. Linchpin softened slightly. "I understand your grief," she said stiffly. "But weakness is no longer something you can afford to indulge. If you are ever to reclaim your true name, ever to face your old friends without a barrier of lies between you, you must first bring Bill’s killers to justice. Your Fidelius was not meant to buy you a permanent alias, just a bit of breathing room. Do you understand me?" Hermione nodded. "Perfectly," she said, then paused, brought up short by a sudden new thought. "You were going to contact me in Paris," she said. "That must mean you’ve found something out about the murder. What do you know?" Linchpin smiled. The smile was not altogether pleasant. "Now you’re thinking," she said. "We may indeed have something. You know that a militant group of pure-blooded wizards calling themselves the Knights of the Golden Wand have claimed responsibility for the crime." It was a statement, not a question. Hermione nodded. "Well," Linchpin said with a trace of satisfaction, "though the identity of the Knights may be secret, the location of their money is not. They hold an account at Gringotts London, and we’ve been monitoring it." Hermione’s eyebrows rose. "And?" "And a review of their accounts for the past few hundred years or so," Linchpin said, drawing a thick file toward her on her desk, "brings to light a very interesting pattern. They’ve been receiving large but irregular infusions of cash from one of our Nameless accounts." "Nameless?" "A financial version of Unplottability," Severus said. It was the first time he’d spoken since they’d entered Linchpin’s office. "No name on the account. Expensive to maintain – if I’m not mistaken, the bank charges a hefty monthly fee for the privilege of anonymity – but undeniably useful, for those who for one reason or another wish their finances to remain untraceable. Voldemort had several such accounts – probably still does, if one of his erstwhile minions hasn’t taken it upon himself to clean them out." He steepled his fingers in front of his face and frowned pensively through them. "There’s a password, though, if I remember correctly. Some sort of sigil or pictogram, in addition to the key. Takes the place of a name." "Really." Hermione leaned forward. "What about this account?" she wanted to know. "What’s the mark? If it’s okay to ask, that is." "It’s not," Linchpin said, and smiled that cold satisfied smile again. "Goes against every non-disclosure policy we have." She reached for a quill, dunked it, and scraped off a blot of excess ink. "But …" "But what?" The goblin was scrawling something laboriously on a bit of spare parchment. "But the non-disclosure policy be damned," she said, and smiled, tight-lipped, at Hermione’s surprise. "Wizards say that goblins have no loyalty," she said. "But that is untrue. Our loyalty is to our own, and it is unshakable. Here." She pushed the parchment across the desk to Hermione. "There’s the mark," she said, and Hermione gasped. The circle was a tad lopsided, the square approximated, the central X a bit askew. But the mark on the parchment was identical to the printer’s mark she and Sal had discovered not twenty-four hours ago in Phineas Sturbridge’s autobiography. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty-Eight ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ It had been a long time since Neville had taken a day off. After all, when you had your dream job, vacations seemed sort of superfluous. He couldn’t honestly think of anything more pleasant than the back greenhouse in the Jardin des Plantes – sunlight, potting soil silky between his fingers, the smell of plants, sharp and green as the distillate of life itself – even if it was nice to sleep late for once. And if he had felt moved to find a temporary change of pace, Severus Snape’s spookily quiet mountain cabin in Montana would hardly have been his first choice. It wouldn’t even have made the top hundred. Still, the situation had one intriguing, brassy bright spot. He finished the last of his orange juice, rinsed out his glass in the sink, and went to go find her. She was stretched out in the back yard hammock, drinking a conjured margarita and flipping idly through one of Snape’s back issues of Ars Alchemica. She was wearing faded low-rise blue jeans worn white at the knees and a tight, fuzzy red turtleneck jumper, and her braids were in glorious disarray around her head; with that slight faraway curve to her mouth and one hand in suggestive repose on the upper curve of her thigh, she looked like the wizarding version of a soft-core centerfold. Neville could see the caption now – Potions Mistress on Holiday – and imagine the next page in his head, something shamefully kinky with a cauldron and a Binding Spell. The thought made him blush, and it was at that instant that she chose to look up. "Neville. Hey." She laid the magazine to one side and shifted her long expanse of invitingly-arranged body to leave room for him on the hammock. "Join me?" The jumper had ridden up, revealing a small silver ring in her navel. Neville fought to keep his eyes off it. "Um. Thanks." "You look like you’ve gotten a little too much sun." He shook his head, blushing even more wildly, and dropped gingerly onto the empty side of the hammock. "Orange juice," he lied. "It always gives me a flush." "Jeez." She shot him a knowing, naughty smile and trailed one fingertip down the bridge of his nose. "You must have really, really sensitive skin." He flushed hotter and turned his face away. "Guess so. Where’s everybody else?" "Kate’s off with Snape to try and find some research paper that may or may not be in Cairo – I saw the note they left for Sal on the kitchen table. They must not be having the best of luck … they left in the middle of the night, and they aren’t back yet." Lazily, she checked her watch. "Almost eight hours now, by my count. They must have stopped for lunch." Neville, who readily admitted to naïveté but wasn’t after all blind, had seen enough industrial-strength steel-cable tension pass between his friend and his former professor last night at dinner to have his own ideas about what might have delayed them. He kept them to himself. "Oh. And Sal?" "Caught the morning fireplace to Hogwarts," Joséphine said. "Said something about needing to do some research. From what he said, he’s got a personal library the size of Oahu stashed somewhere in the subdungeons. Couldn’t bring it all with him." She grinned at him. "Guess it’s just you and me, Nev. Whatever will we do with ourselves?" "Um." He’d been a million times more comfortable with her when he’d still thought she might be villainous. Now that he knew the truth, his comfort level was eroding rapidly; mild flirtation with strangers was one thing, and his brief affair with Itmana had been another, but Joséphine Dessources had all the hallmarks of a major-league player, and he wasn’t sure he was ready to step into a batting cage with her, even if she did look like expensively-packaged sin and smell a million times better. "Not sure. Scrabble?" She laughed. Neville swallowed hard. "What?" "You’re funny, that’s what." He was used to having girls laugh at him. "Oh. Right." "And sweet. Don’t get all huffy." She did something with her hips that brought her body into closer contact with his. "Don’t know what it is about you – normally, I’m afraid, nice guys just don’t do it for me. I’m a bit at a loss." Now it was his turn to laugh. "You? At a loss? Now you’re just trying to make me feel better." "No, I’m serious." She smoothed her braids back and met his eyes with a gaze more forthright, for once, than flirtatious. "You’re interesting. You look like the kind of guy who’d rather eat slugs than get into an argument, but you would have taken me apart back there in the park, when you thought I was after Kate. And you’ve got the biggest case of Snape-phobia I’ve ever seen – and believe me, I’ve seen a few; my older students started out with him, after all – but you’re sticking here, instead of running back to Paris." Neville shrugged. "So?" "So, it’s impressive." She tipped her head to one side, a move that made her look younger, less sure of herself. "Most people have one vibe, you know? You’ve got six or seven, and they’re all fighting with each other. I never know whether you’re going to be a marshmallow or a tiger. Keeps me on my toes, and it makes me wonder …" They were so close that he could feel her breath on his cheek, sweet with lime and heavy with tequila. His heart was thumping out a Code Red with every breath he took, but he couldn’t seem to move. "Wonder? Wonder what?" "Well, a couple of things." She edged a little closer, so that when she spoke he could feel her lips move against the hammering pulse in his throat. "Which it’s going to be at first. Which it’s going to be at the end. And what it’s going to take to make you … change." As invitations went, this one came with a car and driver and a bottle of champagne. Neville brought up the hand that wasn’t wedged between their bodies to touch her face – and then it was as if his body suddenly realised where it was – hey, those are legs, those are tits, there’s a mouth to kiss and oil to drill, get moving, boys – and took over from his brain. With a muffled groan, he pushed her over on her back, angled one knee across her hips to hold her where he wanted her, and buried his mouth in hers. ** "Here we are," Linchpin said, and flung the door of the vault wide open. Severus waited for Hermione to enter the room, then followed her with a distinct feeling of relief – Gringotts Cairo protected its vaults with a rabbit warren of tunnels, sand traps, and carefully-placed Sphinxii, the effect of which was distinctly vertiginous. He rather wished now that he hadn’t had that last finger of Old Ogden’s. "Mr. Potter and Miss Weasley had all the things from your house boxed and stored here," Linchpin said now. "They’re in the room to the left; all your personal effects and savings are to the right. I’ve other business to attend to; I’ll leave you to it, shall I?" She handed Hermione a tiny silver bell. "Ring this when you’re ready, and one of the guides will come down to see you back up." "Thank you," Hermione said, pocketing the bell. Linchpin nodded curtly, snapped her fingers, and vanished. They stood among the neatly-boxed remains of her old life and stared at each other, unsure of where to begin. Finally, Severus forced himself to break the silence. "Right," he said. "You go one way, I’ll go the other. Let me know if you find anything." She nodded numbly and – much to his surprise – took the left doorway toward the household effects, leaving him to deal with the treasure. He stared after her for a long second, then turned in the other direction. All the same to him, wasn’t it? Still, very strange. He opened a box, trying unsuccessfully to shake the feeling that he was snooping, and got to work. ** The earth was moving, and it had nothing to do with the fact that they were in a hammock. Neville tore his mouth away from hers and gasped for air. "Steady on, Slick." Her eyes were glittering, her mouth swollen as she fought her way to a sitting position and stripped the red jumper over her head. "Where’s my wand? I want to throw up an Obfuscus." His eyes had reattached themselves to that tiny, glittering bit of silver in her navel. "Your what?" She laughed shakily and made a grab for the little glass-topped table that held the dregs of her margarita. "Never mind, I’ve got it. Just hold still, okay?" Moments later, she dropped the wand again. "All right, that should hold the unintentionally curious at bay. Now, c’mere – I want to see what’s under that shirt. Oh, very nice." Her brassiere unhooked at the front and fell to the side. Neville felt all the blood in his body battle its way to his groin. Joséphine looked momentarily smug. "Pretty, aren’t they? Had them done at the same time as the belly button. Go on – you can touch them." He reached out tentatively to give the little silver rings a gentle tug – and immediately shuddered, as the same sensation reverberated through his own nipples. "Oh, my God." "Didn’t I mention that? They’re enchanted." Joséphine guided his hand down her abdomen. "Everything I feel, you feel too. Go on, then." He stroked the belly ring with a worshipful forefinger and felt an answering tug in the depths of his guts, a little electric thrill that nearly doubled him over, small unseen hands touching parts of him he hadn’t known he had. His palms were buzzing with desire, his blood leaping with it. "Oh, God ," he said again, biting his lips. "I don’t – I can’t. I didn’t know." She should have looked triumphant – how many times must she have gotten this same reaction? – but instead she looked shaken. "Jesus, Slick," she said now. "You’ve no idea, have you? It comes back around again, see? You vibe me, I vibe you. Bloody incredible." She pulled his hands up from his sides, pressed her naked breasts into them. "You can’t believe the energy you’re throwing off – now, pinch them, will you? Hard." How the rest of their clothes came off, he hadn’t a clue. Wonder what it feels like for the girl – well, they’d all thought about that at one point and time, hadn’t they? He was going to die. Smiling. She sank down on him, grinding her torso into his, and he yelled with the sharpness of it, paper-cut slash of the nipples and the hot spreading connection underneath, as though they’d been welded together with the force of their fusion. She groped for his hand, dragged it down her belly. "One more," she gasped. "With your fingers – no, just these two – there. Feel it? Now." All he felt was hot and wet; it wasn’t immediately clear to his trembling fingertips which slipperiness was the silver ring and which was just her. He rubbed anyway, and felt an answering rush of heat inside him, a giant clenching fist squeezing tighter and tighter the faster he rubbed. Above him, Joséphine was making sounds like a taxiing airplane gathering speed for takeoff; it should have been funny, but he just couldn’t think with that part of his brain right now. He’d had sex before, but this was new, this was a bloody revelation and he wished it wouldn’t ever end. There, there was the ring, he’d managed to catch it between his fingers now, and what happened when he tugged on it made both of them scream – yes, yes, again, again! So nice not to have to wonder whether she was having a good time, though there wasn’t really room in his head for that … and then she did something with her pelvis that caught that bit of charmed metal hard between them like a tiny, sizzling donut-shaped brand, and as Neville gave it up and poured himself into her with a final whimpering burst of electricity, he forgot to think of anything at all. They cried and shook and held on to each other – to think I’d given up on witches, Neville said wonderingly at some point, and got a trembling laugh out of her in response. It wasn’t until they’d pried themselves apart, a quarter-hour later, that they noticed the sky. "Where’d the sun go?" he asked, frowning a little, and Joséphine shook her head. "That’s not the sky," she said. "The Obfuscus is a type of Barrier Charm, right? We’ve fogged it over." It was true. ** It was amazing, Severus thought, how going through a couple’s savings account could tell you so much about their marriage. It wasn’t so much the money, though there were telltale details in that, too – separate piles, separate accounts, but also a box of gold in the middle marked ‘College Fund’ in Hermione’s neat script. It was the other things they’d found it worthwhile to put in the vault – the deed to the house, a binder full of passwords and careful notes on various magical locations where Bill had worked, some tissue-wrapped handmade infant clothes that Severus supposed Molly had made once upon a time and saved from the sure destruction of the hand-me-down circuit. A thin folder containing the originals of Hermione’s patents; a scrapbook full of press clippings; their marriage license. He plucked a dried sprig of lavender from one of the small bundles of tissue and unfolded it gently, marvelling at the worksmanship – this wasn’t the work of a woman overwhelmed with children, but a new bride’s labour of love, as delicate and carefully stitched as a wedding gown. He pictured the two of them – mother-in-law and daughter-in-law – cooing over baby clothes, and felt a hard bright stab in his gut; it was hard to imagine a more vivid or painful reminder of what Hermione had lost, the day of Bill’s death. They’d brought Hermione’s jewelry box with them that morning, for safekeeping in the vault, and she’d set it down off to one side of the pile of gold. He hesitated, then opened the lid. There was her infamous sapphire pendant, the twin of which was probably still sitting on Albus Dumbledore’s filing cabinet collecting dust. There was the silver charm bracelet, and there was the jade scarab he’d given her when she left Hogwarts. The wristwatch wasn’t there – apparently she was still wearing it – but a quick look inside a small black velvet bag revealed the loose diamonds with the goblin-made tracking spell on them. He glanced over his shoulder, then tipped them hastily onto his palm. Get one of them out of the box, Linchpin had murmured to him a few minutes ago, and put it in a setting. Make her wear it. This thing won’t end easily, and we can’t help her if we don’t know where she is. He chose one of the smaller diamonds – the biggest was nearly the size of his thumbnail, but he wasn’t doing this for the sake of aesthetics – then replaced the rest of them and stowed the little bag neatly back in its velvet-lined compartment. He was just about to close the lid of the box when a gleam of gold caught his eye. It was a man’s wedding ring, plain yellow gold worn shiny on its outer edge by wear and blowing sand. It was slightly flattened, as if by forceps; Severus swallowed hard and tried not to think about how they’d gotten it off Bill Weasley’s dead finger. Focus, will you? There’s no research here; it must be in her half of the vault. He closed the box, tucked it into a corner, and went to go find her. She was sitting cross-legged on the floor of the vault, a stack of papers around her like a sacred circle. She didn’t look up when Severus came in. "Did you find anything?" She flicked her eyes up at him, then back down quickly to the document she was holding. "The research? It’s over there – I set it aside." He picked up the pair of black binders she’d indicated, then studied her closely. "You’re sure this is right?" "Seems it." She shrugged. "There’s a whole set in that filing cabinet over there, all marked by date. These are the most recent, and the only ones with a photocopy of the patent not clipped to them. I glanced through, but it didn’t make much sense to me." Severus nodded. "Ready to go, then?" He indicated the papers surrounding her. "What’s all this?" "Letters," she said shortly. He frowned. "Letters?" She looked up and held his eyes, and he could read the shock and weariness on her face. "I don’t remember this at all," she said slowly, "but apparently Bill and I wrote letters back and forth, when he was out on assignment. Not sure who saved them – whether it was him, or whether it was me – but they’re all here, both sets. I’ve been going through them." Oh, God. He felt his face align into automatic lines of sympathy, then wiped them off again with considerable effort; no one liked to be pitied. "I’m sure it’s interesting reading," he said neutrally. "You were both gifted writers, as I recall." She shrugged this off. "I can’t believe it," she said, and he, recognising that high note of impending tears in her voice, sank warily down next to her. "Can’t believe what?" "That I’ve been through all these," she said, "and I still can’t remember." She swiped at her eyes. "You should read them. This man, that’s dead, and this woman, that was – that was me … well, they had a relationship. They were goddamn fucking in love. I don’t know them – either of them – and I’m still all weepy from it; it’s like some Tragic Doomed Epic, reading this and knowing how it turned out in the end." She smoothed her thumb over a crease in the letter she was holding. "But it’s just a sad, beautiful story to me – I can’t really remember it." Cautiously, he handed her his handkerchief. "Do you want to?" She put down the letter and wiped her eyes with shaking hands. "I don’t know," she said finally. "I just don’t know." ** When they left the vault, Severus noticed, she took the letters with her. But neither of them mentioned it. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Twenty-Nine ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Early on in her visit to the mountain cabin, Hermione had discovered the treehouse. The original owner of the property, Snape’s Uncle Nestor (or so she’d been told by Sal), had constructed the treehouse in a huge live oak a few hundred yards into the forest that surrounded the cabin. He’d used it for birdwatching, for conducting certain of his slightly-illegal-by-Ministry-of-Magic-standards weather experiments, and for keeping an eye out for any trespassing Muggle foolhardy enough to wander onto his land despite the layers of highly unpleasant wards he’d thrown up around his own little private slice of Paradise. As one might expect from a magically-constructed edifice, it boasted creature comforts its Muggle counterpart probably wouldn’t have been able to muster: skylights, climate control, primitive-but-usable plumbing. The small main room’s focal point centered around a battered, cozy reclining armchair and a bookcase made from unfinished planks, stuffed with paperback espionage thrillers and do-it-yourself home-repair primers. All in all, a not-uncomfortable retreat – if you remembered to bring a sandwich and a thermos of tea, you’d be good for an entire afternoon. But it wasn’t comfort Hermione was after right now, as much as privacy – and that, the treehouse offered in spades. Glancing behind her to make sure no one had noticed her slipping out of the house, she wound her way through the thick foliage that all but obscured the narrow path to the old oak, clambered up the ivy-hung ladder nailed to the treetrunk, and locked the trapdoor entrance behind her before seating herself on the hooked rug in front of the armchair and tipping out of their protective wrapping the letters she’d taken from the Cairo vault. They were neatly folded – many in their original envelopes – and meticulously filed in chronological order. Of those without envelopes, some were single sheets of parchment that had evidently been owled back and forth, round-robin style, in a single afternoon, filled with alternating bands of her own neat script and Bill’s more careless handwriting; reading them, Hermione could picture a dispirited post-owl, flapping wearily from office to office and back again with yet another witty one-liner of a reply. And then, of course, there were gaps in time – two weeks, three weeks, a month – between the more substantial correspondence that marked Bill’s frequent business trips. Reading through these paper ghosts of the life she no longer remembered was, for Hermione, like peering through a two-way mirror into the past. What was it Snape had said? You were both good writers. Well, that she wasn’t disputing – nor could she deny that she, the Hermione she no longer was, had been madly in love with Bill Weasley, and he with her. Even the most banal of their written exchanges – do you want chicken or beef for dinner tonight?—why don’t you surprise me?—were woven through with mutual affection and respect, as apparent as sunlight behind coloured glass. Passion, teasing, tenderness – it was all there. They’d been a regular Baucis and Philemen in the making, from the looks of things: that most elusive of Hollywood mirages, the eternally-fortunate Lucky In Love. Hermione studied the picture of Bill that she’d filched from the photo album, imagined those bright eyes closed forever, and shivered. Creepy. It had been cloudy since they returned from Cairo, drizzling halfheartedly for the past half hour or so, and was now threatening to rain in earnest. Hermione glanced at her watch – a quarter hour until Sal had dinner ready; if she wasn’t there by then, he’d be cross – and began to gather the letters back into the ribbons that had confined them. If she hadn’t dropped the last one in her hurry, she wouldn’t have noticed it at all – on her initial rustle-through, she’d presumed it to be just a stray empty envelope with her name on it in Bill’s writing. Now, however, she gave it a closer look as she picked it up, then froze. Not only wasn’t it empty, it hadn’t ever been opened. Strange. Disbelieving, she turned it over and pried at the seal of the envelope with one fingernail. The glue didn’t budge. She flipped it back over and stared at her name again. A cold, prescient finger of mingled anticipation and dread had tangled in her intestines and was slowly stirring, stirring, stirring. She bit her lip, then shifted her attention back to the other letters. The rataplan, rataplan of cold rain had begun to hit the glass of the skylight. She didn’t pay any attention. This one had been on the bottom. This one had been last. This one had been saved – never opened, then? Or never sent in the first place? Her heart was racing, her mouth as papery as if she’d just sprinted up a hill – or turned a corner and found a mountain lion waiting for her. Come to think of it, maybe she’d prefer the mountain lion. Even through the sealed envelope, this letter was whispering to her – I know things, I know things you don’t know – and there was no telling what untold dangers might fly out, once she actually read the thing. It must have been Bill, then, who’d saved all the letters. Why would he go to all the trouble to write it and seal it, but never give it to her? Good question. Numbly, she crossed the room and turned up the wick on the kerosene lamp, then sank cross-legged into the comfy old recliner with the letter on her lap – the weather, the impending dinner hour, and Sal’s inevitable displeasure forgotten. The cold, bitter tang of adrenaline still sat heavy on her tongue – why? she asked herself fiercely, why are you so guilty, why are you afraid? It’s addressed to you, isn’t it? It’s yours. She traced the letters of her name with one finger, drawing out the process as if it mattered, as if it would change the decision she’d already made, the decision that was – since Time immemorial – inevitable; even before Pandora, after all, sealed boxes had been made solely to be opened. Feeling like a backhoe operator at an archaeology dig, she took a deep breath and ripped open the flap. ** Hermione, the letter read: Two years today – can you believe it? You’re asleep, and I ought to be. Think there was too much rum in the cake; I’ve got indigestion and I can’t be bothered to go downstairs for an antacid. Or maybe it’s just deep thoughts. Hard to tell the difference, sometimes. You’re snoring. It’s really, REALLY loud. Funny how I never notice it when I’m asleep, too. Between you, me, and Cleo, we must sound like a monster truck rally. I was just remembering today something I heard Mum say, just before we got married – remember, I took that weekend and went to the Burrow, to clear the rest of my things out of the attic? It was a night like this one … I was supposed to be sleeping, but couldn’t, and Mum and I stayed up talking. Can’t remember most of it, of course, but this one thing’s stayed with me – she said: “Having a marriage license doesn’t automatically turn you into a mind-reader, you know. You want to know what she’s thinking, you’re best off asking her.” It’s true. Almost three years with you – two with my ring – we eat the same cereal, we share the same bed, and parts of you are still a puzzle to me. I like it, mostly, don’t misunderstand me. I wouldn’t change you for anything. But there’s this one thing that’s been bothering me. It’s silly. It’s so small, and I’m sure you’ve no idea you’re doing it. But even right now it’s happening – you get this look sometimes, when you’re sleeping, this utterly beatific look, this smile. The most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. And then when you wake up – just for a second, before you’re properly awake – you see me, and you look a little bit puzzled, like I’m not the one you expected. Told you it was stupid, didn’t I? But it bothers me, and I’m not sure which is worse: that I don’t know who it is that’s putting that smile on your face, or that I’m afraid I might. You never told me about him, but I figured it out anyway. Not till it was over, of course – I’m not that quick. But I saw the looks on both your faces, that night in Alexandria, and you’ve never looked at me that way – like I was devil, angel, hope, despair, all four – love and grief and loathing all rolled up in one messy Gordian knot you’d have to cut through to kill. Sometimes I’m jealous of that. Mostly I’m glad – glad that what we have isn’t that conflicted, that shadowed – glad that you can love me, and not regret it. But it makes me think about him, which is something I never did much before I knew that you’d been together. And the conclusions I reach aren’t comfortable or nice ones, which also bothers me – you know that you’re my stars and moon, Hermione, that I wouldn’t give you up for anything, but I also can’t help but think myself greedy. Family, friends, love – all my life, I’ve been so fortunate. And I stole his only jewel, to give my already-rich crown a centerpiece. How lucky I am to have you. And how lonely he must be. Without realising she did it, Hermione muttered something under her breath, then plucked a tissue from midair and wiped her streaming eyes. There was only one more paragraph. She swallowed hard, trying unsuccessfully to dislodge the tennis ball that had mysteriously sprouted in her throat, and turned back to the yellowed page. I wonder if it would comfort him, to know he’s still in your dreams? So selfish of me, to begrudge him that unconscious corner of you between sleep and waking. But I am not so divided, you see. And despite my mother’s advice – I’ll never know what you’re thinking until I ask – I find myself reluctant to do that. If you are dreaming about him, I think I’d rather not know. --Bill ** No wonder he didn’t give it to me, Hermione thought, and refolded the letter with cold but steady hands. It was dinnertime. And after that, she and Snape had unfinished business. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Severus wasn t exactly thrilled with the state of his household, upon returning from Cairo. For one thing, he had two guests too many, and they weren t his favourite people on the planet by any stretch of the imagination. Worse - for a couple of urbanites circumstantially stuck in the sticks - they looked irritatingly content, nay, blissful. He thought he knew why, too - Joséphine Dessources might play her romantic cards close to that capacious, well-defined chest of hers, but Longbottom s discretion came harder won; he had the stunned, disbelieving air of a man who had fallen asleep in the Catskills, á là Rip van Winkle, and woken up in Caesar s Palace. That - that look of shocked, I m-going-to-wake-up-any-minute-now-somebody-pinch-me-please awe - that was the most annoying bit of all. If Severus couldn t act on his own desires, it was a sure bet that he didn t want anyone else getting laid, either. And then there was Sal, who had returned from Hogwarts much more subdued than was ordinarily his wont - apparently his research hadn t gone as well as he had hoped. Severus, worried, had broken a lifelong habit of feigned indifference to inquire after him ("Everything all right, then?") and gotten only a terse nod in reply. Even making dinner - normally the pinnacle of Sal s day, made even more euphoric an act of gastronomic theatre now that he had an audience of four - hadn t cheered him up. Now, from the tiny broom-closet Severus had painstakingly Expanded into a laboratory, he could hear the piqued sounds of deliberate crashing; Sal was taking out his annoyance on the washing-up. Disturbing to his equilibrium as all this was, it was nothing compared to his concern over Hermione - as always, she d managed to worm her way out of the sideshow acts and onto centre stage. She d been silent on the way out of Gringotts, made herself scarce before dinner, and had only shown up halfway through the pudding course, rain-soaked and red-eyed and bearing along with her carefully-guarded packet of letters a look of chin-jutting determination he knew only too well. Clearly she d made a decision of some sort, and it was all he could do, after the morning s events, not to jerk her away from her caramel flan and demand to know what she was thinking. As it turned out, however, he hadn t long to wait for enlightenment. There was a knock on his study door, a perfunctory pause, and then she slipped into the laboratory, wary and watchful as a child ghost. For a moment, she might have been a first- or second-former, and he back in his immaculate dungeon classroom, cynically awaiting her inevitable, earnest queries about whatever it was they d covered that day - could he recommend any additional reading, would he mind if she followed up with an experiment of her own using similar ingredients as substitutions, might she possibly add another scroll to her report? He thought about the responses with which he d greeted her overtures, nine times out of ten, and smiled grimly to himself. Perhaps it wasn t such a tragedy that some memories, at least, were presently beyond her reach. "Do you have a moment?" she asked, snapping him back to the present. He slipped what he d been working on out of sight underneath a splayed-open Brewer s Journal of the Alchemical Arts, put on a look of long-suffering, as if he hadn t spent an impatient half-hour waiting for precisely this interruption, and sighed. "Apparently." She shut the door behind her, eyed him uncertainly, opened her mouth, and closed it again. Severus arched one eyebrow. "Shall I say Once upon a time? " he queried nastily. "Maybe that would shake something loose in there." Bastard, her gaze said, but she didn t look nearly so apprehensive now. "I ve spent the afternoon going through Bill s letters." "And?" His eyes dropped to the envelope in her hand. "You ve come for show and tell, I suppose?" "This one was unopened," she said, turning it over and over in her fingers as if it was a talisman. "I read it for the first time today." A deep, steadying breath. "It s about you." This rattled him a bit, though he wasn t about to show her that. "How random. I can t imagine why." Her head came up with a snap, and he saw with a start that her eyes were blazing. "You didn t tell me everything." Oh, yes, he thought - now this was vintage Hermione, not the first-former anymore but the self-assured, not-even-remotely-intimidated-by-him harridan she d been after her adventure in Rome, cutting right through all the niceties and directly to the matter at hand. "No?" "No." She thrust the envelope under his nose as if it contained a death warrant. "You haven t even come close." Severus regarded the envelope warily, but made no move to take it. "Miss Granger," he said in his most repressive, professorial tones, "if you feel yourself kept in the dark, perhaps it s time for me to remind you once again that you brought all this on yourself. Your ignorance of your own personal life is hardly my problem, now is it?" She flinched, then rallied sufficiently to glare at him. "As if I haven t had that pounded home to me enough already today," she said irritably. "Look - I m not trying to saddle you with the responsibility for this mess; I m well aware that I got myself into it all on my own. I just want to understand, that s all." When in doubt, play dumb. "Understand what?" She shrugged impatiently. "Anything. Everything. It s hard to explain. Here." She was waggling the envelope under his nose again. Severus, overcome by foreboding, took it reluctantly. "What s in it?" "Just read it, will you?" He would have recognised Bill Weasley s handwriting even without a signature - the only child in that family to possess talent, creativity and inclination for the subject all three, he d been one of Severus best students. Somewhere in his files, he still had one of Bill s essays, a neatly-crafted little gem on the various uses of powdered willowfine. It had been that rarity of written student assignments - a pleasure to read. Somehow, he didn t think he was going to be so lucky with this sample. He read it through twice, then took his time refolding it. It took him two tries to get it back in the envelope. "Why did you show me this?" If she was surprised by his shaken tone, she didn t show it. "I thought you should see it." He felt the beginnings of a migraine coming on. "Why on earth would I want to? It s got nothing whatsoever to do with me." "Liar." She swept the letter off his desk and held it protectively against her body. "It s got everything to do with you, whether you choose to admit it or not. And I want to know if it s true." "I m hardly the man to tell you," Severus said harshly. "Bill Weasley s the only one who could have answered that question with any degree of accuracy at all. And you ve managed to kill even the memory of him. A bit late to be curious now, don t you think?" She paled at the deliberate cruelty of this cut, but didn t back down. "I know he thought it was true," she said steadily. "But I want to know if it really was." Her voice shook a little on the last word; she bit her lip to steady herself, and leaned a little closer. "Was I in love with you?" she wanted to know. "Were you in love with me?" Bloody hell. ** There were probably millions of ways in which those two questions could be asked, Severus mused. Hermione Granger chose to ask them looming at him over the top of his desk, small hands fisted firmly atop the reading he d been set to begin that afternoon and hadn t gotten to, nostrils flared and brown eyes narrowed to gimlets: the truth, said those eyes, or the consequences. You choose. Incongruous as this might have seemed to the casual observer, it reminded Severus so strongly of the pre-Obliviate, pre-Fidelius Hermione that he could have cheered. He didn t, of course - mostly because there was another voice taking up space in his head at the same time. This one was his own, but so excited, so charged with urgency that he hardly recognised it: you let her walk away once before, it said, and look what s happened - the gods threw her back in your lap. You have her damaged now, when you might have had her whole. Are you going to let it happen again? It wasn t easy arguing with that logic, but he tried. This isn t the time. Or the place. I might not even be the man. You keep telling yourself that, but the proof is standing right in front of you. When are you going to admit that it s meant to be, and take what s yours? "Now," he said aloud, surprising himself. Hermione frowned at him, more out of bewilderment than irritation. " Now? What s that supposed to mean?" She scowled, wiping hair out of her eyes. "Not to spell it out for you, but I was rather hoping for a yes or no ." Severus barely heard her for the rushing of blood in his ears. That long-buried devil s-advocate bit of him, scenting victory, pushed harder: You caused all this, in a way. Here s your chance to make it right. "What a pity," he said thoughtfully, reaching out to grasp her by her shoulders. She goggled at him, stunned. "What? What s a pity?" He came out of his seat and yanked her a little closer - oh yes, this felt good, this felt very good indeed, and she felt good too, glorious mess of hang-ups and pheromones and world-class contradictions that she was. What a pair we are, eh? "Limiting yourself to yes or no ," he said, and was astonished to feel his facial muscles stretching into the largely unfamiliar territory of a full-out grin. "When there s such a world of possibilities in between." He bent to kiss her, and she let him do it. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty-One ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ At first, Hermione was too surprised to react. "Was I in love with you?" she'd asked -- "were you in love with me?" -- but for all her boldness, she'd never in a million years expected a straightforward answer from him, oblique sarcastic creature that he was. What a surprise it had been to see him shaken, to see the seemingly-impregnable mask that he maintained so fastidiously crack at last into a wicked, genuine smile. Almost frightening, seeing the flash of teeth behind those perpetually-tight lips; why, he's not so scary after all, whispered her subconscious, making her blush. Then she'd blushed anyway, but for other reasons. He had her yanked hard against the front of the desk, and under normal circumstances she'd have said it was damned uncomfortable -- hard wooden edge, pelvis tilted at an awkward angle, calf muscles straining to tiptoe and hands fluttering at her sides like tame birds uncaged: free to fly, but unsure of where they wanted to go. His own hands weren't so indecisive. One was tangled in the curls at the side of her head; the other had her by the upper arm, probably hard enough to leave a mark. For the first few seconds of the kiss -- brief, but clarion -- she was aware of all this, not only the physical indignity but also the sheer incredulousness of the situation in general; what the bloody hell was she doing, kissing this moody mercurial stranger of a man who up until now hadn't seemed even to like her very much, and who, when taken apart feature by feature, wasn't all that attractive to begin with? And then, she remembered him. It was odd. Certainly she hadn't any more information in her brain than usual, regarding him; she'd still have been hard-pressed to recall a single one of his lectures, and from all accounts she'd sat through those twice a week for six years. Probably she'd also picked up other, more personal knowledge of him along the way, in the course of their acquaintance, and she didn't have that at her disposal now, either. What she did have was a visceral, physical pull, hot and liquid, shooting up from cervix to brain stem in the space of one single volcanic heartbeat: Relax, her body was telling her, I know him, even if you don't. And though, in the bits of her memory still remaining to her, there wasn't a single recollection of her ever having had sex, with anyone, somehow the rest of her was managing to function admirably all the same. Hermione fought her way through a jumbled collection of sensory input as her body recalibrated itself -- loosening, tightening, shivering, swelling, oh Jesus, oh Christ, oh bloody, bloody hell -- and barely managed to keep herself on her feet. If this was standard pre-coital arousal, it was pretty damn frightening. He broke away from the kiss to mutter something incoherent, then grasped her by the shoulders and hoisted her bodily onto the desk. His Brewer's Journal came loose from its cover; papers went flying; an entire bell jar full of freshly-sharpened quills crashed to the floor ... and he didn't so much as flinch, merely slid her toward him until her legs dangled off his side of the desk, stepped into the cradle of her body, and with a satisfied sound in his throat -- half-hum, half-growl -- bent to kiss her again. ("Did you hear something?" Neville asked from two rooms over, poised on the brink of what was a rather similar pursuit.) ("No," Joséphine said.) ("Oh. All right then.") Neither Severus nor Hermione noticed the small, faintly metallic rattle of platinum against wood laminate, in the ensuing fracas. As her hands finally travelled up those lean black-clothed sides to lock around his neck (ah yes, sighed her body, that's the ticket, all right), a plain silver band housing an extraordinarily brilliant stone chittered away across the polished floor, where it eventually came to rest beneath a cabinet of glassware in the room's remotest corner. They didn't even look up. ** For a second, she'd stood uncomprehending in his embrace -- not protesting, exactly, but hardly an active participant either. Then, something had changed. She'd made some small exhalation of a noise -- ah, maybe, or oh. And then -- not that there were words for it, exactly -- she'd sort of ... melted into him, that whole brittle, tightly-held little body of hers going suddenly slack and willing, her mouth opening, greedy under his, as if to prove that old chestnut: there were more kinds of hunger than just the one. If he'd been in his right mind, he might have wondered what caused the abrupt shift in her demeanor. But he wasn't, and so he didn't -- just took her by the first bit of her he could reach and hauled her up and across, heedless of the mayhem he was causing to his carefully-organised desk. When he finally had her where he wanted her -- fingers clasped behind his neck, ankles sliding shyly up the backs of his thighs to twine together at the small of his back -- he hesitated scarcely a second before diving right back in. She was everything he'd been dreaming about since the night he'd finally walked away from her all those years ago, back in Cairo: heated, shuddering, pliant, the Right Woman in the Right Place in the Right Frame Of Mind. Her eyes were shut, her breath fast and high. When he paused to shift position, she moaned and tugged at him until he guided her mouth back to his. She was trembling like a fever patient. It never occurred to him that at least part of that trembling was due to fear. He was too lost himself. ("Why don't you just find another woman?" Sal had asked him once. "Prime of your life, and you're holed away up here like Saint bloody Augustine. What gives?") ("Don't know.") But he did, he did know, and that was the sad part, the pathetic level of misery to which he'd sunk, just before their dance had begun: with Hermione had come the Illuminata, and with the Illuminata an unforgettable moment of complete and perfect happiness that he'd never known either before or since; even now sometimes, alone in the dark, he punched his pillow restlessly and drifted back to that night on the chilly stone floor, swimming through warm lemon-scented steam while she wrapped herself around him and made him forget everything he'd ever wished he couldn't remember. At the time, he'd attributed his momentary happiness to the potion, not the girl. Now, nearly ten years later, he wasn't so sure. He broke the kiss and trailed his mouth down her jawline to her throat before she could protest. Kisses were all very well, but now that he'd actually gone and snatched his coveted cupcake, he was determined to do more than lick off her icing. Backing up a pace, his hands wrapped snugly around her denim-clad backside, he sank back into his chair, grateful for once for its lack of arms, and pulled her astride him. It had been like this the first time, or nearly -- he on his knees on the floor, she pulling up her robes with frantic hands to clear the way between them. This was better, though: more comfortable, more convenient. More ... possibilities. He palmed his wand -- miraculously still in its holster on his belt -- and muttered a Cushioning Charm, then eased her back so her shoulders were supported by the edge of the desk. She murmured a vague protest, then sighed in surrender as his hands found her breasts, and let her head loll back into the illusion of a pillow. Once, he'd subjected both of them to slow, pleasurable torture by peeling off her clothes by hand. Tonight, he couldn't wait that long to see her naked. He threw a Locking Spell at the laboratory door -- rash of him not to have done that in the first place -- then muttered "Divestio!" before laying his wand aside. She lay straddling his lap, head thrown back against the desk so that all he could see of her face was that proud little chin, crowning an upthrust curve of throat. Her arms were thrown to either side of her; as he bent his head to nuzzle her breasts, she gasped and clutched at the sides of the desk. He latched onto one, drew hard, and watched her head snap sharply up. "Oh, God," she said at the sight of his mouth on her. "Oh, God ." "Good?" He set his teeth in, just a little, just enough to make her whimper. "Better?" "Oh, God." She couldn't seem to find any other words. Must've been the ten years she spent in the C of E, before she came to Hogwarts , Severus thought, amused, then brought himself up short at the look in those wild brown eyes. Her body was one thing -- to be perfectly frank, her body was squirming slow circles in his lap like the Welcome Wagon made flesh. But her face? Riding the fine blind edge of panic. Wait a minute. "Hermione," he said, and clamped his hands on either side of her hips, to still that slow, maddening grind of softness against him. "Are you sure you're all right?" She bucked against the restraint of his hands. "Oh, God." "Hermione?" He gave her a shake. "If you're not all right, you've got to tell me now -- while I can still stop. Do you hear me?" "Don't stop. I'm okay." She sounded as if she'd been running, breathless and a bit disoriented. Her eyes were still closed. "I don't want you to stop -- you can't, I think I'll die if you do. It's just --" "Yes?" He couldn't hold her back any more, had to let her resume that slow tight-circling rub that seemed to be keeping her sane at the same time it drove him mad. "It's just what?" "It's just --" Her hips jerked up, then back; with every subsequent pass, they were getting farther and farther away from Dress Rehearsal, and near and nearer to Opening Night. A good shove, a better angle, Severus knew, and he'd be in, he'd be at home plate, he'd be kissing angels and hearing harps. From the look of her, Hermione knew this too -- and it was scaring the hell out of her. "It's just," she gasped, "that I can't remember ever doing this before." Severus froze. ** A tense, still moment passed in which neither of them moved, neither of them spoke. Then: "I don't want you to stop," she said again. She was leaning up on her elbows now so she could look him directly in the eyes; Severus took in that unflinching gaze above those high pale breasts, and thought automatically of Manet's Olympia. "I want ... oh, God, I want all sorts of things. How could I have forgotten this?" She was breathing more easily now that she'd made her admission -- looking more intrigued, less panicked. Body got ahead of her brain, Severus hypothesized, and sent his thumbs grazing in a slow experimental half-circle along the satiny surface of each inner thigh. Her breath caught in her throat. "Was it always like this?" she wanted to know. Flattered, he felt his mouth twist up in a quick, cocky half-smile. "I don't know about always." He let one thumb trace its way up her mons, enjoying her reflexive shudder. "We've never kept it going long enough for there to be an always. Right now, there's only a so far." "That's just ... that's just semantics." He'd found what he was looking for with that questing thumb; she squeaked, then let her head collapse abruptly back onto the desk. "Jesus fucking Christ," she said to the ceiling. "I don't know my own body." "You always were a quick learner, thought," he murmured. "Ready for Lesson Two?" Almost before she'd finished nodding, he was sliding into her. ** Who knew, Hermione thought fuzzily, that the age-old game of Train and Tunnel would feel so damn good? She had her breath back a bit now -- thank God he'd noticed something amiss, during that scary roller-coaster ride up and over the desk, and brought her back to the ground, because she hadn't had the will or the inclination to hit the brakes herself. still, this was better -- and even more mind-blowing in a way: one hand riding the swell of her hip, the other still involved with a procedure which would henceforth be referred to as That Thing With His Thumb, her insides expanding under his gentle intrusion like silk elastic. Magic, the way that happened. And such small movements, everything so slow and measured that her body couldn't have run away with her again, even if she'd wanted it to. Of course, at this point she thought she rather wouldn't mind if it did. She propped herself up as best she could against the side of the desk -- much more comfortable, incidentally, than it should have been; what was that about? -- and watched him ease her up and onto him again. His eyes were intent, his cheekbones stained with twin pinpoints of bright pink flush, his hair an unholy mess around his face. His teeth were dug savagely into his lower lip, reddening and swelling it from its usual pale line; all in all, Hermione couldn't help but think the transformations an improvement. Sex becomes you, she wanted to say -- did you know that? -- and almost laughed out loud at her own presumption, before he changed the angle of that stroking thumb and turned her giggle into a gasp. "Severus," she choked out, and he turned those glittering black eyes from the spectacle of their joined bodies to her face. "Yes?" "Not to complain ..." The eyes grew wary. "What?" " ... but could we possibly go any faster than this?" The wariness cleared, and he laughed -- actually laughed! -- before deliberately sliding her off his lap and holding her just out of reach, so she could feel the tip of him just barely nudging at her. "Impatient, are we?" "Very," she agreed fervently, not seeing any reason to dissemble. He laughed again. "How impatient?" Wicked, wicked look in his eyes, my God, Hermione thought, how could I ever have thought him hard to read? "Why don't you show me?" Obligingly she squirmed against him, huffing a little in frustration when the angle and his hard-clamped hands didn't let her get anywhere. "Tease," she complained, and for a moment he grew solemn again. "My apologies. It's been so long--" here, he shrugged self-deprecatingly -- "that I'd thought to draw it out a bit." "No complaints," she assured him, breathless -- and a bit stricken as well, that her careless comment had wiped that pleased, self-satisfied look from his face. "But ... there's always next time, right?" She'd intended for him to smile at that, but he didn't. "This is the next time," he said. "And I've waited eight years for it." "Oh." For a moment, she stopped squirming -- there was something awful and brutal about the simplicity of that statement that transcended laughter, transcended even sex itself. It seemed crucial that she acknowledge it, before they went any farther. "So Bill was right, then," she said, and brought up both hands to push the tousled black hair off his face, so she could look him in the eyes. "You do love me, don't you?" ** The question knocked the breath from him. The first time she'd asked it, twenty minutes ago, it had been a challenge. Now, it was a shy certainty; he'd laid down one card too many, and now she knew his hand. What was to be gained by further evasion? He paused, thinking of all the emotional detours he could construct, then simply nodded wearily instead. "Yes." She studied him for a long moment, then leaned up to brush his mouth with hers. "I want my memory back." He goggled at her. "What?" "You heard me," she said. "I want to remember." He was still hard against her thigh; without breaking eye contact, she reached down casually to grasp him and slide him back into the tight clutch of her body. Caught helplessly between fresh confusion and renewed arousal, he frowned. "Why?" She cocked her head to one side and regarded him quizzically, as if the answer to that should be obvious. "So I can say the same to you," she said. "And know that it's the truth." He couldn't think of anything to say to that, so he pulled her closer instead and started to move. If he hadn't known better, he'd have thought he smelled Illuminata. Definitely not the potion, he thought. It must be the girl. After that, he stopped thinking at all. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty-Two ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Hermione awoke amid blue flannel sheets to a chilly, fog-grey morning. Severus was nowhere to be seen. Huh, she thought, glancing around the room. Could have sworn this study didn t have a bed in it last night. And that it wasn t this big. And then: And he claims he s no good at Transfiguration, the liar. No wonder he gave up his bedroom so readily. But such ruminations were minutiae, given the bigger picture. She yawned, stretched, and snuggled back into her pillow with a small, satisfied sigh. She felt good. She felt damn good. In her head, Memory raised a warning finger, poking a hole in her pink cloud of afterglow: Jump-starting an old love affair is just going to confuse an already cloudy issue, Sal had said a few days previous. Before you go to him, first lay your ghosts to rest. Oops, Hermione thought, then shrugged mentally. What does it matter when it happened? He loves me. He said so. Speaking of which -- where is he? Obviously she wasn t going to be getting back to sleep anytime soon, no matter how comfortable this mattress. Sighing, she flung back the duvet and started looking for her clothes. They were in a neat pile on a chair near the desk, anchored by her wand; without really thinking about what she was doing, she gave it an absent twirl, swish-flicked, and murmured Purgare! A Cleaning Charm, she knew automatically, and only afterward, surrounded by the faint baby-powder aroma of fabric softener, thought to wonder: had she covered that one with Sal, the other day? Or not? It was beginning to be damn annoying that she couldn t remember. Blue, she said, almost severely, to the red button-down shirt on the chair they had done colour changes, that much she was sure of and smirked in satisfaction as the shirt obediently morphed from crimson to cornflower. Good enough. She threw on the clothes and went to go find him. He was crouched over the kitchen stove, murmuring something into the ring of blue flame around one of the front burners. As she got a little closer, Hermione saw a tiny severe head sitting comfortably if incongruously atop the flame, and caught the glint of corporate silver hoops. Floo s all right for most things, Linchpin was saying, but not secure enough for this. I think it s important enough that you d better come in to the office. Severus frowned and ran one long-fingered hand over his rather stubbly chin. Isn t the risk of being overheard just as great there? Linchpin sighed. Point taken. Her head swivelled to survey the kitchen. Have you a proper hearth, at least? I don t fancy trying to Floo through through this. There s a fire in the parlor. Give me a moment and I ll Unblock it for you. Her head withdrew, and he turned off the burner. Hermione cleared her throat from the doorway. What was that all that about? He turned, half-startled, then seeming to remember himself gave her a slow, heavy-lidded smile. Good morning. She felt colour rising to her face. Good morning. He looked oddly gratified by this exchange, as if it d gone off better than he d expected. Did you sleep well? Fine. She gestured toward the stove. What did she want? Has she found something? A raised eyebrow. Apparently. She s coming over in a moment to tell us what it is. I was about to go and wake you. He paused in the doorway to the parlor, stooped, and kissed her deliberately on the forehead. Excuse me. I have to Unblock the fireplace. Wondering fingers on her brow she might have expected last night s heart-stopping sexuality from him, but not necessarily the little niceties of romance she stepped automatically aside and let him pass. ** We have a name, Linchpin said without preamble. It was to her credit, Severus thought, that she managed to maintain full professional dignity while sitting cross-legged on the floor of a treehouse; if she d thought it odd to Floo into an seemingly-isolated mountain cabin, only to tiptoe past the doorway of the only bedroom and out into the damp-dripping woods, she hadn t indicated as much. Don t get too excited, she added now. He s been dead for several hundred years. We think. Sal snorted. What good does that do us, then? he muttered, sounding surly. Severus thought he knew the reason for his old friend s grumpiness-of-late, and it had little to do with unsuccessful book-hunting; close to half a century of goblin wars had left him naturally suspicious of Gringotts pointy-eared employees, and he d been less than cheerful ever since they d come back from Cairo the other day with news of their new alliance. Linchpin looked down her pince-nez at him, her small close-set eyes steely. I chose to think it rather valuable information, she said coldly, then turned back toward Severus and Hermione. My best researchers uncovered the name in the bank s archives; it s circumstantial, of course, but the mark used on the Nameless account isn t particularly common, and it coincides with one he used on personal correspondence. She looked half-disgusted, half-smug. We ve been telling people not to write down their identification runes for centuries, but do they ever listen? No. What s the name? Hermione asked, but Sal had already floated resentfully around behind the goblin and was peering over her shoulder. Alain de Fondant, he said, looking thoughtful. That wouldn t be the pirate, would it? Linchpin s claws tightened reflexively on her paperwork. The pirate, yes, she agreed. Severus frowned. The name sounds familiar, he said. But I don t remember why. Well Linchpin began, but Sal beat her to it. Fascinating story, he said do allow me, won t you? The goblin nodded reluctantly. Sal smiled. The de Fondants were an old Norman wizarding family, he said. Alain s father Bertrand, I believe it was was only the latest in a long line of court magicians, which was nice work if you could get it. Meant interacting with the Muggles, of course, which most of us had stopped by then but the money and the perks were worth it, if you didn t mind a certain amount of inherent risk. Bertrand de Fondant was the favoured necromancer of one of the French princes I forget which one exactly. Married one of the Devereaux girls, I believe. Had one son that s Alain. He shot a challenging glance at the frowning goblin opposite him. How m I doing so far? Linchpin pursed her lips. Go on. Well, Alain was being groomed for the trade, Sal continued, winking at Hermione. Had things turned out differently, he would most likely have been a court magician just like his father. But Bertrand was a Templar knight there were more than a few of us, you know, in the Order; too much money and power tied up in it to resist completely and the Templars were heavily into piracy at that point. One of them, another undercover wizard, asked to take on Alain as his cabin boy, and Bertrand agreed. Hermione, who had been silent up to this point, shifted back against the bookshelf and wrapped both hands around her blue-jeaned knees. Severus tried not to notice how this movement played up the inner curve of her thighs in the snug denim, and failed miserably. What happened then? Two things, really, Sal said. One, he got a taste for the piracy business and liked it; started to work his way up through the ranks after his original term of apprenticeship was up. Wasn t such a bad job, being a Templar pirate they were a pretty democratic lot, all told and besides, having magical ability just sweetened the pot. Rumour had it that before Alain docked for the last time, he d figured out how to Apparate not only himself, but his entire ship. Made a pile of money at it, whether it s true or not. He lifted a pale, shaggy eyebrow. And then, King Philip lowered the boom on the Templar movement, and Bertrand got caught in the scuffle. You mean--? Hermione was wide-eyed, caught up in the story. Sal nodded grimly. Tortured and executed, he said. Tout de suite. Had a real grudge against Muggles after that, I ll wager. He jerked his ghostly head toward Linchpin. Or isn t that where all this is headed? Not a bad guess, Linchpin said neutrally, and shuffled the papers on her lap. Shortly after Bertrand s death, our records show simultaneous withdrawals from Alain de Fondant s private accounts and deposits to the Nameless account marked with the symbol I showed you earlier, in matching amounts. Circumstantial, Sal muttered. Linchpin fixed him with a look. Less so, she said, the higher the numbers go. And these were rather high, even by today s standards. She adjusted her spectacles with one clear-lacquered claw before continuing. Not long after that, the same Nameless account began funneling money to a number of pureblood-supremacist groups. One of them, a select international cabal of pureblood wizards calling themselves Les Choix, corresponded with de Fondant via this anonymous account more regularly than did the others; our research seems to indicate that he may have possibly been a member, or even in a position of leadership within the group. Les Choix, Hermione said thoughtfully. Are they the same thing as the Knights of the Golden Wand, then? Linchpin shook her head. That s what s interesting, she said. Les Choix closed their account with us at nearly the same time that Alain de Fondant withdrew the considerable personal funds remaining to him. She slanted a wry glance at Sal. I imagine Mr. Slytherin can take the tale from here. Not much to tell, Sal said, but his pale eyes were alight with reminiscence. Mystery of the century, though, that s for sure. Severus, who knew Sal s Storyteller Face when he saw it, hid a smile with the pretense of a yawn. Well? he inquired, in tones carefully modulated for the proper level of ennui. Sal grinned at him. King Philip of France, he said, declared the Order of the Templars to be heretics in January of 1308, at which point all their property far exceeding his own, might I add; the Templars were the principal financiers of all Europe for centuries became the property of the Church and Crown. Along with the landownings and armies and such, there was the fabled gold of the Paris Treasury, which Philip made a play for but never found. He leaned back, unwittingly floating a few inches off the floor as he became more involved in his story. The Muggles have all sorts of wild theories about what might possibly have happened to all the money. None of them true, of course. In reality, the Templars got wind of the impending disaster and all the gold was handed over to de Fondant, who was to put it on a ship and get it out of Europe. Three guesses as to what happened, Severus murmured sardonically. Hermione, who had been wrapped up in the story, jumped at the sound of his voice. Take the money and run, she said softly, then looked surprised at herself. Sal nodded. Exactly. Hermione looked at Linchpin. And it never showed up again? Not at Gringotts, Linchpin said drily. All three of them disappeared within the same day de Fondant, Les Choix, and the gold. And none have been heard from since. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty-Three ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Shipwrecked? Hermione suggested. Severus shook his head. Someone s still accessing the Nameless account, aren t they? he asked. Must be, if they re financing the Knights of the Golden Wand that particular little group of nasties hasn t been around but three hundred years or so. He focussed in on the worn shag of the carpet, frowning hard. There must be a de Fondant descendant running around loose somewhere. Well, if there is, Linchpin said, I d certainly like to get my claws into him. She shrugged, self-deprecatingly, when the other three turned to look at her. The French Crown wasn t very good at hanging onto its winnings, back then, she said. Not long after the fall of the Templars, we acquired the mortgage on most of those properties including all outstanding debts attached to them. Counting interest, there s probably close to ten million Galleons due in back taxes by now. A pensive, faraway look crossed her face; for a moment, she seemed lost in fantasy. Whoever brings that bit of recovery income in to the Advisory Board well, let s just say she could choose her own office. You sound like Gabrielle, Hermione thought to herself, then blinked. Who s Gabrielle? Shaking her head, she struggled to catch up to the conversation that had gone on without her. What about Muggle banks? she asked. Could he have taken the money elsewhere? Linchpin frowned. We don t think so, she said. We tend to keep track of other institutions large deposits, and there s nothing around that time to suggest that de Fondant put the money anywhere at all. Not to mention that the disappearance of the Templar fortune was at least as big a Muggle scandal as it was in the magical world more, probably. Everyone was looking for it. Either he was clever enough to keep it awhile, then deposit it a bit at a time, under an assumed name here she looked dark, as if the very idea were reprehensible or, as we suspect, it s buried somewhere, and warded heavily enough that no one s ever found it. The goblins Holy Grail, Sal murmured. Linchpin looked sour. Something like that. Now there s a secret, Severus said slowly, that someone would kill to protect. After that, no one could think of much of anything to add. ** Fascinating as all the pirate-treasure business was, Severus had more pressing matters on his mind namely, the contents of the binders he and Hermione had brought back from Cairo the day before. Arriving back at the cabin from their impromptu treehouse summit, only to find Neville and Joséphine drinking coffee at the very back-porch table where he d hoped to spread out his papers, did nothing to dispel the urgency of his mood. Aren t you expected back at Hogwarts? he snarled at Joséphine. She rolled a sip of coffee around in her mouth, swallowed leisurely, and grinned up at him. I m heading out this afternoon. It wasn t the answer he d been expecting; as such, it took him a bit aback. Oh. Well good. One slim dark finger was tracing its way coyly up Neville s forearm. Both of us are, actually. We figured we d spend the weekend together in Paris before I m due back in classes Monday. She shot him a guileless look from beneath those thick dark lashes. Besides. We ve imposed long enough. Well, as long as you realise it, Severus said but found it difficult, under the circumstances, to hold on to his customary sneer. In fact, the prospect of getting his quiet house back sort of, anyway mollified him enough to go away and find somewhere else to put his binders for the moment. Sal was in the kitchen, cohabitating with a half-empty bottle of Perlucioed Pinot Grigio and recklessly marinating chicken breasts in some runny concoction that smelt strongly of curry. Hermione, who d beaten both of them back to the house, was cross-legged on the Transfigured bed in his study, already so deeply engrossed in a book on Memory Charms that she didn t even look up when he opened the door. That left him the comfortable armchair in the parlour, which wasn t, after all, such a bad place to tackle a spot of heavy reading. Severus watched her bright head bent over the book for a moment longer, perhaps, than was strictly necessary, then backed quietly out and closed the door behind him. The fact that last night had happened, and that she was still here, was a miracle he couldn t afford to think about. Not just yet. The binder proved to be more distraction than even he could have hoped. ** As a student, she d been a tireless researcher and a meticulous, if not always inspired, logician. As she d gained confidence in her subject, during those later years at Hogwarts, he d noticed her sense of inquiry expanding beyond the borders of the Restricted Section and venturing into the Unknown Beyond; the Illuminata project had turned out to be the culmination of this, catapulting her abruptly from the category of Talented Student out into the real world Cairo, the Consortium, patents and grants and all the white-coated fame and infamy that came with that implied territory. Had she known, Severus wondered, the degree to which her experimental forays into magical-Muggle relations would threaten the unseen hands that held the reins? Had Areli warned her of the dangers she d face, farther down that glittering garden path? Or had she been so dazzled by her pretty office and her handsome young husband and her villa in the suburbs that she hadn t thought to ask? Even she didn t know the answer to that question anymore. He decided to quit thinking about it, and opened the binder instead. The first document was a print copy of an email, sent from an Eli Lilly address. Like all the other papers in the binder, she d filed it carefully in a transparent plastic sleeve: ** Hermione Sales are up fifteen percent from last quarter. You re making me a very happy man not to mention one who might just be able to comfortably educate his children, after all. I m having Marjorie send you the latest stack of interview requests and a copy of the findings from the AMA s Skelegel trials. She ll also be calling about the trade show in August it s in Cincinnati this year. We d like to do a booth, and your input is always welcome. Speaking of the trade show not to mention the current market does the Consortium have anything in the works that might be applicable for Alzheimer s? We d like to be able to announce that we ve got something in field-testing it s turning into such an epidemic that they re doing a focus group on it this year. And you know I m the money man, but it s not just that. Sarah s mother was just diagnosed last month. And it s getting harder and harder to find anyone whose family isn t affected by it somehow, these days. Let me know. Take care. --Brad Conlin ** Alzheimer s? Severus tapped the glossy page thoughtfully with one forefinger only an American, he thought, would have put such personal information in his business correspondence, and managed to pull it off then turned to the letter in the next sleeve. This one was handwritten on lilac-coloured lined paper in a round feminine hand, and dated a month later to the day: ** Dear Hermione I know I ought to call and tell you this, but I just can t stand to talk to anyone right now not even you. You remember how vague Gram was that weekend in March when you came to visit? Well, she s seemed tired lately, not herself you know, sort of forgetful and finally your father convinced her to go for a checkup. Dr. Wallace had her take some sort of test in the office, and then he ordered a CAT scan and I can t even write it down, it s too upsetting, but we had wondered about it when you were here last, and it s that awful thing we were afraid of. You should call her. Your father and I have been taking turns going to see her every few days, but she seems depressed and a little hostile, and she s not eating at all. If anyone can cheer her up, it s you and Bill. Hope work is going well. Call if you need to talk. Love, Mum ** Oh, Severus thought, a sinking feeling in his chest, and glanced instinctively at the closed door to his study. It was a long moment before he turned to the third page. This one wasn t dated it was a sheet from a legal pad, folded in half, with a few lines on it in Hermione s writing: ** Memory performs the impossible for man by the strength of his divine arms; holds together past and present, beholding both, existing in both, abides in the flowing, and gives continuity and dignity to human life. It holds us to our family, to our friends. Hereby a home is possible; hereby only a new fact has value. Without it, all life and thought were an unrelated succession. --Emerson ** The ink was smudged in one place by a round water-stain the size of a small grape. Severus closed his eyes. Ironic, he thought, that the book she was presently reading was one she d probably read before. And even without going a step further in the binder, one mystery, at least, had been permanently solved for him: it was suddenly very, very clear why someone had sent an assassin to stop the completion of her research. Headaches came and went. Bones broke and were healed. But to make the past live again, to reveal old and well-hid secrets well, that was dangerous work indeed. He turned to the next page in the binder with a slightly shaking hand. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty-Four ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ After reading the first three pages, his curiosity had been equalled only by his dismay. By the time he’d plowed through the first binder, six hours later, he was shaking. The activity around him – lunch, a game of Crazy Eights in the kitchen, Neville and Joséphine’s farewells – didn’t even register. He would never have thought of this. But if it worked … She’d done her background research on Alzheimer’s – one whole section of her notes had been photocopied articles – and found that however the disease began, whatever triggered it, the end result was the same: the patient’s formerly healthy brain cells were crowded out by masses of sticky brown plaques and choked by cancerous black tendrils of some Devil’s-Snare-like substance referred to as ‘tangles’. From the looks of it, Muggle researchers had been scrambling for some kind of chemical combination to counteract the intruders, either before or after they occurred; whereas Hermione, making one of her customary leaps of inter-disciplinary logic, had simply isolated the unwanted material and begun to experiment with Vanishing it. In the beginning, her Evanesco had worked rather too well – she’d tended to Vanish the remaining healthy brain cells along with the plaques and tangles. I keep throwing the baby out with the bathwater, read her frustrated memo to Areli, after a month of fruitless experimentation on brain tissue Replicated from the one donated cadaver the Consortium had managed to score. But then, a scant few days later, she’d gone back to Step One – tissue-staining, a technique that the Muggles had used for a century – and had discovered that the foreign matter absorbed her organic vegetable dye in a way that the healthy cells did not. From there, the next challenge had been to suspend the Vanishing Charm in the stain solution without triggering it immediately – a tricky bit of charm-work that she’d figured out, if the dates on the ensuing correspondence could be believed, in the space of one day and two sleepless nights. What followed were color transparencies, tucked into their plastic sleeves; the untreated brain with its messy, choking knots of stray fibers, juxtaposed with its ‘after’ picture: a bit ragged in places, but miraculously free of impediments. Next had come the first round of animal trials, and the eminently practical question of how to administer the treatment, now that she had it, without inadvertently Vanishing anything she didn’t want Vanished; it was one thing to spray her Evanesco concoction all over a disembodied brain on a glass countertop with a plant mister, and quite another to get it into a living human being without the human being in question coming up missing a digestive system. In the end, Severus read with a raised eyebrow, it was Christmas at the Burrow that had provided Hermione with her Eureka Moment – Bill had given Arthur Weasley a Muggle camera with a timed shutter, and they’d all been obliged to pose for far too many photographs before Arthur ran out of film and started to take the camera apart on the kitchen table. Time-release! Hermione had emailed Areli excitedly, that very night. You’re the Charms expert; do you know if there’s something we can do to it to slow the reaction down a bit? Another round of experiments later, they’d added two more enchantments to the mix: not only the slowing-spell (basically a weaker version of Impedimenta), but a Compass Charm as well, designed to guide the potion north (or, in this case, straight up) and – more importantly – keep it there. The rest of it was window-dressing: stabilisers, flavor agents, colouring. Severus stared at the last page in the binder, a mock-up of a prospective trade-magazine advertisement (Vanesca – the one that works), and whistled to himself; the finished product came not in pills, but in a tiny packet of trendy gel-strips designed to melt on the tongue. Faster to the bloodstream that way, he supposed; even so, that little metal box with its bold purple stripe didn’t look consequential enough to warrant all the trouble it had caused. Which just went to show you that appearances were deceiving. Impressive, he thought, and picked up the second binder. The first page – again, a photocopy of a letter – made his blood run cold: ** Hermione— It was great to see you and Bill the other day, even if we did have to talk shop half the time. I spent yesterday afternoon paging through back issues of Healer Horizons and didn’t find anything remotely resembling the sort of work you’re doing; mostly, the patients on the Fourth Floor aren’t treated in any substantial way at all, if you want to know the truth. Bettina Thrush has charge of them, and ought to be sainted for it – most of them have been tucked away up there for years. As for whether or not spells gone awry cause the same sorts of neurological damage that Alzheimer’s does, I really couldn’t say. I suppose if you wanted to run that test on any one of them – a cat-scan, did you call it? how funny – Lockhart would be the obvious choice, as he’s got no family to protest it and Dumbledore’s paying his bills. If Areli can clear you some space and equipment, I’ll take personal charge of getting him out of St. Mungo’s. Bettina never asks questions. Dinner was great – we should do it again soon. Gabrielle sends her love. Yours, Draco ** She didn’t confine this to the Muggles? Severus thought, half-horrified, half-admiring. No wonder they were calling for her blood. He turned the page, but only half-saw the results of Lockhart’s CAT scan – an otherwise healthy brain overrun with sticky, silvery threads. The rest of him was wondering: Does it work? Could it possibly? He figured he knew where he could go to find out. ** Ten minutes and a Location Charm later, he was standing in the frosty late-autumn remains of a lush English garden, shivering in the chilly evening air and wondering exactly how upset Hermione would be, if she ever found out he’d done this. He glanced down at his customary black robes and grimaced; for this bit of subterfuge, they wouldn’t do. He muttered a few words, made a face at the Muggle business suit he’d magicked himself into, and headed for the front door. It opened on the first ring. "Yes?" He nearly flinched from the steady-eyed gaze in front of him; it might have been housed in an elderly woman’s body, but it was heartbreakingly familiar – those were Hermione’s eyes, right down to the colour, shape and gleam of cool speculation. "Mrs. Granger?" "Yes." He had to be sure. "Martina Granger." She smiled. "Yes, dear. How can I help you?" "I’m from the University of London," Severus lied, "and I’m doing a follow-up study on an experimental medication for Alzheimer’s disease. According to my records—" he glanced at the binder, as if for corroboration—"you were part of the study. Could I ask you a few questions?" She studied him for another moment, then flashed that surprisingly-young smile again and stepped aside. "Come in, Mr. …?" Severus thought fast. "Black," he supplied. Martina inclined her head. "Mr. Black. Come in and sit down." She installed him at the kitchen table and offered him almond-paste macaroons on a bone-china plate, then – despite his remonstrances – put water on to boil for tea before taking the chair opposite him. He had the opportunity to study her as she moved, and did so: she was in her late-seventies, he’d say, with thick grey-streaked black hair drawn tidily back at her nape by a black ribbon and the high-torsoed carriage of a dancer, only slightly stooped by age. Her movements were precise and unhesitating as she scooped loose tea into a tea-ball and poured the water from the kettle to the teapot; if she’d ever been halting or confused, ever been less than the mistress of her universe, he’d never know it to look at her. "Now," she said, dropping into the chair and squeezing a twist of lemon into her cup. "Mr. Black, was it? What was it you needed to know?" Hermione’s eyes again, gazing out at him from that faded-but-elegant face that must have been breathtaking, once; this was a woman who would be beautiful until the day she died. Severus, stalling, took a sip of his tea. "The study," he said again. "My records show that you were diagnosed with early-stage Alzheimer’s, a little less than three years ago, and that you chose to take part in experimental trials for a memory-enhancing drug called Vanesca. What was your experience with this medication?" Martina Granger laughed, chose a biscuit, and bit into it. "I had been slowly losing my mind for nearly six months," she said, "before I finally gave into my daughter-in-law’s nagging and went to the doctor. Honestly, I didn’t think anything of it, except that I was getting older – what’s that Roger Bacon quote again? ‘Old age is the home of forgetfulness’?" She picked up her spoon to stir her tea, dropping her eyes as she did so. "Well, it wasn’t just senility, as it turned out, and my doctor told me at the outset that there was no cure. He was so firm on that point that I would never have thought to go looking for alternative medication; I went home and cried and threw things, and then settled down eventually to wait to be taken over." "How did you find out about Vanesca?" Severus prodded. She shrugged. "My son and his wife are dentists," she said. "I assume they’d gone to some medical convention or other and heard about the drug trials that way – I really don’t know. I never had to visit a hospital or see a doctor – I just remember getting a call from my daughter-in-law, Kate, on the subject. She came to visit a day or so later … she, and a younger woman. A scientist, I suppose, or an intern. Lovely girl; I don’t remember her name now. Could have been my granddaughter, she was so young." Another sip of tea. "She gave me a little purple packet full of gel strips – I remember thinking that they looked like breath mints – and told me to take one a week until they ran out. That’s all there was to it, really." She smiled ruefully. "I remember …" "Yes?" "Well," Martina said, "it was rather amazing, really. I’d had this low-level headache for months, it seemed, and two minutes after the first strip dissolved on my tongue it was gone. I felt so – light-headed; it was unreal. And then –" here, she laughed – "my daughter-in-law asked me where my keys were. And I knew." Severus digested this. "Any side effects?" "None at all," Martina assured him, and leaned over the table to whisk away his empty cup. "Another cup of tea, dear?" He hesitated, then shrugged. "Thank you." She was in the act of pouring it when she suddenly stopped and set down the teapot. "Yes," she said. "One side effect. If you can call it that. It’s more like a memory lapse, and it’s odd, because I remember virtually everything else." Severus took his half-filled teacup. "What is it?" "Wait a minute," she said, "and I’ll show you." She was already pushing back her chair, disappearing into the next room. A lamp flicked on, and Severus could see from his seat at the table the far wall of the parlor, decorated with framed and matted theatrical posters and photographs of a young dark-haired woman in elaborate costume. Must have been an actress, Severus thought, then was distracted from his view as Martina came back into the kitchen, bearing a photograph album. "It’s the strangest thing," she said. "The scientist I told you about? She must have been a family friend – she’s in all these photographs. Here – look." She pushed the open album across the table toward him. He tore his gaze away from the double rows of happy Granger family snapshots, each containing a smiling Hermione, and met Martina’s eyes. "Yes?" "I keep thinking I should know who she is," said her puzzled grandmother. "But I just can’t think of her name. Isn’t that odd?" Severus could think of nothing to say. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty-Five ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ “Sal,” Hermione asked from the kitchen doorway, “where’s Severus?” Sal, who had just finished stirring orange essence and maple sugar into a block of cream cheese, was now attempting the fiddly task of sandwiching the resulting mixture between candied pecan halves, without actually touching either. It required a steady hand and a killer Levitation Charm, from the looks of it, not to mention more patience than Hermione herself possessed. “Sal?” she prompted again, and he shrugged without looking around. “His study?” “I’ve been in there all afternoon.” “Treehouse?” “Just checked.” “Backyard?” Hermione sighed. “If he was any of those places, do you think I’d be standing here asking you?” Sal’s wand slipped, and a stray pecan ricocheted off the wall, a scant inch from Hermione’s left ear. “Sorry,” he said, looking unrepentant. “He’s probably off somewhere, then. I haven’t seen him.” “Thanks anyway,” Hermione said, and ducked hastily out of the kitchen before he could decide to Levitate any more groceries her way; Sal hadn’t been his usual sunny self for the last few days. The big chair facing the fireplace in the parlor was empty. She decided to claim it. The book on Memory Charms hadn’t been particularly inspiring. Once a self-inflicted Obliviate was cast, according to the scant few paragraphs she’d found on the subject, it was notoriously difficult to undo. Caution - only a fully-trained witch or wizard should attempt this!!! the footnote had read. Unqualified individuals who perform this spell run the risk of doing themselves permanent, irreversible mental damage!! Which sort of left her out in the cold, Hermione thought - she’d clipped through the first- and second-year textbooks Severus had brought her, and was getting fairly consistent results with some of the more advanced charms in the back of the third-year text, but she wouldn’t call herself ‘fully-trained’ or ‘qualified’ either one - not at this point, anyway. And for every skill she felt she’d mastered, something else cropped up that didn’t feel quite right; ‘it’s as if I get only so far, then hit a wall,’ she’d complained to Sal the other afternoon, and indeed that’s how it felt - as if some shadowy, immovable presence was standing in the way of her progress. And then, it couldn’t be the same, relearning it all now … could it? It had to be like what they said about languages - the younger you started, the easier it became to attain fluency. Hermione kneaded her temples irritably and cursed herself for a million kinds of fool. You had to have known, she told herself, what it would mean. You had to have known what you’d be giving up. Even though she’d been told enough to get a fair picture about her recent past - about Bill, about the Consortium, about the tragedy and the Fidelius and those bleak starved days in Paris - it was hard to imagine being desperate enough to do what she’d done. If I had it to do over again, she thought, would it be the same? Impossible to say. What she did know was this: she was tired of being an amnesiac. It had been comforting at first - like a rebirth, like stepping off a seashell onto a beach free of expectations or inconveniently complicated emotional detritus. And this place? Like a womb itself, comfortable and cut off as it was from the outside world. But the more she heard about her - the pre-Kate Hermione, her former self - the more she wanted to reclaim her lost territory. And that look in his eyes last night (You do love me, don’t you? - a cautious nod and a guarded Yes) only strengthened her resolve. She’d wanted to pry further, but she hadn’t dared. Secrets there, she thought - shared history he hadn’t wanted to get into, and probably for very good reason. If you knew everything there is to know, his eyes had said, you wouldn’t be asking. You wouldn’t even be here. Her wand was in her pocket. She toyed absently with it, then tucked it regretfully away again. Too big a risk; too uncertain a result. Behind her in the kitchen, Sal was singing - something jaunty and improbably bright about a rose, a fair maiden, and going off to war. Hermione smiled in spite of herself, and half-turned to get a better look at him. A glint of metal caught her eye; a black three-ring binder lay open on the floor by the chair. She hadn’t noticed it before, but she recognised it now; it was one of the volumes they’d brought back from Cairo, open now to the second or third page. Curious, Hermione lifted it up and turned it round to read the label on the spine: Vanesca, it said, and below that, 2 of 2. Well, that solved one mystery, at least: wherever Severus was right now, she’d lay odds that Binder 1 of 2 was with him. Pity, too - now that she’d finished the Obliviate book, she would have liked to dive into these. Could it hurt to start halfway through? She hesitated, then opened the binder again to the first page. A letter, she saw, addressed to her - this did seem to be a trend, didn’t it, forever re-reading her own mail? She scanned the note and frowned. Draco - what an odd name, and unfamiliar to boot - though from the way he’d written they’d obviously been friends. And 'Gabrielle sends her love’ - confirming that she did indeed know a Gabrielle, she just didn’t know how, or why. “St. Mungo’s,” she said aloud, peering at the letterhead and trying to make out the address through the blurry photocopy. “Huh.” A hospital of some sort, evidently, and this Draco Malfoy must be its Head of Operations. Maybe they’d been in school together? She didn’t know. In any case, he’d been kind enough to furnish her with a test subject - Lockhart, whoever he was, some poor unfortunate dependent on the Headmaster’s goodwill. She turned the page and read the caption: here were Lockhart’s CAT-scan results, subtitled Male Subject, 46 - Unsuccessful Memory Charm, and a photo underneath: what had to be Lockhart’s brain, plumply healthy in all respects except for the web of sticky, slickly shining grey candy-floss that covered it. Hermione’s mouth went dry. That’s what it looks like. That’s what I did to myself. And - this with a rising note of hysteria - and I knew. I knew what it was, I knew what I was doing to myself. And I felt bad enough to do it anyway - to think this was a better option. Heavy. Shuddering, she flipped to the next page. This one was an original, not a photocopy: heavy lavender stationery, still faintly perfumed with violets and written in a looping, studied hand: ** My dear Miss Granger - or should I say, Mrs. Weasley? - Words fail to express my gratitude for your efforts on my behalf. I am told that you are the developer of the marvellous little potion that restored my memory; I, of course, could have achieved similar results, being a bit of a crack hand at Potions myself, had I only been in my right mind. Very clever of you to have figured it out for yourself; congratulations from your former professor and mentor are very much in order! Now that my convalescence is ended, I shall naturally be writing a memoir of my ordeal in the bowels of the Pit, in order to bring hope to the similarly afflicted and provide a suitable account of my triumph over this terrible tragedy. You needn’t fear, however; I’ll be sure to give you credit where credit’s due! Fondly, Gilderoy Lockhart ** Torn between a gasp and a chuckle at the sheer audacity of this, Hermione turned the page again and found her reply, faithfully catalogued for posterity on Consortium letterhead: ** Dear Mr. Lockhart, Thank you for your note; I’m glad you found my product satisfactory for your purposes. You are, of course, entitled to write anything you wish about your experiences at St. Mungo’s, but do keep in mind that the experimental product Vanesca was given to you in strict confidentiality, and that disclosure of the existence or nature of this product in any public forum will result in immediate lawsuit. To this end, the Consortium requests that any forthcoming manuscript be submitted to its legal team at the above address, prior to publication. Best of luck with your future endeavours. Sincerely yours, Hermione Granger Weasley ** Ha, Hermione thought, and had already turned to the next page before it hit her: she’d come up with a product that cured memory loss, that reversed Obliviate, that essentially solved her present dilemma … and she had no idea how to recreate it. If irony on that grand a scale wasn’t already illegal, it certainly ought to be. She paged through the next section of the binder - mostly correspondence to and from Eli Lilly, her Muggle distributor, regarding the results of the field trials. The next page to catch her eye was a photocopy of a brief teaser article, clipped from an American medical trade journal: Lilly in Field Trials for New Alzheimer’s Med. Following it were a series of terse e-mails: Brad, it wasn’t supposed to be public yet! - and Conlin’s reply: It has to happen sometime, right? What are you worried about? And then, there it was - Gilderoy Lockhart’s return-to-the-public-eye interview, in a splashy two-column Daily Prophet article. This one wasn’t a photocopy, but yellowing newsprint; Hermione stared at the smug, preening face in the moving photograph that accompanied the article and felt her stomach do a back-flip. The article was full of the same self-serving pap she would have expected from the man who’d written the purple letter at the front of the binder. She noticed, however, that he’d taken her warning to heart and not mentioned either the Consortium or the product Vanesca by name. He had, however, mentioned her. It was sandwiched in between a couple of self-congratulatory paragraphs, and it was only a fleeting reference: “Mr. Lockhart, please tell us how exactly you overcame your sad condition? Our readers want to know!” “I’m not at liberty to reveal the secret,” he’d said coyly. “But I will say that even in my weakened state, I had been working closely with Hermione Granger, a young protegée of mine from my days as a professor at Hogwarts. I never gave up hope, you see, that my memory would eventually be restored.” “How brave,” the reporter had sighed. “How disgusting,” Areli had penciled in the margin. “Honestly, Hermione, we ought to sue him just for being tasteless.” Hermione turned the page. The Lockhart article wasn’t as funny to her as she knew it should have been; she felt faintly sick, and heavy with dread. There were only a few more pages left in the binder - she was near the end, now. ** Hermione, Draco had written, Well, he’s a waste of space, but at least it’s not my space he’s wasting anymore. Shall we try again, maybe with a couple of more deserving candidates? I’ve got the Longbottoms in mind, actually - if this stuff works on Obliviate, it might work on Crucio-induced damage, too. Frank’s mother was their legal guardian, up until recently, but she’s recently deceased. I’m trying to get in touch with Neville; he’s the next of kin. Does anyone have any idea where he went after he finished at Hogwarts? ** I don’t know, she’d written back. Once you find him, we’ll get that ball rolling. I think that’s a great idea. ** And then there were no more letters. Hermione noted the date on her last bit of correspondence - June 19 - and had to stifle a moan with the back of her hand; one thing she remembered asking, early on in her stay at the Montana cabin, was When It Had Happened - what day, what hour? The twenty-second of June, they’d told her. At nine in the morning. Three days before, she’d dashed off that offhand little note, her whole life in front of her, and stashed it in her binder … not knowing or guessing that she’d never fill another one of those empty plastic sleeves, that in less than a week her house of cards would be ashes in her hands. Hermione bit her lip, and shuddered, and let the cool smooth plastic of the sheet protectors ripple through her fingers like the sigh of a ghost. It wasn’t until her hands touched something lumpy that she realised the binder wasn’t quite empty, after all. The last page wasn’t a sheet-protector, she discovered, looking down; it was bisected into four smaller pockets, the kind of specialty sleeve designed to hold photos, or CDs, or liner notes. She’d been very thorough, it seemed - and not only in terms of organisation. Each one of the four pockets held a tiny white box with a bold purple stripe. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty-Six ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ It was nearly midnight when Severus Apparated into the cabin’s small back yard, carrying with him one of Martina Granger’s photograph albums and a plateful of leftover macaroons. All the windows were dark, and the moon was half-clouded over; lacking a free hand with which to reach for his wand, he fumbled in the gloom for the door handle and hissed under his breath, startled, when something furry and Dalmation-sized brushed the backs of his knees. He yelped, almost dropped the plate of biscuits, and righted himself hastily against the door frame. Another nudge and a plaintive yowl – "oh," he said, nonplussed and relieved in the same breath, "it’s you." Cleo regarded him steadily for a moment with those unsettling grey-blue eyes, then produced a complicated rumbling sound from the depths of her creamy throat and swiped meaningfully at the closed door. Severus frowned. "What are you doing outside?" he wondered aloud. "Doesn’t she usually let you in, nights?" Having lived familiar-free for nearly as long as he could remember – being a Death-Eater with a pet made you a walking target for unnecessary emotional distress, and after that he hadn’t bothered, it being easier to just use the school’s owls when he needed something posted – having Hermione’s caracal as a houseguest had taken some getting used to. Not only could that long sleek body spin from zero to sixty in a nanosecond, in any direction it chose, but the brain attached to it was crafty and quick and so self-serving it bordered on evil. Cleo opened cabinet doors, raided the refrigerator until Sal, in frustration, warded it, and wasn’t above twisting the faucet handle in the bathtub with one of those deftly taloned paws to get herself a drink, if she felt the water in her bowl wasn’t sufficiently fresh. She was not, however, capable of working the latch on the back door – and after the second afternoon, when she’d clawed a pillow to bits and strewn the wreckage of it all over the dining room, merely out of boredom, Hermione had taken to letting her outside in the morning, and calling her in at night. This seemed to be a satisfactory arrangement, though Severus had noticed that the birds were – understandably – more cautious of the feeders than they’d been previously, and that the woodchuck who lived under the porch hadn’t poked his head out for a while. Cleo herself spent most of her time stalking rabbits, out in the woods, but showed up unfailingly at dusk for food and brushing. The fact that she was still outside wasn’t a good sign; uneasy, Severus opened the door and let both of them into the quiet house. The door to the master bedroom stood ajar. Severus peered inside: empty. The kitchen, too, was deserted; opening the refrigerator, he saw an untouched layer cake, lavishly studded with cream-cheese frosting and candied nuts, and a covered dish with condensation still pearled inside its glass lid. He didn’t bother to find out what was inside it. No one had touched Sal’s masterpiece of a dessert, and that wasn’t a good sign either; he’d had that carrot cake before, and even if you weren’t a closet hedonist (thank you very much, Sybil) it was hard to pass up. He couldn’t imagine they’d waited to eat just because he wasn’t there – especially not this long. Macaroon plate still in hand, he stalked down the hall, nearly tripping over Cleo in the process, and flung open the door to his deserted study. "Lumos!" His desk was clear, except for a neatly closed black binder in the very center. There was a note on top of the binder. He pounced on it. ** Severus, it read: If you’ve already read the second binder, then you’ll know exactly where I am, and exactly why I’m there. If not, I’ll save you guessing; I’ve gone to Paris to talk to Neville. If I’m back before dawn, it means I couldn’t get him to believe me. If I’m not, it means we’ll be at St. Mungo’s the moment it opens tomorrow morning. And if this is the case, as I hope it will be, what I have in mind to do will require that my way be smoothed with Draco Malfoy, as I imagine he won’t have the faintest idea who I am. Could you meet us there? Don’t worry about me. I feel fine; better than I have in months. And Sal’s with me. --Hermione ** How? was his first thought, then – Of course. She must have found a sample. The binder fell open to the back page: three slim white-and-purple boxes, one empty sleeve. Severus cursed automatically, then grinned; if her first thought was to go Apparating off to Paris in search of a mystery, it was a pretty fair bet that her little memory-potion had served its intended purpose. He couldn’t think of a single more characteristic thing she could have done. He set down the plate he was holding, sank into his chair, and started to read from the beginning. Twenty minutes later, he was still stuck on Draco’s final letter, reading and rereading and polishing off the biscuits without realising exactly how many he was eating. This was all beginning to make a frightening amount of sense. Trust Lockhart, he thought savagely, to give away a secret that wasn’t even his – and in the most tasteless, appalling, self-serving way he possibly could have. I shouldn’t have settled for Expelliarmus – I should have killed him when I had the chance. Pity there were so many witnesses at the time. Not to mention that Minerva would probably have gutted him on the spot, if he’d dared to use the Avada Kedavra in front of her precious Gryffindor guppies. Slightly amused by his own turn of thought, he shook himself and turned back to the matter at hand. Was Hermione on the right track? He thought it was a good possibility. No one cared, after all, whether or not Golden Boy Gilderoy had his memory or not, save for a handful of deluded, starry-eyed spinsters with too many cats who still believed, against all evidence to the contrary, that he’d ever known the first thing about Doxy exterminations. No – though that ridiculous interview had most assuredly put the Knights of the Golden Wand on Hermione’s track, something else entirely – something much more crucial than the welfare of one egomaniac popinjay – had signed her death warrant. Whether that ‘something’ had anything to do with Frank and Alice Longbottom or not was another matter. Severus finished the last macaroon and drew out his wand, tapping it thoughtfully against the polished surface of his desk; he needed to confirm a suspicion, and wasn’t sure how to go about it. Floo, he decided finally; it’s faster. "Hogwarts staffroom," he said to the hearth, tossing in a pinch of green dust, and poked his head through the smoky, sulfurous flames onto another continent. Six a.m. here – or thereabouts – and he half-expected the room to be empty; hard telling how much she’d slowed down, since he’d been away. But no, there she was – a lone straight-backed figure in green, grading essays and sipping tea at her accustomed corner table. From this angle, she might have been a young woman still, and he her half-admiring, half-intimidated student. Some things never change. "Minerva," he said, and the straight back went a shade stiffer. One moment of surprise – that’s all she ever would allow herself – then she turned, her lips thinly pressed together, and shattered his Time-Turner illusion. "Severus. What an unexpected pleasure. Shall I summon the Headmaster?" "No, you’ll do," he said, smirking as her eyes narrowed. "Before Draco Malfoy took over St. Mungo’s, Minerva – who owned it?" If the question struck her as odd, she didn’t betray it. "He bought it from the Ministry, I believe," she said guardedly. "His fiancée – the little Delacour girl; she’s apparently quite good with numbers – brokered the deal." "Oh?" She warmed to her theme. "You must remember, Severus – or were you already gone by then? The Daily Prophet ran all those editorials on the evils of privatisation; made it into a bit of a scandal, or tried to, anyway. Not that it did much good. The Ministry had never been able to run it at a profit; they were glad to be rid of it. They gave old Maxim Hustlethwaite the choice of moving into the Transportation department or retiring, and he chose retirement. He paid for a celebratory round at the Leaky Cauldron; I remember Hagrid talking about it." She cocked her head to one side. "Why?" Severus had already ducked back into his study and was shaking ashes from his hair, fired with new purpose. "No reason," he said aloud, pulling Draco’s letter from its protective plastic sleeve. "Used to belong to the Ministry, did it? Glad to get rid of it, were they?" The letterhead was still crisp in his fingers; she’d used photocopies for some of their correspondence, but this one was an original. Good. "Let’s just see," he murmured, picking up his wand again, "how many copies of this are floating around loose. Priori Replicatem!" The letter twitched in his fingers, then glowed bone-white. A moment later, one silver-gray, shadowy replica detached itself from the original and rose to hover, shimmering, in the air above it. Grimly triumphant, Severus ended the spell and sat back heavily in his chair, thoughts racing. No mechanical means of reproduction would have tripped the Priori – there might be a hundred photocopies of it, somewhere in the Consortium’s vaults, and he wouldn’t know about them. But then, the Consortium had embraced Muggle technological conveniences in a way that most wizard-run businesses didn’t; he was willing to bet that no-one in the St. Mungo’s administrative office used anything but Replicate. And he was willing to wager every future minute of his happy retirement on the chance that someone in that very office had made a clandestine Replica of Draco’s letter – and to no good end. These, then, were the pressing questions that remained. Who was the Ministry’s mole at St. Mungo’s? Who was the mole’s employer – the former Death-Eater/Golden Knight/pureblood supremacist arsepucker, presumably in the Ministry of Magic, who’d yet to be unveiled at trial? And what did Frank and Alice Longbottom know, that made their continued insanity a point worthy of murder? At least as troubled as he was intrigued, he pushed the open binder away to the far side of the desk and reached again for Hermione’s note. Here, at least, was good news unalloyed – the girl he remembered, all determined forward motion and righteous fervor, as if the miracle potion in the little white box had stripped her of hesitancy at the same time it restored her memory. Impossible to tell whether she’d been struck again by her old grief, or if the new development in the mystery had focussed her energies solely into vengeance. Impossible, as well, to tell what she was thinking, or what she felt – or even if he had a hold on her still, now that she knew once more exactly who he was, what he’d done. Time enough for that later, he decided, and extinguished his lamp. Sleep first. Then murder and mystery. Love could wait. After all, hadn’t it always? He went to claim his own bed, for the first time in weeks, and found Cleo sprawled atop it, spread-eagled and purring. When he tried to shoo her off, she opened one chilly grey eye and hissed at him. Women, he thought, and retreated to his study. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty-Seven ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ She had only hesitated for a moment, back at the cabin, before popping open the lid of the Vanesca packet and thumbing out a single dose. The gel strip itself was a peculiar shade of greenish lavender, shot through with faintly glittering striata. Pretty, she’d thought, and then snorted at herself for thinking it; after all, this little purple thumbnail of ephemera, according to the documents in her lap, was powerful enough to give her her life back. You didn’t particularly like your life, remember? said a voice in her head, small and rusty with disuse. Went to great lengths to get rid of it, as I recall. Well, yes, admitted its counterpart. But things were different then. Different? How? Well, for starters, said the second voice, a trifle defensively, I thought I was all alone. Aren’t you? A pause. No, said the second voice, smug now with reclaimed certainty. He loves me. He said so. Hermione blinked. Well, she thought, good to get that straightened out, then. And clinging to that last happy thought – he loves me – she stuck out her tongue, and carefully laid the strip of Vanesca atop it. It tasted herbal, medicinal, unpleasant. She swallowed reflexively, half-gagging with the sharp green bite of the infusion’s rosemary topnote. A moment of dizziness, another – this one longer – of nausea. And then the nausea cleared, and she remembered herself. There was no physical sensation as such, just a silent Eureka Moment that shuddered through her psyche like a faraway earthquake. She sat for a stunned instant, as if pinned to her chair, then – unable to shake off the eerie sense of not belonging to her own body – reached over to the side table and palmed her wand. Immediately she felt safer – and strangely, unnaturally calm. The room seemed to hold its breath as she scanned it, considering her options. Finally, she focussed in on a spindly, sick-looking ficus tree next to the far window, in between a tapestried ottoman and the Edwardian writing-table where Sal did his crossword puzzle every morning. Most of the houseplants were thriving specimens of lush good health, but Sal had inadvertently walked through this one a few days ago, on his way in from the garden, and given it a mild case of frostbite from which it had yet to recover. "Arborius Reparo," Hermione murmured, and watched the furled leaves flare and lift. Her success left her flushed with satisfaction, but utterly unsurprised. She hadn’t doubted for a second that it would work. It’d been months since she’d felt that certain – about anything. It felt damn good. The Vanesca binder was still open on her lap, the sample box she’d opened clutched in her left hand – the one not holding the wand. She started to slide it back into its plastic sleeve, then thought better of her impulse and pocketed it instead. She needed to talk to Neville. And what she was about to tell him would require a bit of proof. ** She was pretty sure that Snape would meet her at St. Mungo’s in the morning, if she asked him to – just a little side benefit of being back inside her own brain; her newly reclaimed self-knowledge, extensive as it was, paled in comparison to the mountain of tantalizing, contradictory things she’d just remembered about her old Potions Master. Not only that, but he’d tipped his hand the other night – in characteristic ungracious fashion, perhaps, but even his surliness was reassuring; better a grudging declaration, Hermione figured, than one too glib. He loved her, and he’d loved her seven years ago, and he probably hadn’t ever stopped. And for once, there was nothing barring the way between them – no Draco, no murky teacher-student dynamic, no protestations of Innocence vs. Experience. No Bill now, either, unless you counted the memory of him. Which possibly she should. She sat dry-eyed in the big comfortable chair, summoned up the image of her laughing red-haired husband, and felt grief sweep through her like hard rain. A month ago, she’d buckled under its weight. Now, she grimly rode it out – and then sat white-knuckled in its aftermath, wondering how the very situation that she’d found unbearable that night beside the Seine should feel so different now. I thought I was lost, then. But I had no idea how much more there was for me to lose. Light-headed at the thought of her near miss with oblivion, flushed with purpose and an odd, cautious sort of … optimism, was it? Maybe … she put down her wand, banished thoughts of Severus Snape to the ‘Later’ category in her Upper Subconscious, and went to write him an explanatory note. Sal met her in the office doorway. "Dinner’s ready," he said. She shook her head. "Don’t have time. On my way to Paris." "Paris?" He floated a couple of inches closer, frowning. "Whatever for? And how exactly were you planning to get there? " When she didn’t answer right away, only shot him a tired smile, his eyes widened. "No." He peered into her face. "Yes." And then: "Really? How?" "Let’s chalk it up to happy coincidence," Hermione said, fishing the packet of Vanesca out of her robes and holding it out to him. "Guess what my secret research project was all about?" For being the complicated saga that it was, it didn’t take very long to fill him in. When she was finished, Sal whistled under his breath. "Well," he said, "this trumps the stroganoff and the carrot cake. Go write your note – you’re right; Neville should be brought into the loop, and it’d might as well be sooner than later." He looked positively luminous, lit from within by some deeply-banked, ghoulish excitement. You’re turned on by this, you old sneak, Hermione thought; you just love a mystery, don’t you? – and had to suppress a snicker at the immediate knowledge that she’d thought that exact same thing at least a hundred times before. "You’re plotting something," she said. "What is it?" Sal smirked. "That you’re in need of a reconaissance man," he said, "and that I’m uniquely qualified for the job. "I’ll meet you at St. Mungo’s in the morning; in the meantime—" he cracked his knuckles and shot her a serene smile—"I’m going to pop off and rifle some papers, just to see what floats to the surface." He may know his way around a cheese soufflé, Hermione thought a few moments later, ransacking Snape’s desk drawers for parchment and quill. But Betty Crocker he’s not. Darkly amused by this thought, she left the note on the desk, grabbed her jacket from the hook in the corner, and went to reclaim her wand from the parlor. She couldn’t wait to Apparate again. ** "Let me get this straight," Neville said, frowning. Clearly, Hermione thought, he’d decided she was insane; blinking and scruffy-haired, still yawning from being dragged out of bed, he wore the beleaguered, put-upon expression of a man determined, against all provocation, to remain reasonable. "You’ve suddenly got your memory back, thanks to some miracle potion you invented yourself – you’re hunting a mysterious band of international killers who tried to blow you up to stop you from marketing it – and you think you can use it to cure my parents?" He shook his head. "Kate, this isn’t making much sense." Of course it’s not, she thought, irritated. Only one word in ten that I’m trying to say is getting past the Fidelius. This is nuts. "Neville. Listen to me." Hermione put her hand on his arm. "There’s a lot about this that’s … um, that’s too complicated to get into right now," she said. "But this is the most crucial bit. Your mum and dad – I think they know something, something important." "Like what?" She sighed. "I don’t know. But the very day after Draco suggested them for my research – that’s when the accident happened. It can’t be a coincidence." Neville frowned again. "Draco," he said slowly. "Wait a second. You mean Malfoy?" "Of course, Malfoy," Hermione said, casting her gaze ceilingward. "The C.E.O. of St. Mungo’s. What other Draco do we know?" Not liking the mulish set of his jaw, she forged ahead without meeting his eyes. "The potion – the Vanesca – it worked on Lockhart. He thought it might help your mum and dad, t—" "—Malfoy," he repeated, cutting her off. From the sour look on his face, Hermione guessed that the Redemption of Draco, wondrous as it had been, wasn’t a miracle Neville was prepared to accept. "That … swine. That pointy-chinned albino freak. No wonder your office got blown up; he was probably the one who lit the fuse." Hermione hesitated. "No," she said. "He didn’t. I know." "How do you know?" "I just know, all right?" As explanations went, this one took the big blue ribbon for Lame and Unconvincing, but it was the best she was capable of, on the pitiable amount of sleep she’d managed in the last forty-eight hours. "Look, Neville, I know you and Draco didn’t get on at school—" "—Didn’t get on? He and his goons tortured me for years!—" "—but I find it impossible to believe that in all the time your parents have been at St. Mungo’s, you haven’t figured out that he’s on our side now," Hermione soldiered on. "And whether or not he’s involved with this doesn’t signify at the moment – the facts are that I was all set to find you and get permission to run some tests on your parents, and practically in the next heartbeat my office was lying in splinters all over greater Cairo and I was on the run." She grabbed his hand and tugged until his eyes reluctantly met hers. "Haven’t you ever wondered why the Death-Eaters went after them, Neville? Don’t you think there’s probably more to it than just spite and bad luck?" He blinked, then looked away. "Maybe," he said, chewing on his lower lip. "But on the other hand, Kate – it’s my experience that bad luck and spite are usually enough." His normally-sweet face was still set in stubborn lines. "And yes, I know that Malfoy’s outwardly respectable now. But his father was too, remember, and look what he was up to all along." "Draco isn’t Lucius," Hermione pointed out. Neville nodded. "I know. But I’m still not sure I trust him to have my parents’ best interests at heart." "It’s worth a try, I’d say." This from Joséphine, sleep-sultry and looking like Afterglow Personified in a red satin dressing gown with marabou trim. Up till now, she’d been too preoccupied with the sample box of Vanesca to join in the conversation; now, she held one of the gel strips up to the light and peered through it thoughtfully, her dark eyes sharp and speculative despite her tumbled appearance. "Think about it, Slick," she said quietly without looking at him. "It’s been twenty years since it happened, and no one’s been able to cure them. No one’s even offered." "I know," Neville said. "But—" "So." Joséphine flicked him a deceptively casual glance. "For two decades, your mum’s been collecting bits of paper in a tin can. What do you care who’s involved with this experiment, if there’s a chance she might get better? How can it hurt her more than she’s already been hurt?" Neville looked stricken, then considering. "I take your point," he said. Joséphine squeezed his hand across the table. "Think about it, that’s all." She rubbed the strip of Vanesca between her thumb and forefinger, then sniffed the abraded surface critically. "I expected magical ingredients," she said to Hermione. "But this is just a neutral base of herbs, isn’t it?" Hermione nodded. "It’s all in the enchantments," she said. "A Suspension Charm –" "Clever." Joséphine scraped the gel strip absently with her fingernail, then held the scraping to the light. "Triple-charmed. Unbelievable." "Thanks." "Designed for Obliviate, did you say?" She was prodding the remains of the strip with her wand now, her eyes intent on the series of small violet sparks rising from it. "How did you intend to modify it for Crucio?" "I’m not sure," Hermione said, fascinated by the dexterity and offhanded skill apparent in this casual field diagnostic. "That’s why I need the X-rays – to find out what I’m dealing with." She turned her attention to Neville, regretting once again the barrier of the Fidelius that prevented her from telling him everything. "I promise you," she said. "I’m on the level. I wouldn’t lie to you." "I believe you," he said, grey eyes uncertain. "I’ve just got some questions, that’s all." "Come to St. Mungo’s with me," Hermione said, "and I swear to you, you’ll understand everything once we get there." ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty-Eight ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ He woke up gradually these days, which was a luxury he’d never afforded himself before – even as a small child too young for Hogwarts, he could remember opening his eyes into startling, immediately lucid clarity, zero to sixty in a flat split second. That he felt fuzzy right now, that the stain of pink dawn through his closed eyelids made him want to pull the covers over his head and disappear underneath them, seemed like a good sign. And then he smelled coffee. "You’re late," said the Love of His Life in dulcet tones, and made sure he’d opened one eye and knew that the mug was two inches from his nose before she adroitly snatched it away again. "In fact, you’ve never been so late. You’ve set a new standard for lateness." "Urrrrrgggh," Draco said, and frowned blearily up at her. She was damp from the shower and dressed for work in a two-piece suit of charcoal-grey wool, her long golden curls twisted savagely into a French knot but already starting to escape from it as they dried. By mid-afternoon, he knew, they’d have worked their way free entirely, and she’d have resorted to pulling them back in a heavy ponytail – not exactly conducive to the severe corporate image she was after, and she kept threatening to cut them off, but so far she hadn’t done it. Draco wasn’t sure whether this was due to his begging, or merely because it suited her nefarious purposes to look more cute and cuddly than she really was. Some women would have complained about being underestimated at work. Gabrielle merely took advantage of it. Another one of the million reasons he adored her. "Coffee," he said hopefully, opening the other eye. She went on as if she hadn’t noticed. "You could write a book on lateness, that’s how late you are. Confessions of a Modern Hibernator." She took a sip of the coffee, stepping adroitly back just as he made a calculated lunge for the mug. "Ah-ah-ah. Rip Van Malfoy: How I Slept Through My Twenties. Not a sip until you’ve got both feet on the floor." Feigning obedience, he swung his legs out of bed, then ignored the coffee cup she set down on the nightstand and went for her instead, grabbing her at mid-thigh level and falling back on the bed, triumphant, with her sprawled on top of him. True to her nature, she didn’t even squeak in protest, just adjusted her position and grinned down at him. "I’m not going to kiss you until you’ve brushed your teeth, you know," she said, and then put the lie to that statement by applying her lips to his earlobe. She smelt of soap and cinnamon toothpaste. She was going to have to put her hair back up again. She was a better wake-up call than coffee any day. Draco tangled one hand in the unruly mass of curls at her nape and rolled with her. His free hand was already making free with the buttons of her blouse. "So," he said, his words muffled by the deep, pale curve of her neck. "How late am I, exactly?" Gabrielle gasped and arched up into his searching fingers. "Um. Not too late. Come to think of it." Generalities were unlike her. Suspicious, he stopped kissing her throat long enough to crane his head toward the clock radio on the nightstand. "How late," he inquired, "is ‘not too late’?" She’d hiked her skirt up to her waist, grasped him with small but certain fingers. The diamond solitaire on the fourth finger of her left hand caught a stray beam of morning sun and flashed a rainbow in his face. "Does it matter?" She was too good at this, Draco thought, and sank back into the pillows as she pushed him over on his back again and threw one leg over his hips. The warm dry fingers stroking his cock gave him a last friendly squeeze of encouragement, then withdrew. The next moment, he was in paradise. "No," he said on a half-sigh, and pulled her down against him. "No, I suppose it doesn’t." Behind his head, the time changed over to 7:00. But the alarm didn’t sound. She’d thought of everything. ** After that, he figured his day could only go downhill. From the look on his secretary’s face when he Apparated into her office, he was afraid he was right. "You have visitors, Mr. Malfoy," she said, using the same tone of voice for visitors that she might have ordinarily reserved for rampaging sewer trolls. Draco raised one eyebrow. "Did they say who they were? What they wanted?" Bettina – grey of hair, straight of back, possessed of a retired husband, a meek-voiced son named Anthony, a daughter-in-law to whom she referred as That Tramp, and six beloved, much-petted grandchildren – shook her head. "They’re in your office," she said, lips held in a flat, disapproving line. "They said you’d know them when you saw them." A surreptitious peek through the window leading to his inner sanctum confirmed this as a true statement – mostly. Draco sighed, and felt his orgasm-induced Extraordinary Good Mood morph into a sort of wary incredulity. Snape. And Slytherin. That much was figurable, though what they wanted at St. Mungo’s, or with him, he’d be hard-pressed to say. But who were the two women with them? And – he peeked again, ducked back against the wall, rubbed his eyes –was that Longbottom? What was he doing in there? Surreal. He turned back toward Bettina, not bothering to hide his puzzled frown. "They didn’t say anything to you?" "The ghost," Bettina said, "was here when I arrived. Inside the office. I caught him looking through the filing cabinet." Her eyes narrowed. "I’ll wager he didn’t expect me here an hour before opening – now, did he?" "Really." Draco whistled under his breath. "And?" "And I threatened to call the Ministry and have him exorcised." She sniffed. "That’s when the others showed up. One of them – the man with the dark hair – was most rude. I’m not at all sure I shouldn’t call the Ministry, Mr. Malfoy." "Um." Draco closed his eyes, thought longingly of his vacation – still three weeks away, and not getting closer fast enough to suit him – then wearily opened them again. "Don’t call yet, all right? I’ll try to sort it out." Downhill, he thought, and headed for the door. Definitely downhill. ** If he was confused before entering the room, what he felt ten minutes after sitting down at the table would have qualified him for a private ward on the Fourth Floor. "One more time," he said to Snape, and was surprised to see Snape turn on the young woman he’d introduced as Kate. "Do you see?" he snapped at her. "It’s no use." Draco, accustomed to seeing recipients of that tone and look turn the colour of pistachio pudding and quail in their boots, wasn’t prepared to see this Kate – ah, Billings, was it? – tilt her chin at a more pugnacious angle and stare Snape down. "Try again," she hissed at him. "If it doesn’t work, it doesn’t work, and we’ll move on to Plan B. But let’s try to avoid that, shall we?" "If what doesn’t work?" Draco wondered aloud, and Joséphine Dessources – Hogwarts’ new Potions Mistress – laughed. "Don’t mind them," she said. "Lovers’ quarrel." Draco’s eyes popped. Lovers’ quarrel? Excuse me? Since when has Snape been getting laid? What’s going on here? He sent Neville a hard look. There’d never been any love lost between them, granted, but on the other hand, neither had Longbottom ever been known to lie. Slytherin common-room gossip had him pegged as too stupid – whether or not that was true, Draco had never quite figured out. "Longbottom," he said. "Explain to me what this is about, will you? I’m lost." "The bottom line is this," Neville said. "Kate thinks she might be on the trail of some new treatment that can cure my parents. She wants to run some tests – Muggle tests – on them, and I’ve agreed to let her do it." He regarded Draco warily. "We’re telling you about it first because Kate needs to move them, temporarily, to a Muggle hospital in order to perform the tests. And—" he swallowed once, nervously—"because no one else can know about it. It has to be a secret from the rest of the staff." "Secret," Draco repeated. "See, that’s the part I don’t understand. Why does that matter?" "It matters," Kate Billings said sharply, "because the last time you and I spoke about running tests on the Longbottoms, an extremist group found out about it, blew up my laboratory and killed my husband. We’re trying not to have that happen again." "What?" Draco shook his head, unsure of whether to be angry or just incredulous. "The last time we spoke? What last time we spoke?" Angry was winning – which was good, because it felt better to be angry than to be confused. "I’ve never seen you before in my life. I’ve never spoken to you in my life. Before nine o’ clock this morning, I didn’t know you existed. What the hell are you talking about?" "She’s talking about these," said Sal from his seat in the corner of the room, and floated a stack of documents down the table toward Draco with a wave of his wand. "From your files," he said. "You’ll find the pertinent memos in the Longbottom and Lockhart folders." A faint smile. "Thought you might need a bit of convincing; that’s why I showed up early." Draco caught the stack of papers and shuffled through them, teeth caught on his upper lip. "These? They’re all blurry," he said, frowning at them. "They must be bad copies. I can’t read a word of this." "It’s proof," Sal insisted. Draco smiled thinly. "Not if I can’t read it, it’s not." More whispering, at this, between Snape and Ms. Billings – his head shaking emphatically, her hands tracing the air in small tense circles, like well-trained doves. "Look," she said finally, loud enough for Draco to hear her. "I’m aware that it’s dangerous – who knows that better than I do? But it’s worth it – we’re onto something here, and if the cover’s blown it’s blown; I can handle myself now. Just do it, all right?" She turned toward Draco, eyes still sparking with argument and intention. She’s right, he thought fuzzily; I have seen her before. But where? "The fact is," she said, "My name isn’t Kate Billings at all." "Really?" He shook his head, puzzled – vaguely aware on a certain level that Neville and Joséphine looked as thrown by this as he did. "Then who are you?" A sigh from Snape, and then he stood up – face pale and set, eyes burning out of the black holes of their sockets like dark lamps, like visionary’s torches. He had Kate by the shoulders, Draco noticed, in a grip far too firm to be quite comfortable, and wondered why she didn’t flinch away – why she didn’t look surprised. "Hermione," Snape said, and the lights seemed to flicker in response to his voice. He took another deep breath. "Hermione Granger. That’s who she is." Draco’s mouth fell open. Downhill, he thought for the third time that morning. Definitely downhill. And then, everyone started to talk at once. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Thirty-Nine ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ A million things happened at once, some of them completely unrelated to the matter at hand. Such is the way of the world. Among the pertinent: Martina Granger, in the midst of her morning crossword, froze with her pen halfway to 13 Across (Negates strongly), set it down on the table, then shook her head slightly as if to clear it and took another sip of tea, engulfed by a sudden strong urge to look through her photograph albums and – just as suddenly – utterly mystified as to why she’d given her favourite one away to that strange young medical researcher who’d come round to interview her the other night. You’re getting old, Martina, she told herself, amused, and took the time to spread her toast with marmalade before returning to the crossword, and the answer she’d been about to write: denies. A silver photo-frame on the Weasleys’ mantel, housing the image of a smiling red-headed boy in Hogwarts robes and a Head Boy badge, shimmered for a minute and then realigned, its shiny surface now home to four engraved words instead of two. (The new inscription: Beloved Son And Husband.) The man who had walked into a bar – not presently wearing his trench coat, but rather a pair of blue-and-white-striped cotton pajamas – frowned and murmured in his sleep. At a desk in a hidden office, far underneath the city of Cairo, a goblin smiled and raised her coffee-cup in silent salute. And Bettina Thrush – once the longtime caretaker of the Fourth Floor, now careening toward an increasingly-more-comfortable retirement as the grateful Mr. Malfoy’s personal assistant – heard him gasp a familiar name – "Hermione?" – and froze with her ear still pressed to his office door. A tense few minutes later, she had ascertained exactly which patient folders were missing from her meticulous files, and – grateful for once that Mr. Malfoy had put in phones, to supplement the old Interoffice Floo – was flipping hastily through her Rolodex for an international number she hadn’t dialed for at least six months. "Sophie," she said, hand cupped over the mouthpiece. "Bettina here." A pause, and a grim smile. "You’re going to want to alert him," she said. "It’s about to happen again." ** By lunchtime, the necessary paperwork was completed and locked in Draco’s office safe, and the thrill of reunion was rapidly giving way to the need for stealthy haste. A letter had been owled to Dumbledore, and Neville and Joséphine were back in Paris, the better to place a series of wards on Hermione’s flat in the Rue des Arènes. Best to go ahead and break Sal’s bit of the Fidelius, they’d all decided, and put the address back into the public domain; that way, they’d have forewarning the minute the Knights of the Golden Wand picked up their trail. Draco had stayed behind at St. Mungo’s to make a few calls to the nearest Muggle hospital regarding the loan of the equipment they’d need for the tests, to re-establish contact with Areli at the Consortium’s new offices in Cairo, and to arrange a safe-house for the Longbottoms. It wouldn’t do, he’d pointed out, for their test subjects to go missing, or worse, while they got all their ducks in a row. Sal, whiskers bristling with unholy excitement, had taken himself off to the Fourth Floor to stand guard in the meantime. And Hermione herself, despite initial protests that she could be doing a million more useful things elsewhere, was back in Montana, with Snape. They sat at the kitchen table, wrapped in wary, all-too-knowledgeable silence, and ate the reheated beef Stroganoff that Sal had intended for last night’s dinner. Hermione kept her eyes carefully averted, and noticed that Snape did the same. Once, they both looked up at the same time, and their glances met and held with an almost-audible click; in the next instant, they’d both flushed a guilty brick red and ducked back into their lunch. She wasn’t sure how to name the feeling that kept creeping over her when she looked at him. The cool objectivity that had been hers while her memory was lost – wherein he’d been just a man, albeit a darkly intriguing one, with whose body her own had reacted in incendiary and unexpected ways – had vanished along with the cloud-cover of the Obliviate. Now that she had herself back again, she’d lost her handle on him. On the other hand, he didn’t look any more comfortable than she felt. Which was its own form of consolation. She watched him stab a strip of green pepper with his fork and swirl it around in a stray pool of cream sauce, then consume it – adroitly, but with scant evidence of enjoyment. He’d been wearing the same faintly-aggrieved expression since they’d arrived back at the cabin. Part of her found this endearing. The rest of her, recognising it for the evasion it was, was drumming its metaphorical fingertips on the table … and gathering its courage for a frontal assault. "What do we do now?" she asked finally, more to break the silence than in any real expectation of an answer. He looked up, shrugged, and stabbed another slice of pepper. "Wait." "For what?" Another upward flick of his eyes, this time with a hint of annoyance. "For something to happen," he said, laying down his fork. "For Sal to find the papers he’s looking for. For someone to breach the wards on the flat in Paris. For Draco to locate the machines you need, and deliver them somewhere safe so you can get started with your research." Hermione considered this new thought with interest. "Mm. Cairo, do you think?" Severus snorted and jerked a thumb toward the kitchen doorway. "Hardly. My study, more like." He picked up his water glass, contemplated its depths, and set it down again untouched. "More’s the pity. Merlin knows it was bad enough having Longbottom himself sleeping on my sofa, without having to play nursemaid to his vegetable parents now as well." Hermione glared at him. "It’s unfair to call them that," she said. "They came by their condition honourably." A twist of his expressive mouth. "A fact which doesn’t change the condition itself – now, does it? Don’t play politically-correct with me, Miss Granger; it’s a game I’ve never been able to abide." I’d forgotten, thought Hermione, how much he pisses me off, most of the time. How could I have blocked that out? "Not Miss Granger," she said, clenching her jaw so tightly that she could feel the muscles tick in protest. "Mrs. Weasley. In case you didn’t remember." "Oh, I remember, all right." A faint, deliberate smirk. "Though I think you, of all people, are rather ill-equipped to lecture me on issues of memory." This, as well-timed a verbal dart as he’d ever aimed, was delivered in his most satiny of whispers. Hermione remembered this tone of voice rather well; she could hear it now, floating down the corridors of her subconscious in delightedly malicious echoes from the Potions classroom: Ah. Miss Granger – how unexpected. A pause for the Slytherins’ obligatory snicker. Do enlighten us, won’t you? Detention – that was another word she associated with this tone, yes … that, and his cruellest cut of all: I see no difference. At the time, Hermione-the-schoolgirl had assumed he found genuine pleasure in tormenting her, and reacted accordingly. Now, with so much water under the bridge that she might have died and reincarnated herself in the interval, she merely rolled her eyes and waved the sarcasm away. "Nothing wrong with my memory now," she said, in as mild a tone as she could muster, and answered his suspicious glance with an innocent look: who, me? "Everything’s coming through quite clearly – and it’s not as if the new’s pushed out by the old, either." She took a sip of water. "Take two nights ago, for instance. I remember quite a lot about that." He went very still. "Do you, now." "Indeed," Hermione said, feeling suddenly reckless. "A tall dark stranger made me a declaration. Not the sort of thing a girl forgets." A muscle ticked in his cheek. "Some things are better left unremembered." "Train’s left the station on that count, don’t you think?" That had come out more shrilly than she’d intended; sarcasm made for thin gilding on an urgency this great. Hermione wanted to look away from him, but didn’t dare. "So," she said. "Did you mean it? Or not?" ** He stabbed a chunk of beef and put it in his mouth without answering her, presumably to buy himself a few seconds’ thinking time; Hermione could almost see the wheels turning behind those dark, implacable eyes as he chewed, swallowed at length, and took a deliberate sip from his water goblet. Finally, he met her eyes and shrugged. "I find," he said, "that life is short enough as it is, without cluttering the air with words I don’t mean." Another pause; Hermione thought him about to continue, but he only clamped his lips together and settled back in his chair. Typical. "Well?" she prompted, impatient, and immediately wished she hadn’t as his carefully-blank face arranged itself into more-familiar, more-sardonic lines. "Well, what?" Only one way out of this hole, Hermione decided, and picked up her conversational shovel with gritted teeth. "Well, what do we do about it?" she asked, knowing even before the words were uttered that they’d be greeted with a contemptuously arched eyebrow and another one of those Gallic shrugs. They were. "Why should we do anything about it?" He was toying with the heavy sterling handle of his coffee spoon, his long steady fingers tracing the intricate scrollwork of the design while his eyes, cool and shuttered, never left hers. Hermione let out a little huff of annoyance, and saw his gaze spark with an instant of speculative humour. He’s playing with me, she thought, and curled her lip at him. "That’s an excellent question," she snapped. He bit the inside of his cheek, presumably to suppress a smile. "And stop smirking at me! This isn’t something to laugh about!" Immediately he sobered. "No, it’s not, is it," he said, and his voice was so uncharacteristically gentle that Hermione’s mouth fell open. "But you’ll forgive me if I take what humour I can from the situation. We were at a similar crossroads some years ago, you and I – need I remind you how that turned out?" "It’s not the same," Hermione said, her throat burning. Snape sent her a long, level look. "Isn’t it?" The coffee spoon clattered to the table; neither of them glanced at it. "Look at me," he said,"—really look at me, Hermione, and see what’s there, instead of what you want to be there. And then, if you’re able, take a long hard look at yourself, and tell me – regardless of the passage of time and the events that fill it, are that woman and that man really well-suited to each other?" Hermione stared at him, stony-faced, for a long tense moment, then dropped her eyes to the table. A basket of Sal’s five-grain dinner rolls sat, as yet untouched, at her elbow. She chose one, split it, buttered it methodically, set down her knife – then drew back her arm and threw it at him. It hit him in the middle of the forehead, butter side first, and bounced. "Look at you?" she asked, incredulous. "Look at you, and see what’s there? You utter, utter bastard. How dare you condescend to me?" Later, she’d wish for a camera; the sight of Severus Snape sitting speechless and open-mouthed at a butcher-block kitchen table with butter all over his forehead would have fetched unheard-of amounts at silent auction. Right now, however, she was on a roll. So to speak. "You think I’m some whinging little romantic?" she demanded. "You think I don’t know exactly who and what you are? All personal interaction aside, I sat in your class for six years, and if that didn’t give me an inside handle on your less commodious aspects, I don’t know what would. You’re an autocratic, self-indulgent, inflexible prick of a human being, and I’ve known that all along." He opened his mouth. She threw the other half of the roll at him. "No, don’t." Somehow, she was on her feet, her napkin sliding off her lap into a disconsolate origami puddle under the table. "It’s you who doesn’t know me. If you did—" "—Oh, don’t I?" He pushed back his chair and glared at her from across the table. "Let’s not forget who’s had a direct line in to the Granger Subconscious for the last four and a half months, shall we? I’ve seen more of what goes on in your grubby little brain than I care to, believe me." "That being the case," Hermione snapped, "I’m surprised you didn’t see the Obliviate coming. Or is it just that you like me better when I’m out of my mind?" For a moment, utter silence – and then a deafening crash, as a rather heavy kitchen table went careening across the room and into the opposite wall. Hermione, mouth already opened for the next volley, froze in mid-breath, took one look at the wizard advancing toward her with his wand out … and then turned and ran. She got as far as the kitchen doorway. ** Last Tango in Paris Chapter Forty ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ She'd never turned tail and run from him before, and for a moment it caught Severus off guard. After he'd gotten over the mild shock of it, though, he found it rather exciting; he felt like a cat who'd just flushed a mouse. A predatory thought, to be sure. But, he reminded himself, this Hermione wasn't the damaged piece of Dresden he'd been coddling back into sanity one trans-Atlantic night at a time, and she wasn't the blank-eyed cipher of a girl he'd found crumpled like used-up tissue paper at the banks of the Seine. This was the real Hermione, Hermione magnificently returned to her lovely, clever, bad-tempered self. And she'd just thrown butter at him. The way he saw it, all bets were off. “Petrificus Totalis,” he said lazily to her retreating back, and watched it stiffen in outrage even before the curse hit it. She thudded to the floor face-up (Petrificus victims always landed face-up for some unknown reason; back in the days when he'd had frequent occasion to use it, he'd often wondered about that), her legs still extending into the kitchen. Add a pair of shiny red shoes, Severus thought, and you'd have the makings of some very fine literary irony indeed. He pocketed his wand again, crossed the room to the paper-towel dispenser, and took his time wiping the butter off his forehead. She was glaring daggers at him. He let her do it. “Excuse me,” he said now, leaning over her, and managed to extract her wand from her pocket without really touching her. There were wizards in the world who wouldn't have hesitated to cop a feel, given the same circumstances, but he didn't want to put himself in that category, even accidentally. Obviously, Hermione had already figured this out; she looked angry beyond the telling of it, but not the least bit frightened. Severus pocketed her wand, picked up the nearest of the fallen chairs, turned it to face her, and straddled it casually. It was odd, but he wasn't the least bit angry anymore. “ Finite Incantatem,” he said, and watched her surge to her feet like a small, furious wave. “You sick fuck. You bastard. You … you flobberworm. You disgust me.” Flobberworm? Severus grinned. “Oh, you can do better than that, can't you?” Hermione bared her teeth at him. “Give me my wand back, you dragon dung,” she promised him, “and you'll see how much better I can do. You worthless, spineless, gutless, dickless—“ “—Hermione—“ “—bastard son of a Jarvey hairball—“ “—I've changed my mind,” he interrupted, and she paused, mid-tirade, to look at him as if he'd gone mad. “What are you talking about?” “You,” he said. Things were suddenly very clear. “You're even more of a shrew than I remember you as – and you were rather impressive even then. We're better-suited than I thought.” She gaped at him. “A shrew? You throw the Full-Body-Bind at me when my back is turned, take away my wand, and suddenly I'm a shrew? You bloody, buggery stoat of a human being.” “—And to set the record straight,” he continued, “I do not like you better when you're out of your mind; I found your post-Obliviate self an irritating milksop—“ here, Hermione's mouth dropped open, then shut again with a snap—“with precious little to say for herself.” He let his eyes flick up to her face – half-baffled, half-furious – then down again. “Even considering your present state of utter raving lunacy, you vicious little harpy, I prefer you with your memory intact; it means I don't have to be careful of you anymore.” “Careful? You've never been careful of me,” she shot back. “Ever.” Severus sighed, pushed away his chair, and stood up. “I've never been anything but,” he said. “But that's all going to stop. Right now.” ** Halfway around the world, a file cabinet opened and spat out a folder. In the folder was a form, and on the form an address, neatly written in a clear round hand. The form passed from one hand to another, and was duly studied by the owners of both. “She's not there any longer,” one of them said. The other shrugged. “Let's look anyway.” ** Somehow, they'd ended up kissing. Hermione figured this was weak-willed of her, considering that he was a soap-scum bastard who didn't have a shred of human decency to be found anywhere within a three-meter radius of his cold black heart. On the other hand, hadn't this whole argument started because she'd wanted to kiss him in the first place? The ends justified the means sometimes, even if you were a Gryffindor. She sighed against his mouth, not bothering to conceal the shudder of pure female satisfaction that ripped through her when his tongue touched hers. “Well, go on then,” she gasped when they finally came up for air. “Don't be careful. I want to see if I can tell the difference.” “Be careful what you wish for,” he growled, and then kissed her again – harder this time, as if to prove his point. Hermione, entering into the spirit of things, nipped his lower lip – perhaps a bit harder than she'd intended – and was mildly gratified to hear him hiss in reaction. “That,” he said against her mouth, “was uncalled for.” “Oh, yeah?” His hands had found their way under her jumper, which was making sentient thought difficult. On the one hand, Hermione thought fuzzily, using the term wandless magic in this context was a bit of a timeworn cliché. On the other – who cared? “What are you planning to do about it?” Tradition, of course, dictated that the banter of Act One should pay off with horizontal calisthenics in Act Two, and this encounter was no exception; how they managed to manouevre out of the doorway and down the hall to the bedroom was a mystery, but there they were regardless, tumbling across and down into softness and immediately reentangling themselves again, like two extension cords left alone in a dark desk drawer. “Divestio,” Hermione gasped, and then frowned and opened her eyes when nothing happened. Snape was looming over her, looking amused. “In a hurry, Miss Granger?” “Give me back my wand,” she panted, and he shook his head. “I don't think so.” She'd rucked his hair into an untidy nimbus around his head, and he had that self-satisfied look that she'd only seen him wear in situations identical to this one. It made her weak in the knees. “As I recall,” he purred now – good to know that the Voice of Pain has an occasional positive connotation, Hermione thought – “this works the best when you don't even have the use of your hands.” She made a wild grab for his wand hand. When that didn't work out, she settled for both sides of his collar. “Don't do that,” she said into his ear. “Not this time, anyway.” A considering look. “Why shouldn't I?” “Because,” Hermione said, and heaved him over onto his back. “I want to be able to touch you.” ** “Draco? It's Joséphine. Guess what?” Draco blinked. “Already?” he said. “I thought it'd take them at least two hours. They're better connected than I'd thought.” “You bet, sweet cheeks. Wards are going off like a four-alarm fire; Slick and I are about to go investigate.” Joséphine popped her gum. “Thought you'd want to know.” “Thanks. I'll tell Sal,” Draco said. “If they've already tracked down the apartment, I don't imagine it'll take them long to act on the Longbottom angle. We need to move fast.” “I'd thought of that,” Joséphine said. “We've already been on the Floo with Albus; if you don't have a better place in mind, he's offering us the secured wing of the Hogwarts infirmary as Testing Headquarters. You have any objections to that?” Draco chewed on his upper lip. “No,” he said, “that's fine. We'll go ahead and move them, then.” He frowned, struck by a new thought. “Should someone let Snape and Hermione know?” “We'll fill them in,” Joséphine promised, “and meet you there – just as soon as we've taken a peek at the apartment. Half an hour, tops.” “Sounds good. I'll see you then.” ** He was like the horse from Jingle Bells, Hermione thought: lean, lank, and doomed to misfortune. As such, the black robes suited him – if you were into that sort of thing, that is, which she figured she was merely by default for sleeping with him and then coming back for more. He shouldn't have looked like much of anything naked – just a scrawny, forty-something Ichabod Crane of a man, fish-belly pale and not getting any younger. Certainly after six years of snuggling up to Sex-On-Fins Weasley, Hermione thought, Severus Snape should have suffered by comparison. From a strictly aesthetic angle, she supposed he did. None of that mattered, because the old fascination was still there – strong and eager enough, in fact, to make Hermione wonder if it had ever left. She put her mouth on his shoulder and drew hard, delighted to raise a strawberry birthmark on that white skin … and half-haunted by yet another old memory: Snape holding her curls away from her neck and banishing his fingerprints from her skin, one by one. The recollection of it sent a liquid shudder reeling through her, and she fought it by picking another pristine patch of torso and sinking in her teeth. We like to leave marks, both of us. I'm not sure that's such a good thing. But it felt good – he felt good, sinewy and tense and deceptively strong, a cauldronful of banked coals shifting and hissing under her fingertips. When she touched his cock, it felt hot enough to burn her hands, leaping like flame in a velvet slipcover. She kissed him there, wanting to feel that heat sear her lips, then closed her eyes and sank down on him without preamble – oh God, it had been so long since she'd done this, all those years and lives ago in a moonlit dungeon, cold stone on her knees and heated, shuddering man closing her in everyplace else. Gobbets of dragon's-breath in the chilly room, frosting the air above her. Hands on her head like a frantic benediction. It felt good to do it another way, to hold him down on the bed with elbows and knees and the weight of her body across his legs and to lose track of the passage of time. Somewhere above her head, he was starting to make noise – yes, she thought, exultant, yes, go right ahead and do it, say it, amazing the sounds we make against our will, when pleasure drags them from us. Amazing that I can do that to you. “Hermione,” he gasped, and she flicked her eyes up his body to meet his gaze. “You made me a declaration,” she said, and felt him tremble under her hands. “Do you want to know if I meant it?” A thread of laughter in his voice. “If so, I congratulate you on your excellent sense of timing.” Hermione's lips twitched. “That's a ‘yes', then.” “You undo me,” he said simply, and Hermione felt her throat clog. “I have a declaration of my own,” she whispered. Snape shook his head. “Not now,” he said. “Tragedy's never far. And too much happiness tempts the Fates.” Typical of him, Hermione thought, to rain on my drama parade. “What, then?” she queried tartly, and he grinned at her – had she ever seen him smile like that? she wondered, full out, with all those teeth showing? If she had, she couldn't remember it. “Finish what you started,” he said, and took her by the shoulders to haul her up. “That's good enough for now.” ** “Well?” Neville wanted to know. “Everything okay?” Joséphine grinned at him. “Peachy,” she said. “How about you?” “Did you tell them?” She shook her head. “Left a note.” “Oh.” “Come on,” she said, smiling to herself, and took his arm. “Let's go. I want to meet your Mum.” They went. ** Last Tango in Paris Chapter Forty-One ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ They lay side by side, staring at the ceiling. This had been going on for awhile. Initially it had been accompanied by comfortable silence. Now, the silence wasn't so comfortable. Still, Severus figured that for his money, Hermione could be the one to break it. She didn't disappoint. “So,” she said, eyes still trained on the ceiling. “This is strange, isn't it?” He knew exactly what she meant, but decided that in this case, feigning ignorance was the better part of valor. “How so?” “Well,” she said. “Usually at this point we've quarreled already about what a Bad Idea This Was and how we're Not Well Suited, and one of us has gone off in a huff. We're a bit in uncharted territory now, don't you think?” He considered this while pretending that he wasn't looking at her – though why he was pretending, he hadn't a clue. Something to do with testosterone, no doubt. “I imagine that between the two of us,” he said, “we could manufacture a quarrel rather handily. If you feel it's necessary, that is.” This made her chuckle – a creamy, dreamy sound deep in her throat which had the portion of his anatomy that he'd heretofore considered to be completely sated sending up a flare of newfound interest. “I imagine we could. Though this is rather nicer.” That it was. Severus stretched, letting his arms fall in a lazy curve above his head, and found the fingers of one hand somehow, inexplicably, linked with hers. “I wouldn't become accustomed to it, if I were you,” he said. The feel of her palm against his was like a body blow in miniature, almost too pleasurable to stand. “The niceties of social converse, I regret to admit, have long escaped me. Despite the pleasure of the company, that's a fact which is unlikely to change.” She chuckled again. Her hand had wriggled free of his grasp and was now engaged in five-pronged electric tracery up and down the inside surfaces of his fingers. “And here I was hoping we could read some Rod McKuen and start a dream journal together. Darn.” Severus didn't have the slightest idea who Rod McKuen was, but he knew when he was being got at. Oddly enough, he found the whole idea rather endearing; gentle raillery of this sort was a delicious novelty he'd never thought to taste – the chocolate Napoleon of afterglow, encased securely behind plate glass in a shop that never seemed to be open while he was passing by. Now that he'd got a taste of it, he wanted to gulp it down whole. Patience. “Trollop,” he murmured, and captured her hand again. Palm to palm again – now, if only he could remember the incantation he had in mind … Ah, yes. He murmured it, and felt the side of her leg bump his as her body arched and her heels slid apart. Hermione cursed and jackknifed up. “What the bloody hell was that?” He didn't let go of her hand. “Shhh. This takes concentration, you know.” She was glaring at him with bone-deep suspicion; it did his heart good to mutter that powerful little word again and watch her pugnacious expression take a direct hit. Surprise warred with indignation and curiosity and bone-deep desire in those intelligent dark eyes; he watched her pupils dilate as the pleasure threatened to swamp her, saw her dig her teeth into her bottom lip and fight it for all she was worth. Magnificent. Breathing hard through her mouth, she struggled up onto one elbow and frowned at him. “This is from the Pronouncements of Eros again, isn't it?” she demanded. “I looked for that book, you know. For years.” He laughed. “I'll wager you did.” Oh, those mutinous eyes, the irresistible sulk of that mouth – all clichés aside, she really was more beautiful when she was angry, Severus thought. Sharper edges. Darker angles. “What's that supposed to mean?” “It means,” he said, capturing her free hand, “that you won't find that particular volume in Flourish and Blotts. It's part of an, er … private collection.” Her eyes went from stormy to speculative in the space of a single heartbeat. “Yours?” “Perhaps,” he said, and fed her another hit. “Does it matter? ” “I'm going to find it,” she gasped – eyes closed, lips parted, the very picture of sweet surrender gift-wrapped and tied with a bow. “I'm going to find it, and I'm going to pay you back in spades, Severus Snape. See if I don't.” “Promises, promises,” he said, feeling that unfamiliar, unsettling smile creeping over his face again, and swung her over on top of him. I could get used to this, he thought, and then: And Merlin help me if I do. ** They were both a bit embarrassed to discover that Joséphine had been and gone and written them a note without so much as registering on their collective radar. For Hermione's part, anyway, the embarrassment lasted until they got to Hogwarts. At that point, she forgot about Snape completely – for the moment, at least – in favour of the toys Draco had brought with him. “An MRI?” she said, goggling at it. “You scored an MRI?” “Wasn't that what you wanted?” “Well, yes,” she said. “But I didn't think you'd actually get it. Christ – it's massive. Where'd it come from?” The corners of his mouth quirked, and for a moment she saw a trace of the arrogant little boy he'd been when she first met him. “I have my sources.” “Uh-huh.” Hermione stroked the top of the scanner with one reverent forefinger. “Have you tried it out yet?” Draco shook his head. “You're the expert. We've been waiting for you. But Dumbledore says it'll work.” “Wow.” Out of the corner of her eye, she saw Snape roll his eyes and sidle toward the exit with a throwaway look over his shoulder that said: Later. She hesitated, then turned back toward the machine. “Just – wow.” “Um.” Neville, looking slightly less nervous now that Snape had left the premises, came a step closer. “How does it work, exactly?” “Magnetism,” Hermione said absently, already absorbed in the manual. “And radio waves. It's complicated.” “Does it … does it hurt? Will they feel it?” “They'll be fine. It doesn't hurt.” Hermione walked around the machine, marvelling at how space-age shiny and out of place it looked, in this austere, high-ceilinged room of ancient hand-hewn stone. The power cord was untouched, still coiled and held with a twist-tie; nevertheless, when she flicked the Power button, the scanner lit up like the Starship Enterprise. Two kinds of magic in this room right now, she thought, and she'd be hard put to rank them one above the other on the chart of Cosmic Miracles. “Just don't bring anything metal anywhere near it when it's on. It's got a couple thousand times as much gravitational pull as the Earth itself.” She'd meant this to be reassuring, but Neville didn't look convinced. “I hope it doesn't scare them,” he said doubtfully. “Easy, Slick,” Joséphine murmured, patting his shoulder. “We're going for the greater good here, remember?” But he still looked worried, and Hermione – remembering the tragedy that had been Gram at her most vague, remembering all those tearful telephone conversations with her mother about missed appointments and temper-flares and small everyday failures, eggshells in the sponge-cake and alum instead of sugar in the tea – put a hand on his arm. “Don't worry,” she said. “It can wait. But I would like to meet them now. If you don't mind.” His face cleared. “Oh. Okay. Sure.” ** The Hogwarts infirmary was perhaps one of the only rooms in the castle that had no artwork at all on the walls – probably a good thing, given the propensity of the paintings toward idle chatter. There was, however, a secret door toward the back, ingeniously disguised as a window – if you looked at it, you saw the curve of lawn, a sliver of shimmering water, and in the distance, the hoop of one blurry Quidditch goal, sticking up from the rest of the landscape like a soup spoon buried handle-first in the sandbox. Turn the handle and say the password, however, and you found yourself not in midair, as you might have supposed, but in another hospital ward, this one windowless and shadowy and lit with torches high off the ground. Keep going through this one, through the series of tunnels and connective passages that led away from it, and you got to the room where Albus had put the MRI scanner – the same room, Hermione realised, in which they'd performed the Fidelius Charm. A bit odd, that – but at the same time, fitting. She followed Neville and Joséphine through a short stretch of corridor and into a small locked room that made her blink when she walked into it, it was so bright. Someone had obviously gone to a great deal of trouble to make it look cheerful and welcoming; two of the four walls were lined with Charmed windows, streaming sunlight and fresh air and making the sunny yellow curtains flutter with warm breeze. The floor was covered with a hooked rug; the two single beds, with bright quilted comforters. Two rocking chairs undulated lazily in front of the windows. One of them was occupied, and it was toward this chair that Neville was headed now. “Dad?” he said. “Dad, I've brought someone to meet you.” “Don't want any,” Frank Longbottom said without looking up. He was turning his hands over and over, carefully passing fingers under palm under fingers in a studied, intent little gavotte. “Haven't got time.” “Dad,” Neville said, sinking to his haunches in front of the chair and stilling his father's hands with his own. “It's me. Neville. This is Hermione; she's a … a doctor. She's going to help you with your memory.” “Got to finish first,” his father said. “Got to leave the stragglers. Can't catch up yet.” He darted a mulish glance up at Hermione and Joséphine. “Ladies first. No time for nonsense.” Hermione hesitated – then, at an encouraging nod from Neville, held out her hand for Frank Longbottom to shake. “It's nice to meet you, Mr. Longbottom,” she said. For a moment, he frowned at her hand – thoughtfully, as if he just might take it after all. Then, he turned away. “Carrots,” he said to the Charmed window. “Not a kitten in the bunch. Strangers, every one.” Neville sighed. “Okay, Dad,” he said. “We'll leave you alone. I'll be back later with some lunch, alright?” He patted his father's hunched shoulder, then shot Hermione a weary smile. “Sometimes he's better than this,” he said. “The move's been pretty hard on him – on both of them. Come on – come meet my mother.” But Alice Longbottom was sitting cross-legged on the floor, picking intently at a stray tuft of the rug, and wouldn't look up even when Neville called her name. “This and that,” she said, sounding irritable. “And the other. No news, no news. Not now.” “What do you think?” Neville asked, once they were out of the room, and Hermione shook her head. “It's been awhile since I looked at my books,” she said. “I want to read over a few things again. Did Albus say where he put them?” Neville hesitated, then nodded and dug an envelope out of his pocket. “He left you this,” he said. “Said you'd know what to do with it.” Hermione ripped open the flap, tipped the contents out onto her palm, and laughed in spite of herself. It was the key to Elysium. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Forty-Two ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Elysium. It looked much the same as it had the last time she'd left it, except that the expandable chaise was its narrow, uninhabited self instead of a single bed containing one pissed-off-but-still-pretty ex-boyfriend. Hermione took a moment to dwell on that memory – blundering wet-eyed through the darkness of the after-hours library, up till all hours muttering to herself and plowing through that awful deconstruction of Veritaserum by some imbecile whose name she couldn't remember (Razorstrap? Razorscruff?), what had she been thinking? – then shook her head, dropped her bag on the nearest counter, and went to examine the bookshelf. Not much change here, either – lots of these books she recognized from their Illuminata-research days, though there were one or two interesting-looking new titles on the casting, prevention, and treatment of the Unforgiveables. Beyond this section (if you could call it that), Dumbledore must have assumed that she was bringing her research with her – either that, or this little venture was farther out into uncharted territory than she'd previously imagined. Hermione thought longingly of her old office at the Consortium – high-speed Internet access, shelves of pertinent books, a five-minute walk from the University of Cairo's medical library – then shrugged to herself and started unpacking. At least she still had her notes. The thing was, as successful as the whole Vanesca episode had been, Crucio and Obliviate didn't have very much in common … she didn't think, anyway. The whole rationale that made her little purple strips work both on Alzheimer's disease and botched Memory Charms was the same one making most of her prior research useless now. No ugly black morass of tangles here, no sticky silver web to isolate and Vanish like an unwanted stain from a tablecloth – until she saw the Longbottoms' MRI results, of course, she couldn't be sure, but from what she'd read Hermione rather suspected that Crucio wouldn't leave behind much physical evidence of itself at all. As far as she could tell from her research, there wasn't even a specific part of the brain responsible for feeling pain … which meant that she didn't have any idea where to start. In fact, the more she read about the brain, the more overwhelmed she felt. Here was a subject that the Muggles had studied for centuries, and had just now gotten to the place where they could admit they didn't know a whole hell of a lot about it, beyond the fact that mostly it worked, and that when it stopped working, one or more of a million fascinating kinds of internal drama took the stage and refused to break for intermission. Muggle neurospecialists had managed to document the behaviours, they'd even isolated the parts of the brain responsible for different functions, but in terms of what could actually go wrong and how to fix it, they were still at sea – their treatments too broad and clumsy and intrusive, like someone trying to fix a pair of eyeglasses with a monkey wrench. And then there were the wizards, who were still in denial about the whole thing as far as Hermione was concerned. The milder of their head-cases they tolerated or ignored – was there really any other explanation for Mundungus Fletcher? for Aberforth Dumbledore? – and the more severe, they incarcerated. Very nineteenth-century. If anyone had ever tried to treat a Cruciatus victim by magical means beyond the usual côterie of comfort-charms and sedation spells, Hermione thought, they certainly hadn't written down anything useful about the experience afterwards. Or maybe it was that they had tried, and nothing had worked. Well, that's why she was here, right? To bring a new perspective to the situation? Hermione flipped her notebook open, poised her ball-point pen over a fresh sheet of lined paper, and started to re-read her notes, yet again, with an implacable eye. There had to be at least a bit of a connection. She just hadn't seen it yet. ** By the time Sal floated through her wall to inform her that she was missing dinner, she still hadn't found the link she was looking for. “Don't ask,” she said without looking up. “It's not going so well.” Sal shrugged and came over to peer over her shoulder. “Left-hemi damage,” he read from her notes, ”equals depression and melancholia. Right-hemi damage equals unconcern and lack of self-awareness. What's a ‘hemi'?” “Hemisphere,” Hermione said. “Half of your brain.” Her neck and shoulders were stiff from hours of hunching over her books; she rotated her head slowly, suppressing a yelp as her hair brushed Sal's arm and promptly stood itself on end. “Move back a little, will you? You're so close you're making my whole left side go numb.” “Sorry,” Sal said, levitating himself to a cross-legged position atop the table. “So what's the significance of the two halves?” Hermione flipped a couple of pages. “Well, the left side is supposedly the side that handles logic and decisions,” she said. “And it's also the side that governs speech. The right side's more emotional and creative, but nonverbal in its own right. Parvati and Lavender were always reading books about trying to Get In Touch with it.” She shrugged. “Anyway, if one side's damaged or routed out or whatever, it affects the balance between optimism and pessimism. Doesn't help me much with the Longbottoms, really, but it does sort of explain Lockhart.” She paused. “And Snape.” Sal laughed. “Speaking of whom,” he said. “He asked me to tell you that he's gone back to the cabin to pick up some books he left behind. He'll be back tonight.” “Oh. Thanks.” A wicked sideways look. “Took the two of you long enough to get Joséphine's note, didn't it? We thought you'd never make it here.” “Don't start, Sal.” He ignored her. “Oh, I do like a happy ending.” “Happy ending?” Hermione rolled her eyes. “Who's got a happy ending? There's a bunch of mysterious pureblood-supremacist creepos out there somewhere who'd like nothing more than to see us six feet under. Until we've dealt with that, let's not jinx ourselves.” She gave him a hard look. “And weren't you supposed to be researching that angle of things? What've you come up with?” “Not much,” Sal said. “Until recently, that is. Your goblin friend in Cairo's managed to track down a rare-book trader who claims to own the original log-book from de Fondant's pirate ship. I'm off to Cairo tonight to swindle him out of it. Thought I could sweet-talk my way into your vault, if there's any more research you need from it.” “Oh.” Hermione thought for a moment, then shook her head. “I think I'm all set. Thanks.” “Suit yourself.” He stretched, unfolded himself from his lotus position in the middle of the table, and shot her a wink. “I'll be back sometime tomorrow. Tonight, if I get lucky.” “Have fun,” Hermione said absently, already reaching for her bag and starting to rummage through it. She'd just thought of something. ** He hadn't really forgotten a book. He just didn't want to be there for dinner – either with Hermione or without her. Dine with her privately, and the faculty would wink and nod – publicly, and the whole of wizarding Britain would be on the Floo within half an hour: Emeline, you'll never believe who that clever little Granger girl's gone and harnessed herself to. Or maybe he was assigning himself too much significance? Either way, it was bad enough to be here without having to endure a cartload of asinine gossip in the bargain. And if, as he rather suspected she would be, she was determined to work through dinner – well, then, he'd just as soon pop home and avoid the Hogwarts social scene altogether. It was just dusk by the time he'd walked down to the school gates and prepared to Apparate, which meant that the bright late-morning glare of a Montana mountain in sunlight made him blink and stumble a bit. Still, the cabin itself was cool and dim and quieter than it'd been in months. No Sal, no Hermione, no liplocked Longbottom or dilettante body-pierced Boadicea of a Potions Mistress. Even Cleo was at Hogwarts – probably dining on half of the Forbidden Forest by now, Severus thought, and smiled as he pushed open the door of his study. Ah. Solitude. He reclaimed his chair with a little sigh of satisfaction and set the corner hot-plate to glowing with a flick of his wand. Tea, and a little reading perhaps. It wasn't as if he was in any hurry to get back; Hermione was bound to work far into the night, tucked away in her little library bolthole, and comfortable as the castle guest-rooms were, he'd just as soon not get sucked into well-intentioned but inane catching-up with Filius or Minerva – or, Merlin preserve him, Albus. No, he'd just stay here and play bachelor for the evening. The kettle was on the verge of whistling; wonder if there's any carrot-cake left, Severus thought, and went to go and see. There was. Licking a stray dollop of cream-cheese icing from his thumb, he set down the cake plate on his desk and started over toward the kettle, tea-ball in hand. The kettle was shrieking. He turned off the burner, stooped to take the canister of loose tea from the cabinet under the hot plate, and found his eye caught by a stray bit of sparkle. Cautiously he edged the ring out from under the cabinet and picked off a bit of lint that had adhered to it. It sparkled serenely up at him, warming to his palm. Bill's diamond. What was it Linchpin had said? Get one of them out of the box and put it in a setting. Make her wear it. Which would have been all well and good, Severus thought, closing his hand over the ring and hauling himself to his feet. If he'd given it to her when he meant to … before she'd stormed into his study and insinuated her way into his lap, before she'd melted a little purple strip of remembrance across her tongue and taken back her memory with clutching, resolute hands. Back then, in the post-Obliviate days, a diamond might just have been a diamond – even coming from him. Now, he knew better. This thing won't end easily. And we can't help her if we don't know where she is. He hesitated for a moment, then slid the diamond into his pocket and took out the canister of tea. Later. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Forty-Three ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Hermione read until her eyes burned and the torches guttered, then fell asleep over her notes in the big comfortable armchair by the fireplace and didn't wake up until the house-elf – one she recognised from her schooldays; his name was Meech, if she recalled correctly, and he'd been particularly disapproving of S.P.E.W. – tapped her on the shoulder. He'd just built up the fire again and moved her scattered books carefully to one side on the table, to make room for a covered platter. The platter smelled like breakfast, Hermione thought, and rubbed her eyes ruefully. Must be morning. “Thank you,” she said. Meech bobbed a short bow, but didn't speak. Most of them didn't, really, come to think of it. Dobby was a renegade in more ways than one. Hermione wondered briefly where he was and what was keeping him, that he hadn't come to see her yet, then shrugged, uncurled herself from the chair, and stumbled over to inspect her breakfast. Rashers and eggs – the former crisp to breaking point, the latter sunny-side-up and goggling at her like bulging yellow eyes. Hermione pondered the thought of Transfiguring them into scrambled, which she much preferred, then decided it was too much trouble and ate them as they were. She was just pouring herself a second cup of tea when Sal came floating through the bookshelf, a Perluceoed parcel under his arm. “Morning.” “So I'm told.” She pushed the teapot toward him. “Have you eaten?” He eyed the remains of her breakfast with a skeptical eye. “I'll pass. Find anything interesting since we last spoke?” “Actually, yes.” Hermione pushed back her plate and reached for her notebook. “I wasn't getting anywhere with the hemisphere approach,” she said. “So I went back to the issue of memory.” “And?” She tapped the notebook with the flat of her hand. “And I've got a theory. Which will be put to the test the minute I've taken a shower and figured out a little bit more about the MRI scanner. I don't want to take the time to go into it now.” “Fair enough.” Sal nodded toward the ghostly parcel now floating a half inch above the table. “Jackpot,” he said. “Take a look, why don't you?” Obediently, Hermione drew her wand. “Finite Incantatem,” she said, wincing as the parcel retangibilised and thudded onto the table, causing her tea to redistribute itself over her breakfast plate, the majority of her notes, and the underside of her bare forearm. “Ow! This had better be worth it.” “Oh, it is.” Sal floated a little nearer. “Got to hand it to that Linchpin, she's a clever creature.” He frowned. “Maybe too clever.” Hermione, nursing her injured hand, rolled her eyes at him. “You just don't like goblins.” “You're expecting me to deny it?” He flicked his wand hand, sending the book's protective covering of oilcloth spinning across the table. “Read the whole thing last night,” he said. “And quite a tale it was, too. Bit of a disappointment in one sense, though.” Hermione was already peering at the tiny, crabbed French script. “How so?” “Well,” Sal said. “Couldn't have been the last log, could it? Otherwise it'd have been on the ship when it disappeared, and we'd never have gotten our hands on it in the first place. This one's an earlier log – just earlier, judging from the dates.” “So the voyage isn't listed here.” “No.” Sal lifted his wand slightly to turn another page. “But look at what is. Fascinating little route they've got here, and as regular as the Sunday papers, too. Operated out of the French port city La Rochelle.” “La Rochelle,” Hermione repeated. “I've been there – once, a long time ago. With my parents. Not much to it now – though we did go down to the Old Port, which was interesting.” She frowned at the page. “Well, if de Fondant wrote this himself, he must have had a quill like a scalpel. I've never seen such tiny writing in my life.” “I'll summarise,” Sal said drily. “La Rochelle's the principal port, but de Fondant made regular runs to Greenland, the Eastern border of what's now the U.S., and Mexico. But this—“ he flipped to the last page—“this is the most interesting bit of all. Look at the date.” Hermione did. “Christmas Day,” she murmured. “1308.” “Exactly.” “That's just a few weeks before Philip excommunicated the Templars and tried to raid the Treasury.” Sal rocked back on ghostly heels. “Can't get anything past you, can I?” He looked smug. “So. Take a look at that last page, and tell me where the ship was headed next.” Hermione scanned the page, hesitating now and again to puzzle over an unfamiliar word of French. “You're kidding,” she said finally, and heard Sal chortle. “Not on your life.” Alain de Fondant's final voyage, if his logs were to be believed, had been to Scotland. If the Templar treasure existed, it was buried practically in their own back yard. ** Tempting as it was to get sidetracked by pirates and Templar gold, there was business at hand. And if she didn't do it, nobody would. Hermione finished her breakfast, mopped up the puddle of spilled tea underneath her plate, and went to go find Neville. This wasn't difficult, as he was in the first place she looked: seated next to one of the narrow quilt-covered beds in the Longbottoms' private ward, feeding his mother porridge with milk and carefully wiping dribble off her chin between bites with a gaily printed tea towel. “Hi,” he said, flicking her a quick glance as she came in. “I'll just be a bit longer. I don't think she wants much more. And I've already done Dad.” “I need to talk to you about the MRI procedure.” Hermione cast her eyes about the sunny little room. “This may not be the best place. Some of it's – um, tricky.” “Oh. Right.” Neville poured more milk into the porridge before refilling his spoon. “Josie said you'd probably want to do that today. She was reading the manual that came with it, all last night.” He insinuated the spoon between his mother's slack lips and tipped the porridge out of it in a gesture both practiced and gentle; watching it brought a lump to Hermione's throat. “She wanted to talk to you about the whole thing, actually. Moved all her morning classes to after dinner, so she could help out.” “Oh – really?” Hermione blinked. “That's nice of her.” “Yeah.” Neville gave his mother's chin a last thorough dab with the tea-towel, kissed her unresisting forehead, and stood up. “She's in the room where Dumbledore's keeping it. I'll meet you in there in a minute, okay?” Joséphine was indeed already in the MRI room; when Hermione came in, all she saw was a pair of shapely stockinged feet, hanging out of its end. “Trying it out?” she asked, amused, and Joséphine came sliding out, braids askew. “Something like that.” She looked uncharacteristically grim as she clambered out of the tray, swept the manual off its side table and proffered it to Hermione. “Have you read this? ” Hermione nodded. “Once. I was going to go through it again before we started.” “Mind if I ask you a personal question?” “Mm.” Joséphine leaned closer. “How the hell are you going to get them to do it?” “Well, that's the thing,” Hermione said. “That's what I had to talk to Neville about.” “They've got to hold still,” Joséphine said, “for thirty minutes straight.” She consulted the manual, flipping madly through page after page until she found what she was looking for, and stabbed her finger at a paragraph. “There. There's a little red dot or something they've got to keep their eye on. I didn't see it when I went in, but that's because it wasn't turned on. But it's imperative that they don't move much of anything at all, for the whole half hour, and I'm not sure if either one of them can do that.” She slapped the side of the gleaming machine. “You heard this thing when it's turned on? It sounds like a rocket launcher on speed. Minute we turn it on, they're going to flip out.” “Silencing Charm?” “Would take care of the noise, sure,” Joséphine conceded. “But not the claustrophobia or the movement issue. Even people who are in their right minds sometimes have big problems with these things – let alone someone who doesn't understand, and can't be told.” She had a point. Hermione chewed on her upper lip. “Neville,” she said. “I was rather hoping he'd calm them down …” Joséphine was already shaking her head. “Maybe a little,” she said. “But he doesn't have any real control over them, Hermione. He does better than anyone else, but it's because he's so goddamn nice.” She lowered her voice. “Which I love him for. But I'm not so sure Slick's going to be an asset in this case.” “What do you mean?” “Too soft-hearted,” Joséphine said. “Think about it, chérie – what's going to happen the first time we fire this baby up? Frank's going to go spastic. And Alice …” She shrugged. “She'll probably wee herself, poor thing. And if I know Slick, which I do, the minute that happens he's going to shut us down and march them right back to that sunny little yellow sickroom. Where'll they'll stay, to the detriment of not only your research, but themselves as well.” Hermione considered this. “You're probably right,” she said. “So what do we do?” “Well,” Joséphine said, “that's the thing. See, I've got an idea.” ** By the time Neville joined them, they were deep in the middle of a trial run – Joséphine at the controls and Hermione staring up at the little red dot, sandwiched into the machine as neatly as the filling in an éclair. Apparently standard M.O. dictated that the subject of the test wear protective headphones, but they'd decided to experiment with the Silencing Charm instead. So far, so good. Staring at the red dot made her feel like she was developing tunnel vision, and her eyes felt dry, as if she'd forgotten to blink, but she wasn't otherwise uncomfortable. Joséphine had a point, though, she thought. The Longbottoms weren't going to like wearing that clamp on their heads. Or being shoved into this big, faintly-vibrating machine like a loaf of bread for the baking. And from the bevy of twitches and tics she'd observed in them just in the few instances they'd met, she wasn't at all sure they could lie still enough to let the scan work properly, even if whatever Joséphine had in mind could keep them from panicking. Which just went to show that she'd underestimated her friend's resourcefulness. “Everything okay?” Neville asked when she came sliding out a few minutes later. Hermione nodded and pasted on a smile. “Fine,” she said. “No worries. They're going to be just great.” He looked doubtful. “It's sort of – close – in there. Isn't it?” “Bigger than it looks,” Hermione lied, and shot Joséphine a warning glance. A moment later, the Potions Mistress had disentangled herself from the bank of controls on the opposite side of the room and was flowing toward them, oozing sensuality. Preoccupied as Neville was, he still couldn't help but watch her walk. “Hey, Slick,” she said, and leaned in for a kiss – brief, by Hermione's standards, but searing. “How was breakfast?” “Good,” he said, brightening. “They're getting used to the new room, I think. They ate a lot more today – both of them.” “Excellent,” Joséphine said, and draped one arm around his shoulder. “Don't look so nervous,” she said into his ear. “I was just over there at the controls, remember? This thing works like a charm.” “It looks like a torture chamber.” Joséphine arched a brow. “And Hermione looks like she's been tortured?” Neville bit his lip. “Well, no.” He was peering at the interior of the MRI scanner again. “But I can't imagine either Dad or Mum doing this. I think it's really going to frighten them.” “Neville, relax,” Hermione cut in, grateful to see that Joséphine already had him by the elbow and was dragging him gently back from the MRI. “Joséphine's going to give them some Calming Compound, just before. They'll be fine.” This was a lie, of course – anything that sedated the body would sedate the brain as well, and they needed the Longbottoms at full capacity for the scan. Still, it seemed to calm Neville down a little. “You're sure?” he said. “It won't upset them?” “They'll be just fine,” Joséphine repeated, backing him toward the door. “Look, Slick,” she said, sliding her hands up to his shoulders. “If anyone's going to be upset by this whole thing, I think it's you. Why don't you go ahead and bring in your dad, then go and wait with Alice until we're ready for her? If anything's going to get her panicky, it'll be not knowing where Frank is.” His eyes widened. “I hadn't thought of that.” When he was gone, Hermione let her breath out in a long sigh and sank into the nearest chair. “Whatever this plan of yours is,” she said, “I hope it works. Neville's not going to be happy if we send his dad back traumatised.” “Trust me,” Joséphine said. She was relaxed and smiling – one hand in her pocket, the other toying absently with the end of one thin braid. When Neville reappeared with his father in tow, she took Frank Longbottom gently by the hand and helped Neville settle him in a chair. “We'll take it from here,” she said, and kissed Neville swiftly, hard on the mouth. “Go make your mother comfortable. I'll see you in forty minutes or so.” For a moment after he was gone, neither of them said anything. “Well?” Hermione said finally. “What now?” “Hang on,” Joséphine said. “Give me a second. I've never done this before.” She swallowed hard, straightened her robes, and went over to kneel in front of Frank. “Sort of risky, when you put it in context,” she said. “But hey – all in the name of science, right? And Slick's worth it.” Hermione didn't like the sound of this. “Joséphine—“ she began. “What are you—“ But Joséphine had already raised her wand. “Hang in there, Dad,” she said, and took a deep breath. “Imperio!” Hermione's mouth fell open. ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Forty-Four ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ "Are you completely insane?" Hermione hissed. Joséphine just grinned at her. "Probably." "Merlin's jock strap, Joséphine. You can't just go around casting Unforgivable Curses on people! We're at Hogwarts!" "For a good cause, isn't it?" Joséphine pocketed her wand calmly and folded herself into a chair. "And calm down. If Albus was going to come rushing in on us for casting a little Imperius Curse, he'd have done it six minutes ago while I was still thinking about it. That man's got a positively eerie sense of prescience." Hermione ran both hands through her hair, gave Joséphine a fulminating stare, and dropped her face into her palms. She suddenly had a headache. "But it's illegal." "Seems to me you've done a fair bit of that yourself, in your day," Joséphine said, and had the effrontery to wink. "You wanna bake a cake, chérie, you've got to break a few eggs first. N'est-ce-pas?" Hermione was far from mollified. "That doesn't make it right," she said, wishing she didn't sound so much like the self-righteous little first-year she'd once been. How many times had she had this same conversation with Harry and Ron? And even back then she'd been able to see their logic, that was the hell of it - that however honorable it was to hold to the rules, there were always a million excellent reasons not to. "Plus," she said, raising a triumphant finger at this new thought. "We don't even know what Imperio does to the brain. It could skew the results." "Maybe," Joséphine said. "But I doubt it." She nodded toward the stack of books at the end of the table next to Hermione. "I read the same stuff you did, last night. Memory loss points to damage in the hypothalamus, right? Free will's a little trickier - far as I could tell, the Muggles haven't figured out which lobe to tickle to take away your personal autonomy. Seems to me that where the Imperius is concerned, we're looking at a little less physiology and a little more rock 'n' roll." She shot Hermione a sly look. "There is still such a thing as just pure magic, you know. All multi-million-dollar indications to the contrary." Hermione wasn't sure she bought this line of reasoning wholesale, but the clock was ticking and Neville would be back in less than half an hour. "Well," she said, "I guess we'll find out, won't we?" "That's the spirit." Joséphine unfolded herself from the chair and walked over to where Frank was sitting. "Hey, Dad," she said, and smoothed a wisp of flyaway grey hair back from his face. The look on her face made the tight lump in Hermione's chest ease a bit; flippant words aside, this woman was all tenderness now. "Bet you're feeling pretty good now, aren't you?" Frank Longbottom nodded. Joséphine smiled at him. "Good," she said. "Now I want you to do something for me, all right? Relax." "All right," Frank said. His voice had that hollow, slightly forced tone that Hermione remembered hearing from the late Lucius Malfoy half a lifetime ago, but his face looked strangely young and unlined, freed from the assortment of tics and twitches that generally plagued him. Looking at him, one got a glimpse of the Auror he'd been as a young man - but for the blankness of his stare - handsomer, younger, more like Neville around the mouth. Hermione thought of Bellatrix Lestrange, of what might have been If Only, and had to swallow a bitter rush of anger and regret as she moved forward. When she spoke, she didn't recognise her own voice. "What would have happened, do you think," she said, "if you simply asked him to remember?" Joséphine shrugged. "First thing they tried at the Ministry, I imagine," she said. "Once they figured out they were dealing with Crucio and not a botched Obliviate." She straightened Frank's collar with fond, deft fingers. "In retrospect, I suppose it's a good thing that they couldn't make him talk." Hermione blinked. "Why?" "Because if he had," Joséphine said, her dark eyes fixed and distant as she stroked Frank Longbottom's thinnning grey hair, "he'd have been dead years ago." She shook herself, caught Hermione's eye, and shrugged again. "Anyway. Are you ready?" Hermione hesitated, then nodded. "I'm ready." ***** "Severus? Severus, where the Hades are you?" Sal emerged from the outside cabin wall into Severus' study headfirst, looking - for a man who theoretically couldn't be out of breath because he didn't have any breath to begin with - remarkably harried. "Why are you sitting here in the dark?" he wanted to know. Then, taking a closer look: "Oh. Nice rock." "Thank you," Severus said. Sal ignored his tone of Heavy Irony. "Now - put it away, will you? We have to talk." Severus pocketed the ring, sucking his teeth with impatience. "Oh, we do, do we? And why is that?" "Because," Sal said. "I've figured out where de Fondant's final voyage ended." "Really." "Yes, really." Sal flicked his wand in the direction of the corner lamp to turn it on. In its brighter glow, Severus noticed for the first time that Sal had been carrying a stack of Perluceoed ledgers, which now tangibilised with a pop and thudded heavily to the desk, missing his elbow by a scant half-inch. "I knew it was Scotland from the ship's log," Sal continued. "But the rest of it's due to hard work or blind luck, I'm not sure which." "Luck," Severus murmured. Sal wagged a ghostly finger at him. "Don't be so sure. I've been halfway around the globe and back today for interviews. Cashing in favours with my fellow spirits, mostly." Severus smirked. "Whoever said 'dead men tell no tales' obviously didn't have your contacts." "Obviously," Sal said, and hovered expectantly above the desk in front of the stack of ledgers. "Well, go on then," he said, fairly vibrating with impatience. "Read!" Severus sighed. "You know you just want to tell me," he said. "So why don't you save me the eyestrain and put yourself out of your misery? " "But-" "Sal. Spill it." The old ghost looked sulky. "Spoilsport." "Now, Sal." "All right, all right." A dramatic pause. "It's just an educated guess, of course." "While I'm young, would you?" "Hush," Sal said. He was positively glowing, Severus thought - nothing illuminated Salazar Slytherin like the delivery of previously-withheld information. "From what I found out today, I'm fairly certain that the treasure is buried under - get this - Rosslyn Chapel." Severus blinked, surprised despite himself. "Really." "Would I lie to you?" Sal preened and settled himself in the middle of the desk. "It makes so much sense," he said. "And if we'd had any doubt about the Templars being up to their eyeteeth in the whole mess, this sort of clinches it, doesn't it?" "Mm. Looks like, doesn't it?" Severus, unable to resist any longer, flipped the top ledger open. It smelled like smoke, old paper, and the memory of mice. Lovely stuff. He peered for a moment at the tiny script, then pushed it aside in favour of conversation - this really was big news. "Well, then," he said. "You've been around longer than anybody else I can think of, and this is right up your alley. Who do we know who's connected to the Earl of Roslin and that ingenious little curse?" "That," said Sal, "is the thousand-rupee question." He was fidgeting with his wand, which was emitting tiny sparks of pale-grey energy. "I've been thinking about that most of the afternoon. Haven't come up with anything. Food might help - I'm starving." Severus lifted an eyebrow. "Is that possible?" Sal ignored him. "Is there any carrot cake left?" "No. I had the last of it for tea." Severus thought for a moment. "But if it's sweets you want, there are still some of those sugared pecans in the refrigerator." Sal made a face. "Sorry," he said. "Alain de Fondant's all the candied nut I need for one day, thanks ever so." Severus chuckled appreciatively at the pun, then froze. "Wait a minute." "What?" Sal, halfway out of the study, turned back at the doorway. "What is it?" he asked again. "You've gone dead white." "Candied nuts," Severus said slowly. Sal shrugged. "My little joke," he said. "You know - 'fondant.' It's Frog for 'candy'." "I know that," Severus snapped. "I'm way ahead of you - you're slowing down in your old age." "Hey." "Think about it, Sal." He pushed back his chair, pounded a fist on the desk with such force that his quill jumped in its holder. "Think about it. We're idiots, both of us - we should have seen this months ago. Who do we know with a surname that's a synonym for 'candy'?" "Merlin's balls," Sal said, and turned even paler than usual. "It's Fudge, isn't it?" LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Forty-Five ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ Fudge, the arch-villain. An odd thought, to be sure. On the other hand, now that Severus had thought about it for a moment or two, it was impossible to be too surprised. Self-styled Leader of the White Hats or no, it had long been clear to anyone with the eyes to see it that the agenda Cornelius Fudge promoted was generally his own. Still, being a self-serving prat didn't make you necessarily evil. “I wouldn't have thought him clever enough to pull off a stunt like this one,” Severus said under his breath, then added: “Wonder why he got involved at all?” “That's easy. Family, isn't it?” Sal had unearthed a tin of Danish biscuits au beurre from some previously-undiscovered cache in a far high cabinet of the kitchen, and was now systematically dunking them in his Perluceoed tea, one after another. Between the two of them, Severus figured they'd eaten half the tin in under an hour. “Well, yes,” he conceded. “If you're talking about the treasure, that is.” “Among other things.” Sal levitated another half-dozen biscuits across the table toward his own plate. “It's my guess that he inherited more than he'd bargained for, when he got his hands on the Templar treasure. You get the money, you also get the problems that came with it. Trouble is, it's hard to turn down one without giving up the other.” “True.” Severus considered this. “And in this case – seeing as it's Fudge we're talking about – I imagine that even if he had wanted to give up the treasure, he'd have been afraid to say anything to the goblins.” He licked sugar from his fingers. “He always was a little wanker when it came to other species, even back at Hogwarts. Didn't even like house-elves. How he ever managed to stomach an alliance with the dementors, I'll never know.” “To be fair,” Sal said, “Gringotts might have been just a tad cranky, when they found out exactly who'd been sitting on their missing millions for all this time. They've been looking for it for centuries, you know. And then, they're not the only ones – half the wizarding world and a fair number of Muggles have an interest in the Templar fortune. If I were a pudgy little number-cruncher who'd fallen up the ladder and found himself in this situation, I'd be a bit nervous myself.” Severus acknowledged the sense of this with a spare nod and reached for another biscuit. “Makes sense,” he said. “What I'm having more trouble with is the idea of Fudge as a hardcore supremacist.” “Really? Doesn't seem like such a stretch to me.” “Well, I can see how his sympathies might lie that way covertly,” Severus said. “Perhaps. But I knew Fudge in school, remember? And while he's not … thick … exactly, he is rather lazy. All this business about the Nameless account and the money-switching seems like too much effort to me – especially for a cause he doesn't support wholeheartedly.” “Well—“ “—And let's face it. If he'd supported it wholeheartedly, he'd have been a Death-Eater like the rest of th—“ he swallowed hard, “—I mean, us. And he wasn't.” “True enough,” Sal said. “But the Nameless account is a lot older than Fudge himself, right? And who had a better reason to hate Muggles than de Fondant, when their King and Church tortured and executed his father? Seems to me that he must have set that account up back then, once he'd buried his treasure and set his army of skeletons round to protect it.” “Army of skeletons?” Severus frowned, then brightened. “That's right – I remember that bit of the curse now. Used to be famous; there's even a poem about it somewhere. Irma probably has a copy in the Restricted Section ...” “Focus,” Sal ordered, wagging his finger from across the table. “Worry about the book later, all right?” “Right.” Severus took a swallow of now-tepid tea. “I do see what you're getting at,” he said. “You think de Fondant laundered a bit of the Templar money that he didn't bury, possibly through Les Choix, or through his pirating contacts, and used it to seed the Nameless account.” “Yes.” “And that the account, in turn, has been funding this series of assorted nasty little extremist groups down through the centuries.” “Makes sense to me,” Sal said. “Should be simple enough to check Linchpin's records and verify the dates, but I'll wager it all checks out. That sigil on the account – the one that first turned up in Sturbridge's autobiography – that's a Templar symbol if I ever saw one. No one else was nattering on about irrational numbers back then, that's for damn sure.” “So when Fudge inherited the fortune—“ “—that grim little bit of philanthropy had been going on for hundreds and hundreds of years,” Sal finished. “And it was easier for him to just keep the payments going—“ “—than to interfere, and risk making Gringotts curious.” “Exactly.” They stared at each other, then dropped their eyes and reached for the biscuits at the same time. “It's true,” Sal said. “Live together long enough, and you do start to think alike.” Severus grimaced; this was more accurate than he'd have liked to admit. “Now who's not focussing?” “Anyway. Rather brings us up to the matter at hand, doesn't it?” Sal cocked his head to the side. “I've got my theory, of course. But you go first.” “Well.” Severus sipped his tea, made a face, and muttered a Warming Charm at it. “After Phineas Sturbridge died without fulfilling any of his grandiose promises, the Knights of the Golden Wand all but disappeared. There was a brief violent resurgence in the forties, after which public outrage drove them underground again, not to be heard from until Tom Riddle took the reins.” He took another sip. “At that point, Riddle was – in the eyes of the Ministry watchdogs, at least – still just another fringe lunatic heading up a pack of similarly misguided imbeciles. Nothing special. With me so far?” “Mm.” “Until he got a lot more powerful than he was supposed to.” “Ha.” Sal nodded speculatively. “Well said.” Severus jerked his head in acknowledgement of the compliment. “You were in seclusion back then,” he pointed out, “but I wasn't. I remember Fudge from school and directly afterwards, and he was a Ministry sycophant such as hasn't been seen before or since. Puts Percy Weasley's little episode a few years back well in the shade.” He toyed with his teaspoon, his face going grim. “He might not have been far up the ladder at that point, but he certainly had aspirations for upper management – and Voldemort's rise would have been a real threat to that. There must have been Aurors investigating the Death-Eaters' financial situation – must have been; that's the way these things work. And if anyone had found out—“ “Ah. I see.” Sal peered into the biscuit tin. “Damn. No more sugar pretzels.” He hesitated for a moment, then turned away from the tin. “Possibly this would tie things up too neatly,” he said, “but somehow I doubt it. Could those investigating Aurors have been Frank and Alice Longbottom?” “It would certainly make sense, wouldn't it?” “I wonder what they found. And how.” “Not to mention,” Severus said darkly, “who was really behind their attack. In light of all this, I'm inclined to think it might not have been Voldemort at all.” He drained his tea, grimacing at the mouthful of soggy biscuit crumbs at the bottom of his cup. “Probably not even the Longbottoms would know that, though – even if Hermione does manage to restore their memories. Pity, too – because without hard evidence, we can speculate from here to the end of the world and still never put Fudge behind bars.” “Who would know, I wonder?” Sal frowned. “Bellatrix herself? ” Severus shook his head. “She had to know it was a doomed mission,” he said. “He was already gone by that time, or believed gone, anyway. She would only have acted on what she believed to be direct orders from him.” “You're probably right,” Sal said. There was an odd look on his face. “But there is one person who'd know, isn't there?” “There is?” “Oh, yes.” Sal's eyes were narrow, and he was grinning; he had that unholy glitter about him that always made Severus wonder if some of the more salacious Slytherin legends might not be true, after all. “At least one. I'll wager he knows everything there is to know.” Severus paled. “You're not thinking of—?” A long, shocked pause. “You are.” “And by now,” Sal said, “I'd be very surprised indeed if he didn't feel like talking.” ** LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Forty-Six ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ “You’re joking, right?” The three heads in front of her – jet-black, snow-white, pearl-grey – shook as one. Hermione sighed, leaned forward in her chair, pushed aside a pile of research so she could put her elbows on the table, and swiped her knuckles over her aching eyes. “This is insane, and so are the three of you. After all the trouble that … that creature caused – and it’s only sheer dumb luck that got him into the sapphire – you want me to deliberately let him loose again? I don’t think so.” “Under ordinary circumstances,” Snape said, “we’d be inclined to agree with you.” He exchanged a quick glance with Sal, as if to say: See? I told you so. “But if our hypothesis is correct, and Cornelius Fudge has been funding the Death-Eaters since their conception, then I think the risk is justified. It means the whole Ministry, or at least its governing body, is corrupt and has been for years—“ “—which of course we knew anyway,” Dumbledore cut in, “if you’ll pardon the interruption, Severus. But nothing has ever been proven, and no one’s been in the position to bring serious charges before now.” He fixed Hermione with that steady blue gaze (still strong and clear enough to make her forget that the rest of his face had aged fifteen years around it when she hadn’t been looking) and lifted a shaggy eyebrow. “Cornelius Fudge isn’t an evil man, I don’t think,” he went on. “But he’s a weak one, and sometimes that’s worse. And I won’t always—“ He broke off, and Hermione finished his sentence in her head: I won’t always be around to keep an eye on him. “Agreed, and agreed,” she said, wishing he didn’t look so thin-skinned and ancient. “But let’s not forget, this is Voldemort you’re talking about freeing. If this backfires, it could set us back fifteen years.” Her hands were cold, and she tucked them into her armpits to warm them. “You didn’t see him, back then,” she said, “but I did. And what I saw scared me. What’s to stop him, once he’s free, from slithering off and reforming his evil playgroup again?” “We are,” Sal said, looking rather pleased at the prospect. “Besides which, this is the right thing to do, Hermione. Don’t you want to know the truth?” “If she doesn’t,” Joséphine said from across the table, “I certainly do. But what makes you think he’s going to tell it the way it happened?” She shrugged. “I mean, being evil and all.” “I’ve thought of that as well,” Dumbledore said, and sent Hermione another searching Wedgwood stare. “All we need you to do is Release him, Hermione. We’ll take care of the rest.” Hermione thought for a moment, then nodded. “All right,” she said. “But if Voldemort’s going to walk us down Memory Lane, we shouldn’t be the only ones to hear it. Neville’s got too big a stake in this not to be there.” “I’ll get him,” Joséphine said, pushing back her chair. “Anybody else?” Hermione nodded. “Harry,” she said, careful not to meet Snape’s eyes. “If anyone has a right to ask questions, it’s him.” Nobody argued with her. * According to Sal, it would take a day or so to renew the Binding Charms on the dungeon room where they’d kept Malfoy. This suited Hermione just fine, as she and Joséphine had been up all night poring over the results of the MRI scans and hadn’t slept in nearly two days as it was. “Feel like we’ve gotten anywhere with this?” she asked now, stacking books into neater piles and gathering glossy photographs into a manila folder. Joséphine shrugged. “Sure,” she said. “We know what we don’t know. Good place to start.” Hermione laughed. “True.” “Tell you this, though,” Joséphine said after a moment. “It’s not just a matter of removing scar tissue, is it? There’re whole big chunks gone missing.” This was the truth they’d been trying not to talk about all night – the deep grooves and divots in the corteces of both scans, as if something malevolent had sprung its claws and raked great swathes of tissue from the outer surfaces of the frontal lobes. Prolonged intense pain could cause irreparable damage and scarring to the cortex – or so said the books – but this was something else entirely, or at least looked like it. Hermione sighed and pushed her chair in closer to the table. “We’ll figure it out,” she said. “Just not right now. I’m dead on my feet.” Joséphine hummed in agreement, paused at the door. “Get some sleep. You look wrecked.” “Thanks.” “You know what I mean.” “Yeah. I know.” Hermione glanced at her watch: six o’ clock. Dinnertime. The minute she stepped outside the library, she’d be caught up in the bustle and chatter of students headed to the Great Hall. There was a spot saved for her at the Head Table, she was certain. And the food would be excellent – rich, filling, far too much of it. Not tonight, she decided, and sat down on the little expandable chaise nearest the fireplace. Ah, that was better – the most comfortable bed she could remember, actually. There’d been more than a few nights, her first year or so in Egypt, when she’d gotten herself off to sleep thinking about this bed, this fire, this womb-like room that closed around her like an unblemished eggshell, warm and translucent and unbreachable. Meech the house-elf had brought in a tray of fruit and sandwiches earlier that afternoon, the remains of which were still on the coffee table next to the chaise. Hermione lay back, peeled an orange, and had barely finished it before sleep came tugging at her eyelids. Hands still sticky and fragrant with orange-oil, she closed her eyes and let herself fall. When she woke up, Snape was beside her. ‘Beside’ wasn’t the word, actually, as much as ‘on top of’ – he was leaning over her, one hand tangled in the short curls at the back of her neck, the other snuggled possessively into the dip of her waist. “Oh, did I wake you?” he murmured against her lips. She could feel him smiling. “How clumsy of me.” She shifted her head on the pillow – that’s funny, there hadn’t been a pillow there when she went to sleep – and did her best to muster a grumble. It came out a sigh instead. “I thought you’d gone back home. I didn’t think you’d come here.” “Funny thing about that,” he said, trailing his lips across her right cheek and pausing just near enough her ear to make the inside of her head buzz when he spoke. Hermione felt every erogenous zone on her body tighten and pulse. “All that warding tired me out – didn’t feel like making the trip, after all. I must be getting old.” The hand at her waist was sliding south, which made it hard to think. “You sweet-talker, you,” Hermione managed, and felt certain susceptible bits of her turn into pudding when he chuckled and nipped her earlobe. “Oh, that’s not the only reason.” “No?” “No.” Somehow he’d turned her head to fit more comfortably under his, slid those magic lips back to hers. “My bed in Montana’s covered in cat hair.” She’d almost forgotten, Hermione thought, how good it felt to laugh and be kissed at the same time. That clever bit of wizardry presently happening between her legs didn’t hurt, either. “And they say romance is dead.” “Do they?” He cupped the back of her neck more securely, twiddled the fingers of his other hand, and hummed in satisfaction as she writhed underneath him. “What do you think?” “I think,” she panted, “that if you want to catch up with me, you’d better hurry up.” He didn’t move. “Oh, you go on,” he said against her mouth, and sent her over the edge with his kiss and those clever guitar-pick fingertips. “Don’t worry on my account. I imagine I’ll be along later.” * It was funny, she thought afterwards, how careful they both were not to say the words, even while they picked each other apart at the seams – how even as he turned her inside out and threw himself after her, that the unspoken tenderness vibrating between them could feel so delicate, so sharp-edged and ephemeral. Too much happiness tempts the Fates, she remembered him saying, and had a brief clear-eyed vision of Bill, the last night he’d been alive, squeezing her hand in the darkness and yawning. Love you. Love you too. This wasn’t at all like that – or was it? “Lift up,” Snape was saying now (another funny thing – she might call him ‘Severus’, sometimes, but she’d forever think of him as ‘Snape’), and she felt something cool and smooth graze the small of her back, heard a muted click under the covers as he brought his hands together at her abdomen. “All right.” “What’s that?” she asked sleepily, and felt his arm snake around her shoulders. “Nothing. Sheets were rumpled, that’s all. Chafing me.” “Liar.” “Yes, well.” He didn’t budge. “Go to sleep. It’s late, and I’d rather like to be up and away before Potter and Weasley decide to come bursting in here at sunrise for a ten-year reunion.” She frowned into the darkness. “They don’t have a key.” “You’ll pardon me for my lack of confidence in that reassurance.” “Oh, for Merlin’s sake. You could at least try to be civil to them, after all this time.” “I could,” he agreed. “And a hippogriff could fly out of my arse and stay for afternoon tea, too. But I don’t think either of those things likely to happen.” She yawned. “You never know. Maybe we’d better tell Meech to bring up some extra scones, just in case.” “Go to sleep, Hermione.” “All right,” she murmured, and nestled a little closer to him. “But only since I haven’t got anything better to d—“ Silence. * LAST TANGO IN PARIS Chapter Forty-Seven ━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━ As promised, Severus was up and out of the little library cubbyhole before dawn, only to be hit with an overwhelming and somewhat novel lack of immediate purpose as he stood in the hallway outside the library, squinting in the dim light from the pair of torches around the corner. The corner itself was the same as ever - same ancient footworn flagstones, same beveled-glass windows in the door, same scarred wooden bench with a nick out of one corner where Peeves had dropped a suit of armor on it, Severus' third year at Hogwarts. For a moment, he just stood there and let the history of the place wash over him. Then he grimaced, shook himself, and headed for Dumbledore's office. As he'd expected, Dumbledore was in - and Sal was with him, both of them bending over the walnut-sized sapphire on the desk. "Ah, Severus," Dumbledore said, straightening up. "Lovely morning, isn't it?" "Not yet, it's not." Curious despite himself, he drifted over to the desk and touched the sapphire with the tip of one finger. "Nothing," he said, half-wondering. "You'd never know-" "Ah." "We thought the interrogation room in the dungeons'd be best," Sal said. He was using his wand to sift through the crystal bowlful of Bertie Botts' finest on Dumbledore's desk; a tiny rattling cascade of beans rose and fell within the bowl, pausing occasionally to hemorrhage a crimson bean into the pile by the ink blotter. "I only like the red ones," he said, looking up to find Severus watching him. "What?" "You know that the cherry ones and the cough-syrup ones look exactly alike, right?" "I'll take my chances." "You do live on the wild side," Severus said, and turned back to Dumbledore. "Have those rooms even been used since the last time we were in them?" "The house-elves are airing them now." "And there's no way he can escape?" Dumbledore hesitated, then laughed. The laugh was short and humorless and didn't sound like him at all. "I've found, Severus, that Fortune is tempted by the absolute," he said. He'd picked up the sapphire and was rolling it between his fingers like a worry stone. "Let's just say - it's unlikely." "Fair enough." *** As it turned out, Dumbledore required his assistance in a Potions capacity. Severus spent a pleasurable three-quarters of an hour in his former classroom, stirring a simmering cauldron and reviling the delicious Professor Dessources' lamentable organizational skills, then funneled the results into the cleanest bottles he could find - washed, he dared say, by him, back in the day - and lugged them down to the subdungeons. The house-elves had already aired both the cell where they'd held Malfoy and Sal's cozy adjoining suite, laying a fire in the latter and bringing in extra chairs to accommodate the expected crowd. There was coffee on the sideboard, Severus noticed. And Danish. He rolled his eyes, but didn't say anything - it was so like Albus to turn an interrogation into a tea-party that at this point it didn't bear mentioning. That new puppy they'd brought in to teach Defense against the Dark Arts was nowhere to be seen, he was pleased to say, but a thin grey-robed figure was already in the containment cell, methodically sweeping his scarred wand over the mortared cracks between the ancient stones. Remus. Severus set down his bottles, pulled out his own wand and stepped through the misty wall to join him. "Lupin," he said by way of greeting, and looked sideways at the disciplined line of pale-green sparks trailing out of his old schoolmate's wand. "What's that? Not a Containment Charm." "That comes later," Remus said, not looking up. "Over the top of this. Albus thought it likely he'd know how to counter it, so he wants a double layer of something else under it." He finished his row, dropped his wand, and turned to face Severus, surreptitiously shaking a cramp out of his hand. "I've almost finished. You've got the Veritaserum?" "I have." Lupin nodded. "It goes in those," he said, pointing to a row of cauldrons in the opposite corner. "Minerva's idea. She'll be along any minute to do the Transfigurations." "I'm here, Remus," Minerva said from behind his shoulder. She had the bottles of freshly-prepared truth serum tucked underneath one bony arm. "Severus. The pleasure's mine, I'm sure. Might I trouble you for a moment? We're behind schedule." Biting back a smile - there was a bit more grey in the hair, maybe, but otherwise she hadn't changed in the slightest - Severus followed her over to the row of cauldrons. "What's all this about?" he wanted to know. She shrugged evasively, suddenly irritable. "I've a nephew who married a Muggle, you know." He hadn't. "Oh?" "Silly girl. Bright but lazy. Lives in Yorkshire." "Ah." Minerva waved her wand at the empty cauldrons, which slimmed and heightened and squared off around the corners. Another wave, and Severus saw each of them sprout a false bottom, a foot or so above the floor. "I spend the holidays with them. Sometimes. They always ask, but I don't always go." "Does this charming little story have a point, Minerva?" She shot him a quelling glare, and Severus was surprised to see a faint tinge of pink at the apex of each aquiline cheekbone. "They haven't any idea what to get me as a gift, ever," she muttered. "Load of plastic nonsense, mostly. Or face cream, as if that's going to do me any good at this stage. But Albus was puzzling over how to get the Veritaserum into ... well, you know, into him, and it made me think of something Claudia sent me for my birthday last year." She produced a small plastic object from a deep pocket of her robes, and held it out to him. "Oh," Severus said. "I've seen those before." Actually he had one in the bathroom, back in Montana. It was a tiny bottle of scented oil that dripped into a motor-driven diffuser. They'd never been able to agree on the scent - Sal liked the apple-cinnamon, he the pine - and usually they ended up with the cinnamon, since Sal cared enough about the issue to cheat at Rock Paper Scissors, and Severus was generally too amused by this to protest. "Electric, isn't it?" he said now. "Supposed to plug into the wall." She tossed her head. "I'm not Professor of Transfiguration for nothing, Severus." True, he thought, screwing in the Veritaserum bottles to the top compartment of each cauldron and watching her set fan blades turning below it. Whatever else you said about her, Minerva McGonagall was still at the top of her game. "Careful with that, Minerva," he said now. "A minute more of it and we'll start being brutally frank with one another." She snorted, but stopped the fans all the same and turned her attention to creating vent grilles on the top and sides. "At this point, Severus, I'd welcome an excuse." He would have come back at this with some witty retort or other of his own, but she was busy turning her improvised diffusers into wall sconces, and he didn't want to disrupt her concentration. Besides that, Potter and Weasley had just come in. And Hermione was with them. *** They'd all been weeping, he saw at a glance - Ron and Hermione the most - and Harry had his arm round her protectively. For a moment, they might all have been schoolchildren again; he even got a jolt of the mingled annoyance and outrage that they'd always brought out in him. And then she looked up and saw him, wet-eyed and pink-cheeked and lovely as she'd ever been, and smiled, and the illusion was shattered. Real pleasantries, of course, were out of the question. For the sake of that smile, however, he forced himself to step back through the wall and walk over to them. "Potter," he said. "Weasley." They nodded. And then the four of them stood there uncertainly until Albus wafted over to them, beaming like an addled baby seal and brandishing the coffeepot. Ah, Severus thought. So that's why he ordered the pastries. Hermione squeezed his hand encouragingly. Behind her, he saw his erstwhile Potions replacement slip in, towing Longbottom with her like a besotted toy balloon. Remus and Minerva had finished their preparations. Severus watched Albus dig in his pocket and bring out a teardrop of shimmering ocean-blue, set it carefully on the floor of the containment chamber and murmur over it for a moment. He emerged with a serene look on his old face and a glitter in his faded eyes that didn't match. "Ah," he said. "Everyone has a seat, yes? Do try the cider doughnuts, they're particularly good today." He plucked one from the tray, sank into the armchair Sal had been saving for him, and took a bite. The room sank to stillness. "Remus," Dumbledore said. "Would you be so kind as to raise the barrier?" The wall of grey mist shuddered, then righted itself at a word, clear and hard as the heart of a diamond. From the other side, Severus knew, it looked as solid and stony as the other three. Albus took another bite of his doughnut. "Lovely," he said. "The diffusers, Minerva?" The candles in the four corners of the cell flickered to life, only the slight flutter of their flames betraying the movement of air beneath them. Severus caught Minerva's gaze and raised an admiring eyebrow. The corner of her mouth twitched. "Thank you, Minerva," Albus said, finishing his doughnut, and began to inspect his beard for crumbs. When he looked up again, he was looking at Hermione. "Miss Granger," he said. "I believe the floor is yours. Whenever you're ready." It wasn't until she dropped his hand to reach for her wand that Severus realised she'd still been holding it. The wand rose to the height of her waist, trembling slightly. Without thinking, he wrapped his arm round her waist, taking part of her weight onto himself, and felt her steady herself as she took a deep breath, then let it out again on a single charged word. "Libero!" A wash of blue light. The sapphire rocked and chattered on the stone floor. Lord Voldemort was free.